The original version with a guitar solo intro.

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I've started TMS therapy for Severe Depressive Disorder, and I have decided to "journal" by recording something on my guitar each evening after therapy. I'm trying not to overthink it; doing my best hit record, improvise for a couple minutes, and capture how I feel with music, so there will be mistakes. Please... enjoy?

TMS Therapy: A Musical Journal

TMS: Day 5

TMS: Day 5/30

It's week two of TMS therapy and I'm sticking to my goal of journaling with music each day. I've also started writing poetry again, which has been really nice. There hasn't been a quantifiable change yet, but I do feel that I'm beginning to grasp the tools that will help me cope, which is the beginning of progress. I hope anyone who is listening to this is enjoying. You can always message me if you would like more info about... well, just about anything. Thanks for listening.

TMS: Day 6/30

TMS: Day 7/30

TMS: Day 8

TMS: Day 8/30

TMS: Days 9 & 10

Week 3. I ended last week on a stellar note. This week... good days, bad days... I fell apart today. I finally admitted out loud that I am suicidal today. But I'm getting the help I need and I'm surrounded by people who love me, so I know I'll get thru this. 

If you're still listening, thank you.

TMS: Day 11

TMS: Day 11/30

Feeling better today after falling apart yesterday. The nice thing about falling apart was that I got to fall into the support of some amazing people.

TMS: Day 12

TMS: Day 12/30

More good periods and bad periods. I think today's recording pretty accurately matches what's in my head. 

I am strong. I am in control.

TMS: Day 13

TMS: Day 13/30

I didn't record Thursday night. I had a really difficult week; lots of realizations... and a lot of bricks being removed from my wall. I feel like I am getting better tho, and I feel like what is happening - the struggle I've faced in the last week - is due to the progress that I've made. 

As always, thanks for listening.

TMS: Day 15

I haven't recorded in a few days because I've been writing A LOT... but I've been playing guitar a lot as well and recorded these tracks last night, which will probably become a full song. 

TMS seems to be going really well tho. I'm not perfect, but that isn't the goal. The goal is to be a little bit better each day.

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