a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 2/30
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art credits: me

In 2020, I lost a close family friend due to COVID-19. The last time I saw him was when he visited my family and me in late 2019. At the time I was studying for exams and didn't give him the time he needed and that was the last time I saw him.
In the past, I lost my grandparents in a similar manner.
'at the end of time' is an attempt to convey how I feel now. All the work did pay off, but at what cost? I could have everything I could ever want but would lose everyone in the process.
It taught me about how unfortunately anyone at any time could disappear, and that I should remember to put these people first and give them the love, time, and care they need.
Everything else in this world is temporary.

at the end of time
The family friend and my grandparents were some of the sweetest people that could ever have existed. They would always encourage me with everything I did, from music to my studies and would always make me feel like I was special.
My paternal grandmother was the last grandparent to live, and she passed away before I got a place at medical school, something that all of my grandparents dreamt of and encouraged me to pursue. At the time of writing this, I have finished my fifth year of medical school, done well in my exams, and won a scholarship, but they're not here to see it.
I wish you could see me now, I know I would've made you proud and I'm sorry I didn't give you more time. If you're out there, wherever you are, I hope you can see what I'm doing. This is all for you and I will be the best I can be for you.

lyrics:
[verse 1]
at what cost did i succeed?
by giving into my own greed

i didn't give the time you need 
and now you're no longer here

[bridge]
but now you are gone
and i keep thinking it's my fault 
i couldn't give you all my love
i don't know if i can keep going on

[chorus]
and i'll keep running away
so many things that i've wanted to say
i know that i'm to blame
i can't look back because i am ashamed

and at the end of time
i'll finally feel alive
nobody by my side
it's the end of a beautiful, hurtful life

[verse 2]
i want a way out
i hate how you're not around
i wish you could see me now
i know that i would've made you proud

[bridge]
but now you are gone
and i keep thinking it's my fault 
i couldn't give you all my love
i don't know if i can keep going on

[chorus]
and i'll keep running away
so many things that i've wanted to say
i know that i'm to blame
i can't look back because i am ashamed

and at the end of time
i'll finally feel alive
nobody by my side
it's the end of a beautiful, hurtful life

a beautiful, yet hurtful life

at the end of time

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art inspired by sui5o: https://twitter.com/sui5o/

aquoferne:
@aquoferne
twitter.com/aquoferne
www.youtube.com/channel/UCuLrV8V8uxHZImKgx28hnDA

Lyrics:
i saw the city lights
more than a thousand times
it's still the same old view

same with the lantern skies
just gone into the night
when will i ever leave this room?

am i fading from sight?
have i lost my own mind?
i want to throw away my feelings
over the edge

i've held up my voice way too high
i've always wanted to let my wings fly
and i'll fall down softer than before
to keep on moving is what i'm striving for

look into the waves
reflecting off your face

no disconnection
never a mention
of how somebody could live

am i fading from sight?
have i lost my own mind?
i want to throw away my feelings
over the edge

i've held up my voice way too high
i've always wanted to let my wings fly
and i'll fall down softer than before
to keep on moving is what i'm striving for

Stop motion picture (w/ aquoferne)

nivviana:
https://soundcloud.com/nivviana
https://twitter.com/nivviana
https://open.spotify.com/artist/0rbfTZ9d5GHrkRN0EO7s5Z

lyrics:
when i'm with you
i can see through
all the hard things
you make me wanna sing

ooh, falling for you, fell for you
ooh, falling for you, fell for you

am i what you want?
what you doing, can i take you out for lunch?
am i what you need?
do i make you feel like how you make me feel?
(2x)

fell for you
you see through all my insecurities
bending truths
you see through who i make myself out to be

what you doing, can i take you out for lunch?
am i what you need?
do i make you feel like how you make me feel?

am i what you want?
when it's over can i hold you in my arms?
am i what you need?
do i make you feel like how you make me feel?

when i'm with you
i can see through
all the hard things
you make me wanna sing

do i make you feel like how you make me feel?

when i'm with you
i can see through
all the hard things
you make me wanna sing

when i'm with you, i feel whole again

im sorry im just daydreaming

falling

falling (ft. nivviana)

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garden

The original is by Lil Frontgarden :)
https://www.youtube.com/@lilfrontgarden
for people who are into my other more upbeat 
omplextro melodub type stuff, that style isnt going anywhere, im just experimenting a bit recently hahaha

right by your side

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prod. by kuromee





for in dream, we enter a world that's entirely our own

甘い香り 貫く
旅立ち 揺らぐ
バイバイ 口ずさむ歌を
the man in the moon
見て

いつの間にか溶けた苺を啄む小鳥
色褪せた手紙を覗くことできないまま

sesto

song from 2021

never finished
kinda cool

alina (2021)

Man I really want this shit officially out

Wavedash x Ekowraith ID (Shifting Perspectives Remake)

Near - Under The Stars

Independent Artist/Producer

Contact: noniame.official@gmail.com or Thisisren.music on discord

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