Hope You Found Me

𝙐𝙣𝙥𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙋𝙖𝙩𝙝 - Enamore

beijing connection - we should've left our hearts in the south where they first met

was it goodbye?

I learned to make a fist from my older brother at five,
and trust me, that skill’s kept me alive more times than I can count.
He showed me how to square up before I knew how to spell my name.
We didn’t have bedtime stories—we had bruises and broken lamps.
Mama prayed, Daddy drank, and we ducked when the shouting started.
I wore my first scar like a badge and never asked for a refund.
By seven, I knew how to take a hit and how to hide the tears.
By ten, I stopped hiding anything at all.
I’m a fighter, always have been, even when I didn’t want to be.
This skin’s beyond thin—it’s paper stretched over dynamite.
One twist, one wrong word, and I’m back in the ring.
It’s not about winning—it’s about not backing down.
I’ve thrown punches in parking lots and whispered apologies in hospital rooms.
I’ve fought for love, for pride, for silence, for nothing.
Sometimes I fight just to feel something that isn’t shame.
Sometimes I fight because it’s the only thing I trust to stay.
I’ve been hit by friends, by strangers, by truths I wasn’t ready for.
I’ve lost teeth, lost time, lost the thread of who I was supposed to be.
I’ve seen the look in her eyes when she realized I wasn’t safe to love.
I’ve walked out of rooms I should’ve stayed in and stayed in fights I should’ve walked from.
I’ve buried the best parts of me under layers of defense.
I’ve told myself I’m fine while bleeding through my shirt.
I’ve made peace with the fact that peace never made time for me.
I’ve stared down mirrors and dared them to blink first.
I don’t romanticize the damage—I just carry it.
I don’t ask for forgiveness—I just keep moving.
I don’t know what healing looks like, but I know what survival costs.
I don’t cry anymore, but I still flinch when someone says “safe.”
I’m the kind of man who’d die from a blow he didn’t see coming.
Not because he’s weak, but because he’s always looking the other way.
I’ve got stories stitched into my knuckles and regrets tattooed on my ribs.
I’ve got a heart that punches back and a mind that won’t stay quiet.
I’ve got a past that won’t let go and a future I don’t trust.
I’ve got one truth left: I fight.
Not for glory. Not for fame.
Just because that’s what got me down the line.
That’s just me.
No anthem. No apology.
Just a man who learned to swing
and never stopped.
That’s just me.(That’s just me.)That’s just me.
That’s just me.(That’s just me.)That’s just me.
That’s just me.(That’s just me.)That’s just me.
That’s just me.(That’s just me.)That’s just me

All rights reserved by songwriter and producer Edwin H. Balder.
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That’s Just Me Rusty Marshall Band

Started as studio session with great singer-songwriter Max Prut, this collaboration continously evolved and finally got recorded as modern hardrock anthem. Music by Max Prut and Boris Borovoy, lyrics by Alex Fefer. 

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An emerging band from Indonesia's capital city, eleventwelfth, join forces with Six Thirty Recordings from the same region to release their debut self-titled EP. eleventwelfth has established their signature sound with four singles beforehand on their bandcamp and Soundcloud page.
Their recently released a single “Your Head As My Favorite Bookstore”, taken from their debut EP featuring Asterika from Barasuara, and has received a lot of listeners, and media attentions.

eleventwelfth started as a duo musical project by Rona Hartriant and Almas Makitsuna in 2014 and later joined by Yogawerda Kessawa that expands as a passionate project from all of its member.
As stated by Rona Hartriant, this EP is dedicated to his late father who passed away in 2015 that made the band into who they are right now.

eleventwelfth EP consists of music that described as an instrumentalisation of emotion, which goes hand in hand with outspoken honesty.
The music showcases twinkling-emo infused with indie rock through out non-stop multiple tracks that are narrated cohesively.
Listening to their debut EP somehow brings a familiar feelings.

With 9 tracks under their sleeves, this Jakarta’s most promising new act is set to create headlines of the music scene in 2017

𝙐𝙣𝙥𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙋𝙖𝙩𝙝 - Enamore

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