sweet release
from the thoughts that burn a hole inside of me
from the bodies where I’m grinding down my teeth
from the bedrooms that are haunted by my screams
I’ve tried
to feel better
but it seems
I’m still 
this guy
being terrified
of everything

sweet release
from the smell of all those pretty happy times
in the bedroom where i thought i read your mind
in the days when i still knew that you were mine
I try 
to swallow up your love
but it’s never enough
cause you don’t change 
you just grow up

_
Original Lyrics and Composition by Nick Rattigan

A painting in blue

you did a lot of crying, you said
I smell a lot of ether

you did a lot of lying in bed
not who you wanna be

I do a lot of talking in my head
not who you want me to be

I do a lot of lying these days
I’m hiding melancholy

untitled piece of paper

recorded live at Celeste, Vienna_20.01.23

DJ DONKEL_Celeste Vienna_Live Set_Recording 20.01.23

[come pick me up_come take me out_come fuck me up_steal all my records_screw all my friends_behind my back_with a smile on your face_and then do it again_do it again_do it again_do it again]

She lives alone on a private archipelago
with a palm tree and a seashell
sits in the waves all day
she's scared of dying
she wants to keep it that way.

___________

recorded, mixed and mastered in the month of May 2023

written by Sordid Humor

Private Archipelago

16.04. first recording of dogfight that almost made it through.
 
"- do I get to see you some more?
- I don't know, you wanna?
- yes."

I never knew Heath Ledger outside of clown make up.

___________

recorded, mixed and mastered in the month of May 2023

written by Nick Rattigan

Dogfight

Nintendo 64 (rough)

Nintendo 64 (Alex G Cover)

Vagabond

a rework of my song "no more days" based on recordings I found in the project file

no more days ALT

did a cover of agony by young lean while I was sick in bed

agony - 15.03.25, 13.10

the hermit & the moon

Alright

rec 10.10.2020 / slow version of Surf Curse's Disco

I can't help it with you
Stubborn hearted blue
Lights come into the room
When disco plays our tune
There's nothing like it
Not like the way you move
I can try but I can't hide it from you
'Cause I can't wait for you
I can't wait for you
Admire all of you
But fire burns me too
Can't stop that disco
Getting through
Can't stop that disco
Wanting you
There's nothing like it
Locking my eyes with you
I can't fight it
Splitting my mind in two
'Cause I can't wait for you
I can't wait for you
I can't wait for you
I can't wait for you

the red light tapes

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