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Music by GP Beatz https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCIyHZgWTctBtugY8L_lDcpQ

Day Dreams - Victoria Frost

Can We Spend Time - Big Sim

Background music provided by:
Base de rap agresivo by Jadez Beats

Monster audio provided by:
Monster - Noah Cohen
Child - Soo Min Park
Sound design by Mitchell Allen
Written/directed by Paul Weston

Beat Wars 22

Monster in the Closet

Cut off your skeleton

happy halloween :)=

Skeletons

I Can't Sleep

Ice Floe Press (Cassandra Chorale)

Poem and music (Night Bloom): Vikki C.(c) 2023/4

Cover image: Robert Frede Kenter (c) 2024. 


Read the published written version at Ice Floe Press: 
https://icefloepress.net/because-love-is-an-abstract-noun-a-city-falls-invisibly-a-poem-and-spoken-word-piece-w-music-vikki-c-in-collaboration-w-robert-frede-kenter-image/

Because love is an abstract noun, a city falls invisibly – Ice Floe Press (Cassandra Chorale)

the kitten moon
                           q   u   i   v   e   r   s
                    within my arms

                           like a phantom
               in a cabaret
                                 yearning for warmth

                     wearing guilt on the runway
                                           and whispering prayers
               as an afterthought
                                 before fading away

                          just like the mechanical oscillating
           of rosary beads
                                    wrapped around my hands,
                           resembling chains

                      tempting me
                              like a paramour
                                         with a secret

                      and even the renegade sun's kisses
                                       seem like a gunslinger's bullets,
                     a refrain of a song
                                                     difficult to forget

                                 you are a sunsetflower
                                      stuck in the backseat,
                       the one i ache to grasp
                                          as i trace the sky with my fingertips

                         and like the absolution
                                                you slipped into my coffee,
                   you haunt me like a piano key

                                             i ruminate over
                          the después de arder
                        of your memory

                  you have become
                                        a part of me
                      i hesitate
                             to let go


 note :
vocals and melody done by the "mureka" app.. lyrics written by me..

absolution

every experience always initiates from
a flirting of daylight between satin curtains
and the sensation of its caresses
tiptoeing amidst the dissertation
of her mouth.

 

her tongue tasted like ash
and the blood from her lips
where his cigarettes and snake bites

decreed her drunk from

the kiss of his anathema
condemned her to a life

in the darkness.

 

the only light inside her room
illuminated the unseen things
that she hid beyond the mirror.

 

they say it’s just the heart that knows
but the mind unravels only what’s in between,
refracted in the eclipse of remembering.

 

a coliseum of stars hung in the balance
of the firmament within her vantage point
from the windowsill but, one by one,
they fell as the night howled with the wolves
for salvation in the shadow of a silent movie.

 

she eventually collapsed in slow motion rain
and the dialect of symphonies
escaped with her fading breath--
a misdiagnosis of a life once lived.

 

the emergence of sun and moon
in the tethering of clouds
could only define the divisions of love.

 

we lay here, floating in the air,
capable of only a fragment
                             of memory.


 note :
vocals and melody done by the "mureka" app.. lyrics written by me..

aletheia

i.

crushed lavender clothes my pale skin
as i bathe in your kiss
the sweet burn of winter
our song written in rain
lingering like a guitar riff
tangled in the afternoon light
eternity in a serenade
lips eclipsing in the stillness of breath
the gravity of a word
echoing in the silence
the physics of touch
the chemistry of warmth
an equation of your smile
in the abstraction of a whisper
the movement of hands
stolen by an afterthought
the simplicity of waking
a revolution in an embrace
medicine upon my tongue
the vernacular of the sun

ii.

we felt the electricity
within the push and pull of moonlight
a current in between our fingertips
a sip of rose wine
amidst the crash
and you touch me
at the base of my spine
almost hesitant,
waiting for answers
tiptoeing in curiosity
awkward caresses
and reluctant glances
soft light and muted music
echoing in the dark
an unchained melody
buried in our breaths

iii.

angels ruminate beneath the skyline
as our sighs lay hidden
unspoken in the twilight
"i could drown in my tears"
i say as i cover my eyes with remorse
"there is beauty in madness, my love"
you murmur, the tragedy of the forbidden
already written in the stars

note :
vocals and melody done by the "mureka" app.. lyrics by me..

c a t t l e y a

Lyrics by Gabryela

I was swinging between leaving and staying
For i love something that only keeps me bleeding
and this heart is bruising baby, oh so badly...
bruising... 

I was doing fine with champagne
Until your lips found mine
And I knew there could never be as sweet
as the softness you have laid on my lips

But we are like the cross and the moon
we are always at war
and we are always better far
we are fading far too soon
in this heart-rending monsoon. 
there's a desert to cross 
but you aren't  my Arab man

and i know we are playing strings 
strumming fantasies like guitar
You and i can create music
but nobody would dare sing it. 

you came back just i have glued myself back
and now i have lost moving on's track
i was building a bridge
and your walls crumbled it all. 

For we are like the cross and the moon
we are always at war
and we are always better far
we are fading far too soon
in this heart-rending monsoon
there's desert to cross 
but you aren't  here to be my Arab man

and i know we are playing strings 
strumming fantasies like guitar
You and i created music
but nobody had dared sing it. 

And baby, this affair has been so unfair
i'm always at the losing end

for we are like the cross and the moon
and i change mind too soon
and i swing between staying and goodbye
you are doing fine while i cry. 

The Cross and The Moon (new version: music by Kathleen Diluglio

.please bear with the recording quality of the song.


Verse 1:
Mind if I ask you to tell me why
Give me reasons why you'd fly
I never thought that you would leave me behind
Swallowed my pride, I begged you to stay
Won’t let the memories fade away
Coz' losing it, my life will never be the same

Refrain:
Pictures of you scattered on the floor
More than ever I need you more

Chorus:
Too late I can't hide, these feelings inside
I just hate you said goodbye
All those words that   you said,
I thought it was true but it's all a lie
I hate you & goodbye [2x]

Verse 2:
The day that you left, I felt alone
I think to myself I can't move on
You were the reason that my heart turned to stone
That was then that I realized
There’s more to life than love & guys
I don't need you to be there, I will be fine

Refrain 2:
I want to see you walk out that door
Coz' I don't need you anymore



Chorus:
Too late I can't hide, these feelings inside 
I just hate you said goodbye
All those words that you said,
I thought it was true but it's all a lie
I hate you & goodbye [2x]

Bridge:
If you think that I’ll die
Oh, I will live
Coz you're just some guy someday I’ll forget
Oh, you're not even worth the heart that I have given
The tears that I have cried,
& the songs that I have written
But this one's for you
To show you how much I hate you & your goodbye. :)

I hate you and goodbye

..the only thing love ever taught me was how to fall..

when i fall

what matters most ii

Halfway There

https://allpoetry-classic.com/poem/10185079

mardi gras of bones

https://wordsofgabby.wordpress.com/2020/12/03/reciprocity-remains-a-thing-i-cant-have/

if i decide to let you go,
please do not say i didn’t love you
because my love for you is how large
the sea can be.
and you can not equate how i feel for you
with staying.
if i decide not to talk to you again
please do not think for one second
i am not in pain
because every ounce of me aches
and there are nights when i couldn’t scream
the ache away
and you can not equate how i feel for you
with silence.
if i decide to ignore your existence,
please do not think i have forgotten
because you are the only memory
i couldn’t uncuff my hands from
and you can not equate how i feel for you
with not remembering.
if i should show you
how i have been bruising
to keep the distance between us,
you’d see how i have been black and blue
from the inside out.
you wouldn’t be able to comprehend
why would i nurse such feelings
despite of how you are you.
despite of you – not being able to love me.
but then again, you can not possibly equate
my feelings for you with reciprocity.

Reciprocity is as Elusive as You

your love is like a virus, quarantined inside my heart ~ yanie

c a t t l e y a

the language of roses and rain

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