quote thing in halves:
"I thought I understood it, that I could grasp it, but I didn't, not really. Only the smudgeness of it; the pink-slippered, all-containered, semi-precious eagerness of it. I didn't realize it would sometimes be more than whole, that the wholeness was a rather luxurious idea. Because it's the halves that halve you in half. I didn't know, don't know, about the in-between bits; the gory bits of you, and the gory bits of me."
-Anna (Felicity Jones) in 'Like Crazy'

used to

|Paralytic|

night falls all around us
as we're lying awake
with our trembling hands 
and our shy fingertips
i adore who you are
and every inch of your skin
i adore your voice
and the sweetness it speaks

i think back to the day we first kissed and i feel everything. i feel my hand on your neck and my lips on yours. i feel the surreality that came with the loss of consciousness. the loss of will to ever let go.

and self-destruction will come the self-obsession to destroy all my self-acceptance. my recollection of every misty night amidst the thirsty dark will bring me back to repentance. regretting every step i took to burn the things that shook me awake every night for a month. because in the end, those things are a part of me. and to destroy them is to destroy myself.

they come back and try to remind us but we always forget

|I'm gonna be pretty upset if I die before I take you on a date to the boardwalk|

do you mind if i just lie i your arms
for as long as i want?
cause i'd really love to be there
rather than curled up in my bed

i get so lonely when i'm not holding your hands
and i get so flustered when you say that i am yours

the first time that i felt your skin, i could not believe that i was yours

|Right before I held her hand|

i don't recall what it was like
right before i held her hand
in that old town movie theater
i never thought that i would need her 
this much, as to be unable
to go a day without talking to her about my day
and hearing about hers

she looked at me across her bed
and told me that i was pretty
i'll admit it made me blush
but i'm not ashamed cause we were alone
she looked at me across her bed
and told me to stay with her forever
not in her bed but in her arms
or whichever lasts longer for us


I'm gonna be pretty upset if I die before I take you on a date to the boardwalk

more bedroom songs

Rory

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like 17 seconds of sober to death by car seat headrest

weeping willows

ramona

ramona - beck [scott pilgrim]

misty morning

misty morning - travis bretzer [cover]

Willows

Have We Met Before?

Have We Met Before - Tom Rosenthal [Cover]

Modern Baseball Covers

Re-Done

Re-Done - Modern Baseball [Cover]

this song song along with 'hiding tonight' were recorded on the same day after getting nostalgic over the movie 'submarine'.

Stuck On The Puzzle - Alex Turner [Cover]

winter sunsets over mission park

go, i'll be fine (winter sunsets over mission park)

These long weeks dig deep into what
I thought we had just two years ago but you
You don’t want to know more about it
Two years is enough for you 

Those magical moments when we’d kiss
I’m talking about feeling alive, deep inside our bones
Never wanted to live like this
You’d rather not see me like this
I’m dying to start feeling alive

jade(d)

april of 2016, you picked up a leaf and said, 
“this is for you, my love.” 
and i jokingly said to you, 
“i’ll keep this forever, forever in my room.” 

well i wasn’t lying to you i guess 
cause 6 months after you left 
i found that same leaf lying on my dresser 
and i pathetically cherish it 
cause it’s all we have left 

but then i started thinking 
why is this still here and why do i feel like I’m about to cry? 
it seemed so stupid, it’s so ridiculous 
but i couldn’t laugh at myself 

so i started thinking 
could it be that this leaf represents the lifeline of our love? 
i know it sounds delusional, but how crazy would it be 
if you kissed me and i said, 

“remember that leaf from april of 2016, 
that you gave to me and said, 
‘this is for you, my love.’ 
cause i still have it 
it’s in my room 
and it reminds me of you.” 

but today 
i frantically realized i hadn’t seen that stupid leaf in quite a while 
so i scavenged all over my room, just to find 
that you had left my life 

this time for good 
i won’t know what do 
i’m only hoping that you feel this too

Spotify/Apple Music

This Is For You, My Love

and finally 
i can feel myself moving on 

and somebody 
has learned to take me in 

and every night 
i think of you and wonder 
are you thinking of me? 

and now everyday 
i wake up with someone else 
on my mind 

now we're in june 
i'm about to start my life, a life 
without you 

and everyday 
i'll be driving to monterey 
away, from all this 

and realize 
that maybe your end 
is my fresh start 

she is my fresh start

Moving On And Other Cliches

i found a life in the sun 
where i feel no need for no one 
but lately it feels so absurd 
yeah lately i can't speak a word 

i still miss the way that you do your hair 
and i still miss smelling you everywhere 
ladadadadadadadada 
you've been gone but still live in my head 

i find no reason to lie 
i'd love to drink up and die 
falling faster than i did for you 
all this bullshit that i do is for you 

i still miss the way that you do your hair 
and i still miss smelling you everywhere 
ladadadadadadadada 
you've been gone but still live in my head 

i still miss the way we'd look at the stars 
we felt so lost but knew exactly where we'd wanna be 
ladadadadadadadada 
i've been gone but do you think of me?

Falling Faster

if we met like normal people do 
would you hurt me like people do? 
i’m excited to see you too 
so i’ll hold you till the sky turns blue 

cause it hurts being alone 
i would know i’ve spent my whole life alone 
and it hurts being alone 
i would know i’ve spent my whole life alone 

if we met like normal people do 
i won’t leave you like people do 
i’m excited to see you too 
and i hope you that you won't leave me too 

cause it hurts being alone 
i would know i’ve spent my whole life alone 
and it hurts being alone 
i would know you make me feel alone 

if we met like normal people do 
i’d be scared shitless of someone like you 
i’m excited to see you too 
but i’m afraid of something new 

cause it hurts being alone 
i would know i’ve spent my whole life alone 
and it hurts being alone 
i would know i’ve spent my whole life alone

If We Met Like Normal People Do

i don’t mind if you don’t
i could die, but i don’t care

i will cry if you do
breathe a sigh if you would too

cause the world can’t wait
to get rid of us

and i can’t wait for you to make up your mind

we could lie if they ask,
“did your love ever waver?”

we could give it a try
we could hide from the world

cause the world can’t wait 
to get rid of us

fuck the world, my love
we’ll get away from them

I Don't Mind

guest vocals on "It's Always You"- Ran.feri (soundcloud.com/ran-feri) 

[Willows]	
find you 
i need to find you 

[Ran.feri]
i thought of you again last night before i fell asleep 
i’m stuck trying to figure out why you couldn’t love me 
i keep dreaming about the last time i was in your bed 
maybe the girl i saw tonight is the girl you been with 

[Willows]
that night was the last time i’d been alive 
could we muster something nice to keep me from trying to die? 
i write a lot about death and i often come close, 
but the thought that you might someday call me is what always keeps me grounded 
do you know how many times you’ve saved my life?

It's Always You (feat. Ran.feri)

if you passed on by, would you keep me high? 
cause falling down, falling down 

fleeting like a feeling, you move so fast 
you never stick around, stick around 

well i'm sick of this infection 
you never asked for my protection 
but you know i'm a loser for you still 
and even if i never said it, you'd know by the things i do 
i love you

Loser For You

tell me how you go on like nothing ever was 
did you ever think that i could’ve been the one to break you? 
i never meant to but i was young and i was dumb 
and you were simply around for me to 

break you 
i never meant to but i did one hell of a job 
i messed up 
that’s why we don’t talk anymore 
and i’ll stay away 
from the life you’re leading on 

did you ever wonder maybe 
we were never wrong 
i think it was the right love at the wrong time 
and we weren’t bound to work

Querida

these long weeks dig deep into what 
i thought we had just two years ago but you 
you don’t want to know more about it 
two years is enough for you 

those magical moments when we’d kiss 
i’m talking about feeling alive, deep inside our bones 
never wanted to live like this 
you’d rather not see me like this 
i’m dying to start feeling alive

Jade(d)

how long could it be till i watch every movie curled up in this room? 
and where will you be when i finally get out of this rut that i’m in? 

what else could it be, but pent up karma from the shit that i’ve done 
how lonely it seems, but i got all of netflix to drown myself in 

it’s cold inside so i get out 
but outside i’m more scared of the world 
pushed me aside to look at the clouds 
be my sky, i wanna swim in your clouds 

it’s cold inside so i get out 
but outside i’m more scared of the world 
push me aside to look at the clouds 
be my sky, i wanna swim in your clouds

Pineapple Pizza

every friday night i stay in and watch the sky settle down 
it does it every night, but i can’t imagine myself doing it once 

but i, i guess it’s a nice thought 
and i, i kinda want it a lot 
but i, i rarely go out 
so i, i guess i’ll die alone

Sure, I Mean, I Guess.

guest harmonies on "Meet Me in Montauk" - em (soundcloud.com/user-45768148) 

meet me in my dreams again tonight 
you could watch the sunrise while i see it through your eyes 

was it yours or was it mine, the drink that i just spilled? 
i wonder what’s up in your mind, but your eyes make me ill 

i'm filled with love 

i’ll build you a house out of clouds 
where we can sit around and talk about the town you used to live in as a kid 

meet me in montauk tonight, my love 
i might wanna forget you, but don’t let me forget you 

i’m filled with love 

meet me by the lake tonight, my heart 
we could splash around or we could try to not drown 

watch me as i miserably avoid doing the same with you 
cause i swear i’ll jump and i swear that i won’t come back up

Meet Me In Montauk (feat. em)

wake up, try to leave the bed
you swear you could be anywhere
where’s it today? where’s it today?

motivationlessness is a
disease of my expertise
motivate me, i’ll do nothing
but i promise that i’ll think of

all the things i could do today
i’ll write about it and show no one
i am no one outside my dreams

carve my name onto my headboard
i’m ready to die where i lie
will you lie here, with me?

indecisiveness is a 
crutch on my recklessness
so instead of ringing up my ex
i’ll sleep on the floor and dream up

all the things i could do tomorrow
i’ll cry about it and tell no one
i feel no one outside my dreams

and out of all the things i could do next week 
i’d love to see you, oh i need you
i need no one else in my dreams but you

I Won't Be Here

Bandcamp

Rest in peace, Lou Reed.

sometimes i feel so happy,
sometimes i feel so sad.
sometimes i feel so happy,
but mostly you just make me mad.
baby, you just make me mad.
linger on, your pale blue eyes.
linger on, your pale blue eyes.

thought of you as my mountain top,
i thought of you as my peak.
thought of you as everything,
i've had but couldn't keep.
i've had but couldn't keep.
linger on, your pale blue eyes.
linger on, your pale blue eyes.

if i could make the world as pure and strange as what i see,
i'd put you in the mirror,
i put in front of me.
i put in front of me.
linger on, your pale blue eyes.
linger on, your pale blue eyes.

skip a life completely.
stuff it in a cup.
she said, money is like us in time,
it lies, but can't stand up.
down for you is up."
linger on, your pale blue eyes.
linger on, your pale blue eyes.

it was good what we did yesterday.
and i'd do it once again.
the fact that you are married,
only proves, you're my best friend.
but it's truly, truly a sin.
linger on, your pale blue eyes.
linger on, your pale blue eyes.

Pale Blue Eyes

Pale Blue Eyes - The Velvet Underground [Cover]

22 y/o
thanks for listening, it truly means the world.

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