produced by https://soundcloud.com/fkwt27 

lyrics:
I saw it coming 
was already running 
anticipated the heartbreak
that's why I make my legs shake 
I'm too afraid to take 
that blade to my wrists 
I don't want scars 
don't wanna remember this
starving myself cuz I can't eat 
anxiety it makes me weak 
I feel nausea I feel weak 
I don't wanna live like this 
why can't I just call it quits 
you and me are not the same 
I'll always just take the blame
fuck you for the words you say 
you make me feel guilty 
for living every day 
I'm sorry that I let you down 
I see it in your frown 
And I know you're never proud
I would leave this earth 
If I knew it wouldn't
hurt the ones around me 
suicide cross my mind 
but I downplay my issues 
and tell you i'm fine 

I'm fine really you don't have to worry about me, it okay I’ll be okay it’s fine

The saddest part is that I saw it coming 
this isn't new, this is nothing new to me 
I knew you'd tell me you love me 
and I knew you'd leave 
and I knew I would be here feeling empty 
still wondering why I'm not good enough 
to make anyone stick around long enough 
to get to know me
but it's okay I'm fine everything will be okay
I just need a little time

saw it coming (prod.fkwt)

It’s empty inside my heart 
I’ve got Nothing to give I feel so torn apart 
300 miles away from you, it’s too far 
Wish up on a star 
to heal up all of my scars 
I had to go 
I feel so emotionally unavailable 
you’d never know 
cause I’ll always stay so unstable 
I feel so emotionally unavailable 

so lonely it’s inescapable 
I know that you’re so irreplaceable 
your love was gravitational 
my damage unforgettable 
every time I lied 
you became more observational 

Now I sit in silence 
fuck all of the violence 
sick of all this fighting 
broke my heart I’m crying 
I just need some guidance 
Cant you see I’m trying 
to change my ways, your highness 
I present you with this diamond 

Remember 
every winter comes with this weather 
The same breeze that we felt in December 
reminds me of all the times 
I drove for miles just to see your face 
I wish that I could do this right but it’s too late 
left alone with scars on my heart 
you didn’t want to move far 
and now I’m broken so I try to live through my art

emotionally unavailable (prod. Afterlife x Xxajii)

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/cypression

produced by: https://soundcloud.com/pekarot_161

no one to hold me w/cypression (pekarot)

im sorry for all the things i've said
you just fuck around with my head
so now i rot laying in my bed
forget all of the things i wanna change

and all the shit i do it makes me numb
it also makes me look so fucking dumb

im sorry for all the things i've said
you just fuck around with my head
so now i rot laying in my bed
forget all of the things i wanna change

now i'm crying laying in my bed
stuck with memories i can't forget

im sorry for all the things i've said
you just fuck around with my head
so now i rot laying in my bed
forget all of the things i wanna change

im really sorry for the blood you bled
and the tears that you had to shed

sorry for the mess i left
i am just a mess myself

lately i dont feel the best
dont know what's wrong with my head
all these people leave me feeling dead
honestly i don't understand

rot w/ thearchived (Wraith Nîr)

collins: https://www.youtube.com/c/CollinsBeats

it's the obsession, i'm losing my head
and you should know that i'm trying my best
i'm not dependent, i was in the past
i clearly see that i shouldn't have latched

now i'm just wasting time until i'm dead
some stuff i think about it's pretty bad
fell in a hole and i won't make it back
fell in that hole and i won't make it back

that could just be my last night
i think that i won't survive
i'm out of time and i don't feel alive
i still believe in your lies and i'm still wanting to die

so right now i'm cutting all of my ties
ask me how i am, i'll say that i'm fine
every thought of you just gets me to cry
i'm having visions of you being mine

if not tonight, maybe i just suicide
maybe i just end my life
in my hand i got my knife
hope when i slit my wrist i'll feel alive

drippin the blood on the floor in a line
i am disgusting, i hate that i'm right
twice in one night i tried suicide
but sadly it had to fail everytime

i know that i cannot win,
sink to the bottom of the ocean i'm in
bad at emotions and they're wearing thin
it's okay, you can treat me like a bin

when i wake up i just feel like i'm shit
picture of us, still have them on my sim
i am creative, cut art in my skin
i am the problem, i let no one in

with this i'm calling for help
cause soon i will end it myself
already failing my health
i'm already living in hell
can't break the shell
i feel like i'm trapped in a cell
why do you think that i'm well?
devil where you at i got something to sell

if not tonight...

if not tonight... (collins)

[+ sogimura]

1st @soulfadexo | 2nd @autumndropsdead | 3rd @emptychest | 4th @yoimn3ver | 5th @northshoremusic |

(soulfade)
Erase me, don’t bother calling my name
Deface me, leave me nothing but bones
I’ve found me, lost in the outer space
Don’t find me, leave me a fantasy

(autumndropsdead)
better than yesterday
left alone but it's okay
yeah i cannot flee forever
winter calls it says forget her
yeah hate going outside
sun's burning my eyes
they say it takes time
but i won't make it past
patches of grass
i never had
i never had
the strength to hold on 

(emptychest)
my heart is still lost in outer space
live it up like its yesterday
sorry for the inconvenience 
im somewhere out where venus is
i dare you to find me
there was one day i left my home
one day i left alone.
there was one day i learned to cope
one day ill never know

(teddyboi)
sometimes i wanna quit
i wanna live
but this the only way i cope
i like when im alone
but i hate when im alone
in the room, the truth is
its truthless
im ruthless
yeah yeah
tryna figure out another way to live
is just useless
im clueless, but i gotta keep moving
the truth is, im already dead
and the trauma replays in my head

(TNS)
Theirs nothing left for me to say 
I gave you everything and you just fade away
(Theirs nothing left for me to say)
Broken hearts and broken hands
Losing you is something I can’t have 
Sit back move on 
Sitting here is all I have
(Sitting here is all I have)

lost in outer space w/ The North Shore, autumndropsdead, emptychest, soulfade & teddyboi

(MXB:)

I Think that I’m falling in love again 
But I can’t handle another heartbreak might be the end 
Of me I’m too emotional my hearts just way too fucking fragile 
I’m tryna outrun the pain but all my problems way too agile 
So I guess I’ll kill a bottle 
Live life fast go full throttle 
Don’t care what these people saying 
I know one day I’ll be paying 
Don’t give a fuck I’ll pay the prices 
Of constantly using my vices 
Hate that I’m addicted 
So conflicted 
This is not how I predicted 
My life to be 
Please set me free
This can’t be my reality 
Its a bad dream must be 
One day imma wake up bitch trust me 
Do it alone no help yeah just me 
All Alone in this bed nobody by my beside 

Everyone else either left or lied 
So baby gotta tell me if you really down to ride 
Cuz I regret the time I didn’t spend with people that died 
Think about them all the time emotions gotta hide 
Gotta wear a mask 
People they don’t ask 
Hey are you ok 
They not here to stay 
And I don’t wanna play 
I don’t got the time 
Gotta tell me after hearing this do you still wanna be mine


Dead Broke:

And as I walked away, she said, that I would never ever change,
I'm sorry that I have become this way, (yeah)
I took too much now I see the dead,
almost broke, then I had a fit,
hate this life, hate seeing shit,

She said that my head is dark, and I can't play the part,
of happy boyfriend, fuck it all, what if I end it all?
locked myself in her jeep, I turned the gas to max.
She found me there half alive, she said "I need you there."

This love was never fair, they told me im a "star."
I threw it all away to end my suffering.

Wasted Potential

when you fall, when you fall don't give it up
you know the fall is coming, sing a song of lust
runnin from, runnin from ur love that's done
and ur insensitive, its getting kina hot

say ur done, fuckin done, its not up
to the people in ur life, ur loosing trust
in all these other fuckin people make you run
runnin from, runnin from what is done

when u calling me anxitey'll rise
to the ends of all the planets in the sky
but its done, said and done, fuck it up
running from, what you said before the sun

before the suns comin up, in the night
its okay, if your never feelin right
runnin from, runnin from, fall in love
runnin from, all the shit that's said and done

but its too late, no its too late, no its too late, ey
im runnin to the gate, no I'm not loosing fate, its the one, ur the one, ur the one
its lost, in my mind
its lost, in my mind

put a gun up to the light
and if you make it, youll be alright
put a gun up to the sky
and if you shoot, it might end ur life

when u callin me anxitey'll rise
to the ends of all the planets in the sky
but its done, said and done, fuck it up
runnin from, what you said before the sun

before the suns comin up, in the night
its okay, if your never feelin right
runnin from, runnin from, fall for love
runnin from, all the shit that's said and done


*put a gun up to the light
and if you make it, you'll be alright
put a gun up to the sky
and if you shoot, it might end ur life*

Song of lust_  (prod. venus)

prod iof x rinne <3

check out @slaughter-tone-records , he's v cool :)

i think i can finally give u what u need, i hope u can forgive me that it took me so long. i love you.


(i never did xanax it just sounded good okay dont do xanax pls its shit)
[lyrics:]
i feel alive when im by ur side
its alright that u take ur time
hope that i am on ur mind
i see ur eyes i know u cried
im fighting my demons just for u
give me a reason to go through
all of this when ur not around
want to scream but i cant make a sound


i hate the fucking way u talk to me now
took a xanax and im feeling fucking free now
its so hard for me to know that it is over
fucking hate that i lost her in october

i'm not okay
but did you care anyway?
i'm not okay
but i won't beg you to stay 
i wish you were here by my side
but now i only have my feelings that died 
tell me who i'll find behind the door
now that i don't have you anymore 
tell me who i'll find behind the door
now that i don't have you anymore 

girl u know i wont forget u when ur gone
i will smoke another bong
just to make another song
i dont care about myself i hope i'll die soon
i really wanna die soon
i wish u'd be in my room
i dont wanna feel this way
getting high everyday
girl u know im not okay
no this is not a phase
fuck i dont stop bleeding
girl u took away my breathing
hoping that my heart stops beating
my life doesnt have a meaning

i hate the fucking way u talk to me now
took a xanax and im feeling fucking free now
its so hard for me to know that it is over
fucking hate that i lost her in october

fucking hate it that i lost her in october
trying to stay alive but it won't last forever
it's hard to stay alive and to stay sober
i hate to know that it's fucking over
what should i feel?
this doesn't feel real
what should i feel?
this doesn't feel real

lost her in october w/IBleedIcare (iof x rinne)

Shinjitsu By - [Xavier Wulf x Chris Travis] (REMASTERED) #trill #trap #wavy #legendary #underground #rvdrklvn #waterboyz #cloudrap 

[Xavier Wulf x Chris Travis] - Shinjitsu - (REMASTERED)

Art by Peppermerint
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Lyrics
I took my time put the blade to my eye
I tried to cry, I’m ruining my mind
Tried to speak there’s no words coming out
My blade’s no longer dry
Wet tonight baby take my last breath
Take my last breath

Cut me open and take my life
I tried but you won't let me die
My soul is leaving my bones soon
The path of mer immortals doomed

Take me away, take me away
Suffering is long overdue to outer space
Long overgrown, leave me alone 
Unless you have a way out

Cut me open and take my life
I tried but you won't let me die
My soul is leaving my bones soon
The path of mer immortals doomed

if not tonight... (collins)

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