martyr

i'm running running to run away from you
i don't know don't know what i got to do
to get it, get it, get it through to you
that i'm running, running to run away from you
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I'm calling-
To tell you-
That I just-
don't love you-
the way that-
i used to
i know that you still do
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Believe me 
when i say 
that things really
did change

I woke up and saw you
and you were acting
so strange
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Now that i have gone away
you can have all the space
that you prayed for
that i paid for
is this i get blamed for?

now that it's all gone
is that you really want
i just want to carry on 
and I want you to move on
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i'm running running to run away from you
i don't know don't know what i got to do
to get it, get it, get it through to you
that i'm running, running to run away from you
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i'm calling-
To tell you-
That I just-
don't love you-
the way that-
i used to
i know that you still do
Believe me 
when i say 
that things really did change
I woke up and saw you
you were acting so strange
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i'm running running to run away from you
i don't know don't know what i got to do
to get it, get it, get it through to you
that i'm running, running to run away from you
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Running Away

entering increasingly extreme 
subcultures
wanna be accepted but im just
a stupid vulture

pray that youll forgive me for my sins 
comply with anyone who takes me in
and you wonder how my views are formed
but don’t help at all you dont try to warn 
me of how i left my world behind 
to get closer to my human side

entering increasingly extreme
subcultures
wanna be accepted but im just
a fucking poser

didnt choose to fall this far at all
just wanted a place i could call home
maybe this song is too on the nose
cant let the irls know cant be exposed 
my worst fear is being left behind 
is this my out
you decide

extremist

staying in my bed all day
dont wanna do anything
schools been on my ass
its just too rough

ive got too much to do
ive got too much to do
ive got too much to do
ive got too much to do

i do this way too much
cant get anything done
im such a lazy fuck
i should give up

ive got too much to do
ive got too much to do
ive got too much to do
ive got too much to do

too much to do

Hey there pretty baby 
I heard you like to listen to incelcore

I wanna waste away 
I said I like your taste 
and that I like your face
I wanna hang out more

"It's over now" they say
they say "It's over now" 
they say
they say "It's over now" 
but you got my face off the ground

I'll be your sodaboy
and we could make some noise
with a laptop and cheap guitar
girl you could crash my car
I'll be right where you are

and if a double decker bus
crashes into us
to die by your side
is such a heavenly way to die

and if a ten ton truck
kills the both of us
to die by your side
is such a heavenly way to die

she said she likes incelcore

i feel so full of hatred
its killing me
the violent tendencies
i need to please

i freeze in place
your blood is on my face
i want to get out of this place
but your corpse is in the way
will i ever be forgiven

its all coming back to me
your scream, its so haunting
and it all felt so good at the time
but now i wanna die
please end my fucking life

please excuse me
your corpse is in my way
please excuse me
your always in my way

please excuse me

Old demo I had but never published because I thought it was bad. 

Woke up at 4, didn’t leave my bed
Saw that you left me left on read
Tried to text back, I changed my mind
Guess I’ll just rot here, guess I'll die

Yeah, I'm trying to move past her
But it's so hard to forget her
Yeah, I swore I’d get it together
But I’m still stuck in last November

I tried to quit caffeine, but I still can't sleep
Your suicidal thoughts are catching up to me
I really wish you'd shoot me 'til I'm dead
I really wish that you'd cut me instead

I tried to quit caffeine, but I still can't sleep
Your suicidal thoughts are catching up to me
I really wish you'd shoot me 'til I'm dead
I really wish that you'd cut me instead

I'm watching the paint peel from the wall
Crying as I wait for your call
Told myself I would start again
But here I am, waiting again

It’s fine, I’m used to it
Always feeling like shit
I'm burnt out in my mind
But I swear that I'm fine

I tried to quit caffeine, but I still can't sleep
Your suicidal thoughts are catching up to me
I really wish you'd shoot me 'til I'm dead
I really wish that you'd cut me instead

I tried to quit caffeine, but I still can't sleep
Your suicidal thoughts are catching up to me
I really wish you'd shoot me 'til I'm dead
I really wish that you'd cut me instead

Cut Me Instead

shes always at the coffe shop that i like to go to
i wish i could i could sit right down next to her
but i dont know how to
i really wish that i was better
i wish i knew how to talk to girls
cause if i could talk to you then i think we would rule the world

i dont want you to go back home
i wanna sleep next to you
always talk on the phone
i wanna be your man
i wanna be your guy
you could dress in my clothes
i think youd look real fly 

but nothing ever happens for guys like me
so ill run out to my truck
and make you sorry you didnt leave

bow bow
i shoot at the cashier and
bow bow
i shoot at some children
bow bow
i look in to your eyes and fall in love

how to talk to girls

Run away

FEATURING THE VOCALS OF MANY:

https://soundcloud.com/picks-in-a-pill-bottle
https://soundcloud.com/kaleb-g-s-2008
https://soundcloud.com/heret1k
https://soundcloud.com/healer777
https://soundcloud.com/fulltimeloser (no kidding)
https://soundcloud.com/milkkkarton
https://soundcloud.com/trvechvd
https://soundcloud.com/parzivalii

life is an rpg and i fucked up my build

im falling apart
because i dont know know anyone
so dont say my name
just leave me to equilibrium

i feel like a castaway
and im so ashamed
im out of place
im out of place

im a freak far gone
theres no where that i belong
so ill run away
i cant feel without feeling wrong

im a fucking castaway
and im so ashamed
im out of place
im out of place

Out of Place

Bye "for now" it was really fun to be with you
So long now I won't be back to bother you
You won't be seeing me come out my door
You'll only see me lying dead on the floor
Bye "for now"

Fuck this shit everything's a fucking stretch
I loaded up my pistol I'm just waiting for your text
I'm gonna end it all
 it's too much work and too much stress
You won't miss me when I'm gone I just know that for a fact
Baby would you kiss me while I'm lying down and dead
You love me way too much 
I cannot pay you I'm in debt
I hope you'll be okay
Well I'm not and I won't stay
You won't miss me when I'm gone
YOU WON'T MISS ME WHEN I'M GONE

Her voice 
her whispers
her chatters
her laughter
They still fucking haunt me and it makes me sadder
this immature love life is just a disaster 
I'm down to my last straw can we please do this faster

No choice
No true love
No shit
No nothing
I put myself into this I'm so retarded
My thoughts keep pulling me back from where I started
I lost the love for you
I'll forever hate you

Bye "for now" it was really fun to be with you
So long now I won't be back to bother you
You won't be seeing me come out my door
You'll only see me lying dead on the floor
Bye "for now"

Bye "for now" it was really fun to be with you
So long now I won't be back to bother you
You won't be seeing me come out my door
You'll only see me lying dead on the floor
Bye "for now"

Bye "for now" it was really fun to be with you
So long now I won't be back to bother you
You won't be seeing me come out my door
You'll only see me lying dead on the floor
Bye "for now"



Amateur Slop

bye for now (OUT ON SPOTIFY!)

you bring me down
all the way to the ground
turn my smile upside down
i never thought youd make me feel this way

im hanging round
go and make em frown
im sinking and i might just drown
only you  could make me feel this way

my head is spinning
 all across the room
i think im slipping,
 fall right back for you

and i might lose it,
 i cant keep my cool
forever dreaming, 
hope for something new

upside down

i fucked up the project file but here is what remains

close your eyes
dont look at me
you'll be terrified
im so fucking ugly

when i walk along the street
people think its halloween
im so fucking ugly

i've never kissed a girl Before
i know that they're all just laughing at me
hide my face behind my hands
and the tears start running down
im so ugly

oh
yes it's true
well
is it to you
you hold my wicked face and say its ok
you say that you really like it
that i look like something monstrous

close your eyes
dont look at me
you'll be terrified
im so fucking ugly

when i walk along the street
people think its halloween
im so fucking ugly

i've never kissed a girl Before
i know that they're all just laughing at me
hide my face behind my hands
and the tears start running down
im so ugly

you say it doesnt matter to you
well i say that it fucking matters to me
how do you not get it
you're a stupid fucking bitch
i dont wanna be a ghoul for the rest of my fucking Life

it'll never get better
so i'll stay home forever
IM SO FUCKING BLACKPILLED




Ugly

loser/stupid...

the more i know
the less id rather know
the more you show
the less id rather go

tell me all about it
tell me all about it
im feeling like shit
im feeling like shit
do i wanna do this 
do i wanna do this
feeling so anxious
feeling so anxious

cry myself to sleep
wake up and repeat

everydays the same
everydays the same

tell me all about it
tell me all about it
im feeling like shit
im feeling like shit
do i wanna do this 
do i wanna do this
feeling so anxious
feeling so anxious

the more i know
the less id rather know

the more i know, the less id rather know

I just can't go out tonight
I think I'm just not feeling fine

I think I'd rather stay inside 
I'm wasting all my precious time

Away

Maybe another day

We'll meet again okay?

Other than the fact that I can't socialize with people

It happens all the time
And I just don't know why
It happens all the time
I want to scream and cry

I know I promised you
To do what I said I was gonna do

I'm gonna go and socialize
But please don't look into my eyes

I get so anxious, yet so scared.
And you don't get it, you don't care.

I know something's wrong with me.
I got bad social anxiety.

It happens all the time
And I just don't know why
It happens all the time
I want to scream and cry

It Happens All The Time

Heres to all your dead waifus you lonely fucks
Musika para mis amigos solitarios
I was wrong
9thdeadcowboy
@realdoomersgobeachwalking

she said she likes incelcore

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