Name: Josh A - Suicide Benz by xiibrad
Duration: 2 min 56 s
Description: Suicide Benz from Josh A's album 'Disgrace'

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written by Lxst Boy and soku (@soku_music)
produced by 4lexf
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
intro sample from Regular Show

LYRICS

VERSE 1

[Lxst Boy]
stuck in my head
feel so alive but im better off dead
probably should apologize wrote this instead
writing sad songs now im buried in the sand
running around for a girl in a frenzy
eating too much but im still feeling empty
im feeling cold from the love never sent me
i wanna run far away no one get me, yeah
darkness inside of me, im not a masterpiece
lxst in this world, not finding no canopy
burning alive while she holding the kerosene
im broken in pieces, the demons still tearing me
haunting my dreams, lxst in the sheets
getting tongue tied from the words try to speak
unwanted reasons, tell me your secrets
promise i'll keep them, yeah
tell me you want me, feel like im floating
im broken hearted cuz you were my chosen
you were my future, now hopeless and broken
and im stuck in time, yeah these pages are soaking
rain in my dreams, its not what it seems
tears filling up gonna sail overseas
over mountains i dream when im stuck in my sleep
and im looking for reasons on why i still breathe, uh

[Lxst Boy & soku]
im stuck in time, yeah
really crossing the line yeah
dont feel like im fine yeah
someone show me the light, yeah

[Lxst Boy]
im stuck in time, yeah
really crossing the line yeah
dont feel like im fine yeah
someone show me the light, yeah

VERSE 2

[soku]
stuck in my head
lxst in my mind
i tried to call but my call got denied
still feeling bad
tried to apologize
all those nights
that i could've had her but didnt
messed up this time
still dont know why im even alive
getting tongue tied every time that i speak
havent taken a shower since you left me, yeah i reek
our love hit our peak then had to decline
yeah you decline every time i call
i thought i had it all
now im on my fall
all my photos on your wall, yeah this is all my fault
im sorry that i hurt you in this way
i can promise you that you'll see better days
ayy, but you dont want to see my face
and i get it
im sorry that i did it
now im begging on my knees for forgiveness, yeah

#getmoreplays
#scfirst

from the depths of my mind (feat. soku) [4lexf]

written by Lxst Boy
produced by 4lexf & Pizzle

featured on Promoting Sounds
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=voU3Zy70Qts

-lyrics-
i can never look at you and say no
thats what you say so
now im holding back tears
while im trying to read your gravestone
vision getting blurry 
and the clouds looking fake though
you left your mark on me
like a bite from a mako
now im back to writing like i used to
everything left on these pages really are about you
remember all the times we sat on this couch watching pokemon
share our fries at dairy queen but now i cry cause its all gone

yeah
and I just really wanna talk to you
I pray to God and go to church just like we always used to
composing this poetry
I'm glad that you noticed me
in that class that fateful day
when our eyes met, now it's way too cold to see
all that you've given
girl, thank you for all the blessings
that you had sent my way
first time you called my name
and I know that I'm selfish cause I really really want you back
I hope you're flying safe in Heaven cause I really miss you bad

yeah I'm really mad
wrote you like fifty tracks
and now I'm sitting alone
my heart's broken through the thickest cast
I miss going to see you on the hospital
wished it'd last
now I'm asking God why He took an angel from my grasp
I'm laying on the porch wondering which one of these stars are you
really shining bright now I don't feel the solitude
I just wanna hear your voice I miss calling you
now these feelings I hold inside will one day return back to you

flowers by your grave... (4lexf x pizzle)

Im not sober,
yea it’s over,
this cherry wine got me like a snowvert,
always cold so i can’t think up no verse,
unless I’m blank and perceiving no hurt.
you know how it goes,

yea I had it all,
i gave you a rose,
you pressed x when I call,
lots of fish in the sea but this ocean is small,
you said you lost love, let’s go back to the mall,

where we used to sneak into the cinemark,
and watched too much movies,
it was my favorite part,
but now with you gone i got no one to call,
so now i watch them alone at that mall.

where I had so many memories,
and tendencies 
that have made me
and dependency on the heart of others,
that’s been smothered,
thanks for the offer though

stuck in the snow,
no where to go,
the solution to love,
yea that’s unknown,
I’ll never know,
yea I’m so low,
I remember that day so long ago,

where I saw your face,
yea it was magical,
not mathematical,
never thought it would end,
but love is so tragical,
or maybe I’m radical.

I’m not sober,
yea it’s over,
no more rides in my Range Rover,
the day I asked you out in October,
I should’ve known to take it slower,
look at me now,
I’m on the ground,
but nobody knows cause I don’t make a sound,
I never tell them, need no one around,
or maybe no one needs me around?

Can’t stand this hurt,
but I make it worse,
gone epileptic,
get me a nurse,
I don’t need medication,
just need a verse,
I can put my pain on and make it disperse.

get it lost on the wind,
never see it again,
it becomes part of life,
just like this pen,
that I write my songs with,
since I was ten,
or maybe eleven,
when was it again?

I don’t remember,
make me a member,
of the broken club,
at least in December,
Santa will come and will grant me my wish,
I’ll ask him for a heart like the one that I miss.

the one that I had when I was in bliss,
when we had that kiss,
I’m in an abyss,
but I don’t resist,
i just reminisce,
on the hugs that we shared when the class was dismissed.

cherry wine (prod. con)

KINGDOM HEARTS (2024).

women r cheater pt3

produced by https://soundcloud.com/bobbydexter
featuring https://soundcloud.com/sadboyprolific

verse

flipping switchblades bitch wait for the tidal wave
ignorant shit bumping green day - holiday
cruising with the windows rolling all the way down
what to say now bitches getting laid out

in the front seat cooling making things strange
flick the lighter flame you can call me dante
blonde hair blue eyes not in that way
eating pizza with the homies ristorante

i wanna be honest when im with you but just trust me 
all of these fakes be on the come up its disgusting
i tip my nike hat to the haters in back
with my boys on the road im jack kerouac

you better take this shit cause i aint faking shit
not in an underwater cavern wearing bape and shit
your beats is baby shit, i pour the grape and shit
pray my mother listen to all my forsakenings

chorus

you wanna know whats wrong with me
fucked up in the limousine
just another fucking song to sing
hot pursuit while i chase my dreams

sadboy's verse
ive been in the limo feeling tired 
light reflects off of the chrome plated tires 
hotbox the back of the car 
gas in the tank were going far 
remember back when they said wed never make it 
i dont have the time to think about a fake bitch
 they said wed never be anything 
now your girl calls me her everything
 begging for rides and a wedding ring
 i just skrt off the lot this aint meant to be
 stop killing the mood with yo attitude 
keep taking shit im coming after you 
i could fit the whole team in the backseat 
rolling backwoods of the dash we 
couldnt give less of a fuck about the ops 
we never stop for no ops 
you sending shots we pull up on the block 
in that limousine and then you get dropped
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
POORKID'S WORLD PART 1
THE ROSE CHRONICLES
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
a collection of songs that i
done did that loosely follow
a story of depression and
love featuring some of my
                goons
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
featuring 
https://soundcloud.com/sadboyprolific
https://soundcloud.com/itspete

produced lovingly by
https://soundcloud.com/heart-breakhill
https://soundcloud.com/nogcha_loops
https://soundcloud.com/cphbeats
https://soundcloud.com/bobbydexter
https://soundcloud.com/synthetic_dream
https://soundcloud.com/huchick

i can't believe i get to say this is my album, thank you all for listening and supporting me and helping me grow while i start my career as a soundclout rapper/sadboy vocalist. Im only gonna get better for you people <3

poorkid's world part 2 coming soon

-poorkid

limousine [ft. SadBoyProlific] (prod. Bobby Dexter)

Suicide Benz from Josh A's album 'Disgrace'

Josh A - Suicide Benz

Rxseboy - Memory (ft. SadBoyProlific)

Ok take a step back look at life we going to be alright
I sit in the back hooded up with the green light
keep my day bright like its sunny with the shade
losing track of time getting lost up in some green eyes
you can’t get it back no do over or a rewind follow with the energy and choose whatever feels right
im a follow passion what i imagine
and if I die tonight i know that everything going to be alright

It gon’ be aight
It gon’ be aight
It gon’ be aight


Ok I’m back on the mission i be flipping on my page
so I’m back with ignition gon be stepping on the gage
because nothing last forever gotta make it there today
with whatever He endeavour Got a smile up on his face
I stay searching wouldn’t want it see it anyway
she so perfect wouldn’t want it any other way
that’s that big smile child with them big old hips
summer cruise out to cultus on them big old rims
This that stardom like an athlete
overpacking backseats
running from the law like a muthafuckin track meet
feeling like the black sheep
already know your rap sheet
small town been around something little nasty
Hop up in my ride let’s take a cruise tonight
when it’s only you and I nothing to lose tonight
let’s make love let’s take drugs we a mood tonight
we some lovers intertwined pair of fools alike

Ok take a step back look at life we going to be alright
I sit in the back hooded up with the green light
keep my day bright like its sunny with the shade
losing track of time getting lost up in some green eyes
you can’t get it back no do over or a rewind follow with the energy and choose whatever feels right
ima follow passion what i imagine
and if I die tonight i know that everything going to be alright

It Gon’ to be aight
It gon’ be aight
It gon’ be aight

But Nothing last forever
So I hoped you loved me
For the time we had

Josh A - Suicide Benz

xiibrad

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