FULLY EDITED now, so enjoy my verse now that it's FULLY EDITED!

Nebulous's Verse ((One Chance Rap Contest) (Prod. MBB))(FULLY EDITED)

A random, quick song I wrote & so I thought I should record it, because the influence, flow, & of course lyrics are some of my best for an energizing song. This song will have a music video on YouTube HERE--->> https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCivtNU4F-xx1N4ZzC6rUGGQ/videos
Let me know what you think & ENJOY!!!!!

Hip - Hop's True Meaning (Prod. Syko Beats)

"Insomnia" is the first track on my upcoming mixtape "Isolated Emotions EP". Explains my need to stay up all night because of all the screaming thoughts that cloud my mind.. most will relate! Starts off the EP with a fast & dark flow of words!

LYRICS-

Intro: (0:32)
...Hahaha...

Verse 1: (0:37)
Don't even try, to run/
I twitch, just for fun/
I may sound scary, but I've only just begun//
Son, do you ever see the sun?/
You know why there's only one?/
You ever had a starring-contest with it.. & won?//
It has just, blinded you/
Ruling out, fouls like you/
It's why I am an insomniac, & only gaze, at the moon!//
Soon, you'll finally understand/
Why I am the type, of man/
To never sleep but jot, till I break the fuckin' pen//
To fan away, any fan/
To stay up think-ing, to no end/
To always stay silent when I'm screamin' in my head// 
Tossin' & turnin' in my bed/
My mind is never full, but fed/
Choo-sing my next step in life, is what I truly dread//
My favorite co-lor is now red/
Infatu-ated with the dead/
Speaking to Sharon, like GOD, she's in my head//
Never will I, take my meds/
Is any help, far from dead?/
Cuz I need it now!/
..Will this anger ever shed!?//

Chorus 1: (1:24)
What! ...is wrong with me?/
I can't ev-en enjoy it, when I sleep/
..Poor Bo-Peep, went to leap/
Coun-ting bones broken, in his feet//
Geez! ...Something's so wrong/
I med-i-tate to, every song/
Suppose to re-lax, every bone/
Insomnia!! ..leave me alone!//

Verse 2: (1:49)
Please psychologists, people/
Pick-a-part my tracks/
& diagnose the, fact/
That, pos-i-tivity is, what I lack//
& YET! Pos-i-tively in-tact/
Out-side of, all the raps/
I'm as timid as kitten/
I'll name you mittens/
Sucha cute, cat//
(Ouch) ..She, JUST, gave me a scratch!/
You stupid fuckin' pussy/
I will MAKE you re-gret that!!//
I'll beat you with this bat!/
..Saw-off all your fat/
Sharp-en your big-gest bones, to be, used as an axe!!//
()Then my conscious comes, into play/
I think about it EVERYDAY/
What if I stuck to my fuckin' threats? (Hmm?) may-bay//
I'd be, manically de-pressed/
Or it'd, calm all my stress/
Ei-ther WAY I'm a mess/
..In-evitably, cra-zy!// (2:24)
Instead I'm just la-zy/
Act-ing like it don't faze-me/
How the world's FUCKED UP, & I wanna just leave, please!// (2:32)
()Living in this reality/ 
Really ain't reality/
We're looking for the lock/
When we still don't have the key!//
The key is the brain/
The, answer to everything/
Which is why I go insane/
Overthinking everything//
My, mind just can't maintain/
I'm focused on the strain/
Of, living life alone/
Until I figure, who I am!//
()Until then, I play this game/
Of, frankly questioning/
Makes me feel like I'm the king/
Without buying all the bling//
I don't live, like a pawn/
Cuz I can't re-spawn/
Making it to the end/
Won't mean I be-come a queen// 
Or a higher entity/
The proof is in the pudding/
Fatalism isn't fouling me/
Deciding Fate foolish// (3:10)
But how the fuck, will we know?/
When we never hit a low/
Insomnia's intentional/
Cuz up all night, I surely grow!//
()I NEED ventilation though/
Through my music so/
Don't NEED your religious beliefs to, fuckin', cleanse my soul//
I got it all, under control/
Therapy's a fuckin' fold/
Just NEED is this BEAT!/
& you'll SEE just, what I'll mold// (3:24)

Outro: (3:27)  Beat cuts off! 
...Think I can fin-ally sleep now.../
..Knew my music was the only way how../
(Breathe in then out)//

END: (3:42)

Insomnia

This song has literally been 1 FULL year in the making!
It's been through a tremendously long process of revisions & re-recordings to make sure I had the very BEST quality for this powerful song! & I did, with professional equipment in a professional studio & making this song was just as amazing as the outcome.. If you enjoy it please SHARE it around, OR at least leave a LIKE to show your support!
This song means so much to me, it's a HUGE milestone in my music career.. & I've only just begun.


BUY or STREAM on iTunes & Spotify NOW!
itunes.apple.com/album/id1160504972?ls=1&app=itunes 

Watch on YouTube HERE: Youtube.com/watch?v=bj_JsRQXR7w
^Lyrics on video!^

Produced by: @SeanAhernAhern

Beat by: @SykoBeats 

Written by: @JordanNebulousB

One Step at a Time 

It's a song about growing up over the past year being out of creating music, so all you pretentious artists can relate & enjoy!

More new sounds coming soon... if SoundCloud isn't shutdown by then of course.

Written by: @JordanNebulousB 
Twitter.com/JordanNebulousB?lang=en 

Produced by: Monir
Youtube.com/user/moniredits/videos 

LYRICS:

Chorus 1: (0:29)
Growing up to be/
Who I wanna be/
Growing up to know/
Who I never knew/
Growing up for me/
I guess can't, be with you!/
Growing up to see/
That's what you have to too//
Knowing who to be/
That all comes, with the journey/
Knowing who you need/
Will come automatically/
>Knowing you're not for me!/
Is when the, WHOLE world's against us!/
Knowing you're more free/
Makes me happier to see//

Verse 1: (0:58)
Love doesn't persist, inside your fist/
It's freedom to follow, eternal bliss/
Not forging cuffs, around her wrists/
Or dying to reclaim, what you miss//
It's Focusing Forward, not on the hitch/
On Cruise control, not in a ditch/
So many Chevy's, passing quick/
But Dodge the speeders, or you'll get hit!//
(1:14)
Even though so many, at my age/
Knows love exists, outside of a cage/
Biting their lips, to block the rage/
When their, fantasy, begins to fade//
Losing the fusion, that gave them aid/
The high they crave, wish it could stay/
In their arms, at this place/
It's changing, it's turning from love, to hate!//
How can anyone, think this way?/
It doesn't make any sense, logically/
But love ain't logic, love's a drug/
Love's thug, who tugs the rug//
Out from un-der-neath your feet/
But you can't, let it be, all on me/
As much as I want that, fantasy/
It defeated us both... emotionally//
()So now I know, we shouldn't be/
I should have known, you'd lie to me/
Who's fault is it, when you deceive/
Cuz I'm like a kid, when I believe//
You fool me once, that's shame on you/
You fool me twice, that's shame on me/
You, were my dream, when I close my eyes/
So I didn't wanna face reality//

Verse 2: (1:57)
Now... All alone, constantly/
Thinking free, but nothing's free/
So ultimately, I felt the heat/
From nothing, but self-anxiety//
Blatantly worried about, where I should be/
Not appreciating friends & family/
They're always there, why can't we see?/
They're love for me, is all I need//
("ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE")
...should be on repeat/
Cuz growing up is, the funniest thing/
One moment you, wanna be dying/
The next you're, taking off, flying//
Next you're, coming down, crashing/
Then you're, crawling out, bleeding/
Then you're, hospitalized, healing/
...Finally you accept, that/
You're just growing up//
(2:27)

END: (2:45)

ME EP

Growing Up

Watch MUSIC VIDEO here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5GtmRc86t6M 

Not one celebrity death in the past has actually upset me until I heard about Chester's just a few minutes after listening to Linkin Park's music.
That night I actually changed around a few lyrics in a song I wasn't planning to even record anymore, & focused on exploring (NOT glorifying) the complexities of suicide.
This music video needed to release with the song to express the depression & drug abuse that slowly consumed Chester Bennington caused by the physical abuse he received as a child.

Rip. Chester Bennington
3/20/1976 - 7/20/2017

To the rest of Linkin Park members... My condolences are with you.

Written by: @JordanNebulousB 
https://twitter.com/JordanNebulousB?l... 

Produced by: Monir
https://www.youtube.com/user/moniredi... 

LYRICS:

Chorus 1: (0:28) 
All we do is drive/
All we do is think about the feelings that we hide/
All we do is sit in silence waiting for a sign/
Sick & full of pride/
All we do is drive// (x2)

Verse 1: (0:59)
Thoughts are crossing my mind/
I hide behind this shrine of pride inside/
& ignore what I can find/
...Blinded by my own, thoughts I hide//
So confined, so I can't find where I want to go/ 
Or explore another's mind/
So focused on BEING divine/
That I think I've closed mine.//
Who would've known.../
...By the way I live, everyday/
The way I try to cure this pain/
I think I'm all alone, & that//
No one feels this strain, I can't/
Function normal-ly, but no one knows what/
Normal is, so life, ONLY seems to bury me!///

Chorus 2: (1:27)
All we do is drive/
All we do is think about the feelings that we hide/
All we do is sit in silence waiting for a sign/
Sick & full of pride/
All we do is drive// (x2)

Verse 2: (1:58)
All we seem to do is drive/
Thinking that we feel alive/
How do you even know until your last breathe, is "goodbye"?//
I finally knew, I had to crash/
Stopping the car won't change the past/
I'd just keep going, lap & lap/
Until I broke the gas!//
I'm sorry about everything, that would have happened/
If I hadn't, focused on accidents, that shifted my mind, back into reverse!//
I know I push my-self into a hearse/
I know my past be-came a curse//
I know my life, would have been so great, but we gotta put ourselves, first.///

Chorus 3: (2:27)
All we do is drive/
All we do is think about the feelings that we hide/
All we do is sit in silence waiting for a sign/
Sick & full of pride/
All we do is drive// (x2)

END: (3:30)

All We Do [A Tribute to Chester Bennington of Linkin Park]

New single featuring JayR.
New project in the works.

Written by: @JordanNebulousB & @JayR7k
https://twitter.com/JordanNebulousB?l... 

https://twitter.com/JayR7k?lang=en 

Produced by: 
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCE0J... 

LYRICS:

Chorus 1: (0:14)
Wide awake, wide awake/ 
It all gets so hard/
Wide awake, wide awake/
It all gets so hard, ohh//
Will you take my hands/
& make a shadow?/
Will you take my hands/
& make a shadow? Ohh///

Verse 1: (0:41)
Now I'm wide awake/
Waking in a shake/
Breaking till I-/
It's like I'm being tazed/
No longer can I lay//
Slowly, stepping in a daze/
Like moving through a maze/
Caged.../
Back at the glass I gaze/
Who am I today?//
So many motherfuckers figure/
I'ma loser when I'm/
Never treatin' college/
Like it's gonna give me something/
Cuz it'll...//
Never give me nothing/
When I, just write writtens/
Sittin' in a, comfy chair typing/
As I'm sharply spittin'//
Ahhh... Fuck I'm feeling my, anxiety again/
Not the bulb, in the ceiling/
But, bruising up my shins//
Beating down my body/
Like I'm fightin' Jack, Dempsey/
But oh damn they didn't see/
That I'm freakin' Gene, Tunney//
I swear, soon we gonna learn to/
Always direct our demons/
Fountain out our feelings/
Floodin' our own hell, to the fuckin' ceiling// 
& I mean the "we" as/
We as just, I & myself & me/
Cuz the need to be with somebody/
Means I rather, be asleep.///

Chorus 2: (1:36)
Wide awake, wide awake/ 
It all gets so hard/
Wide awake, wide awake/
It all gets so hard, ohh//
Will you take my hands/
& make a shadow?/
Will you take my hands/
& make a shadow? Ohh///

Verse 2: (2:03)
Make a shadow/
Guide me through everyday/
Take my hand/
Be there every step of the way/
Let's fly away together, be my forever, never let go//
Hold me close/
I'll hold you close/
No bowlder can break us apart/
Our love was a shot in the dark but.../
We threw the dart/
We hit the mark/
We had a spark//
And that was the beginning of our arc/
From there on, I was wide awake/
You shook my world up like an earthquake/
I knew this wasn't gonna be a mistake//
This wasn't gonna be another heartbreak/
Cooking pancakes in the morning with you/
To having the flu, and staying in all day, to meeting your family//
You blew me away/
You changed my view/
I no longer feel like I'm stuck in a cage, at the zoo/
Who knew I'd feel this way..?//
Always wanting to go out, try new things/
I grew up so fast, I found my jewel and that was you/
Now your my shadow everywhere I go//
Your the echo in my voice/
So I just wanna let you know/
Your my hero/
You make me grow/
Your gonna be the reason I blow up//
The reason I become a pro/
I'm like an arrow shooting to the stars, the shot is narrow/
But I bet I'll go far.///

Chorus 3: (2:59)
Wide awake, wide awake/ 
It all gets so hard/
Wide awake, wide awake/
It all gets so hard, ohh//
Will you take my hands/
& make a shadow?/
Will you take my hands/
& make a shadow? Ohh///

END: (3:41)

Overshadow (feat. JayR)

Awareness is taught.
FOCUS is not.
Know this, it's NOT.
...Balance, the two in you.

Written by: @JordanNebulousB 
https://twitter.com/JordanNebulousB?lang=en 

Song artwork by: @JayR
https://twitter.com/JayR7k?lang=en 

Produced by: @MrMorenoBeats
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TAMgSLsYZIE&t=2s 

LYRICS:
Verse 1: (0:23)
You ever, feel like you're living, but ain't living for you?/
You ever feel like you're loving, but you ain't loving you?//
You ever feel like you're something, but you're tying you're own noose?/
You ever feel in love with someone, but you know it's not the truth?//
You wanna hold onto the past/
While life, is passing you/
You wanna blame someone else/
But don't, even know who/
You wanna fade into the black/
Cuz you don't, know what to do/
You wanna continue what you grew/
But you gotta, rip it from its roots!//
(0:46)
I'm not a gardener but I'm ready to, tare up the garden/
Not, gonna let this problem, wait till autumn/
I wanna start on rebuilding, but my building is falling/
Before I'd, damage-control life, but now I'll let it happen//
So, don't be like the old me, spending time deciding/
Whether fate's in control, like Kendrick free-styling/
Just enjoy everyday, with whatever's your passion/
So when 100 feet standing, we'll say/
"I came from the bottom."//

Chorus 1: (1:10)
Fo-cus, on you/
Stay true, to who/
Knows this, they'll prove/
Hap-piness, to you too//
Aware-ness, is taught/
Fo-cus, is not/
Know this, it's not/
Bal-ance, the two in you//

Bridge 1: (1:34)
Find, a way, to learn to do both/
When ya need, to do, focus on your goals/
When ya need, to see, aware your mor-als/
But right now, I need, to focus on my notes//

[FADE] (1:46)

Verse 2: (1:57)
We never, know until we, let, go, of what we sought/
We never understand the other side, until we're apart/ 
We never admit what we did, un-til we are caught/
We never focus on right now, till it's the past, we forgot//
()We always wanna learn more, but not reflect on what we're taught/
We always confront our demons, after destroying what we got/
We always want what we want, until it is bought/
If not, we'll steal the register, & shoot up, the whole, mall!//
(2:21)
()You ever wonder why they never seemed to want you to succeed?/
You wanna cover someone's wound, while you let yourself bleed?/
We never questioned their intentions cuz they won't, let us see/
We always scored for THEIR team, thinking they'd do the same for me//
(2:33)
()I wanna prove to you, you don't need them/
Your focus is their con-venience/
They're insecurities have pulled you in/
To mitigate, your true passion/  
()So cut the noose they hold you in/
Swing your feet & then begin/
To focus forward where you stand/
Just take a step & not a hand.../
Out.//

[FADE] Bridge 2: (2:45)
Find, a way, to learn to do both/
When ya need, to do, focus on your goals/
When ya need, to see, aware your mor-als/
But right now, I need, to focus on my notes//

END: (3:35)

FOCUS

The name's, Nebulous for short!
Rap/Hip-Hop is my religion and life because of how influential it is to me.
It makes me want to be something more and explain my thoughts out, become more courageous, & you will surely see that in all of my raps!
Lyrics are the most important aspect of my music & you will see how my lyrics can connect to your life, & hopefully maybe make you a better & stronger person as well.
I began writing back in late 2012, & finally began recording my songs 10 months later!
I write mainly about struggles in my life, whack-ass, money whore, hoe fucking rappers that sadly run the whole industry of Hip-Hop now! & my extreme indecisiveness, and just how fucked up the life I & everyone lives is. 
I'm proud to say that I am a REAL, RAW rapper and I hope you enjoy all of my tracks on my debut Mixtape, DECIDING FATE 

TheUnknownNebulous