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I'm incredibly happy and honored to present my new ‘Unrequited Self Love Story’ LP!!! A 10 track album on a trip through finding your own true peace.
And I'm also out of words to be able to say that it's out now on my favorite label in this world @wearesilkenwood !!!
Really hope it makes you trip to somewhere inside yourself ;)

This album goes through the inner journey of realizing that nothing from outside yourself it’s gonna ever bring you peace.
For some reason, we all seem to disconnect from our most pure heart essence and try to look for that same thing outside. We try to recover that strength and confidence finding someone to love us, trying to achieve our goals and looking for succession; but none of those seem to work long term and we seem to feel even emptier and more sad at the end of the day, when everything is quiet.
We frenetically run from our shadow as much and as fast as possible even though the mind keeps calling our attention harder and noisier, till it finally takes over and we have no chance to ignore it any more.
Once we’re in front of our biggest fear, we still struggle to look at it face to face and we keep asking our gods for some guide; but even them tell us that we have to look at it straight into their eyes. So then we realize that apparently scary demon was just our inner kid being afraid of growing up.
We have to calm them then telling that becoming an adult is not that of a deal; it’s just the art of not giving a fuck about peoples opinion, making your own decisions and keep pushing no matter if you fail or if you get it! So we finally stop looking for anyone or anything! We finally realize that we’re just complete on our own! But to fully love ourselves we need to embrace our darkness, so that primary spark of love can come out again brighter and more powerful than ever, not negating its inseparable shadow. Its own dual nature. So that we can finally free fly by!

Art by my old time friend Zeppa:
https://adriancepa9.wixsite.com/portfolio

Stream it anywhere:
https://www.silkenwood.us/releases/tbb-usls

Unrequited Self Love Story LP (Out Now On Silkenwood)

Off of the first full release from Odelet and Everlasting Tape, The Angels Album.

The Angels Album

Man Oh Man

Relentless

Relentless (Radio edit)

Album analysis and review on Bustena:
https://bustena.wordpress.com/2024/05/21/un-album-electronico-unrequited-self-love-story/

I'm incredibly happy and honored to present my debut ‘Unrequited Self Love Story’ LP!!! A 10 track album on a trip through finding your own true peace.
And I'm also out of words to be able to say that it's out now on my favorite label in this world @wearesilkenwood !!!
Stream it anywhere:
https://www.silkenwood.us/releases/tbb-usls

This album goes through the inner journey of realizing that nothing from outside yourself it’s gonna ever bring you peace.
For some reason, we all seem to disconnect from our most pure heart essence and try to look for that same thing outside. We try to recover that strength and confidence finding someone to love us, trying to achieve our goals and looking for succession; but none of those seem to work long term and we seem to feel even emptier and more sad at the end of the day, when everything is quiet.
We frenetically run from our shadow as much and as fast as possible even though the mind keeps calling our attention harder and noisier, till it finally takes over and we have no chance to ignore it any more.
Once we’re in front of our biggest fear, we still struggle to look at it face to face and we keep asking our gods for some guide; but even them tell us that we have to look at it straight into their eyes. So then we realize that apparently scary demon was just our inner kid being afraid of growing up.
We have to calm them then telling that becoming an adult is not that of a deal; it’s just the art of not giving a fuck about peoples opinion, making your own decisions and keep pushing no matter if you fail or if you get it! So we finally stop looking for anyone or anything! We finally realize that we’re just complete on our own! But to fully love ourselves we need to embrace our darkness, so that primary spark of love can come out again brighter and more powerful than ever, not negating its inseparable shadow. Its own dual nature. So that we can finally free fly by!

Art by my old time friend Zeppa:
https://adriancepa9.wixsite.com/portfolio

Tracklist:
1.Loosing Heartsmission (Intro)
00:00 - 02:40
2.Unsettled Romance (Feat Hagrid Void)
02:40 - 07:30
3.Sad As Hell
07:30 - 11:58
4.Running From Myself
11:58 - 15:20
5.My Mind Is A Black Hole
15:20 - 18:14
6.Face It Or Die
18:14 - 21:40
7.You Gotta Grow Up
21:40 - 26:49
8.IDGAF If U GAF
26:49 - 30:49
9.By My Side
30:49 - 35:44
10.Flying By (Outro)
35:44 - 41:47

Unrequited Self Love Story (Full Album Mix) “Silkenwood release”

About the song: "This song talks about the paradox that commonly happens when you reach your top goals and achieve your biggest dreams; but somehow you start to feel even more empty than before and sad as fucking hell… Anyone?
Is it happiness overrated?
Does the end destination matter at all?"
-The Big Blind

Lyrics:
I’m sad as hell
Cannot even tell
Everything seems beautiful
But I can’t wring the bell
I can feel nothing at all
And I don’t know where to look for
I’m sad as hell
I feel under spell
I can see the river flows
But I can’t drop my tears
I wonder why am I here
But I can feel I’m getting near
I’m sad as hell
With my guys and bad as well
I was meant to be a happy boy
But I ran out of joy
I would just love to enjoy this
But I’m closing my eyes for peace
I don’t wanna dance
No time for romance
People just enjoy the wind
And party never ends
I would just try to pretend a way
But I’m not in the mood today
I’m sad as hell
Cannot even tell
Everything seems beautiful
But I can’t wring the bell
I’m sad as hell
Cannot even tell

Artwork/Visuals: adriancepa9.wixsite.com/portfolio

Follow The Big Blind:
Soundcloud: @the-big-blind
Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/6QwGrl6Xk…tnSXuh3XPwktk42Q
Twitter: twitter.com/thebigblindmus
Instagram: www.instagram.com/thebigblindmusic/

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The Big Blind - Sad As Hell

Artwork/Visuals: adriancepa9.wixsite.com/portfolio

Follow The Big Blind:
Soundcloud: @the-big-blind
Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/6QwGrl6Xk…tnSXuh3XPwktk42Q
Twitter: twitter.com/thebigblindmus
Instagram: www.instagram.com/thebigblindmusic/

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Web: www.silkenwood.us

The Big Blind - Loosing Heartsmision (Intro)

Lyrics:
I was looking at you and my eyes where smiling
I don’t need to see you to perceive this feeling
heartbeat high speed at the moment I met you
Cause the world stopped spinning
full meaning voice before and after words
When your skin touched mine I could hear the most beautiful chords
I could feel the love coming true
And my injures healing
With
Just a funny stare
I just feel the need
To take you away
To my altered plane
Where nothing is sane
So climb through the stairs
Let me take away
Make your ego fade
Let me take you with me
Don’t know if you agree
That you’re trying to hide from inside
You’re not that truly free
If you flow like the sea
But you have no borders to rest by
I’ve been taking my time
I’ve been holding my chime
I’ve been taming my mind
To finally find
That baby
I
Just want you to see
The world through my eyes
Come blind walk with me
Till this strong flame dies
I had to get off the ship
How could I have known that I
Couldn't take a breath in here
While you move around in bliss
I had to get off this place
Feel the earth with my own skin
It was fun to get to play
But you played it without me
With
Just a funny stare
I just feel the need
To take you away
To my altered plane
Where nothing is sane
Come climb through the stairs
Let me take away
Let your ego fade

Artwork/Visuals: adriancepa9.wixsite.com/portfolio

Follow The Big Blind:
Soundcloud: @the-big-blind
Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/6QwGrl6Xk…tnSXuh3XPwktk42Q
Twitter: twitter.com/thebigblindmus
Instagram: www.instagram.com/thebigblindmusic/

Follow Hagrid Void:
https://soundcloud.com/hagrid-void
https://open.spotify.com/artist/2GFTV7d0Cca55abNb0PFBj?si=0e467790b4b6489c

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The Big Blind - Unsettled Romance (ft. Hagrid Void)

Lyrics:

I’m running away
from that shit I say
To myself all day
But I came to stay
I’m not ok
But I love to play
This crazy game
Just to feel unchained
I feel insane
But I take the train
To a distan land
There is no demand
No demon’s voice
No diamonds choice
Only pure rejoice
Till it stops the noice
I’m running from myself
I’m running from myself
Run running and I can’t stop wondering
If I where faster will a scan skip my fingerprint?
Talking tinkles with the tong till simmering
And sing singing in the rain till I loose the train
I’m not Coltrane but I train to play well
And well, will you care if I swear to avoid pain?
A glass of champagne no paintings just poetry
I’m climbing the tree to pick the pictures I can’t see
I’m running from myself
I’m running from myself
I’m running away
from that shit I say
To myself all day
But I came to stay
I’m not ok
But I love to play
This crazy game
Just to feel unchained
I feel insane
But I take the train
To a distan land
There is no demand
No demon’s voice
No diamonds choice
Only pure rejoice
Till it stops the noice

Artwork/Visuals: adriancepa9.wixsite.com/portfolio

Follow The Big Blind:
Soundcloud: @the-big-blind
Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/6QwGrl6Xk…tnSXuh3XPwktk42Q
Twitter: twitter.com/thebigblindmus
Instagram: www.instagram.com/thebigblindmusic/

Follow SILKENWOOD:
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The Big Blind - Running From Myself

Only love can power Inter-dimensional travel

Table Top Universe

My Vimana

Come To Bed

I - Radio Edit

Spotify

the XXXIII

Ozarks Redemption

Neo Classical Trip Hoppin' Stylistic Beat Brain

Overturehead

Step into the vibrant world of 'Gaudium,' where beats pulse with joy and melodies dance with euphoria. This mix is a celebration of life's colorful moments, crafted to uplift and energize your spirit. 'Gaudium,' derived from Latin for 'joy,' encapsulates the essence of jubilation and exuberance. From infectious rhythms that compel you to move, to uplifting melodies that ignite your soul, each track has been meticulously selected to evoke feelings of happiness and bliss. So, let go of your worries, immerse yourself in the rhythm, and let 'Gaudium' be your soundtrack to a euphoric journey through sound.

Don't forget to hit that like button and share it with your music-loving friends.

Thank you for the constant support, and I hope you enjoy the musical journey of "Gaudium" as much as I loved creating it!!

Kenzie

Gaudium

Internet Killed Us

Blind producer, keyboardist, vocalist and electronic music composer.
Building some sound bridges between distant music worlds :)
Contact: thebigblindmusic@gmail.com

Unrequited Self Love Story LP (Analysis & Review On Bustena):
https://bustena.wordpress.com/2024/05/21/un-album-electronico-unrequited-self-love-story/

A blind producer? Like: Blind blind?
Yea! Shanti Vega AKA The big blind barely sees and he makes music with a frenetic talking computer!!! How the hell he does it? IDK ask him…
With a jazz piano training, a classical music background and a soulish passion for electronic music; this artist brings a take on the EDM scene that incorporates elements from all genres, but being none of them at all.
Based in Spain; he shows quite a versatile career as a keyboardist and producer; oscillating from all kinds of electronics to pop & rap vocals, acid bebop soloing, smooth jazz piano arrangements or even all improvised Avantgarde music.
He also leads The Big Blind Trio: A band project that covers from the roots of blues and modern forms of jazz to electro-acoustic arrangements for the electronic music pioneers such as Koan Sound, Haywyre or Savant:
https://youtu.be/1raoZx-1Pr4
He made his first appearance with his ‘Looking For Soundland’ project in 2019: A record conceived as a film without image; and then focused on studying the professional jazz piano degree in the EMC in Madrid; earning experience as a live performer in varied formats like ambience smooth jazz for background in formal events, jazz fusion dance bands, big band, duo comping singers and even leading his own jam session (The big Blind & Friends) as the resident musician. He also participated as a keyboardist and arranger for studio recordings with projects like The Estupendos or Chris and the Beats.
After finishing his studies in 2021: He got more serious into producing. Getting to work on the music for some of the most promising Spanish artists like Edna Free, Sol Bontempy, Paraíso Calero or Granuxi; while continued his personal experimentation with diverse electronic genres.
In 2023, he signed his debut album release with the brand new emerging label @wearesilkenwood with a whole vocalist project himself: His Unrequited Self Love Story LP! A full length album that oscillates from the hardest forms of bass music to the mellowest harmonies. And he came back on the label with his Funny Money EP in 2024: A country/dubstep/cinematic/jazz record??? Whatever hahaha...
He have been also seen on other well known labels of the underground such as @intrinzic-music, @phono-records & @novelchapters

‘My biggest goal in music is to fuse the sound possibilities of electronics with the freedom of jazz improvisation, the transcendence of classical music, the easiness of pop, the punch of hip hop and maybe also the rage of rock? Who knows where this journey will take me hahaha... Wish me luck!

Discord: thebigblindmusic

Unrequited Self Love Story (Full Album Mix) “Silkenwood release”

The Big Blind

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