I am not yet born, console me.
I fear that the human race may with tall walls wall me,
with strong drugs dope me, with wise lies lure me,
on black racks rack me, in blood-baths roll me.

sine 0.01 [still]

you melted to him as snow does to a fire; 
your great visions strangled your words
- and fearful Infinity terrified your blue eye!

girl underwater

rehearse me
in the parts I must play and the cues I must take when
old men lecture me, bureaucrats hector me, mountains
frown at me, lovers laugh at me, the white
waves call me to folly and the desert calls
me to doom and the beggar refuses
my gift and my children curse me.

sine 0.03 [biography]

When I was in high school, I worked in a slowly dying shopping mall. The feelings that came with watching all of those once crowded stores wither and die stuck with me. Decades later, I've tried to recreate that experience for others through the use of pop music and field recordings.

One of the identifying characteristics of mallsoft is the use heavily-reverbed, slowed-down Easy Listening samples. In keeping with this, this track features a haunting Easy Listening instrumental take on Taylor Swift's "Blank Space". However, the emphasis here is more on atmosphere, in this case a long-abandoned shopping mall. It does so with the cover art and on the use of actual field recordings from abandoned places, including an abandoned insane asylum. 

There is no attempt to keep with the mallsoft mashup early-90s aesthetic, so by popular standards, it's not really mallsoft. I'm not sure what it is.

blank space

O day and night, but this is wondrous strange!

there are more things in heaven and earth than are dreamt of in our philosophy

I am not yet born; provide me
With water to dandle me, grass to grow for me, trees to talk
to me, sky to sing to me, birds and a white light
in the back of my mind to guide me.

sine

sine 0.02 [birth]

The processed sounds of a music box being played in a bunker.

field recordings

untitled [music box]

Saint Sebastian is a 3rd century martyr and multimedia artist producing auditory and visual immersions.