Dragging me under water 
My black dog acting as a weight
Dragging me through the muck
Unable to find my feet again

Little people breathin easy 
I can’t seem to find a way to breathe 
Is it so hard they ask 
I can’t even talk back 

fear of my lungs filling
losing what little breath is left in me
Eyelids struggling to stay open
I don’t see much point

Family jumps after me 
They just make it worse,
make me guilty

I’m sorry that they can’t help
But, this is something I need to do my self. 
So I lie through my teeth
All better, sugar cane, gumdrops, candy
Really, mom I’m better, good as can be

Meanwhile my dog has grown into a whale
It’s dragged me down so far the sun is gone 
Or was it ever there
was it ever there 

Drownin in prescription medicine
Turn to something a little stronger 
Makes me feel better then a lot worse
Who am I again I just can’t remember

Did I ever smile, real and true
It now hurts if I try to 
Maybe, I’ll get better
Maybe, i’ll see the sun again  
But, I don’t see that happening any time soon 

 


TheUnderlander