i can never close my eyes cause when i do u see your face
keep repeating what i say
til it gets out of my brain

and im terrified of losing u im worried every day
im so easily replaced
theres no need for u stay

nothing special bout the words i speak they all come from the heart
ur the reason why i think them
thats the only special part

and if anybody else had seen the way i broke apart
they would think that i was stupid
but pretendings getting hard

i made 100 songs
it wont fix my regret
all the times i fucked it up
blamed it on my fucking head

hope u know i love u more
than anyone i call my friend
hope u know that all the silence
means im happy with presence

i get lost inside your voice and forget how to pay attention
not myself when im without u i got so used to pretending
but im nervous when we speak its hard to get a single sentence
out my mouth
out my mouth

everything i want to say to everybody i cant

4 shots n a blunt

4 shots and a blunt

with my friends @f3arme @tenkayyyyy @7ooox

boyfriend w feardorian & tenkay prod feardorian & prblm

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i don't want to be this person anymore
i hope its not real
wake me from my sleep
breathe life into me
teach me how to dress
tell me how to speak
i thought i could be anything

it's killing me
it's killing me
it's killing me
it's killing me
it's killing me
it's killing me

it's killing me

i wish i had your eyes and your ears
or something special, your attention to detail
would you be upset if i told you how i feel?
i'd rather you never figure me out
cause you cant take back what you call a gift
and once you speak those feelings are permanent
and once you waste it, the time doesn't come back
so why'd you lie to me like that?

i thought i could be anything
its killing me
its killing me
its killing me
its killing me

good luck poems

@blxty @cranessssss @popilization

i know you tried, i know you did
you know i'd die to ever live
we crossed a line, attached our lips
my favorite prize, the sweetest gift
another night and day alone
another try at finding home
my favorite prize, the sweetest hope
you blessed my eyes i turned to stone

did you notice? i tried but i'm hopeless
i'm stuck in my motion, i move in slow motion
you said you're not mad so then switch up your tone then
i'm moving with caution don't know where i'm going

can we act like we never met
put my heart back like it never left
i just wanted more
and you wanted less
i feel like a mess i feel like a mess
so much scattered pieces
you said that you’re leaving
don’t go away
i promise that things will change
no no
i wanna hide but what for
i feel dead
slumped up against the door
my bodies hot
take the coldness from the floor
i don’t wanna feel like this not anymore
can you save me can you tell me i’m okay
you’re medusa your beauty stuns me everyday
why can’t i have faith no why can’t i see straight 
i just want to see your face can you come don’t want to wait

medusa w blxty prod cranes pop

##june25 (+@rewind214)

@makemeapromise @44yy

all ur calls im ignoring
like the voices in my head keep talking
all the the tweas im takin out cant help it
sprite chill down my veins got me stupid
it feels so cold yet distant
lately ive been tweaking out
ive been tryna figure out the difference
i dont think im changing
but i dont need to
ive been gettin drunk cs lately ive been missing u

stumblin all my steps
n all my vision is blurring again
the twea got me stressin it dont make any sense
n im thinkin of drinkin more tweas till the end
till i get wasted till i pass out
im wasted it comes around
im wasted my heart wont calm down
calm down

twea prod surgeon & 44y

most recent clips!

this has been a hard month for me. thank you to all my amazing friends (some of whom are in these clips!) who have supported me and pushed me to go further. i love you all

if you want to use any of these, dm me!!

0:00 — date (sample from kimi no na wa) +@r1yy
1:14 — our sky +@rewind214
2:06 — flora +@jihyo39
3:20 — +@miriyami
4:08 — flutter +@jihyo39
5:05 — july 4th +@moz-103259352

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