i left your ashes in the waterfall,  in the smoky mountains, and it will always be a moment where i was completely lost and found all at once. 

this song is for you, jason.

Catalyst  *DEMO

as women, we're constantly bombarded with images of who we need to be to be deemed "attractive" and thus, "worthy".   Whether we're "strong" or not, it inflitrates one's consciousness. It most certainly has done for me. its kind of shocking...as i'm going through a program to be a therapist, it's made me hyperaware of the constancy of the negative thoughts in my mind that are way too critical (and likely also contribute to me not ever wanting to play live and get myself out there in front of an audience).   

i remember the first time someone told me they loved me, and it was very hard to understand or imagine that someone could love me. i'm sure we all have thoughts like this..
this song is for all of us, who have felt so unlovable.   

i hope it inspires someone to open up.  to be loved.  to remember you deserve that.  even, when you've been conditioned to not.

Human Design *DEMO

"Thoughts and Prayers"
Ever the ever solo ones 
Never knelt before you
ever the ever vanquished ones
never built for the doom

ooh

ever the ever bitter ones
never stopped to pay dues
ever the ever solo ones
never coddled with a view

oooh

its always negotiable to buy their bones 
before they get in their graves

the openness of their anarchy
its calling for  "prayers"
the paupers of all your paparazzi
its calling for "thoughts and prayers"
the failing of all your corporate greed
its calling your "prayers"
we're always the martyr in our dreams
its calling for "thoughts and prayers"

ever the ever solo ones
never knelt before you
ever the ever low low ones
never polished or in tune

oooh

openness of their anarchy
is calling for "prayers"
the paupers of all your paparazzi
its calling for "thoughts and prayers"
the failing of all your corporate greed
its calling for your "prayers"
we're always the martyr in our dreams
its calling for thoughts and prayers

won't let you down 
run a patch run run a patch through my heart

Thoughts And Prayers

lyrics:
there are few places i go that don't remind me of you
im like a burglar on the prowl, trying to get a piece of you
there are few places i go, that don't remind me of you 
im like a child in a candy story trying to get a piece of you

there's a price you pay to be an adult
its a bit like a tollway to accepting your faults

some days we are wiser
other days, foolhardy too

there are few places i go that don't remind me of you
i'm like a burglar on the prowl, trying to get a piece of you
there are few places i go that don't remind me of you
i'm like a child in a candy store, trying to get a piece of you

Foolhardy

One of our favorite portishead songs.  So we did a cover tonight.    -rupa and tyler


Acoustic cover of Over by Portishead

a bit of  beatboxing,  ethereal vocals layered from time to time,  mixed with a few guitars, kaossilator beats making a bit of ambient  minimalist pop. 



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