A song about trying to find one's epiphany of their true selves.

This song was inspired by one of my OCs, Mikako, who acts like she doesn't care about what people think of her when on the inside, she really does care. Her hidden feelings are what inspired her to write this song for her band, CUB1X.

Lyrics: Ibara Mikako
Music: Ibara Mikako & Chisana Airi
Vocals & Keyboard: Ibara Mikako
Lead Guitar: Sasaki Kanade
Guitar: Fukube Ayato
Bass: Chisana Airi
Drums: Tsubari Hotaro

Lyrics:

The stars are shining bright tonight
But no one's here to hold me tight
Even though I'm alone, I don't feel like that at all
I'm used to being like this all the time 
People avoid me once a while
And I don't know the reason why
They would say things that hurt and I'll act like I'm not swayed
The truth is I want to run away

Each day I feel like my facade is getting weak
Each day; I'm no longer complete

I know sometimes I can be mean
I know sometimes my words can hurt
But they're all just some lies that I came up with before
To protect myself from the world

Each day I feel like masquerading my own life
Each day; I don't feel alive

Where's my epiphany?
Where's my happy ending?
Where's my epiphany?
Where's my harmony?

Where's the epiphany?
Where's the happy ending?
Where's the epiphany?
Where's the harmony?

The moon is shining bright tonight
And no one's here to hold me tight
Even though I'm by myself, I don't feel uncomfortable
Cause I'm starting to like being alone

Epiphany

A song I wrote with a friend of mine, about how fake people are and how they always put on a show.





Lyrics:

1, 2, 3, go!

Well, now that you mention it, it's time for the show to begin!
Let's put on our masks and go greet our everlasting crowd!
We'll put on a show that they will never ever forget!
It's enough to reel them all into our very own secret trap~

Once they think that everything's alright, they'll lower their guard
And that's the perfect moment for us to expose all of their secrets

It's showtime!
Let us all sing and dance like nothing is wrong
It's showtime!
Let us all let loose and forget the sins we've done
It's showtime!
Let us all pretend that we all get along
Cause isn't that what you wanted from the beginning of all this?

Since the show has begin, here's a toast to all of our guests
Let's make sure they all have a really, really good time
We'll cater to all of their needs until they feel satisfied
It's enough to make them think that we can be trusted

(Instrumental)

Once they feel like it's safe, they'll slowly unveil their masks
And that's the perfect moment for us to find out who they really are

It's showtime!
Let us all sing and dance like nothing is wrong
It's showtime!
Let us all let loose and forget the sins we've done
It's showtime!
Let us all pretend that we all get along
Cause isn't that what you wanted from the beginning of all this?

Showtime! ft. Black Pantsu

Intermezzo

A song I wrote during one of my lowest points in life, the song are questions that I have always asked myself and never found the answers to.


Lyrics:

Jika aku dapat melihat dunia seperti dulu, mungkinkah semua pertanyaanku dijawab masa lalu?
Jika aku dapat menyeberangi sungai yang arusnya deras, apakah aku akan puas setelah bekerja keras?

Lihat aku, ke dalam jiwaku
Apakah kau dapat mencari kata yang tepat?

Jika cahaya bulan menyinari dunia dan alunan musik terdengar ceria, mengapa engkau mengeluarkan air mata dan tak ada yang melihat?

Meskipun pribadi mereka semua sangat perhatian, dapatkah itu menentukan bahwa mereka terpercaya?
Meskipun suara kicauan burung-burung sangat merdu, haruskah aku mendengar dan membuka telingaku?

Genggamlah erat, tanganku ini
Apakah kau dapat menyuarakan isi hati?

Meskipun semua orang berkata bahwa, "Kesuksesan akan membuatmu bahagia."
Apakah gunanya kita berjuang jika pada akhirnya sia-sia?
Saat engkau dilanda duka yang mendalam dan mereka semua tersenyum lebar, apa gunanya memenjarakan perasaan dan bersembunyi dari kenyataan?

Bunga-bunga di padang memang indah saat mereka menari diiringi hembusan angin, namun apakah mereka berpura-pura untuk menikmatinya?

Walaupun aku tidak mempunyai cita-cita yang jelas, bisakah aku memperoleh kebahagiaan yang ikhlas?

Jika semuanya berjalan dengan mulus, bukankah kehidupan menjadi membosankan?
Meskipun tidak ada penderitaan, bukankah itu lebih menyedihkan?
Walaupun kita berada ditengah sahabat dan teman-teman lain yang sedang berdansa, mengapa engkau merasa seolah-olah semua tidak mempunyai arti?

Terkadang aku berpikir, mengapa ini terjadi?
Namun semua hal pastinya memiliki sebuah jawaban 


Wals Seorang Anak

The instrumental version, there are no vocals in the track.

Lalu...? (Instrumental)

The piano version, I recorded it using the piano at home so the sound quality isn't that good

Lalu...? (Piano Version)

The original theme song for a short film titled "Njuk".  
This song is written from the perspective of the second lead, the lyrics focus on how she views the main character. The background vocals represent the main character as if he was having a conversation with the second lead throughout the song. 
The song is called "Lalu...?" which means "and then...?" in Indonesian, since "Njuk" itself means the same thing in Javanese.
Also, I recorded the vocals using a recorder's mic, so forgive me if it sounds weird.


Lyrics:

Meksipun dirimu tak pernah sadar
Bahwa diriku selalu mengagumimu
Semua kenangan kita yang berharga terlukis dalam benakku
Walaupun kau merasa dirimu tak mampu
Ku berjanji akan selalu di sampingmu
Andaikan kau bisa melihat dirimu melalui sudut pandanganku

(Lalu?)
Mengapa kau tak pernah mengerti isi hatiku?
Bukalah matamu serta pikiranmu
Tinggalkanlah masa lalu

Gambaran masa depan yang kau inginkan
Tidaklah jauh dari cengkraman tanganmu
Ulurkan tanganmu dan raih impian
Biarkan yang sudah berlalu 

Walaupun kau selalu merasa kesepian
Seakan tak ada yang peduli padamu
Ingatlah pada cahaya matahari yang senantiasa menemanimu

(Lalu?)
Kenapa kau justru terdiam dan putus asa?
Dengar, hatimu sedang berteriak:
"Sampai kapan kau mau begini saja?"

Segala perkara yang telah kau hadapi
Merupakan karya yang paling bermakna
Genggamlah semua harapanmu ini
Meski ku tak ada-

(Lalu?)
Lalu? Kenapa?
(Lalu?)
Apa yang kau harapkan?
(Lalu?)
Apa yang kau inginkan?
(Lalu?)
Bisakah kau tutup mulutmu?!

Meski masa depan tak terlihat dengan jelas
Walau masa lalu selalu digenggam erat
Janganlah sampai kamu menyerah
Lalu...?
Meskipun ku takkan bisa mendampingimu
Walaupun ku takkan bisa menemanimu
Ku yakin bahwa kau kan baik-baik saja
Biarkan yang dulu berlalu
Majulah terus, selalu

Lalu...?

Hi!
I'm a piano player who can also play drums. 
I like to read and write stories, which is why I decided to write songs as a hobby.
The things I post here are just for fun, so I hope you enjoy them :)

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