In August 2019, a close friend of mine passed away from an overdose. This song is a portrait of the grief I and those close to her experienced in the aftermath. Rest in Peace Antonia, it would've been your 22nd tomorrow (4/23). We miss you, and we won't forget you and your strength in the face of adversity.

Updated October 2021

Lyrics

She was alive, 
She was loved, she was alive. 
It's not right, she was alive
Help me dye my hair, cause she was alive
She was alive, alive

Hold on my friend you weren't supposed to leave yet
Cause you had so much more to live for
And so much to give, an absence of forgiveness
From those of us that you had adored
And how could I expect to outlive you
Even if you didn't make it to twenty-two
What the hell are we supposed to do
(What the hell am I supposed to do / You did whatever you wanted to)

Of all my old sins that you forgave
You helped me believe I was worthy of being saved
But then I paved a distance from your new path
Creating space and time to lose track

The wicked traps placed, illness you succumb
I wished to document how far we had come
Wasted saturday night. in the morning you're gone
Now I'm required to sing this song

(Theres not enough narcan left inside. I will pay for leaving you behind)

I should've found you in the night
I had no idea where you were when you lost your life
These words should not exist
You are dearly missed
Antonia
You are dearly missed

The one who forgave my transgressions
Who rebuked me from deep within
(There's not enough Narcan left inside)
Who gave me a chance to grow has departed
(I will pay for leaving you behind)
The casual smirk and deceptive grin
The unrequited assurance
(Beautiful perfect scum of your design)
That began the change of of everything I know
(A family of idiots must survive)
Restarted

She was alive
She was loved, she was alive
I'm not fine. She was alive
You should reconcile cause she was alive
She was alive, alive

So what will I do with this pain of mine
Confusion overwhelming inside
I could've sworn all my friends were forbidden from dying
Forbidden
Forbidden

Seeing your name on street signs fills me with anguish
Speaking your fate aloud feels like hearing a lie
(This cant be true, this can't be true)
This is impossible, improbable in our timeline

Some nights after you died
I reached over ninety-thousand miles in my car
And I didn't even notice
I couldn't cause I was too busy 
driving slowly around the suburbs that we both grew up in
And screaming in disbelief

(Reveal those positive angel minutes)
Did all that make-up hide your pain inside
(And we'll revel in those positive angel minutes to the end)
Shelter us all from the burden you resolved to bear alone
(Reveal those positive angel minutes)
Did all that make-up hide your pain inside
(And we'll revel in those positive angel minutes to the end)
We all admired what was on the surface, concealer sealing away the unknown

The one who forgave my transgressions
Who rebuked me from deep within
(There's not enough Narcan left inside)
Who gave me a chance to grow has departed
(I will pay for leaving you behind)
The casual smirk and deceptive grin
The unrequited assurance
(Beautiful perfect scum of your design)
That began the change of of everything I know
(A family of idiots must survive)
Has restarted
Cause she was alive

Sorry I Passed Out And Just Woke Up, I Need My Sleeps (She Was Alive)

Just another short cover
IT'S NOT A PHASE, IT'S A LIFESTYLE!

Dear Maria, Count me in

†FAIRYTALE† 
TRACK 1: growth & inevitable loss

lyrics:
Look at the photos of you and me
We had everything everything
Somehow time passed too fast
We lost everything everything
Take me back to the old time
Take me back to the old house
Fought with me about that burning couch
Nothing matters now
I don't wanna lose you
I don't wanna miss you
I don't wanna do you like that
I don't wanna do you like that

When everything falling apart
I falling apart then
I praying to god
Don't take my light away
I don't want jump out the building now
I wanna live but all alone how
When everything falling apart
I falling apart then
I praying to god
Don't let me burn away
You showed a miracle
Begging for twice or third

I don't wanna lose you
I don't wanna miss you
I don't wanna see you like that
I don't wanna do you like that
I don't wanna miss u like that
I don't wanna lose you
I don't wanna miss you
I don't wanna see you like that
I don't wanna do you like that
I don't wanna lose you like that

Look at the photos of you and me
We had everything everything
Somehow time passed too fast
We lost everything everything

So take me away from all the pain we have
I don't wanna care just rip my heart out
take me away from all the pain we have

I don't wanna lose you
I don't wanna miss you
I don't wanna see you like that
I don't wanna do you like that
I don't wanna miss you like that
I don't wanna lose you
I don't wanna miss you
I don't wanna see you like that
I don't wanna do you like that
I don't wanna lose you like that

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2001(prod.metlast)

Bad Luck. - "ROY"
From their album "Summer Of Pain"
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Lyrics: 

Here’s to feeling like an idiot
And fucking looking like one too
Gave the same goodbye to every lie
Cause they’re old and you knew
When you take it too serious
Giving up is what you gotta do
For a break come on you need them a lot
When you know that you’re through

Living a life to fucking work a job
Stay up watch TV all night long
No joke, that’s how it goes

When you feel like catching up with me
Fucking off is what you gotta do
It’s a joke come on I tell them a lot
For the worse tell the truth
When I took it too serious
Giving up was what I had to do
For a break come on I need them a lot
You know that I’m through
When you’ve gotten used to

Living a life to fucking work a job
Stay up watch TV all night long
No joke, that’s how it goes
I’m just a guy who fucking loves his dog
I can’t take pills so I smoke pot
No joke, that’s how it goes

It’s how it goes
And it’s no joke

I heard you really thought I sold drugs, I helped my friends do it once and just cause
Utah made me think that acid was cool
I bet you think I’m still throwing up well guess what I never was, what you thought
But you’re always right so why not accuse?
I’m glad I got that shit covered up, I hope it drives you fucking nuts there’s no god
Well at least not for satan themselves
It feels like we thinned out the blood but I’m good to go cause there’s no point
In me hanging to just

Peak your interest
What’s the difference?
Yeah fuck you
Try something different

Bad Luck. - "ROY"

Rules, Hearts, Bones

To whom it may concern
Thanks for the memories
They say you live and learn
Despite memories
No one escapes their wrath
They always seem to find
The footscript
That bring em back
To our broken pride

Rules. Hearts. Bones.
Time heals all wounds

Rules. Hearts. Bones
Were made to be broken
You're alone
From birth to death
Time will heal
Every painful second
Everything will fade away

The time has arrived
We can't feel alive
By living life the way you decide
We've learned from our mistakes
We'll choose the path we take

It's our life
Our death
Our choice

Rules. Hearts. Bones.
Time heals all wounds

Rules. Hearts. Bones.
Were made to be broken
You're alone
From birth to death
Time will heal
Every painful second
Everything will fade away
Someday

What doesn't kill us makes us!!!

WE ARE THE!!!

First ones to let fists fly
Flippin' coins to see who drives
When the word "friends"
Just won't apply

We're few
But we're true
We're fuckin family
We're not perfect
But we give 'em hell
Break bones and bleed
Together

Rules. Hearts. Bones.

DD  4 Rules Hearts Bones

Smalltime

Seen enough to know
I ain't seen it all
But I've seen enough of you
You set yourself up for the fall
Here comes your payment due
Carve up your fuckin line
Convince the ignorant
But don't ever turn your back 
On the kids that help pay your rent

You're fuckin smalltime
You're just a fuckin fraud
You're fuckin smalltime

The truth will be
So hard to see
That's just the way it goes

Then you will
You will see
The truth behind your bullshit
You'll realize that you've become
Something that we despise

What have you done?
With all your time
That makes you 
Irreplaceable?

Cuz the music's so popular
To the of the world
Generates the biggest fuckin "Rock Stars"
No matter what they've sold
I thought this was about the music?
Not about your fuckin cut
I thought this was about the music?
Not about your fuckin cut

You're fuckin smalltime
So what the fuck ARE you about?
You're fuckin smalltime
Fuck you
Fuck all your "worth"

DD  3 Smalltime

2 middle-aged men looking to have some fun and get some trail mix :)))  (jk)

*Vocals on "It's You" by Jack Chadwick of Casually Nothing (He's pretty epic check him out)
All instrumentals by Sal (Epic) and vocals on "As You Would" and "The Power Drill" by Sal also (WOW!)

Happy Listening! :))

As You Would

Lyrics:

For the first time in my life. 
I’m at a loss for words. 

There’s nothing I could say now.
That would mean anything.

Suspended in disbelief.
The air heavy to breathe. 

Her face drained of its color.
Her eyes a crimson red. 

Tears fall down.

What am I meant to do? 
How can I help you mend? 

When nothing can bring back.
Everything that we have lost.

Feeling weak and helpless.
And drowning in our grief. 

Praying for some relief.
But it falls on deaf ears. 

(You seem so pensive. 
And alone. 

Please don’t shoulder this.
On your own.

Together we’ll share. 
All the weight.

Destiny is what.
We create.)

Gone is the future. 
That we could have had. 

Down in the ether.
With all our sorrows.

New despondency.
Begins to surface. 

There’s nothing I wouldn’t do. 
To see you. 
Smile again.
Be free from this.

There’s nothing I wouldn’t do.
To see you. 
Smile again.
Be free from this.

(You seem so pensive. 
And alone. 

Please don’t shoulder this.
On your own.

Together we’ll share. 
All the weight.

Destiny is what.
We create.)

Let’s not be distant.
Let’s not be distant.
Let’s not be distant.
Let’s not be distant.

Life, Love, And Loss Part 1: Ragnarok

Snow (Alone In December)

far away but ur still there...
working on an album rn. this finna be the intro, i suppose.

moonlight demo

i tried something diff,,,, n its out on all platforms <3
Spotify:
Apple: https://music.apple.com/ca/album/six-feet-deep-in-sorrow-single/1580579571
prod. Barstow
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCbf1-hY2WeioWNQBWAoB-cA
mix n master. Zonex
https://www.youtube.com/c/ZonexBeats

six feet deep in sorrow [prod. Barstow]

Chef. Comedy. Poker. Hardcore. Tamales. The Fugees. Groupon Bronco. Horror Show #919 #310 ❤💙💛

DD 4 Rules Hearts Bones

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