ooooo

chill on me abt the singing i didnt use autotune so itd give a more 'raw' vibe
i debated posting this on main but, the instrumental i made meant a whole lot to me and i dont think anyone else might feel it as much as i do it prolly js sounds lame but adding lyrics n sum stuff made me feel like idk just back to what i felt like then bleh
--- lyrics ---

if i could id fly real high
make my way up to the sky
even when i want to die
its nice to have fun sometimes


 life can be such misery
i couldn’t move and couldn’t speak
i saw the darkness and my ceiling 
every day feel the same feelings
....
i think now i understand
that when your soul is hollow and
all you can think about is death
don’t be surprised when you are left

so now i know i’m gonna die
i throw my flag, i wipe my eyes
and though i know, soon’s my demise
its still nice to have fun sometimes :)

if i could id fly real high
                         (sometimes…)
make my way up to the sky
                               (one day…)
even when i want to die
                              (always…) 
its nice to have fun sometimes!

..

knowing that you’ll die tomorrow?
what’d you like to do today?

once you take your pills and swallow,
you can’t get up anyway.

its nice to have fun sometimes! (prod pupsies)

do not think of me as a human being any more, i know what i really am to those i give all my love to. i hope everyone is happy living a better life and no longer needing me, throwing me away. if i didn't know any better i would just kill myself already since i see how much i am worth to you and people like you.

islacooper_erts on ig - cover art

--- lyrics ---

ill never be a kid again, 
you can’t keep saying “next — year,” 
all i ever did was try to love
keep living through my tears 
i can’t become an adult
i know im emotion’lly stunted
i feel apathetic, 
sometimes think im on a watch list

i keep looking at the people ‘round me, wonder what they think
picturing my head smashed into brick, your faces make me sick
you’re all liars, fucking fake
you’re living lost, not knowing
blind, and never seeing
i’m invisible, don’t know me.

it’s hard to even go outside, resentment building every day
unconditional has conditions no matter what they say
there’s no good that you could do to ever change somebodies mind
you are fucking worthless, give it up, chasing, why won’t you die?

so desperate for attention that you believe every lie
blowing up in anger ‘cus you’re naive, knew they’d say goodbye
it’s the only thing that makes you feel like you’re even alive
so pathetic
fucking weak
i hate you
someone tell me why..

i live life waiting for the moment everything will turn black how much more time do i have to wait until i finally can go back?
 you know i’m not human really when i peel off all my skin you could never love me fully loving everything within

it’s been this way every day long as i can remember
am i just hallucinating why cant you all see it? 
you cant love me as i am, — so you all try to reason
you can’t even hide your hatred for all of my being

do you hear this all the same?
i keep listening to my own music, every song in the same day — — i got my life on replay
i got my life on replay
on replay
on replay 
on replay 
on replay 
on replay 
on re-

ill never be a kid again, 
you can’t keep saying next — year, 
all i ever did was try to love
keep living through my tears

i can’t become an adult
i know i’m emotion’lly stunted
i feel apathetic, 
sometimes think i’m on a watch list

ill never be a kid again, 
you can’t keep saying next — year, 
all i ever did was try to love
keep living through my tears

i can’t become an adult
i know i’m emotion’lly stunted
i feel apathetic, 
sometimes think i’m on a watch list

do you hear this all the same?
i keep listening to my own music, every song in the same day — — i got my life on replay
i got my life on replay
i got my life on replay
on replay
on replay 
on replay
on replay 
on replay
on re-

stepping stone stepping stone stepping stone stepping stone stepping stone stepping stone stepping stone

instrumental: @bloodsekai
vocalists: @bloodsekai + @vedbend + @yukisasayaki

halloween inspired song from last month, please enjoy to your desire. (sorry for the lack of uploads, i've been making too much music and not finishing any of it...)

--- lyrics: ---

i spent several days
talking to myself
when'd i get this way?
how do i get out of this dream?

empty syringe, my room swaps places
eyes move around, i'm too stimulated
look in the mirror, my heart starts racing
don't recognize my face, i'm a monster now
i spent several days
talking to myself
when'd i get this way?
how do i get out of this dream?

was it always this difficult to think?
what's different now, is it me or the mirror?
i imagine the greys and blacks within
turned me into a freak, a monster that just cries and weeps

empty syringe, my room swaps places
eyes move around, i'm too stimulated
look in the mirror, my heart starts racing
don't recognize my face, i'm a monster now

(i spent several days
talking to myself
when'd i get this way?
how do i get out of this dream?

+ layered with vedbends part)

i try to run away
i couldn't move at any pace
as tears fall down my face
my teeth are falling out
i guess i'll drown inside my doubts
i always cry and pout 

empty syringe, my room swaps places
eyes move around, i'm too stimulated
look in the mirror, my heart starts racing
don't recognize my face, i'm a monster now
i spent several days
talking to myself
when'd i get this way?
how do i get out of this dream?

carve out my eyeballs treat me like a pumpkin
rip my guts out baby i feel nothing
u wanna put me on display i guess thats something
i'm a puppet baby put me on your strings
ur always in my head like the axe in my skull
but u always want me dead i'm so fucking tired
baby pass the pliers
i'll dismember my body n ill put it onto wires

empty syringe, my room swaps places
eyes move around, i'm too stimulated
look in the mirror, my heart starts racing
don't recognize my face, i'm a monster now
i spent several days
talking to myself
when'd i get this way?
how do i get out of this dream?

when do i wake up? (ft. vedbend & yuki)

idk i made in 20 min on bandlab didnt write the lyrics 4 this one js sang random stuff thats y they r bad ha.
thank u for 1million streams on remember i have no value outside of mysic so this makes me very happy!! ^_^ 
"i cant keep making stpid songs" - keeps doing it stupider n stupider each time

can u guys comment n tell me what u want me to make next idk ill try i feel rly sick rn and weak and yk im always depressed nothing new but i wanna make stuff that u guys will like to listen to if i do start making music again n idk i know 'do it for myself' but idk


lyricssszsssszzs

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i dont even know myself
i keep trying to find my help
i dont think that i wanna get better
feel under the weather
gotta get myself
get myself together
ohhh
i dont really know

u dont love me 
u should tell me so
i pick flowers then i let them go
then i let them go
then i let them go

kiss me under the night sky
then tell me that you noticed
my hair
feels so
fucking frizzy
u said u
wouldn’t ever leave me 
i dont need to hear lies
i know how i feel inside
i know that im worthless 
i know that one day im gonna die 

i- ah- ah- ah-
i know where i belong
i. i.. i.. i..
i cant keep making stupid songs
ahhhhhhhhh 
i know its worthless to even try
why do i?

i feel like im gonna vomit
i feel like im gonna throw up
i feel — if im being honest
like this shit is fucking worthless
no shit? no shit..
someone help me notice
how im feeling ?
what im trying to say is
im goi- ‘no shit’

no shit? no shit..
tell me do you notice
tell me have you noticed
i think ill
i- ah.

gettinbettr ୭ ˚. ᵎᵎ (prod. deathsuppressant)

sampling hansel by sodikken .. i like sodikken

shitty bandlab vocals recorded with my shitty laptop mic! ^_^

“And now here is my secret, a very simple secret: It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.” - the little prince, antoine de saint-exupéry

i said its too late 
you already know it 
my bloods on your hands
you’re stained with all the red

i wish you loved me 
now i’m dead
do you find me in your head?
can i live on in your mind?
can i live on, just this time?

i swear i wont try no more
i wont be good, i wont do things
that i know have never worked
ill put me first
before dirt

so since its too late
love me now
and sing my praises

now that i’ve thrown the white cloth in
ive been thinking…
you know, all i wanted
was— 
…something that you can’t see. c:

something that u cant see (prod. pupsies)

art: https://instagram.com/people.arelovers

i been waiting for ur call all day
and u said u came every time we , 
used to make the clouds go away 
u still make the clouds go away

i been waiting for ur call, all day
u spent it so fast
typhoon and the tide away 
baby come to me 

spinning so fast
and you said you came,
everytime we 
used to make the clouds go away

used

vless samurai

more protected and becoming more ghost everyday

dug really far back for this

COMPUTER MUSIC 2008-2025
https://strawberrypeeler.bandcamp.com/album/computer-music-2008-2025
NON-COMPUTER MUSIC 2008-2025
https://strawberrypeeler.bandcamp.com/album/non-computer-music-2008-2025

both album descriptions include massive "lore dumps" if you care about that kind of stuff. it's ok if you don't.
this is probably just for the freaks.

ooooo

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