Legend in the making

Legend In The Making {prod. Josh Petruccio}

I'm not depressed, I don't wanna die 
But some days deep inside feeling like I wanna cry 
Looking back at the time Ive wasted, knowing theres more time to waste im looking back to better days. 
Looking back to all the pain I caused. Feeling like my life is a movie, someone please press pause. 

Now im feeling fucked up, got myself druged up. What the fuck you mean? Why y'all got me locked up? 

And I don't wanna be that anymore 
I was so done, I was getting bored.
And I don't wanna be that anymore 
I don't wanna be that guy 

Cause all hes ever brought to me is pain. 
He made me feeling like I was going insane. 
I don't like it when I'm looking in the mirror, refelecton of myself don't make it any clearer. 
He reminds me of the days when I felt useless. To the days when I metally abused us. 
Smoking all the time and I'm getting so high im forgetting time. When I'm sober, feeling like I'm left behind. 

And I don't wanna be that anymore 
i was so done, i was getting bored 
And I don't wanna be that anymore no
I don't wanna be that guy

And I know it sounds corny but it's true. 
Without those feelings I wouldn't never ever havent met you. 
Time to rip the bandade of and let the wounds heel. 
I Felt so insecure It was like I'm Achilles heel. Ye
Was full of joy in the beginning, was full of numbness when i stated teening. Now I'm wiser n figured out  life ain't a riddle. 
manipulated everything like a goddamn fiddle. 

And I know I've had bad infucences but so did you. And you didn't see it but it was so goddamn true. The world isn't only evolving around you. 
I'm started to care more about me and stated hating you. 

 
But now it's time for me to let go. 
There is still room for me to grow. 
You are the one that caught me when I was down low.  Now I'm Putting my emotions on the paper. Hoping music is gonna me  some theraputic favor. 
I'm in heartbreak city so mine shattered into pieces. 
That's for my g33's and my 666's. and That's been me before 17, I was so gone off that 30 bean.
When my man's got shot 2 tears I shed 
Coudnt face hard truth. Rip x, peep and all the other legends. 
They changed me for the better

And I don't wanna be that anymore 
I was so done, I was getting bored.
And I don't wanna be that anymore 
I don't wanna be that guy 

Guess it worked huh?

not that guy

Not That Guy  {prod. Josh Petruccio}

I was thinking bout you lately, feeling like I should write a love letter nahh that's crazy. 
You keep on looking the other way trying to hide you feelings.
 please just Face me.... Please just Face me. 

You know I've been dealing with a lot a things lately. 
You know I'm on the edge, not having you in my life would break me. 
And I've been stressed out lately, thinking bout killing and burying it lately.
Fake it till you make it is what I'm living by lately. 
I don't know any other way it's for my own safety. 
Where did the time go where I called you baby. Yeah yeah yeah,  Where i called you baby. 

poured out my heart and you just left me. 
Ain't nobody left to correct me I'm a losse cannon but at least I'm  free again.
Fuck this I'm out you'll never see that side of me  again. You blew it you've had your change.
You the opposite of godly let have a devil's dance. This is what I like to call fucked up romance. 

I don't understand how I've put so much time and effort in someone latey Wasted my last 2 years on a maybe.
Voices in my head talking to me telling me  I'm crazy(I'm crazy) 
Feeling like we can't co-exitst please just face me

And I been dealing with a lot of things lately. 
Trying to get my life back on track lately. 
Waking up in bed screaming save me. 
Insomnia calling in on my trying to take me. 
The reaper nextdoor just paciently waiting. 
I don't do thing stuck in a loop think m fainting. 
You are worse then any drug I ever took I hate the craving. 
Fuck you. wish I could erease you.
Probably laughed at all the things you put me through. 
I would go to hell and back for you. 
Metally addicted but you were never good for me. 
After all this time I finally realized it wasn't ment to be. I thought you were the one for me. but guessing it's was all just in my fantasy. 

And I've been going through the ringer lately
Put the iron to my head pulled the trigger but forgot the safety. 
Always keep that thing tucked for imergancy. 
Might use it on you, mind snapped going on a killing spree. 
Couldn't get you so I fucked em by the 3. 

That's a ez way out for me I couldn't see what really bothering me is the fact that you can't SEE. 
That all you ever did was playing me??? 
You broke my heart bitch, uhhh  

Pack you bags and move out, yeah  you better flee. Just like you did to me 
Just like you did to me you ain't no mockingbird. Came back when I was out of the picture like OH now you seeing me?
Nahh go back to the fuckboys who broke you in the first place. Get the fuck outta my face. Slammed the doors and hit my breaks time to calm down the Strom inside. Calming the blood in my vains. 
Put on my smily face and telling her girl you slayy. Calling you bae. Ain't no love letters in the sky. 
Thought to many times why bother to even try. 
I'll always just be the one who stays by your side. 

Drop fucking dead. I hate you !

I'm jus playing y'all know I love you {haha}

5th Element