I've been mostly,
drawn in ghostly,
haunted by each thought that knows me,
ever the never the same,
life is a video game,

where to begin?
when you're 8-bit and lowdown and pixelated,
keeping it in,
but it's not what you thought and you start to hate it,

so sip the screen and mash the buttons,
world held in these arms your cuttin',
you know it's well worth the hate,
and that's why you self mutilate,

standing on the brink,
of your own bottomless pit,
and trying not to think,

once I had my share of lovers,
we always did hate each other,
of course I was never to blame,
I needed someone to feed my pain,

insert coin,
but the closer you're getting the less you know her,
and you can conjoin,
and it's a prayer, and an error, and a new game over,

toggle joystick in her direction,
avoid any real connection,
but I can pretend to pretend,
if you've got a pocket to lend,

she'll be moving to,
the next level like they always do,
it doesn't matter who,
it doesn't matter...

it's just a video game.

VideoGame

one hundred bees
and they're all friendly,
in the cherry trees,
where I'm pretending
I'm not a jack in the box with a turn crank,
and I'm not gonna pop,
 as soon as the music stops,

in the marmot cave,
under the shed,
I gotta dig a grave,
cause one is dead,
the ground doesn't agree,
it's too rocky,
but you know life's that way,
it gives and takes away,

don't wait for me under the shed,
the ground's rocky and I'll be dead,
ain't gonna turn it around till I'm inside out,
don't wait for me,
don't wait for me,

one hundred bees,
i can hear them humming,
in the cherry trees,
where I'm becoming,
but the phantom sniff,
and the no way out,
and the one breath at a time,
cause I'm still gonna climb,

don't wait for me,
I'm here right now,
with the honesty,
you won't allow,
gotta turn it around till I'm inside out,
don't wait for me,

one hundred bees
and they're all friendly,
in the cherry trees,
where I'm pretending
I'm not a jack in the box with a turn crank,
and I'm not gonna pop,
 as soon as the music stops,

but as for now the music's flowing,
and I don't care just where it's going,
cause the Muse has been sweet upon my breath,
music my pure,
I wait for her...

100 Bees

Fate,
got me running for my higher ground, 
but wait,
I'm broken,
and it seems that there's none to be found,
of late,

no leg to stand on now,
things that i can't allow,
to stop me,
drag and drop me,

i can't get it right, i can't get it right, i can't get it right,
for a moment,

i fucked up,
like i always do, I'm kept inside my curse,
and all i can do is make it much, much worse,

my words don't mean a thing,
I'll speak by limping,
forwards slowly,
lost and lonely,

thought I had found higher ground,
but there is none to be found,
when i was falling,
heard it calling,
so mean to me,
thought I had found higher ground,
but there is none, and I am done,
thought I had found higher ground,

Higher Ground

1.Happy Ending (0:00)

It took a long, long, long, long time,
but silence is a friend of mine!
happy ever after! (no such thing as me)
happy ever after! (no such thing as you)
no such thing as you,

so won't you come along with me?
to a place called nullity?
and we'll be befriending,
some kind of happy ending,
no such thing as you

         ...

2.Spring Time(2:08)

She saw, through the birds that wore her winter,
in awe, they don't worry bout a thing,
nature, speaking in her secret language,
state your, purpose in the song you sing,
"the prison of time dissolves our love",

if it's gone then it was never there,
but then what do I know about such things?
not much, beauty wore an angry storm cloud,
don't touch, beauty broke her brittle wings,
"spring brings dead things back to life again,

the seed of every moment, 
blossoming into the greed,
mind bleeds mechanical ferment,
thoughts whored out to their live feed,
trying to avoid the thresher, 
voice of the father confessor,
the only secret I can keep,
happens to be myself,

Spring time, melting is a painful process,
if you once let yourself turn to ice,
they'll say it's schizophrenic psychosis,
if you refuse to roll their loaded dice,
if I live: great, if I die? that's great too,

spring time, I still cannot feel my fingers,
guess that's why I've been so out of touch,
it's fine, frost bite is the kiss that lingers
spring time, too little is much too much,
there'll be no funeral when I'm finally dead,

I'm melting, melting now in pain.
words are welting, ferment of the brain,

water is the soul of man,
and there's two ways he can,
go in this life he's given,
depending  how he's livin',
I'm still trying to walk the path of steam,
though the ice-age wears my every hope and dream,

no more, dead end door, bring it back to life,
you gotta meltdown, in the sound, sharpen your strife,
ice age, turn the page, boring to me,
you gotta outgrow, all you know, why can't you see?

spring time,now we'll see what's buried 'neath the snow,
things that I'd rather forget,
surfacing after sunset,
sentient cycles of abuse,
tie them into a nice noose,

spring time in a place that n one else will go,
under the tundras touch,
under the much too much,
words are just naked sound,
no meaning to be found,
I'm their stranger,
living in a most peculiar danger,
questions answer,
channel number 9's a necromancer,

Nature wrote a song, how did we get it wrong?

I'm still waiting in the frigids of the dark,
do the pine trees feel the cold upon their bark?

   ...

3.Mody and Bind (10:28)

Nature wrote a song, how did we get it wrong?
saying get with the program and throw it all away,
if I speak the truth, am I the one whose wrong?
cause the breath of extinction's on these borrowed words you say,

opinions bought and sold into the mad machine,
they want their slaves to lick it clean,
and now that you've been stabbed with that point of view,
what of me and what of you?

throw away all you were, 
let it out, don't you keep it pure,
throw away all you've been,
let them in, another mad machine,

you never seem to, ever seem to mind,
you don't know where it goes,
so offer up your mody and your bind,
you don't know where it goes,

why can't you hear, my dear?
this world is a weapon,
turn on your mind, to bind,
all the bile we're kept in,
I tell you you're right, you fight,
and still tell me that I'm wrong,

Nature held her child, deep within the wild,
til' we cut off her hands and suckled the machine,
I'm that dead end street, mechanical meat,
crying mother where are you as winter licks my soul,

you don't know where it goes...
you don't know where it goes...
you don't know where it goes...

Happy Ending/Spring Time/Mody and Bind

Where to begin?
when there's purity in each word unspoken,
and sound is a sin,
doing violence to silence that's best unbroken,

blasphemy is a treble cleft,
notes written from the left,
I can't create,
I can only destroy,
a prison cell made out of beauty,
the only way it'll stay with me,
I can't create,
I can only destroy,
so tear it all down,

I can only destroy,

where to begin?
when the ending is sending,
an advance preview,
and all that has been,
is whimsy and flimsy,
completely see through,

I am lost and that's all I've found,
silence caught in the sound,
I can't create,
I can only destroy,
a prison cell made of faith and hope,
I sing the song cause it helps me cope,
I can't create, 
I can only destroy,

so tear it all down.

DESTROY!!!

Fix me, 
repair me,
I'm starting to get,
a little scary,
as an opening bet,
at odds and very,
handicapped,
imagine that,

oh, help me,
I'm always in trouble,
trying to burst,
my beelzebubble,
it's a catering curse,
I'm my own stunt double,
for what lies between,
these inaction scenes,

oh...fix me,

pain program winding me up,
like a clockwork beast,
another puzzle,
yearning for the missing peace,
keeping it still,
but my heart, 
it starts to suffocate,
goes where it will,
least until, 
it finds it's much too late,

oh fix me, I'm breaking,
stuck in the state,
I'm forsaking,
a little too late,
so I'm faking,
the plastic smile,
the slurping bile,

oh help me,
the scent of another,
the sky weighs so much,
it's set me to smother,
I'm cold to the touch,
and every other,
tragedy,
no one can see,

oh fix me,
fix me,
fix me,

I'm looking, 
above me,
why don't you?
why don't you love me?
and isn't this hate,
a part of me?
why don't I love myself?
I got no one else,

oh...fix me,

Fix Me

I relapsed again,
you went squirrelly,
jumped on my pain,
I deserve it,
I deserve it,
you could hit me,
you could not,
you're so pretty,
when you're angry,
which is always,
so I thought,
you look so happy now that I'm a ghost,
you look so happy now,

kicked me out in the snow,
(I deserve it)
I got nowhere to go,
I deserve it,
I deserve it,
and I'll shiver off the stem,
I'm a fuck-storm,
I'm an ape-bomb,
Princess Never-Speak-Again,
you did the right thing to throw it away,
you did the right thing,

throw it all away now,

you pawned my guitar,
(I deserve it)
and fucked the meth dealer,
I deserve it,
I deserve it,
I'm a welcome mat in Hell,
and you're dirty feet,
used to feel so sweet,
all the stories you'll never tell,

time to tuck the nightmares into their beds,
kiss them upon their pretty heads,

I'll just go away now,
I''l just go away,

Goodbye.

I Deserve It

(In the Springtime of his discontent, how the husty lunger was upon him. His solvent wraith, projected into the higher ether. How was he too know? That his shadow was rooting into the nightmare latitudes to lay with the terror of all things. That the third lung would attack him, straight through till Winter.)

     ...

I've got alot to hold,
deep down here in the mold,
me and my damaged brain,
still trying to explain,
I've got alot to hold,
I've got alot to...

I cannot walk the walk,
I cannot talk the talk,
me and my damaged brain,
(and it's glitching)
still trying to explain,
(and it's itching)
I've got alot to hold,
I've got alot to,
I've got alot to...

Me And My Damaged Brain

(Suicide is something you live with.)

Gravity crawled inside,
your head and your heart,
and your hope of many mourners,
Haven't we denied?
that it's dragging us down,
and we're bound to our dirty corners,

Circle to be,
but I'm straight to the hate I create,
in my hall of mirrors,
No one here but me,
and a choice that could never be made...

"You look so smashing!"
said the hall of mirrors,
and I broke myself,
on all 41 years,
a thousand tiny shards,
each one sharp enough to cut you,
and your tarot cards,
hanging upside down,

And he breaks himself upon,
the absence of absence,
when anyone gets near him,
and he breaks himself upon,
directions to get lost,
that will always steer him,
nowhere fast,
at the speed of his need,
he would bleed out into the music,
rattle-chains long passed,
madness is a blessing to the cursed,

it's not over,
(yes it is.)
he, he, he's gonna break himself upon you,
he's gonna break himself,

someone call the M.A.I.D,
to clean up this mess,
spinning retrograde,
but I must confess,
it's better even still, 
to break yourself upon the beauty,
bind it to your breath,
and die while still alive,

And he breaks himself upon,
the warning of morning,
that tells him to keep on going,
And he breaks himself,
on the secret of secrets,
that no one else is knowing,
except they do,
and the heart is setting in forgetting,
why it's been beating,
the Beautiful and True...

You could never turn away.

Suicideways

Made me hold my breath,
this siren song that won't last long,
so love myself to death,
this rocky shore I can't ignore,

so pretty and sick,
said the candle to the wick,
so burn me down,
upon the ground,
all puddled wax,
and heart attacks,

life could be anything you want,
or just another house to haunt,

pretty soon the taste,
of beauty gone to waste,
sweet enough to like it rough,
the stabbing vein,
the church of pain,

God knows I've been there all my life,
if God knows anything at all,

if God knows anything at all,

Please don't hurt yourself,
(who are you to tell me what to do?)
Please don't hurt yourself,
(who are you to tell me what to do?)

so let them eat cake,
wishing bones must  break,
still I keep myself to myself,
a paragon of mental health,

alone, but the heart as ever strays,
someone must become the latest craze.

Phantom Stranger

A song for skeleton key,
who doesn't have any door,
you don't have to talk to me,
not now, not anymore,

Skeleton key,

no one here is guilty,
the brains have all been fed,
and the skeleton key,
locked inside his head,

advice from your split personality,
saying this pain is what's meant to be,

Skeleton key,
sits there lonely,
upon the cluttered shelf,
it hates the door,
and in it's war,
it turns upon itself,

metaphors are mixing,
your secret war of shame,
you're going to kill the world,
until it's all the same,

Skeleton key...

Skeleton Key

Lately all the marmots hate me,
I can't stop breathing,
I can't stop breathing,
Innie, Outtie,
Sinnie, Snouty,
guessed it, 
desperate,
For something, for anything,
anything at all,

I don't feel like writing lyrics,
don't feel like much now,
don't wanna tell how,
needy, greedy,
bottom feedy,
guessed it, 
desperate,
For something, for anything,
anything at all,

Fat on the Inside

Pip, start eating,
keep your heart beating,
Skoo-baby needs you,
Pip...don't you die on me,

Pip, keep squeaking,
Pip, keep seeking,
your eyes will open soon,
Pip...don't you die on me,

this mouse mother couldn't seem to get it right,
with his heart of ice and the three blind mice,
starts to melt and the feeling's felt,
just another painful lesson,

now their little bodies cold and stiff,
and the brand new cage and the only if,
I was gonna set them free,
in the bright new spring of everything,

you looked so peaceful to be drinking your milkies in my hand,

I kept them warm,
and safe from harm,
they just kept dying,
all I could do was cry,

Pip is dead now,
already said how,
Skoo-baby's alone,
don't think she'll make it through,

digging a grave in the backyard with a spoon,
it's a prayers don't save, it's a see you soon,
don't lie, we're all born to die,
when the curse gets worse it becomes a blessing,

this world can be such a beautiful place,
that I close my eyes and I hide my face,
every breath is the clock of death,
when the 12 is done we'll become ONE,

and I 'm bereft,
but there is still one mouse left,
at least for now,

hello little one,
don't be scared,
hello little one,
you'll be cared for,
I will care for you,
you'll be safe and warm,
you'll be kept from harm,
hello little one,
hello,
drink some milk!
...

fucking hell, I couldn't get it right,
wishing well, you're dying very night,
what am I supposed to do?
Sorry for me, sorry for you,
and I'm sorry for being sorry too,
they hop me up on the brand new torture,
the button presser, the 2nd guesser,
world's gone mad for a brand new torture,

up all night on mouse duty,
trying to get a little beauty,
into me, and into everything,
infinity, what I could never sing,

my heart's a miniature graveyard now,
my head is fed on a brand new torture,
"you never listen, you never listen",
world's gone mad for a brand new torture,

                  ...

3 Blind Mice

the sound he made,
just won't fade,
retrograde,

the echo sounds in reverse,
until all you can hear is the curse,
the gutter swallows the stars.
for dumb rent-boy and his citadel of scars,

citadel of scars,

emotions rot,
and all that's not,
is every thought,

there is no wrong or right,
he's the tunnel at the end of the light,
perfect in all that he mars,
poor dumb Rent-Boy and his citadel of scars,

what is love?
a lie made of,
push and shove,

prison of powdered release,
trying to get his mind to desist and decease,
can't see the cell for the bars,
poor dumb Rent-Boy and his citadel of scars,

there is no right or wrong,
he's the sad part at the end of the song,
perfect in all that he mars,
poor dumb Rent-Boy and his citadel of scars,

Rent-Boy

Often I wait in my invisible chains,
growing breath in the boneyard,
ohhh,
I am the War,
ohhh,
I am the door,

opens me up with a key made of pain,
and the silence starts to scream,
ohhh,
eternal design,
ohhh,
give me a sign,

and I've been having strange dreams,
as if I understand,
harmonic convergence,
is there a master plan?
Lucifer Stormbringer,
told me he's bringing Hell,
and if he slays the Darkness,
you know I wish him well,

cause they greed in the sty,
and they feed on the young,
poisoning everything they touch,
ohhh,
the food and the air,
ohhh,
the media blare,
turning wrong into right,
turning day into night,
turning man into machine,
ohhh,
all I've been through,
ohhh,
what can I do?

and I was in a strange room,
looking in the mirror,
he was my reflection,
and he spoke so clear,
I'm Lucifer Stormbringer,
is what he said to me,
but what are his intentions?
and will he set us free?

tell me do,

he said he's bringing in the storm,
Lucifer,
he said he's bringing in the storm,

and so I prayed for answers,
cause there was no one else,
and then I heard the mirror say,
you gotta help yourself,
Man is the Redeemer,
you gotta help yourself,
Man is the answer,
Man is the only way out,
Man is the Reedemer,

you gotta help yourself,

Stormbringer

I would like to...
I would like to...

I would like to give you a ride,
anywhere that you would like to go,
and if'n you don't I'll just go away,
but if'n you do I've something to say,

there is no such thing as free time,
just a prison of the flesh,
it's a ladder to climb and a long way down,
I'm not in love with you I'm in love with the ground,

but I would like like to meet your dog,
the one with the aura so sweet,

and I would like to meet your dog,
I would like to meet your dog,

put your hands upon the Ouija board,
I would like to,
the only kind of fun we can afford,
I would like to,

meet your dog,
I wanna meet your dog,


I would like to give you a ride,
anywhere that you would like to go,
and if'n you don't I'll just go away,
but if'n you do I've something to say,

I would like to meet your dog,
the one with the aura so sweet,

and I would like to meet your dog,
I would,
I would like to meet your dog,

I Would Like To Meet Your Dog

Hey Jenny, let's be friends!!!
you can still hate me until all is reimbursed,
cause all was odds and ends,
until I heard your beautiful curse,

Jenny, let's be friends!
Jenny, let's be...

Hey Jenny, let's be friends!
I promise that I won't share my nightmares,
but without an ear that lends,
how will we ever play musical chairs?

I'm worthless,
I'm worthless,
I'm worth this,

maybe we could sing a song?
maybe we could song,
we could sing it all day long!
maybe we could sing a song!

oh such beautiful curses!
OH!
oh such beautiful curses!
OH!
oh such beaut...

Jenny let's be friends!!!

Hey Jenny let's be friends,
you can still hate me,
I know that you do,
but my heart pretends,
and I know I could be a friend to you,

Jenny, let's be friends!!!

do you remember when the moustached girl,
got us trapped within a Shriner parade?
I'm still there,
oppressed by the dinky cars,

do you remember when the tattooed man,
tried to recruit us for his crime spree?
I digress,
Jen,
let's be friends,

let's be friends!

Hey Jenny, let's be friends!!!
and i really don't know what else to say,
and if the song offends,
I promise that I will just go away,
Jenny let's be,

Jenny let's be friends!!!
I'm making amends,
with this song I send,
Jenny lets be friends!!!
oh such beautiful curses!
OH!
oh such beautiful curses!
OH!
oh such beaut...

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