the broomsticks alive
we’re dancing tonight
a poor substitute for you

the deeper i dive
the harder i fight
the surface is out of view

candles in the dark
you light them solemnly
oh my meadowlark
harmonize with me
i think i see the stars
but it might just be a dream
candles in the dark
won’t you light them, darling please

slowly i strive
for days to be bright
for worries far and few

on this road i drive
hoping i take flight
to set sail away with you

candles in the dark
you light them solemnly
oh my meadowlark
harmonize with me
i think i see the stars
but it might just be a dream
candles in the dark
won’t you light them, darling please

candles in the dark

nighttime music
songs for foraging
and sailing the open sea
may it last you until dawn
or however long it may be
til you see the sun again

dogboy

i’m a junkie honestly
and i’m married to the high
of blowing up and blacking out
each and every night
and i would stop if i could
but nothing’s ever ached 
as much as that

my love, at the vending machine
in the hall in between classes
whisper your dreams in my ear
and buy me a pepsi, will you please

of course, you say
in that sweet patient voice
that’s when i decided
that’s when i knew
i’d ache only for you

home room teachers and school yard dreams
gym class heroes picking teams
teen romance and high school dances
stomach pumps and best laid plans in

hotel rooms small town dreams
cheering for a losing team
empty bottles, prescriptions run
i’ll be your opioid baby

i’ll be your opioid baby
i’d ache only for you

ache

red bull and jack daniels
i threw out the user manual
now i’m all alone and i’m missing you

i get so insecure
and i’m just trying to stay pure
tight jeans on your knees
and you’re begging me please
buying alcohol at the grocery store
you’re knocking on a door
i just don’t answer

blacked out in a basement apartment
don’t start with me don’t start
car keys on the floor of the restaurant
parking lots and empty shopping centres
i always saw us ending up together
budget cuts and best luck on your
future endeavours i’ll love you forever

i’ll be with you all in due time

budget cuts

pride of the north

relay race

make it big

you can search your whole life
and still not find what you’re after
you can search your whole life
and you still won’t find what you’re after


cover art drawn by hayao miyazaki

search

eleven eleven, sending out wishes
i get neurotic, and superstitious
i'll be with you on one condition
that you'll wish for me too

samples:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dou-0Uv-2Q0&ab_channel=CaseyKorstanje

eleven eleven

losing game
run out of reasons why
because they were all the same

passing blame
run out of new names to try
and then my hair caught flame

neutered tamed
with it’s tail between it’s thighs
and a hungry look in his eyes

who are you
to judge what i do
i fall asleep each afternoon
to the narcolepsy blues

narcolepsy blues

the back of my hand

guitar by the wizard c.g. maness - https://soundcloud.com/user-419254289-15129531

it's always been easier
for me to fall asleep than stay awake
let me dream

it's always been (prod. cgmaness)

produced by cgmaness: https://soundcloud.com/user-419254289-15129531

it feels like i'm walking backwards through this life
it feels like i only walk backwards now
now, i'll make it back somehow
somehow, somehow

i had a chance to make it back
but i threw it away, i threw it away
i had a chance to make it all back
but i threw it away

it feels like i only walk backwards though this life
it feels like i only walk backwards now
i'll make it back somehow, somehow

you don't know what it's like
you won't ever know my pain
you don't know my name
you don't know a thing
no, no, no, no, no

it feels like i only walk backwards though this life
it feels like i'm walking backwards again
i'll make it back somehow, somehow

shoutout to cgmaness for the beautiful track!
thanks for listening:)
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walking backwards (prod. cgmaness)

connection

umbrella couples
walking together 
through the storm

plastic coverings
and their loving
keeps them warm

take it one step at a time
as long as i’ve got you by my side
my feet may be wet but i stay dry
take it one step at a time


featuring bass and electric guitar from the legend cgmaness

inspiration and cover art taken from “klara and the sun” by kazuo ishiguro

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umbrella couples (feat. cgmaness)

the late night theatres are waterfalls
they tell the same jokes every night
locks for the river that runs along broadway
i stand on the street and get hit by the flood
just like my father did, waiting for my mother
i do it now, waiting for you
you exit the theatre once in a blue moon 
yesterday i heard you say i’ll see you tomorrow
but i might have misheard what you said after all

sometimes i think that it’s always been there
growing like a fungus, always by my side
just like a dog, or a strange younger brother
i wonder if one day it will have to die
i keep a fish in a bottle by my bed
i release it in the stream 
under the wooden bridge
i release it in the stream
once it gets too big

the late night theatres are waterfalls
they tell the same jokes every night
locks for the river that runs along broadway
i stand on the street and get hit by the flood
just like my father did, waiting for my mother
i do it now, waiting for you
just like my father did, waiting for my mother
i do it now, waiting for you

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about a dream

i don't have no friends and i don't have a scene
i try to go to bed but i can't fall asleep
it's not a nightmare but it's a bad dream
so don't you dare talk to me

walking down the street and i hit my head
before i get to barton i'm seeing red
thinking that i might just end up dead
so don't you dare talk to me

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before i get to barton

peach plum pear (joanna newsom cover)

english ivy
grows inside me
and i’m wondering what it means

helix turning
rome is burning
am i living in a dream

california king
i know everything
except how to love you

in light of the tide
my life was a cloud
blocking out the sun

so I caught a ride
on a semi truck
down hi way 61

in search of the sea foam
A hollywood dream home
my eyes stay closed
my nails stay clean

california king
don’t mean a thing
let the surf 
roll over you

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california king

entheogenic psychonaught - https://soundcloud.com/josh-clary-1
llanpsych - https://soundcloud.com/llanpsych
cgmaness - https://soundcloud.com/user-419254289-15129531

i rest my head
so many days spent like this
i rest my head 
on the pillow

another day gone to seed
what is it that i need
to flower and to bloom
alone in my room

desperate for anything
a pair of homemade wings
let me fly
close to the sun

just like sisyphus
i’m only a myth
lost at sea
like some sort of odyssey

the pillow (prod. entheogenic psychonaught, llanpsych, & cgmaness)

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after dad had that first
real bad heart attack
when the rain didn’t stop
falling til june
you’d slowly read your bible
and i’d sit right beside ya
staring at your face
all afternoon

we’d walk outside and 
i’d see his ghost
in the sky, in your eyes, 
in your hope
you knew he’d recover
but he couldn’t take another
i don’t wanna watch him die

i left when i
knew i could go
drift away on that
long winding road 
made a lot of friends
i can say that i know
but i know which friends
i love the most 

willows weep
by the riverside
dew drops fall
morning drifts on by

if you call that name of mine
i’ll be right back by your side

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i'd be nothing without my horse

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dear god i’m a fraud
about to be exposed
to everyone i love

act tough and play rough
think i’ve bottled up too much 
think i’ve had enough

i’m not brave i’m just saved
some things i’ll take them to my grave
i’ll take them to my grave

and in my mind time after time
i find myself calling out to you
and my life has many stories
some i wish they weren’t true
and i may come off neurotic
but it’s just what i do
i know practice makes perfect
just like 2 times 2, 

and the back of my hand
you hold it close love you the most
got no demands
your wish is my command

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the back of my hand (video version)

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you don’t know what i have in store
fate’s been knocking at my door
you ask me the reason why
i don’t ever wanna lie to you

take me in take me apart
feel the beating of my heart
give you my skin give you my art
swear i knew right from the start

blankets wrap around my form
they do their best to keep me warm
pestilence and locusts swarm
no longer one the page is torn

to all those that i knew before
i am gone i am no more

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to all those that i knew before

cover of au revoir (adios) by the front bottoms

video on instagram, tiktok, and youtube

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au revoir (adios) [front bottoms cover]

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lyrics:

takashi or haruki
i feel you looking through me
peering in a window to my soul

burma or myanmar
i want to drive a fast car
what’s the point in ever going slow

taciturn or talkative
nothing can be provocative
when that’s your only goal

images or written words
oh to be a little bird
unfettered by gravity

ophelia, ophelia
what’s that lovely song 
of yours i hear
ophelia, ophelia
there’s nothing more to say
to you my dear

slowly i approach it
monotone and hopeless
some sort of freedom
just beyond me

a pen that won’t cooperate
syllables a sullen state
i haven’t made anything
new for several days

tolkien murdered tolstoy
in the eyes of all the young boys
nabokov is laughing
from his calf leather chair

kim jiyoung born 1982
look what you made me do
speaking in a voice
that’s not my own

murakami, murakami
creating something out 
of thin air
a tsunami, a tsunami
of lived experiences
women share

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fiction//reality

welcome to the lofi garden

(flying)

all written, recorded, and produced by me unless stated otherwise

thetastate222@gmail.com

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