Edit from future: I am keeping this up only for personal reasons. Otherwise it would disappear into the abyss of all the other songs I've privated. This really should not be public. Sorry.

Original description: Best with headphones and turned up slightly too loud.
This acts as a sequel to a song I made over a year ago called “Back to the Step.” It’s also my first dubstep song since then. The drops really got most of the love here.

Smoked

The Step

It’s a sweet day. Releasing the last bit of bitterness.
Might want to wait until tomorrow to listen to this.

Also, I know that I’m not always perfectly on the note. I also refrained from using tuning effects. This is not a showcase of my abilities.

No more songs will be written about this. After 3 years it’s time to let go.

Lyrics:
Sometimes
It’s hard to say
Everything that you wanna
So I threw it away
But sometimes
It renters my brain
And I have to reconsider
Every word that I say

Sometimes
I find it hard to say
Everything that I wanna
So I write here today
Sometimes
My mind’s in a place
Where I just can’t get over
Every word that I place

Sometimes
I just want to say
Everything that I never could
‘Cause you threw it away
Sometimes
I don’t know your face
And I empathize with
Myself from younger days

But this time
I ain’t floating away
I won’t make excuses
For the way I behaved
Oh, this time
I will stand up straight
Look you in the eyes and say
That I’m willing to repay

[Chorus]

Sometimes
I find it hard to think
I got a flair for the drama
But you don’t know my pain
Sometimes
I just wanna sink
Into obscurity from all this
But you would never know I changed

Sometimes
I find it hard to breathe
Believed in destiny so all this
Would ever lead to anything
Sometimes
I can hardly believe
You don’t think change, it’s been three years now
I promise I got receipts

Sometimes
I try to think
Of what goes on inside your head when
You ever do think of me
I’m sure that I’m
Not there much but believe me
I’m happy for the fact that
You moved on, I just can’t see

How I would ever mend this, you’ll view me as a menace
Even when I just want to be friends again
A simple selfless gesture could mean the end of this
All, but what even is this when I
Can’t even speak, you’ll have to reach out to me, I’m beggin’
Please, contact me, I need my sleep
Even a text of “HBD” could be
Viewed as an attempt at an opportunity

[Chorus]

Sometimes
It’s too hard to say
Anything that I wanna
So please don’t throw this away
Next time
We meet face to face
I hope you recognize me somewhat
And see that I now have some grace

[Chorus + Post Chorus]

I Don’t Think (Text) - Single

I Don’t Think (Text)

Grab the best speaker you have.

Sample by the Christ the King Catholic School choir.

Chop it Down - Single

Chop it Down

Chop It Down

One day late, but happy 18th. Hope I get to meet with you again someday.

Made this back in 2021. Probably the last of my organic releases.

Memories - Single

Memories

Ripped off Bassnectar. Had fun doing it. Enjoy.

Photo by @untitled_404official

Simulation - Single

Simulation

A training exercise in Post-IDM.

Credits:
Composer: Ben G. Torrisi
Sound design: Ben G. Torrisi
Synthesizers: Ben G. Torrisi
Programming: Ben G. Torrisi
Sampling: Ben G. Torrisi
Vocals: Ben G. Torrisi

Record producer: Ben G. Torrisi
Mixing engineer: Ben G. Torrisi
Audio engineer: Ben G. Torrisi
Technician: Ben G. Torrisi

Artwork: Ben G. Torrisi

Published by To Hell with Heaven Music
© 2023 Ben G. Torrisi

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Effusive

Download for uncompressed audio.

Sampled melodies: “No Hands” by Waka Flocka Flame; “It’s De-Lovely” from “Anything Goes”

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Brighter Than the Sun

self-taught producer, rapper, singer & songwriter
Post-IDM/experimental electronic music

EP coming late this year.
Older tracks are private. DM for link.

Ben G.

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