The Haunting (demo)

This Time We're Broken (demo)

The Size Of Kansas (demo)

1913

christina, christina
where did you go?
In the mists of your time
for all that i know

Christina, christina
who did you love?
in-between the wars 
what a life to have known

and it's crazy to think 
You're still beautiful too
as my bright brittle lights
do their best to presume

what i can only imagine
a century ago
when the breeze crossed the channel
to the rocks in the cove 

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the salt in the sea
feel the sand between your toes
And your bright red dress
and your pre-raphaelite pose

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christina, christina
where did you go?
I'm lost in my time
And i don't want to know

'bout the hollowed out hearts
and this day and the age
of the desperate and lonely
invisible cage

You're long gone for sure
if you were here at best
But i can love your ghost
in the hooded red dress

What did you think in the moment 
frozen on the beach
As the soldiers we're marching
into the breach?

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the salt on the sea
feel the sand between your toes
And your bright red dress
and your pre-raphaelite pose

i taste the salt of the sea
feel the sand between your toes
And your bright red dress
and your pre-raphaelite pose

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1913 Vocal Demo

Vanessa

Vanessa please listen to me
i've tried so hard to make like i'm happy here
Honey i know it's never been easy
mining the day to day with my restless heart

While i substitute my love for a picture of

Blue, a picture of night a picture of you and me superimposed on a picture of white

Vanessa please understand me
We talk and we talk but the words are a mystery
to the truth behind the eyes that plead so desperately
pinned to the wordless air

where i substitute my love for a picture of

Blue, a picture of night a picture of you and me imposed on a picture of white

Vanessa Vocal Demo

Amphetamine 
I don't think you understand 
How I've been looking to walk away

Amphetamine 

while you take me by the hand?
Take me away from this hollow place

Amphetamine.....

I am lost I am lost in a dream
In a dream that I thought could be me
And I am tired 
And I don't know why
I made the choice to collapse and collide with

Amphetamine….

With a host of friends around me and I still can't find a way
With diamonds on my feet and a heart made out of clay
I never wanted to hurt you darlin
But I just can't seem to find a way through the day, Anyway

Amphetamine….

And now i know
you have opened up my eyes
and let the rain come in through every open pore
and it seems
you have changed the way i am 
i'm not the same guy that i used to be before

before amphetamine



Amphetamine (full band version)

blood

I've seen blood through the vein and through the night
I've seen you scream and rage by the cold morning light
I saw them try to speak as they turned to walk away
Saw the blackest night turn to the warmest, brightest day
I saw the stations of the cross
And the lines in the sand
I held you broken and shaking and crying in my hands
I saw your pain drawn in the lines across your face
Your blood on my hands but I'm half burnt by the grace

I saw the hell that we bring and the devil making his play
I saw the truth and the lies and the lifeblood slipping away
I saw the glass on the floor as the mirror told me to stay.
I man looking back at me now but a boy left to find his own way
I saw you die a hundred times before my eyes
I saw the truth and the consequences and the desperate lies
Now I feel the cold these days and I hope to god it's the last
How the hell do we get through the years when we're so fucked up by the past?

I've seen faith in trembling hands in the whisper of dawn
I've seen faith in a woman who stood up when a man would still crawl
But I couldn't think like a man with this poison running through my veins
I still don't know if a man's what I am but maybe there's something still remains?
I've seen faith in the space, in the air after a telephone call
I've seen faith when i thought I was lost to the dark of it all
I've seen blood on my shoes and on my clothes and on my mind
I've seen your blood and I heard you scream and I think I know why..

Blood (full band version)

No Broken Wheel

someone is getting the best of you
but me I'll sit and drink this summer wine
someone is taking the years from you
and you're a song that i've been writing my whole life

Someone is seeing you in your quiet hours
Me, I would be happy with just one
someone is bleeding your heart dry
My heart has only begun

carving a strange cross upon your heart with the precision in the rhythm of a drum

But you ain't no broken wheel
and you ain't nearly done
You ain't telling me or showing that 
he's the only one

Sometimes you really hate to go back on home
Sometimes a thought is all that it takes..
And there are sometimes when home is so much more alone
And there are sometimes the heart will only break

carving a name inside your mind like a decision with the precision of a drum

but you ain't no broken wheel
and you ain't nearly done
You ain't telling me or showing that 
he's the only one

maybe you're caging your mockingbird
maybe you're clipping her wings

someone is stealing the life from you
a little piece at a time every day
someone is pulling the breath from you
one day there'll be no more reason left to stay

carving a name across your heart like an incision in the rhythm of a drum

but you ain't no broken wheel
and you ain't nearly done
You ain't telling me or showing that 
he's the only one

but you ain't no broken wheel
and you ain't nearly done
You ain't telling me or showing that 
he's the only one

No Broken Wheel (full band version)

I don't even mind 
At least I think I don't
The itch beneath my skin
Was all she wrote
Of a faded painted name
of another girl
That always seems to leave a trace 
No matter where I go

I've had my share of broken hearts to call my own
So Maybe it's just my turn to be a stepping stone 

It impossible, a chance 
But then sometimes you break
And there are days when you just dance
And days you lose your faith
Maybe it's just that I 
have to give and not to take
Maybe I'll keep the picture
Of your pretty face,

Or Maybe I'll call you later on the telephone
Or maybe it's just my turn to be a stepping stone

Maybe I'll make you mine or maybe i'll just let go..
Or maybe it's just about time I was a stepping stone

Maybe I'm just a part of you that helped you to know
And maybe it's just my turn to be a stepping stone..


Stepping Stone (demo)

I played the role of John the Baptist
While you sat there and did my taxes
You looked up and said
Baby, we might not make it through
 
You called my bluff like a dealer grinning
An upturned car with wheels still spinning
People drove past watching us like animals in a zoo
 
From the last days of disco when my heart was young
To the money that you gave me when I was on the run
I know I wouldn't be alive if not for you
 
You found me shaken in days of worry
And I was always in some kind of hurry
You and me just never could align
You gave me your love and I attacked it
You said your peace than you grabbed your jacket
You and me, forever one step behind
 
You always liked me from force of habit
You pulled at me like I was elastic
You said Baby, you're the only one to me that's true
 
Times were dark with your mom's departure
Maybe I made that darkness darker
Or maybe we just both arrived too soon
 
We circled the wagons as they swarmed from the east
I confessed all my secrets as we prayed for release
We knew damn well what those Apaches could do
 
You found me shaken in days of worry
And I was always in some kind of hurry
You and me just never could align
You gave me your love and I attacked it
You said your peace than you grabbed your jacket
You and me, forever one step behind

The Maybys