big matt 2

Kill Yaself feat. Jelly Roll

brand new single from the BoonDock Kingz Produced By: Lava and Lean of Da Arsonist

5:30am (BoonDock Kingz)

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True Stories

Tough Guy

[Chorus]
It’s that time of the year again
Cold nights, no one here again
Hope you still call when it’s hard to pretend
When your demons come and you need a friend
I’ve been up late, still chasing ghosts
Talking to myself, yeah I do the most
If you need me, baby, you can hit my phone
Even if I’m gone, you’re not alone

[Verse 1]
I’ve been stuck inside my head, it’s a dead zone
All this pain I carry like a headstone
People switchin’ on me like a ringtone
So I light another blunt just to get gone
Yeah, they see me now, wanna surf my wave
Did it all myself, no one came to save
I’ve been working all night, no sleep for days
Tryna write my pain down, find better ways

They say I got bars, but I’m locked in a cage
Tryna free my soul from the shit I made
Don’t need fake love, I need peace instead
When I’m high, I forget what the voices said
Yeah, I’m numb but I feel too much
Life’s a dream, I just can’t wake up
In my zone, I don’t need no show
Just me, my mic, and some weed to blow

[Chorus]
It’s that time of the year again
Cold nights, no one here again
Hope you still call when it’s hard to pretend
When your demons come and you need a friend
I’ve been up late, still chasing ghosts
Talking to myself, yeah I do the most
If you need me, baby, you can hit my phone
Even if I’m gone, you’re not alone

[Verse 2]
Can’t escape from the pain I’m facing
Everyone fake, I can’t name replacements
My heart been vacant, that’s understatement
Life look good on paper, but I hate it

Yeah, I’ve been faded, don’t know where I’m going
If I said I’m fine, I was never showing
I don’t trust nobody, they just shape shift
When I’m in the coupe, they don’t say shit

Yeah, I’m drifting, I lost my way
Too many nights, I ain’t slept in days
Pour another cup just to feel okay
Tell my bro, “one day, we gon’ get paid”

I’d rather fight in the ring than lie in a box
‘Cause the world don’t love you ‘til your heart just stops
So I chase that dream, even when I’m lost
Even when it hurts, I’ma pay that cost

[Chorus / Outro]
It’s that time of the year again
Cold nights, no one here again
Hope you still call when it’s hard to pretend
When your demons come and you need a friend
I’ve been up late, still chasing ghosts
Talking to myself, yeah I do the most
If you need me, baby, you can hit my phone
Even if I’m gone, you’re not alone

Yeah, yeah, yeah...
Even if I’m gone, you’re not alone

chasing ghosts

EMBXDIMENT

[Intro]
Snow’s fallin’, lights glowin’, world feelin’ warm,
But my heart’s cold tonight.
You ain’t sittin’ in that chair no more,
And that hits harder than any storm.

[Verse 1]
This the first Christmas without you, Dad,
Tree’s up, but it don’t shine like it had.
Your laugh ain’t echo through the walls no more,
No boots by the door, no hat on the floor.
You used to wake me early, cocoa on the stove,
Now it’s just silence in this home I know.
I try to smile for Mom, for the fam, for the vibe,
But every carol cuts deep like a knife inside.
We hang the lights, but it don’t feel bright,
The table’s set but somethin’ ain’t right.
Your seat’s still there, man, I can’t move it,
I still talk to you, even though you ain’t hearin’ it.
These gifts under the tree don’t mean a thing,
When the biggest gift gone, the joy you bring.
Every memory replay like a film on loop,
And the silence louder than the whole damn room.

[Chorus]
This the first Christmas without you, Dad,
Tryna smile but my soul feel sad.
I see your face in the glow of the lights,
I hear your laugh in the cold of the night.
You taught me strength, now I’m learnin’ pain,
You taught me faith, now I’m callin’ your name.
Yeah… this the first Christmas without you, Dad,
And it hurts, but I’m thankful for the love we had.

[Verse 2]
I remember the times you’d sneak them gifts,
Sayin’ “Santa came early,” like I wouldn’t catch the drift.
Now I’d trade every present, every wrapped-up bow,
Just to hear you laugh one more time, bro.
I see your photo by the fire when I sip that cup,
Pretendin’ you still here liftin’ spirits up.
You the reason I grind, the reason I rise,
Taught me real kings never break, they survive.
But damn, it’s hard without your voice in my ear,
Sayin’, “Son, keep pushin’, don’t give in to fear.”
You was my hero, my mentor, my base,
Now I light a candle just to feel your grace.
Mom tryna hold strong, I see the tears she hide,
She cookin’ your favorite dish, pain in her eyes.
We all play tough but we break inside,
‘Cause it don’t feel like Christmas without your light.

[Chorus]
This the first Christmas without you, Dad,
Tryna smile but my soul feel sad.
I see your face in the glow of the lights,
I hear your laugh in the cold of the night.
You taught me strength, now I’m learnin’ pain,
You taught me faith, now I’m callin’ your name.
Yeah… this the first Christmas without you, Dad,
And it hurts, but I’m thankful for the love we had.

[Bridge]
You used to say, “Son, life’s about givin’,”
Now I give thanks just to still be livin’.
You gave me wisdom, now I give it back,
Every lesson you taught, I keep intact.
Your legacy breathes through the way I move,
Through the way I love, the way I groove.
I’ll carry your flame through every December,
‘Cause love like yours, I’ll always remember.
I’ll toast to you, look up to the sky,
‘Cause heaven’s got the realest one, that’s why.

[Verse 3]
Sometimes I feel you when the lights start to twinkle,
Or in that old song when the bells start to jingle.
You remind me, “Don’t drown in sorrow,
Live for today, ‘cause ain’t promised tomorrow.”
So I’ll smile through tears, keep my head up high,
Make you proud every day that I try.
From your lessons in hustle to your talks ‘bout love,
You still guide me from the stars above.
This Christmas ain’t the same, but I’ll still believe,
‘Cause your spirit’s the gift I’ll never leave.
You showed me that real ones never fade away,
They live in our hearts, even when they stray.
So this one’s for you, old man, I’ll keep it true,
Merry Christmas up in heaven, I still miss you.

[Final Chorus]

[Outro]
So I’ll raise my glass, look up to the sky,
And whisper, “Merry Christmas, Dad,” with tears in my eyes.
Your boy still grindin’, still holdin’ it down,
I’ll keep your crown safe, I wear it proud.
Yeah…
This the first Christmas without you,
But never without your love.

First Christmas Without You, Dad

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