The Bedlam in Goliath

Agadez (Album Version)

The Mars Volta

Blank Condolences

The Requisition

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Learning Me Again

[Verse 1]
Woke up late, forgot to eat,  
A shadow standing on my feet.  
Mirror don’t reflect my name,  
Same skin, but it don’t feel the same.  
I used to dance just down the hall,  
Barefoot, bold, ten feet tall.  
Now I freeze when silence speaks,  
Counting seconds, losing weeks.

[Chorus]
I don’t feel like myself anymore,  
Like I left her crying behind that door.  
She was sunlight, full of fire—  
Now I’m ashes dressed in quiet attire.  
I wear the face, I fake the grace,  
But I miss her laugh, her fearless pace.  
I don’t know where I started to fade…  
But I’d give it all to feel her again.

[Verse 2]
My friends don’t ask the heavy stuff,  
And I don’t tell them when it’s rough.  
I learned to joke, to spin, to cope,  
To wear mascara and give up hope.  
I used to write in purple pens,  
Now it’s deadlines, bills, and “depends.”  
I used to sing like no one heard—  
Now I choke on every word.

[Chorus]
I don’t feel like myself anymore,  
Like I left her crying behind that door.  
She was sunlight, full of fire—  
Now I’m ashes dressed in quiet attire.  
I wear the face, I fake the grace,  
But I miss her laugh, her fearless pace.  
I don’t know where I started to fade…  
But I’d give it all to feel her again.

[Verse 3]
Sometimes I hum a melody,  
And think she’s humming back to me.  
Like if I sing it soft enough,  
She’ll crawl back through all this stuff.  
There’s a photo in a dusty box—  
Eyes that spark before the loss.  
If I ever meet her in this haze…  
I’ll hold her close, and let her stay.

[Bridge]
Beneath the noise, beneath the mask,  
There’s still a girl I didn’t ask—  
To wait this long and still believe…  
But today I felt her breathe.

[Chorus]
I don’t feel like myself no more—  
But I just cracked open that old door.  
And in the quiet, I heard her hum,  
Like sunlight breaking through the numb.  
I wear the face, but now with grace,  
And feel her strength in every place.  
She never left — she lived within…  
And now I’m learning me again.

I don’t feel like myself anymore,  
Like I left her crying behind that door.  
She was sunlight, full of fire—  
Now I’m ashes dressed in quiet attire.  
I wear the face, I fake the grace,  
But I miss her laugh, her fearless pace.  
I don’t know where I started to fade…  
But I’d give it all to feel her again.

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The Mars Volta

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