Verse 1:

If they were right

And you are suicide

Then I'll kill myself into this

This is our song

To die to

This is our song

To die to

Chorus:

It's been awhile since I made my death wish

Took me a while, I finally feel it

There's blood on the ground right where my head hit

When I fell from my high, I can't explain it

Verse 2:

And I rub my eyes

And I dust myself off for the last time

I learned how to cope with your goodbyes

Every time you leave it seems like you died

and I told her if I give up

just know that you're the last thing I thought of

Cause ever since I wished for us

I lost sight of who I was

death wish

Lyrics:

I still can't hide it in my eyes 

Or the way I move my legs 

All logic aside 

I think i'd just rather stay 

Nights at the wash and dry 

With my hand up on your leg

And I'd hold you tight cause there were some things I just didn't know how to say 

Every day I almost turn on north bend 

Cause I wish I could feel those bedsheets once again 

If it was up to me we'd never end

There were certain things i couldn't be 

And i thought that was alright with you 

On the floor asking what's wrong with me 

I might as well be asking the room 

Cause it's always out of my hands 

And I'm used to faking a smile 

I hope to god we can still be friends 

But it won't be for a while 

Cause I don't wanna lead you on 

Girl I just wanna see you smile 

And it doesn't have to be bad energy
Girl I would still die for-

I still can't hide it in my eyes 

Or the way I move my legs 

All logic aside 

I think i'd just rather stay 

Nights at the wash and dry 

With my hand up on your leg

And I'd hold you tight cause there were some things I just didn't know how to say 



roy's wash n dry

Lyrics:

Sightless, grabbing what I can reach

I end up back on the floor

Just sitting still feels so warm

Flightless, a stone pigeon without wings

Anxious, and always torn

Waiting on god, or something more.

Midas, does the gold really help you sleep?

To hell with it, I want more.

Aimless as the day I was born.

Silence, there's things that you just can't see

Staring at the drain on the shower floor

Let the water run along my sores

What good is gold, when I never saw it glitter

Give me something simple, if it's love, if it's vigor

I've been perseverant through the pain, it was bitter

I can see myself crack a smile in the mirror

Picture me, two feet deep in the creek

Thinking about what this all means

Oh I let the wind carry me along the breeze

Hopes and fears left behind me

Midas, does the gold really help you sleep?

To hell with it, I want more.

Aimless as the day I was born.

Silence, there's things that you just can't see

Staring at the drain on the shower floor

Let the water run along my sores

midas

Lyrics:

Oh I'm burnt out on my ways

I cannot let them go

Or that box of sentimental things

In my closet

When I sift through all the clutter

I wonder why it's there

All a bunch of traces

Things I cannot bare

Aren't you sick of waiting

On other people's fate?

You have to pick her things up

And throw them away

Today I'll run out in the valley

And I'll spread it out like ashes

Cause a part of me died inside

But I'm sick of all the frowning

It's a choice I have to make it

I'll come out on top this time

And as long as I can sing

And I can let it out of me

I know I'll be fine, I'm fine

I'll be right here where you left me

But I won't be the same person

This is how I get by, I'm alive

sentimental things

ghost town (Slowed + Reverb)

Lyrics:

I'll hold you up here in the light 

So they can see you when it shines 

I'm just a myth in your mind 

I always hold you when you're crying 

You'll be in my arms when you die 

But i'm only here in the night 

I'm just a myth in your mind 

I know you think about me all the time 

I swear i see you on my eyelids 

Nameless and perfectly mine 

You make me feel crazy sometimes 

I used to dream i was flying 

Now I see you in the sky 

I see the love in your eyes 

It's just a matter of time 

Until i have you by my side 

And i could never rush you 

I'll be waiting here keeping time 

When there's no one left to run to 

I can always close my eyes 

How can trust be an issue 

When it's all just made up in my mind 

It's just a thing to hold onto 

It's just a lie i have to keep inside


OREAD

We fight

Wearing an aegis strapped on tight

Take flight

Pure like a cloud up in the sky

Through lightning

Zeus always tried to hold me back

Too often

I fell far short of my chosen path

Athena

Plate me in armor like a gladiator

Shimmering bronze on me lined with fur

I'll bring glory to your name

In these times of war

Oh I pray

That I can forget your precious name

But I must say

Things just haven't been the same

It's your grace

And the thought of your hand on my face

Oh I can't take it anymore i've really gotta get away

Jason wants me and i'm going

We will leave any day

I've seen a

Million girls, none of them were like her

Shimmering hair, and it smelled like myrrh

If there's one thing you gave

It's something to fight for

Yeah, I'll be your gladiator

I'll be your gladiator 

Keeping you warm

Pick up my sword and fight this war

As long as your safe

It'll all be worth it

I'll give you everything you need you earned it

Athena

Send me off right now

If I never come back

At least I lived somehow

ATHENS

Oh I can't keep a secret
I saw you in the forest
I pulled my eyes away
From your purity and wholeness
I know love when I feel it
But this can't be right
I can't lose what I have
I'll hold it deep inside

Cause what's the point
If you won't look my way
And I can't ask you
About all your days
It's these little things that keep me sane
I can't sacrifice it
Just to say

Oh give me one good reason
I can't have you in this moment
It hurts to think about you
And somebody else
I loathe it
There's things I never told you
And I really need to show them
I promise I can show you
I am worthy and devoted

Cause in time you've taught me
More of grace
And all the light
That falls upon you
Is sacred
I feel my heart pulling me
Your way
I wish you'd show me all your
Better days

ACTAEON

I feel so free
She wasn't good enough
For me
Days pass like smoke
In the breeze
Yeah my second hand cough
Starts to take me
Yeah
Dead outside the outcrop
My legs hurt when I walk
I feel kinda overworked
And I might stop
I've heard the things they talk
I never get just what I want
I always fall in love
With the wrong ones

What do you want
Is it magic
Hold your thumb out
To traffic
They never stop for you tragic
I'm past it
Blowing the smoke and the ashes
Hoping that you can catch it
She was your box of matches
And now you have your own

Sometimes I cannot see
Past all the dues and the deadlines
And fees
I do not need
Anyone slowing me down
Constantly
Passed out at the quick stop
Dreaming about fake love
Me and them never seem to
Keep in touch
Days just kinda go by
But I'm feeling alright
It's not the end of the world
It's just life

What do you want
Is it magic
Hold your thumb out
To traffic
They never stop for you tragic
I'm past it
Blowing the smoke and the ashes
Hoping that you can catch it
She was your box of matches
And now you have your own

HEPHAESTUS

If days are numbered
Let them all add up
Cause I've been running
Running running
If days are numbered
I should try my luck
Cause what is nothing
Could be something

Never ask for the old days back
Every single snare is a part of your path
I've run to Athens and all the way back
Let them know of
Our future present and past
Cause time will pass in your life
As Chronos blinks his eye
Run off into the night
And lies
They told you will expire
You're older and you're wise
The master of your life

If days are numbered
Let them all add up
Cause I've been running
Running running
If days are numbered
I should try my luck
Cause what is nothing
Could be something

How could you be so bold
I'm told that
The days are long and cold
I'll mold you
Into all the things I hold you to
For at last now we're tired and old
And I can give you a smile
And what's better than that
I kicked them all down
And I took my life back
You could never stop me
Yeah never put a crack
In my spirit still standing in the
Very last match
Yeah I ran down to Athens
And all the way back
With a sword in my hand
Looking for a new path
And the days were long
But the nights were longer
Bad dreams hear the screams
But I woke up stronger

If days are numbered
Let them all add up
Cause I've been running
Running running
If days are numbered
I should try my luck
Cause what is nothing
Could be something

MARATHON

I don't need plans
I never had them
Find me in land
Climbing new mountains
And you held my hand
When my legs weren't standing
And I appreciate you for that
But now I have to walk
My own path

Cause Astraea blessed my
Young hands with a calling
I'm doing well on my own
It's the small things
That keep me from thinking of you
And the old days
But come to find out
They're the purest and
I pray that you
Will find them too
Cause I really loved you

So may the sky open up
And blind me with light
Apollo if you hear me please
Take my sight
I don't wanna see it all
Disappear right before
My eyes
So wake me up when my only cares
In the world are me
And what I've created
Just wake me up when my
Only cares
Are what I've created
Won't that be so pure
Won't that be so pure

ASTRAEA

With @arboratlantic (Outro guitar solo)

'Guys always think that you can hurt me
Grew up with the scars on me burning
Now that you got money on your head
I'm gonna make sure that you're dead
'Guys always runnin' when you see me
Kinda makes it feel too easy
After all the things that I've seen
After all the things that I've seen

It's all bloodshed
Tears and things that you've said
I've been running ahead
I've been winning no sweat
Oh it's all bloodshed
Tears and things that you've said
I've been running ahead
I've been winning no sweat

You hurt me once yeah that's whatever
Imma make your pain last forever
Fire in my eyes
Long endeavor
I've been running from my own pieces
Severed
Oh you could never be me never
I've been broken and put back together
I've known love but they knew better
Sword in my hands
A loveless debtor

It's all bloodshed
Tears and things that you've said
I've been running ahead
I've been winning no sweat
Oh it's all bloodshed
Tears and things that you've said
I've been running ahead
I've been winning no sweat

NYX (feat. Arbor Atlantic)

I'd just rather feel some pain

Than swim in a sea of gray

I'll check out on sunday night

I'll come to on saturday

Bury me with my pens

And my instruments

Cause they've always been there

Think about me when i'm here

Just like you'd think about me when i'm gone

Bury_me_with_my_pens.mp3

Lyrics:

And all this time 

You were looking for 

Love that grips you 

People who care 

It's been with you 

But you never know when it's there 

You can't keep giving power to the spirit in your head 

It creeps around my heart 

It wants to see me dead 

But i've found that everything works itself out in the end

These wounds in your mind always mend 

Love that grips you 

People who care

PEOPLE WHO CARE

Lyrics:

Trim the fat from everything that you know 

Those dark cold places you thought that you'd never go 

Don't believe that things will just heal on there own 

Cause things can get twisted and I'm sick of picking back up

If I ever go missing never to be found 

Would you keep looking until you collapse on the ground? 

Cause I'd do it for you, I'd drop everything right now 

Well life is unfair and I've looked for ways out

So level with me 

Be positive and fair 

If they all wanted you gone 

Why would they still be there?

And if this world is so bleak 

Why do you always stare 

Out into all of the clouds 

And the birds as you breath in the air

And when you bring yourself down 

You're holding yourself back

From everything that you are 

You've always been on track

So when you sit on your own 

And wonder why you're here 

Just know the ones that you love 

Will always want you near

IF I EVER GO MISSING

Lyrics:

I called out of my job again 

I told them i had a fever 

But i just felt like staying in 

And I've never felt much weaker 

I can't keep doing this forever 

I'm meant for something deeper 

Something that makes me feel better 

Sent to you from your speakers 

Maybe I can change a life for the better 

Maybe that's why i'm here 

To make people feel things 

I'll give guidance to the seekers 

I always was a dreamer (x4) 

The day that you find out what you're really worth 

The day that you fall down gently to the earth 

You were never special, you could never turn 

Talent into gold, so you strike in the earth 

Crying as you come to, this is re-birth 

But there's no mother's love and there's no warmth 

You work until you're sore you work until it hurts 

But the family's fed cause of what you earned 

So you hold on tight to the things you love 

You'd die for it all when push comes to shove 

It's all that you have now, that you're rid of 

The words and the music flowing from above through you 

And you feel brand new 

But it's just not you (x2) 

The day that you find out what you're really worth 

The day that you fall down gently to the earth 

You were never special, you could never turn 

Talent into gold, so you strike into the earth 

Crying as you come to, this is re-birth 

But there's no mother's love and there's no warmth 

You work until you're sore you work until it hurts 

But the family's fed cause of what you earned 

I always was a dreamer (x4)

APTITUDE

Lyrics:

Watched you nod off

And i left

Allow your tears to drop

And get dressed

Long gone are days we laughed

And felt blessed

I've let my deep dark thoughts

Manifest

And i think about dying

And i think about giving up

Cause there's no retrying

And there's no way to follow up

Watch me fall off

Of the edge

Cause i've been holding on for

So long

Reach out

grab my hand

I don't wanna be right

Cry out

Tell me who I am

We don't have to regret this night

Well I've been thinking about dying

I've been thinking about giving up

Cause there's no retrying

And there's no way to follow up

REACH OUT

Lyrics:

Moonlight

Reflects on my eyes

As they open wide

I wake every night

To the call of time

And thunder out my window

I look outside

And see it all crescendo

Now i'm dreaming

And i don't know where i am
I'm screaming

And i'm reaching for a hand

To pull me

Up from my own hell

And hold me

And say that all is well


MOONLIGHT

Lyrics:

I wanna be so strong

I wanna hold on

Cause the heavens bless our souls

Do you feel the angels pull

And the transference of light

When our actions become trite

But the days go on in spite

I will always stay upright

Even if the wind tries to blow me down

Even if my heart sinks and i only frown

Even if the tides stop and the moon can't be found

Even if you they only loved me for gain, i won't back down

And the gods will thank me

Cause i perseverred through flame

And the fire and brimstone

And the demons won't know my name

As the transference of light

Surges through us day and night


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