I forgot this song but I am happy I found it again

sad boy hours

this is the worst time of my life :/

lyrics

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wake up n i wonder will i die today
when i think about all the drugs i take
i can’t help it when i’m sober i don’t feel okay
i don’t know if ima make it 
if i have it ima take it like fuck

i needa start soberin up
but my feelings make me sick as fuck
i needa be numb
i hate what ive become
& sometimes i think that im better off
under the dirt
6ft sleep
lie me in a hearse
..
yea i know im the worst

maybe i’ll get it one day
but now im getting high again
fuck it forget it
im giving up
im getting high again
(no not again)

wait no, no wait
thats just my brain, 
bipolar, insane
i really need change

i need a life with a substace
i needa put down the substance
i needa quit with the fuck shit
ima stand tall soon jus truss it

i try to keep my head up
but the thoughts that reside
are too heavy to hold

—————————

maybe i’ll get it one day
but now im getting high again
fuck it forget it
im giving up
im getting high again
(no not again)
wait no, no wait
thats just my brain, 
bipolar, insane

a cry 4 help [prod. wellfed & caustyk]

Featuring @lilskeleskrrt
Produced by @jolst
Mixed & mastered by @horoshamusic
Art by @melmige

Too much time wasted on you

Got me in a bad mood

Chillin' bumpin' sad tunes

And all I want is your attention

Desperate for just a little affection yeah

It's no fun how

Things between us didn't work out

At least not in the way that we planned for

You were my greatest mistake but you left me wanting more


It’s not that I miss you
That’s not the issue
I just wish you felt like you used to

So
I'm breaking everything you gave me
I'm not proud of the man that you made me
I'm ashamed of who I’ve been lately
I can’t blame you when you say you hate me


I'ma take this forty to my face
How many doctors you think it’ll take to save me
Am I even worth saving

(skele)
always waking up in a bad mood 
all this fucking time that i’m wasting 
baby i hope you know i want you 
i didn’t wanna go, i hope you know i had to
tell me that it’s hurting you bad 
you know i’m sad too 

Got me breaking everything you gave me
I know I’m falling it’s not me who needed saving 
I’m steady fucking up my life it’s so frustrating 
Got me looking at the things I’ve been erasing 

Too much time wasted on you 
I still wish you would just come through 
I still miss when you would hold me 
Is it okay if you could call me

Listen on Spotify!

Not Worth Saving w/ skele (Prod. Jolst)

sadboi hoepless today. movie is on YouTube too

1000 times

love u all <3
vocals by harvest & @hammy
production by @memoryroseishere @gonetoofar @morgnbates & harvest
art/mix/master by harvest

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6ivVlTzoSvE6xLDtLdHp6g?si=bcafbe00735c440c

lyrics:
(hamilton)
i watched our love die fast
i never knew bout that
i saw it all turn bad
now i don’t want you back

woke up and my mind is spinning
woke up and the whole world’s ending
still searching to feel something
still feeling like i’m nothing

got a spark in my heart
i got smoke in my lungs
should’ve known from the start
you were never the one

im not the one that you want
why you put up a front
playing me like im dumb
make me feel like a dub

baby im done
yeah im movin on
you can call my phone
but i’m already gone

yeah im already ghost
i can’t let you close
no i don’t know
so my heart stay closed
no i don’t know
i just can’t tell
fucked up in the head
i can’t trust
one minute im cool
then the next im manic
crushing scripts up
under plastic

rolling spliffs up
i can’t feel shit
when i can’t think
that’s my favorite
when you kissed me
i just lost it
wishing i could’ve told
what it costed

(harvest & hamilton)
i watched our love die fast
i never knew bout that
i saw it all turn bad
now i don’t want you back

woke up and my mind is spinning
woke up and the whole world’s ending
still searching to feel something
still feeling like i’m nothing

(harvest)
you don’t even know what happened
I don’t want to fix it all
seeing through our glass it’s cracking 
hourglass, not filled at all

ill never know your passions
cause we’re in a late stage, we’re in a late stage 
i’m breaking down i’m crashing
not on the same page, not on the same page

i want you to be here, a main stay 
one day I wanna play on the main stage 
it’s just the same shit, said a different way
I’ll cough it up, I’m feeling grey 

i want to be in the nosebleed, know me, everything is better when you hold me
or scold me
im slowly 
finding somewhere to hide like brody

knowing that you’ll never know me gives me piece of mind 
i hope you know im lonely like all of the time

i start to realise that I won’t come to my senses
I hope when I leave this place I go on to the next thing

never knew feat. hamilton (prod. memoryrose, toofargone, homesick & harvest)

BOLA UM (with Bunotheone)

https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s
https://soundcloud.com/teenpregnancy

https://open.spotify.com/artist/6NFHn7VH6jgV2nVWqW2bsa?si=seALdEu4TX6ltgKcseuT-w
www.instagram.com/poppytears_/?hl=en
twitter.com/poppyxtears
itunes.apple.com/nz/artist/poppy-tears/1268266116
https://lilsedative.bandcamp.com/

☆ LYRICS ☆

Poppy Tears: 

under her skin like the ink on my arm
cold where I’ve been I’ve got a broken heart 
ten sedatives slow down I’m gone
she’s the one I’m with she’s the one I want

I don’t wana ever take you for granted 
when I’m coming down you’re the one who helps me manage
heart so pure I don’t mean to enchant it
and when I’m fucked up girl your so understanding

I can’t fall asleep and I want it change
lost in this world I’ll help us find a way 
it’s a gift and a curse and I’ve been led astray
I know that it hurts I’m here till we decay 

9TAILS:

too many nights I’ve spent on my floor 
I don’t know where to go my mind is slipping from my reach and its shows
my whole family see’s I’m not really me anymore too many times I just fall asleep -getting stoned

break away, days come and they go 
loves fades, plans change and lose hope 
fucked up and useless and its shows, 
people change but I know that I wont

love me just like you used to 
I’ll be just like I used to 
mornings, wake up around noon
body wrapped up against you

spotify

until we decay w/ 9TAILS (prod. teen pregnancy)

produced by @ihateshinigami
engineered by heartbreak jake and shinigami
written and performed by macho randy and shinigami

I'm so sorry for what I did last night at that party with her :(

SHINIGAMI & MACHO RANDY "IDK why I'm like this"

Shinigami x Lil Lotus - nightmare

i say fuck too much (prod. curtains)

fall against your wall (prod.irby)

standing at your doormat pt.2 (ft. yung axstn) (prod. irby)

could have been

delusional [prod. outby16 x grxgvr]

pmzzz x sewerperson 
On streaming platforms now (link below) 
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/pmzzz/flowers-feat-sewerperson
featuring: sewerperson (@Sewerperson) 
produced by: metlast 
mix and mastered by: dmg
cover art: myling pak

lyrics:

(pmzzz)
 rain showers
 on the flowers
 sunrise in the early hours
 its so beautiful
 i want flowers at my funeral 
even in death, life is beautiful
rain drops on the roof 
of the nighttime 
staring at the stars
 in the night sky 
shooting star , from afar
 i see you shine bright
 you're the lifeline
 of my lifetime

(sewerperson)
 open cracks filled with morning sun
 but ill stay inside till the show tonight
 hidden water beneath the don
 i see air around her thats smokey white 
never knew what attention was
 so were latching on to just anyone
 could you help me with blending in
 she said you could ask about everyone
 focus
 tell me what u need it for 
i lust learned what i had never known before 
yea 
rough shapes in the centre of the universe
 i see symbols through the dust on top my cellar door

(pmzzz) 
i had never known before
 the symbols on my cellar door

rain showers
 on the flowers
 sunrise in the early hours
 its so beautiful
 i want flowers at my funeral
 even in death, life is beautiful
rain drops on the roof 
of the nighttime
 staring at the stars
 in the night sky 
shooting star , from afar
 i see you shine bright 
your the lifeline
 of my lifetime

all platforms here

flowers ft. sewerperson (prod. metlast)

i already tried my best, so why try again

prod: https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic

wake up
i can see my breath
cold hands
i can't feel my skin
shaking, body aching
pull me closer
breaking
i can't take anymore
this isn't the life that i wanna live
i already tried my best 
so why try again
is it over yet?
can i call it quits?
it's
seasonal depression
sick of everyone telling me it's a lesson
i should make more of my life 
cause "it's a blessing"
"and you'll be fine once you stop with all the stressing"
nobody understands
i can't get out my bed
i hate the helping hands
i've lost my fucking mind so don't you get it man?
they know nothing about me 
"he's just having a bad week"
it's lovely 

hide my problems in the alcohol 
drink myself away till i can't even feel a thing at all
i'm becoming just like you
it scares me to death,
i don't wanna but i have to

seasonal depression (prod. iof)

I Am A 22 year old Music Promoter/Producer On YouTube Message Me Your Songs For A Chance To Be Featured ❤

Shinigami x Lil Lotus - nightmare

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