Benediction

Sunshine Sandbox

Meditate

Tofu

Kurious Jeorge

Lyrics: Face is fucked up
Shave my bones
Take my skin
Find a new home
(away from here!)

Hips too narrow
Chest too flat
And don't even
Mention that
(that thing!)

Cut it off!
Cut me open!
Fix my fucked up biology!

Slit my wrists!
Split my ribs!
Fix my fucked up biology!

Voice too deep
Too much hair
Why the fuck
Do they all care?
(leave me alone!)

Scared of outside
I'm too different
hated for it
I don't fit in
(never will!)

Cut it off!
Cut me open!
Fix my fucked up biology!

Slit my wrists!
Split my ribs!
Fix my fucked up biology!

Maybe one day
I'll be happy
Maybe i'll feel self-assured
Maybe one day
I could walk
Down the street with no remorse

Cut it off!
Cut me open!
Fix my fucked up biology!

Slit my wrists!
Split my ribs!
Fix my fucked up biology!

Fix Me

Lyrics:

ハリケーンと熱波。世界の終わりが来たようです。少なくとも私たちは生き抜くことができると思います。一緒に。 (Hurricanes and heat waves. It feels like the end of the world. At least we can survive. Together.)

もっとひどい状況になる可能性もあり、私たちは孤独になるかもしれません。 (It could be a lot worse and we could be alone.)

一緒に。 (Together)

一緒に。 (Together)

一緒に。 (Together)

でも、私たちはそうではありません。 (But that's not the case for us.)

私たちは生き抜くことができるのです。 (We can survive.)

一緒に。 (Together)

一緒に。 (Together)

一緒に。 (Together)

一緒に。 (Together)

一緒に。 (Together)

Hurricanes & Heatwaves

Lyrics:

Cut me open
Find the broken
Little pieces of my mind
Got me hoping
For a token
Just a tiny piece of kind
(Just once)

Put me back together
I don't know if you'll ever
Leave me be or bleed me dry
Make me smile or make me cry

Corruption!
Destruction!
Goddess please set me free

10 years later
Yeah I hate her
But I am still shocked to find
That behaviour
Need and saviour
Sunk into my fucked up mind
(Fuck!)

Put me back together
I don't know if you'll ever
Leave me be or bleed me dry
Make me smile or make me cry

Corruption!
Destruction!
Goddess please set me free

Please!
Set me free!
Please!
Set me free!
Please!
Please!
Goddess please set me free

Put Me Back Together

Lyrics:

Love is like a raging river
Touch me once it makes me quiver
Liquids run and come undone
And feelings swarm me, overrun
I need a place that I can hide
At least until my eyes have dried
I'm not sure if you understand
Between the words an ampersand

Help me out
I need help I scream and shout
Drink until I hit blackout
Feeling like i'm a sellout
Wallowing in my self-doubt
Easy challenge can't surmount
Wondering if i'm allowed
Off this ride before i'm ploughed
Into the ground

As the night comes it grows so cold
I'm the one for whom the bell tolled
Ringing loud and ringing clear it's
Filling us with years of fear, quit
Now i'm left alone and obsessed
Two cold hands rest upon my breasts
Those rough hands slide up to my neck 
Choke the life from this warm object

Help me out
I need help I scream and shout
Drink until I hit blackout
Feeling like i'm a sellout
Wallowing in my self-doubt
Easy challenge can't surmount
Wondering if i'm allowed
Off this ride before i'm ploughed
Into the ground

Won't you help me see the darkness, help me start to mend?
Will you hold my head down tightly, help me see the end?
Won't you?

Wondering if i'm allowed
Off this ride before i'm ploughed
Wondering if i'm allowed
Off this ride that's well endowed
Wondering if i'm allowed
Off this ride as I scream loud
Wondering if i'm allowed
Off this ride before i'm ploughed
Into the ground

Into The Ground

Lyrics:

Wake up bout 11am
Guess I stayed up late again
Spent my time distracting my brain
Trying to ignore those thoughts of pain

I'll never
Get better
(Oh all roads lead back to you)
Another
Go get her
(Voices tell me what to do)
Kill yourself!

I've tried on suicide
They didn't have it in my size
So I survived!
(Try as I might)

Tears in my eyes
Spending every night
As I try and try!
(To end my life)

Wish I didn't have to wake up
Close my eyes every time we fuck
Body tenses with your touch
Is this what they call love?

I'll never
Get better
(Oh all roads lead back to you)
Another
Go get her
(Voices tell me what to do)
Kill yourself!

I've tried on suicide
They didn't have it in my size
So I survived!
(Try as I might)

Tears in my eyes
Spending every night
As I try and try!
(To end my life)

Am I ruined?
(Will I ever be loved again)
She made everything bleak
(Every second an eternity)
Now i'm desperate for an ending and escape!

I've tried on suicide
They didn't have it in my size
So I survived!
(Try as I might)

Tears in my eyes
Spending every night
As I try and try!
(To end my life)
(Try as I might)
(To end my life)

Kill Yourself

UPDATED - 06/15/2020 with latest mix.

Cover of Judas Priest's United felt fitting tonight. May take this further but, right now, running on pure inertia. Need so much. Need so much.

Look around
They're moving in
Hold your ground
When they begin

We can do it
We can do it and if they wanna they can try
But they'll never get near
Then they can get out of here

Gonna keep on driving
Never stop

United, united, united we stand
United we never shall fall
United, united, united we stand
United we stand one and all

So keep it up
Don't give in
Make a stand
We're gonna win

We can do it
We can do it and if they wanna they can try
But they'll never get near
Then they can get out of here

Gonna keep on driving
Never stop

United, united, united we stand
United we never shall fall
United, united, united we stand
United we stand one and all

So keep it up

United, united, united we stand
United we never shall fall
United, united, united we stand
United we stand one and all

United, united, united we stand
United we never shall fall
United, united, united we stand
United we stand one and all

United, united, united we stand
United we never shall fall
United, united, united we stand
United we stand one and all

United (I Can't Breathe Remix)

The Coil Of Sihn - United (I Can't Breathe Remix) V1.4b - New Mix 06/15/20

The Coil Of Sihn was formed in St. Louis, Missouri in 2002 by trans-feminine artist Sihn Starr Cartia. Out of Rossi's handwritten journals came the concept that backdrops the music which is influenced by Nine Inch Nails, Judas Priest, Crass, Nick Cave and The Bad Seeds, Depeche Mode, Black Sabbath and Electric Light Orchestra. The concept is an Earth-like world where those who are born marked for a Sentinel Path are tested in a place of trial and survival, The Coil, where freedom and destiny is only granted if you can escape.

In 2004, "My World" was released and followed up quickly the same year with a remix album of tracks from My World and Enter, "Through".

Entertainment Death magazine had this to say about both releases that year:

"I can't think of a single band that some close to putting the heart and soul into their music to such great effect as The Coil of Sihn. More than merely technically superb there is the undeniable sense that every minuet aspect of each song has been long considered and intertwined until it was entirely perfectly balanced."

Sid Andruska of Playback magazine also had this to say:

"My World...is an angry yet sentimental beast, exploding with emotion and memory. Tales of despair play out like a novel with a total of 22 songs. Here, Cartia’s vocals are more pronounced and guttural. Mirroring the vocal range of Goth legends, Fields of the Nephilim, Cartia’s voice detonates above a bed of synthesized beats, overshadowing voice clips, the background chorus, and all else that gets in her way."

"If you love the lowly crooning of the late Ian Curtis from Joy Division, you’ll enjoy COS; Cartia’s vocals are a dead-on match, especially in “Dream (Not a Monster remix),” although she doesn’t showcase her voice on all songs. Occasionally, she allows the music to speak for itself. In “HalfLife (30 Giger Clicks remix),” her vocals become faint, like a subliminal message or tiny ghost. Raw and compelling, the entire album leaves you wanting more, much like foreplay with no sex. Oh, the glorious torture!"

After an extensive regional touring, The Coil Of Sihn went back into the studio and released "These Closed Eyes" in 2009. This was the first time that Cartia worked with an sound engineer, Justin Fisher of SmithLee Studios in St. Louis and the local band Glitch Factor. The collaboration resulted in a theatrical based concept album based upon Cartia's abusive childhood.

Mark Kray of Heavy Metal Kitchen had this to say:

"The first track, "First Curse" is a horrid dramatization of a brutal physical and sexual attack that recounts one of Cartia's childhood memories; the second track Cartia unveils her lyrical genius. Her creative reign over the entire album induces some extraordinary highs and lows, like riding the wave of a wild acid trip. Lay back and submit until the demons have left the room, and watch out for the flashbacks. Or so I’ve heard. Expect nothing less from this album." 

Sid Andruska of Playback had this to say:

"COS’s sound, although unique by today’s standards, conjures fond recollections of early Ministry and KMFDM with hints of Nine Inch Nails throughout. The pulsating groove of synthesizer beats, blended with a cornucopia of voice clips from various movies, relay Cartia’s story, as if her life were a dramatic motion picture or a horror flick, depending on your perspective."

The Coil Of Sihn, after a 9 year hibernation, released "Covered In Blood And You" in 2018, a collection of 6 cover songs, with two tracks that are remixes. 

Cartia says that fans should expect to see a release in 2024 as well. Re-Enter My World will be a re-issue of 12 selected tracks from The Coil Of Sihn's first two albums. Then, a full album of new original songs, "The Fall", will hit the digital marketplaces to add yet another word to the sentence that all the titles of the albums form.