Holy Grail Freestyle (Interlude) [Prod. Troy L]

Post-Timeskip [Prod. Jvst X]

[Lyrics] 

Who's Sivade?
Someone who keeps the fire when through the rain
Doin things 
That make him happy even if you complain 
You could say
I'm known to do the most when I'm movin, mane
Too insane 
Stuck in a battle forever losing, dang
Why is that? 
Wait cause I'm second guessing my blessings
Recollection is dead cause traumatic pain turned to lessons 
I bet the best couldn't flex through the constant pain and the stressing
That's on my brain when depression is pulling me down from heaven
How did we get to this point? 
Hard work and consistency 
Truly used to think that nobody ever could sit with me
Fuck with me lyrically, physically, or even mentally 
Dissin me ended in misery for anyone listening 
I
Used to be timid, shy, and no one was into me
Had to
Work on myself and now them niggas is feelin me
On my
Path to the millions making dozens of enemies 
I can't 
Worry about em if it's up keep that energy 
Look
I grew up having faith, used to believe in em
Now if my father return then trust that I will be leaving him 
RumbleWorld full of potential so you know I'll be leading em
If I ended up with 1 plate of food I'd be feeding em
Facts
See everybody who supported the king get it back 
Don't worry bout none of them haters
No thinking of that 
Just put that energy on paper when making a track 
And say whatever comes to mind ain't no taking it back 
Don't make it and scrap
Put the ink to that paper and snap 
On top of helpin all the fans you'll be making the cash 
I know the labors of the world steady breakin ya back 
But take it as jabs
Like when boxing and break em in half 
And never let them see you weak
When you shaking and sad
They'll paint you as small so you gotta replace it with wrath 
Get in everybody's fuckin face then attack 
Let em know that you ain't taking the crap
They're mistaken if that's
What everyone wanted to think of you, homie 
All these assumptions about him are steady making him lonely 
I feel like the more that I'm known the more they can't really know me 
And all the love I tend to get from everyone is just phony
I wish that I could tell the difference
That's somethin I got to live with
Entertain the pretentious 
I guess it is what it isn't 
Bottle up all emotions until they spill when they written 
And give it back to the world 
To which it's slowly forgiven 
I want to control the rage of Retsu
But neglect to
If you played a part in my journey never forget you 
I may never get why you hate me but I accept you 
Just be careful handling fame and making your next move
Without further ado
Welcome to my shit
Only thing you'll find here is my passion for rhyming 
I walk a lonely road but I'm split and act indecisive 
So will I stay on topic? We'll figure out through a Timeskip 

Pre-Timeskip [Prod. AudeeGotClout]

[Lyrics] 

It seems that alot of yall are mistaken 
That all I do is scream when I rap and I'm really basic 
There's layers to my music I know the heights I can take it 
I don't say this to say that I'm faking
I'm very blatant 
I came into the game huggin Japanese animation
That shit got old and thus over time I began to hate it 
I barely had the music without it stuck to my name and it's a shame
That I am just now explaining who is Sivaden
Bitch
Just a nigga from the burbs
Grew up wit granddaddy 
been the biggest of nerds
I knew I wanted the world
I was given the earth
Wanted to get it at birth
I didn't curse
Won't even flick em the bird
I was an innocent nerd
I moved around
They treated me like a turd
That's when my vision had blurred
Started to get into fights wit the kids I ain't like
Every night I was gaming and editing
I told them all take a hike cause I move how I like
But that life every day get repetitive 
Started to vent on the mic 
Did a song every night, got it right
Now Sivade in his element 
Boy I was sharp as knife when I write take a life
Shit I might just display how I'm better than
Everybody that I ever came across
Niggas tried to Bully him now Bray the boss
Run up on me then them legs I break em off
They just mad they stuck and my shit taking off
Try to drag my name through the mud
Dirt up on my shoulder I just shake em off
Any threat I had I always take em on
Don't know what the fuck that you was thinking
Dawg
Boy my mama never raised no bitches 
Everyday was goin bout my business 
She kept buying games and buying pizza
Wanted me to stay in but I didn't 
Catch me in ya neighborhood we mobbin 
Squad deep and we wit the problems 
They touch any one of us we boxin
Back at it tomorrow like it's nothin 
I never cared for opinions 
Nigga I grew
Yall niggas Gru wit the minions 
Just to protect your existence 
Scared to be different 
That's why you life ain't consistent 
I'm a Namekian stuck livin here wit the Simpsons 
None of yall unique in vision 
Here go my ass you can kiss it
If any dip shit think I'ma fold and give in
Shit
You niggas got another thing coming 
Middle Class I kinda came from somethin 
My life wasn't terrible or nothin 
But that don't mean to go and make assumptions 
Niggas still had problems up in school 
Damn near every class that I was flunkin 
Graduated lowest in my class
Came up with the music now I'm stuntin
I got dumped she left me for my homie
Auntie died and that shit made me lonely 
All my childhood friends had moved away
A couple numbers changed now they don't know me 
Father tried manipulating me
My mother always told me he was phony
That girl told the whole world that she loved me
Just to find out that shit was baloney 
Had to cut off one of my close homies
Never knew that bro was out here grooming 
Yes I understand that we get lonely 
But like what the fuck you niggas doing?
Other father figure passed away
It hurt my brother soul I had to move in 
Been around so many suicides
Depression got me so tempted to do it

7AM on Chuckwood Drive [Prod. Troy L]

[Lyrics] 

I'm the therapist friend who doesn't get therapy 
I'm also the elephant in the room when they stare at me 
No one cares for me so think carefully about caring see I don't see competition cause no one really compare to me
Damn near hate my mindset
I can't find rest
Cause the way I'm carrying myself isn't quite best 
But my guess is I can't be taking advantage of
Many wounds leak from my battles
Need to be bandaged up
I'm insecure so I end up hiding through arrogance 
You're suprised but this is how kids with a single parent lives 
So to think that I have myself together? Hilarious 
Stuck in solitude when my thoughts are often the scariest 
Nothin too crazy just suicide
I'm too much of a coward to go through with it 
Truest lie 
There's space and opportunity that separates you and I
I'd throw my life away and yell out yeet 
Cause I'm too alive 
These beats get me through the times
I'm stuck, suffer in silence cause you wouldn't get it
My problems are miniscule, you get it? 
I'm too pathetic 
And if I were to leave tomorrow I know that you'd regret it 
But I'm too invested in life, music, and soon I'm headed for a new beginning 
A happy ending and dude I'm begging 

Therapist Friend [Prod. WayPast]

[Hook] 

Yeah I've been steady waiting
Waiting for my time to shine
Yeah I've been steady waiting
Waiting for my time to die
Cuz I've been stuck up in my thoughts
Lost and I can not be found
I'm alone inside this world
I feel lost inside this crowd
Cuz I've been
I've been lost inside my mind 

[Lyrics] 

Cause I been lost (lost)
Niggas trynna steal the sauce (sauce)
I was never one to work for em 
Cause I'd much rather be the boss
Floss
On em every time they see me
Wish em well like a genie 
Blonde shorty wanna play house 
Finna introduce her to the pee wee
Making rap look easy 
Yea that's me 
Feelin like shit cause I can't make a beat
Hit the homies for the free 
Like every other week
They ain't charging me a fee 
Cause the gang gotta eat
But it's all good I'm the one who gotta lead
By example 
Ride a beat like a bike, bars I can handle 
Niggas try steppin up? Get em dismantled 
Up fire then let it blow like a candle 
Ugh
Sending out positive energy 
So how am I my own cognitive enemy?
Spent a couple years droppin my enemies 
Focused on alot of my possibilities 
But inside I'm afraid of success 
What if all my homies stay where they at?
What if I'm the only one underground?
Will they pull me up or fake it and flex?
What if what I want is not what I need?
I won't know unless I follow the dream
All I know is that I'm lonely and broke 
So when the money come I'm sharing with me
Famous people they can't do what I do
When you're big you can't just go out to eat
Paparazzi finna follow your whip
And take a picture of you just trynna breathe 
I wouldn't like that
Nigga I just want bread and a nice hat
I just want to make songs where the mic at?
I just want to spend time around my pack
I just wanna find love before I pass
I just want to make brothers on my path 
I just want everybody to turn all they hobbies into somethin crazy just like that 
I just want my own father to stay safe
Even though you're a coward who save face
I just want my all my exes to to stay strong
Sorry for all the hurt that would take place 
I just hope my new girl is my last girl
Cause if she eat my heart better say grace
Every hoe who rejected me suffers
And that's what you get for trynna make Sivade wait 
Why? 

[Hook] 

Yeah I've been steady waiting
Waiting for my time to shine
Yeah I've been steady waiting
Waiting for my time to die
Cuz I've been stuck up in my thoughts
Lost and I can not be found
I'm alone inside this world
I feel lost inside this crowd
Cuz I've been
I've been lost inside my mind

Sivade

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