j brij. X Respite - everything to me

another chapter

idiot child - healthy conversation

numbered days - demos

New single with Kindbrew records! Made this chill beat with @jellyfish-bones. Go check it out on other streaming platforms as well <3

j brij. X Jfbm - Drifting Up

ur everything to me

the past i created in vain

when i feel alone

time alone

embracing the pain ive caused

Lofiguitar2fornow

Turn down percs, move bass note up

taking a breath

time alone (what happens, happens) (feat. cameron north)

waves of feelings

such a love that life seems to stop without u

pockets of existence

all tired of life now

time that was ours

between perception

curtain calls (demo)

new single out on all platforms with Dreamhop Music :)

a feeling i once had

idiot child - kills my breath (demo)

idiot child - the time it crawls (demo)

Turn up elec bass, repeat kick snare final chorus

idiot child - mourn and cry (demo)

trailmix - live stream 01/27/25

can't stress enough - 01/28/25

changing - 01/29/25

depression - 01/30/25

anxiety - 01/31/25

too late - 02/01/25

make me feel

i think of you

how lonely

Sakura Square Original DJ Set - July 26 2025

TooLate demo1

butfucker

pianostartdrumss

OKIBOI

80812345

Spotify/Apple Music

sakura no hana.

thoughts.

jupiter.

af·fla·tus
/əˈflādəs/

a divine creative impulse or inspiration.

afflatus.

<3

Was it something about 
The way I spoke to you

Was it something about 
The way I spoke to you 
I thought it would be nice
To get to know you

But when I tried 
To think of someone else
You’re all that came
Dancing in my head

Sometimes I wish upon a star
Who knows if it’ll fall
It may stay still for years

But when it does 
I’m watching the planes come in
Your coming down
But only to say goodbye

I’m watching the planes come in
But only to say goodbye
I thought it would be nice
To think of someone else

watching the planes come in. [++]

looking thoughtfully at something for a long time.

tranquility. (demo)

New 3 track ep with Kindbrew Records. Go check it out on Spotify and other streaming plaforms <3

https://www.instagram.com/kindbrewrecords/

moving on - EP

New single with Krynoze and ChillSelect! Out now on all platforms 🥰❤️

j brij. X Krynoze - Fading Love

New single with @respitemusic and Kindbrew records! Also on Spotify and Apple Music ✌️🥰

New Light w/ Respite

EDM project @duskaponne 🥰❤️




wanting to find myself within the empty shell of my body…
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sometimes i just hate existing. i just wanna make my own music and watch anime. everything just seems awful right now. life as a whole makes me wanna disappear into nothingness. as long as i have my music and anime ill be ok, but i dont if i even have that right now. where do i go from here. everything looks terrible from my perspective right now. i am overthinking everything, and i cant stop stressin over life. i dont need much. ill be fine with just my music and anime. knowing that i guess ill be ok. we'll see how it goes...

yea well now i hate my music because i feel like i cant enjoy my music for myself. i am too worried about other people listening to my music which is why i use labels to release music, but i feel when i do so i am less of an artist. i just want to make music for myself and not care about what anyone else thinks. i would be fine if just like ten people loved my music and commented and liked and did all that jazz. just ten actual fans who would buy a ticket to my show if i was performing nearby them. just 10 people. thats all i want. but more importantly, i want to feel like an artist again, making songs and creating artwork because i like the aesthetic, not because some label does. i just dont know where to go from here. part of me wants to delete every project ive worked on and start from scracth because i just dont know what direction i want to take my music and it gives me so much anxiety and makes me so stressed. i just compare my artist projects to other artists and i feel so inferior as an artist. i just dont know who i am as an artist right now. its scary. im not sure what to do...

Well now that some time has passed I'm still dealing with similar issues. Life is meaningless. I have no motivation rn.

Yea well i thought that stuff was true but now im having a hard time existing without u. I didn’t expect to fall so in love but now that ur gone i realize how much i need u here. I still love those things abt myself but they are much harder to realize when ur gone. But ik that the best thing for u rn is to give u space from me, and that hurts because im the one that hurt u and nothing will change that, so i just hate myself so much for the amount of pain i put on u when i thought i was different, but ig i still need to grow. Im sorry. I love u and miss u. I hope ur happy ❤️

guess it's all gonna be ok in the end...

Meditation and taking cold showers are the two things really keeping me going right now. It is really hard having real thoughts about you and also fake thoughts about you, and I am beginning to not be able to differentiate the two. To combat this I have tried so very hard to push you out of my brain, but I realized that I cannot. My love for you still holds on, but I let it sleep now, listening and waiting for the right time to show itself. After doing so, almost all of the feelings I feel for you originate from my anxiety. I ignore these feelings as I know they are not real, however the effect they have on my life is very real. I push them away constantly, using up all of my strength to prevent these thoughts from clouding my perception of who you are. I am growing tired from this daily struggle, and hope one day that you may help me push back against these thoughts by gracing me with your love. In the meantime I cry and breath to keep these thoughts as far away from you as possible, while I silently wait for your sweet return with a love that sets me apart.

j brij.

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