Endless Balls





Sampling of Allen Ginsberg reading Howl and Johnny Depp reading Ginberg.

Howler (On Wax)

He was 6 foot 4 and had plenty of muscle
Head like a Rock but a brains as big as a brussel
I thought I’m never gonna win, not with him. 

I mean I never even asked you much about him,
I didn’t care I thought he lived in Epping
I thought I’d never bump into him
The odds were just to slim.

When you and I met I was happy as Larry
You were working on the checkout 
Down the Cash & Carry
When I seduced you, you didn’t know what to do

And all because 
You had a man and a big one at that.
But we were still getting freaky round my cousins flat
Whenever we could, and boy was it good. 

I was walking down the street 
When I felt a tap on my shoulder
I turned and looked round
And my blood ran colder and colder
I shat my load right there
Outside Mothercare. 

After a nut in the nose
And a knee in the nuts, a few digs in the ribs
And a few upper cuts, I couldn’t take any more
My head was just too sore

It’s been a long time gone 
And you’re still together again
I guess our fling, it didn’t mean a thing
For you nor me, that’s the way it has to be

And all because
You had a man and a large one at that
And unluckily for me he fought like Chow Yun Fat
I’m gonna out all in the past
Just as soon as I get out of this plaster cast.

You had a Man (Live@Luna Lounge)

To my numbers. 



You must have me confused with someone else
Just some guy, as far as I, can tell
All I ever wanted was the simple things
You were my heaven and not my hell

You never see what you really do to me 
Pain in my eyes is clear for all to see 
And even though, I tell you so
You always seem to still let me go

All i ask is that you be nice
Don’t ever feel to think twice
About who was there and who was meant to be
All that I ask is that you think of me

Since you were young I played along
Making you laugh with my silly songs
And even though m, I was learning too
My heart was always big enough for you 

I tired my best to stay a family 
But in the end it wasn’t up to me
I have my flaws and my insecurities 
Giving up was an impossibility 

So all I ask is that you be kind
Find the time to keep me in mind
I’ll bleed for you like a father should 
I’ll always do what, I said, I would
I’ll always do what I said, I would.

All That I Ask

You can’t put me in a box
You can’t throw away the key
Cause I’ll be back on my feet
before you think of something else to do to me.
You can’t throw me away 
I can’t be put aside
I’ll be there whatever the weather I’ll never hide.

I’ll never sell out
I’ll never give in 
I’ve been through a lot of shit but I always make it through
I’m resilient.
No running away
I’m all for better days
My light will shine
Even after my time. 

I’ll never sell out
I’ll never give in 
No running away
I’m all for better days
I’ve been through a lot of shit but I always make it through
I’m resilient.


I’ve been through a lot of shit but I always make it through
I’m resilient.

Better Dayz/Resilient

Found an old minidisc from 1999 with @therealdannydoyle being his hilarious self. 
Cut it up
Put a tune behind it. 
And Robert is very much your mothers brother.

Dr Dan feat Danny Doyle

A Neil Young/Dad Combo
Added vocals from my actual Old Man via old voicemails

Old Man

Ooo De Lally

Blonde hair,
Blue hair,
Wear your hair Red baby I don’t care.
Blue eyes, direct,
Pale thighs baby around my neck.
Come to my house, come to my van,
Step in my car baby when you can,
Ripped jeans, & THC
Put on your shell toe adidas and dance with me.

Let’s explore this,
Let’s adore this,
While we can. 
I can’t ignore this, Gonna enjoy this,
You’re making me a happy man. 

Didn’t take us long to get in my bed,
Didn’t take you long to get in my head,
Doesn’t feel wrong in fact it feels right, 
To wanna be with you almost every night,
Getting high together & talking all night, 
Maybe we should explore this, enjoy this,
Oo while we can.
And if you decide to draw this. 
Just paint me as a happy man. 

Well it all started so well,
I was loving every second but I couldn’t tell,
What was happening to me,
I was so damn blind that I couldn’t see,
That you were only playin,
All the lovely shit you kept sayin,
It was all just waffle & nice dreams,
Oh baby but to me it seems,
That I, can’t explore this,
You’re making me unhappy man,
I can’t adore this or want for this,
I know I’m not your Only fan. 

Well you’re a beautiful girl & I tell ya the truth
I was a lot fuckin cooler when I still had youth
On my side but fortunately,
By my side you happened to be
And it’s hard, to ignore this, not adore this,
You make me so fucking happy man.
But I will, have to chill, 
I know I’m not your Onlyfan. 
I know I’m not your Onlyfan.

Only Fan (The Nikita Shabbas Version)

Sam Cooke cover with an arctic monkey twist

i'll Come Running Back To You

Written by and dedicated to Robert James Selby 
@robert-james-selby
His version is mustard so please check out his music.
A great songwriter and top bloke who sadly left us too far soon and who’s funeral will take place this very day. 11th May 2023.
Sad times.
R.I.P

Haunt Your Heart

Ghost Estate of Towers. 



She’s pretty & she’s kind 
She’s always on my mind.
Feel too bad to call
Maybe my words my stall
Maybe she won’t pick up at all. 

She’s witty and she’s shrewd
Rarely ever in a mood.
I want it all so bad I’m afraid I’ll 
End up like my dad. 

But her blue eyes haunt my hours
I’m hiding high every day
In my ghost estate of towers.
Drifting further away

She’s classy and she’s free
She never saw what I see.
She’s too good for me
Always felt like I had to flee. 

But her blue eyes haunt my days
What she’s wants ain’t me
There are many sides to see
All who I used to be.

Mmmmmm. Yeah 
Mmmmmm. Yeah.

Her blue eyes haunt my hours
I’m hiding, high, every day
In my ghost estate of towers
Drifting further away.

Ghost Estate of Towers

Boomerang


Well if it’s good enough for you, it’s good enough for me
I haven’t got the time or need, for feeling unhappy.
My memory must be fading I can’t, remember myself 
My energy must be waning much like my mental health
It always seems to be coming back, again
Old faces always asking “What’s going on my friend” 
But I don’t find it hard to keep it all inside
Nobody what’s to come along on this ride

So I keep my worries and concerns to myself 
A daylight nightmare haunting my non existent wealth
Thoughts of mortality the love that turned to hate
For myself and for my weak will, I’ll guess I’ll just have to wait.

I don’t like authority I want my liberty, no fear
I can’t keep my dumb shut or my powder dry, that’s clear.
But my heart beats stronger than my old man’s
But my fried mind keeps letting life slip right through my hands. 

So I keep my worries and concerns to my own
I don’t much like talking on the phone
I’d much rather you just let me be
I’ll only disappoint you you see. 

Well my loves louder than a siren, turned on
Turned off it’s elusive, it’s hidden, it’s gone.
Past damage has been inflicted, it’s scarred
Future love is restricted, it’s hard.
I’m a pussy and I will run away, can’t deal. 
Always take the easy way, can’t heal. 
Always good at hiding but I never, I never seek
My life is just a mess, and It’ll be the same next week. 

So I keep on keepin on for my kin
My only son & my 3 girls 4 hearts that live within
I know I’m a fuck up but I try 
I’ll always have your back until the day I die.

Boomerang

Penny Drop.

Everybody makes mistakes
Some things you touch are easy to break
The brownest eyes can still turn blue
Words leave your lips when you don’t want them to

Families can fall apart
Before they even get to start 
Friendships can disintegrate
When paranoia infiltrates

But we all, just keep on keeping on
In the hope that it won’t all go wrong
And we try our best to not let it get on top
Until we finally hear the penny drop

Everybody makes a fool
Of themselves no matter how cool
They seem to be or like to think they are
It’s all the same no one cares about your car

But what it is we all should know
What we all should keep in mind
That a heart needs space to grow 
And love and friends are hard to find

But we all get on getting by
Some days seem so long while others fly
None of us really know but we all try
To live our lives through our own minds eye. 

Everybody makes mistakes
Some things you touch are easy to break
The brownest eyes can still turn blue
Words leave your lips when you don’t want them to

But we all, just keep on keeping on
In the hope that it won’t all go wrong
And we try our best to not let it get on top
Until we finally hear the penny drop

PENNY DRoP

FLASHHEART ⚡️💚⚡️

"Pull My Daisy" is a poem by Allen Ginsberg, Jack Kerouac and Neal Cassady. It was written in the late 1940s in a similar way to the Surrealist “exquisite corpse” game, with one person writing the first line, the other writing the second, and so on sequentially with each person only being shown the line before.

Jay and Danny on guitars



Pull my Daisy
Tip my cup
All my doors are open
Cut my thoughts for coconuts
All my eggs are broken
Jack my Arden
Gate my shades
Woe my road is spoken
Silk my garden
Rose my days
Now my prayers awaken

Bone my shadow
Dove my dream
Start my halo bleeding
Milk my mind &
make me cream
Drink me when you’re ready
Hop my heart on
harp my height
Hip my angel
Hype my light

Heal the raindrop
sow this eye
Woe the worm
Work the wise
Stop the hoax
What’s the hex
Where’s the wake
How’s the hicks

Rob my locker
Lick my rocks
Rack my lacks
Lark my looks
Whore my door
Beat my boor
Craze my hair
Bare my poor

Say my oops
Ope my shell
Bite my naked nut
Roll my bones
Ring my bell
Call my worm to sup
Pope my parts
Pop my pot
Raise my daisy up
Poke my papa
Pit my plum
Let my gap be shut

Heal the raindrop
sow this eye
Woe the worm
Work the wise
Stop the hoax
What’s the hex
Where’s the wake
How’s the hicks

Pull My Daisy Up x 2

Pull My DAisY MAsh Up

Dig Me.


I was wondering,
Where you were, today. Today. 
And I was thinking, about you and I. That day. That day. 
You looked so beautiful, you looked carefree
And you were mine, all mine. 
And I was hoping, we could work it out. 
Sometime. Sometime. 

Cause you’re one I want, you’re the one I came here for,
The only one I need, even when I can’t take no more.
You should be here by my side, I don’t know what we’re hiding for.
Stop fooling around now, open the door. 

It’s not easy to see what’s meant for me 
I seem to find I’m always tired, tired of never getting hired 
And when I’m hired I’m getting fired 
Too quick to pissed off, too dumb to ever keep it on lock
Always feel like an old odd sock
The oldest Indie head on the chopping block.
But it’s not easy for me
Don’t know how, it’s gonna turn out, for this burn out. 
All I wanna do is make music for you. 

Cause you’re one I want, you’re the one I came here for,
The only one I need, even when I can’t take no more.
You should be here by my side, I don’t know what we’re hiding for.
Stop fooling around now, open the door.

Dig Me (Sky Mix)

Start of the End.

Written in a two perspective format. 

My time should be precious to me but I don’t use it wisely 
You’re always talkin shit & I’m sick of it think it’s time that I break free.
The way that you deal with your demons just ain’t healthy you see.
I don’t know what I’m after but I want something different for me. 

During our time we were closer than physical I could call you a friend, 
It got too real & I retreated like I always seem to do in the end.
I handled things badly & I know I caused you pain.
Just let me go cause I can’t look you in the face again. 

And it was all, falling apart and it was, just the start of the pain,
Again.
And it just, wasn’t for me cause I’m uncomfortable being loved you see. 
Can’t you see?

Many a night I wondered why you felt to treat me that way.
I tried too hard to reach you but you didn’t give me the time of day. 
I was confused at the time I was dying inside I thought that I was, being true. 
But you just left me on read, ghosted instead
All unnecessary behaviour from you 

And it was, falling apart and it was, just the start of the end,
My friend.
And it just, wasn’t to be 
And you’re uncomfortable being loved by me.

Start of the End - (Acoustic VN Recording)

shallow2 ruff

Start of the End.

You’re uncomfortable. 
My time should be precious to me but I don’t use it wisely 
You’re always talkin shit & I’m sick of it think it’s time that I break free.
The way that you deal with your demons just ain’t healthy you see.
I don’t know what I’m after but I want something different for me. 

During our time we were closer than physical I could call you a friend, 
It got too real & I retreated like I always seem to do in the end.
I handled things badly & I know I caused you pain.
Just let me go cause I can’t look you in the face again. 

And it was all, falling apart and it was, just the start of the pain,
Again.
And it just, wasn’t for me cause I’m uncomfortable being loved you see. 
Can’t you see?

Many a night I wondered why you felt to treat me that way.
I tried too hard to reach you but you didn’t give me the time of day. 
I was confused at the time I was dying inside I thought that I was, being true. 
But you just left me on read, ghosted instead
All unnecessary behaviour from you 

And it was, falling apart and it was just, just the start of the end,
My friend.
And it just, wasn’t to be 
And you’re uncomfortable being loved by me.

And it was all, falling apart and it was, just the start of the pain,
Again.
And it just, wasn’t for me cause I’m uncomfortable being loved you see. 
Can’t you see?
DB.

Start of the End - Comfy Mix

Too Late for a Sly Dog

Cruel & Kind


Life can be cruel and kind
From one to the next you never know 
what you’re gonna find.
How it’s gonna be for you and me and everyone
Will it be a sunny day
Or a rainy one. 

Time is gonna catch up with us all, eventually 
All we have is eachother to keep us company
We gotta hold on tight through our dark nights
And tougher days
Leading and guiding eachother 
through the corners of this maze.

Cruel & Kind

ADHD-TV - Inst

NO NAME DEMO #13

KiCKS

Well I don’t know what I want 
and I’m worried what I will find,
But I do know the weight is heavy baby on my mind

Dont know where I’m going
And I don’t know where I’ve been
What it is I’m looking at 
is it just something obscene

Because the streets are dirty 
The world is so full of hate
All lines are crossed all hope is lost 
it’s too late

don’t know what I’m going here 
and I’m always off off off the beat.
However bad I’m feeling it’s always better 
when I’m moving my feet, 
when I’m moving my feet. 

Time moves so fast, 
just keeping up is tough 
I’ve never been good never been good 
at giving enough. 

So I keep on I keep on on on
Giving it a try
Cause I’ll be gone gone gone  I’ll be gone 
In the blink of an eye. 

Far from media fakes, 
sad snowflakes and Ai
The future looks bleak
I’m still losing sleep when I try

Aint gotta clue where I’m heading but I’m always
Off off off the beat. 
However bad I’m feeling it’s always better 
when I’m moving my feet
When I’m moving my feet.

KiCKS

HEAVY REPS Demo #1

its ya Boy!

For my dudes and boy Arf.


Contains samples of Aretha Franklin, Jay Z and Nas

Soul Mashed (A Reefer Franklin Joint)

Yosemite


If I had access
To your mind
I’d look around
And try to find 
Some kind
Of feeling.

I don’t suppose
That you show
Anyone you know
You keep it all
Behind a wall
And secret

But try, as I might
I can’t pull you back into the light 
Just talk to me you can say anything 
Go ahead babe
I’m listening 

If I could get through
Through to you 
I’d tell you to
Give me a clue
How to get out of this wilderness 
It’s a mist trail
The hike is rough
A high climb 
With granite tough
It can amplify every weakness

So don’t
Fall prey to pride 
If you find
The canyon wide
Don’t walk alone
When you could walk with me
In this wild Yosemite

Yosemite #1

Wanky cover of a John Robert song


My head is gone
My liver poisoned
Ooo woncha come over love
And pick me up

Cause these nights are long 
Our days are numbered
Ooo woncha come over love 
And spend some time

Ooo take the best of my pain 
And water it down
Ooo take the rest of my hate 
And water it down

We all wanna stay 
Yet way down we go
Way down we go
It’s such a terrible shame.

My feet on fire
Your body blazin
Ooo with the way that we move 
We got the room up in flames
My words are cold
Your shoulders frozen
Ooo this rush in my chest
Is like an avalanche 

Ooo take the best of my pain 
And water it down
Ooo take the rest of my hate 
And water it down

We all wanna stay 
Yet way down we go
Way down we go..

It’s such a terrible shame.

Come Pick Me Up - (VN Recording)

Old mandem demo. Prob 2005 
About losing love in a shit town. 
My bestie @TheRealDannyDoyle with the magnificent bars.

This Town feat Danny Doyle

Former member of East London band 
“The Interstellar Graffiti Artists”
Current triangle player of 
The “Slap a Tiddy Reggae Band”
Although I mainly just stand in the back n Ting. 
Occasionally fucking around with my various instruments when I can be arsed.
Songs will get removed and improved now & then.
Very eclectic man of many moods. 
I missed the 60s.
I miss the 90s.

Zionist Free Zone

Slim Blues

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