Painstaking (Accoustic Version)

Music Prod by. King Theta

"Grave Mistake"
afraid to move, the walls are closing in
Imaging bad scenarios and bad scenes
Now Im aware that I was so broken
desperately! need someone to hangin on

constant nausea, constant fear
my worries control all of my thoughts
yeah~ I'm shaking, find an exit, I must retreat!
Sometimes my thoughts might.. drift.. away..

I close my eyes... to block it out...
But... inside my head they rush about
I take a breath to slow it down
theres no one help me around
My heart beats fast... my breathing slows...
I breathe in life... Then out it goes...
My body's numb, Yet I feel my tears...
I've lost count of the days, The months, the years...

overthinking when im feel alone
had to wake up i had to let it go
Why am I steady asking myself things I probably will never know

There's nowhere to run or hide, I'm soo doomed!
my world is crumbling, my life seems joking
with... the empty look i may potray
why my heart has grown so cold?

Grave Mistake (Prod. King Theta)

tell me (3x)
tell me something to make the world bow down on my knees
i traded a lot of pain to fulfill my dreams
life's goin' hard as i fall with the same calm breeze
life's goin' down there's no sight of a little bliss

i try manything to get pass through this shit
turning 28 and i just wanna turn back when i was 8
hate to say that i am tired, give up with all of these
sometimes i shuuut down not talking to anyone for days

life is hard life may leave some scars
losing love, losing hope, losing friends, I'm get used to it
Does it dry up like a raisin in the sun? 
Or fester like a sore And then run?

is it the price that i should pay?
to reach my perfect way
i have had enough of it
i have had enough of it
i have had enough of it
i have had enough of it

the world won't slow down for me
sometimes life isn't fair when im struggling alone
my head hurts, crying about it only makes it worse
all shaky and confused i think im going to die

everyday i'm break my leg trying to earn a living
people take advantage of my kindness i think
Why do people keep going on like everything's okay?
Treating me the way they do like it's a normal day.

look, Am I dirty when I appear to be clean
I believe god will make a way for me
Sometimes we see things that aren't meant to be seen
yet sometimes things aren't always as they see

Painful Season

2nd Album of THMSN 
tutus thomson trying to mixing and explore all genre there was alternative rock, electronic, hyperpop and emo rap..
violent red is an interpretative of 5 stages of grief that hopefully thmsn want to help process a loss to all their listener

music producer : King theta, yungspoiler, drmabeats
mixing mastering : RNJB BEATS

Violent Red

Remorse

2nd Album of THMSN 
tutus thomson trying to mixing and explore all genre there was alternative rock, electronic, hyperpop and emo rap..
violent red is an interpretative of 5 stages of grief that hopefully thmsn want to help process a loss to all their listener

music producer : drmabeats
mixing mastering : RNJB BEATS

Drop The Whole

2nd Album of THMSN 
tutus thomson trying to mixing and explore all genre there was alternative rock, electronic, hyperpop and emo rap..
violent red is an interpretative of 5 stages of grief that hopefully thmsn want to help process a loss to all their listener

music producer : King theta
mixing mastering : RNJB BEATS

Grave Mistake ((Remastered) Prod by King Theta)

2nd Album of THMSN 
tutus thomson trying to mixing and explore all genre there was alternative rock, electronic, hyperpop and emo rap..
violent red is an interpretative of 5 stages of grief that hopefully thmsn want to help process a loss to all their listener

music producer : chibi
mixing mastering : RNJB BEATS

Stunning

2nd Album of THMSN 
tutus thomson trying to mixing and explore all genre there was alternative rock, electronic, hyperpop and emo rap..
violent red is an interpretative of 5 stages of grief that hopefully thmsn want to help process a loss to all their listener

music producer : yungspoiler
mixing mastering : RNJB BEATS

Let The Wind Kiss Your Face (I Like U)

All Hell Breaks Loose

2nd Album of THMSN 
tutus thomson trying to mixing and explore all genre there was alternative rock, electronic, hyperpop and emo rap..
violent red is an interpretative of 5 stages of grief that hopefully thmsn want to help process a loss to all their listener

music producer : Tutus Thomson
mixing mastering : RNJB BEATS

Painful Season (Remastered)

2nd Album of THMSN 
tutus thomson trying to mixing and explore all genre there was alternative rock, electronic, hyperpop and emo rap..
violent red is an interpretative of 5 stages of grief that hopefully thmsn want to help process a loss to all their listener

music producer : unindefintiedboys
mixing mastering : RNJB BEATS

Heavy Thoughts ft. Priskila Oktaviani

Cherish

first debut for a new naughty hero, electronic punk duo from malang

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Naughty Hero - LIFE

THE WORLD AROUND ME TWIST AND TURNS
MY HEART INSIDE ME BLEEDS AND BURNS
I AM A POET WRITING ABOUT MY PAIN
I AM RECOVERING, TRYING TO GAIN

A PIECE OF SPACE OF SOLITUDE
THE SUN A WASTED DISEASE
THE MOST I PRAYED THE WORSE I FELT
LORD, I CAME WHEN BROKEN AND ASHAMED

IN THE BLINK OF AN EYE YOU'VE GONE AWAY 
TRYING HARD TO FIGURE IT OUT
MOVING ONWARD ENGULFED IN DOUBT
AS I SPILL THESE RHYMES, MY MIND GOES FLOAT AROUND

SHE MIGHT LOOK NORMAL TO YOU
BUT SHES A SAINT FROM MY POINT OF VIEW
ADMIRING YOU SUCH A CURSE
AND I KNOW THE ENDING WILL BE MORE THAN WORSE 
 
VERSE : THE SUN WENT AWAY AND IT STARTED TO RAIN
        THE JOY IN MY HEART SOON TURNED INTO PAIN
        HARD TO LOVE, WEIRD TO TRUST, I THINK IM LOST
	MY DAYS ARE LONG, MY NIGHTS ARE COLD
	WITHOUT YOU HERE FOR ME TO HOLD

BRIDGE: I'M TIRED OF DREAMING, I'M THROUGH WITH TRYING
	TIRED OF LIVING, YET SCARED OF DYING

CHORUS	: NOW I DONT KNOW WHY
	  HOPES WERE DRY
	  I LOOK A STAR TO WISH ON, BUT NO ONE IS IN SIGHT
	  I WANT TO RUN
	  I WANT TO HIDE
	  FROM ALL THE PAIN SHE CAUSED ME INSIDE
	  I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO 
	  TO GET BACK TO YOU
	  GOT NOTHING LEFT TO LOSE 
          SADNESS, TEARS AND BLUES
	  I'VE ALWAYS LOSE SAME ROUTINE DOSE
	  MY MIND IS TORN AND TWISTED SCREAMING FOR THE LIGHT

Bold

LOVING YOU IS INSANE
MY HEART IS BRITTLE WITH THIS PATIENCE 
CAUSE I CAN'T SAY THAT YOU'RE
ONLY ONE THAT I NEED AND DONT MAKE ME DOWN

LOVING YOU IS INSANE
EVERY GLANCE YOU MAKE, I CANT HANDLE
NOW I THINK THAT YOURE
THE ONLY ONE THAT I NEED AND DONT MAKE ME DOWN

ITS ALRIGHT THAT YOU NOT HAVE THE SAME FEELING LIKE I FEEL TO YOU RIGHT NOW
ITS ALRIGHT IF ONLY CAUGHT UP IN YOUR SMILE WHEN I LISTEN TO YOU RIGHT NOW
ITS ALRIGHT IF MY HEART WILL SHRINK AND WONT FEEL ANYTHING A'MORE RIGHT NOW
ITS ALRIGHT NOW ITS ALRIGHT NOW

I SIT IN DARKNESS ALL DAY LONG
JUST FOR WRITING MY LOVE'S SONG
I PLAY THIS FEELING ALL TIME LONG
MY SOUL IS GONE FAR TO LONG
POUR MY FEELING UNTIL FULL LIKE A POND
FEELING STUPID, ACTING LIKE A DUMB

(LETS CUT THIS SHIT, AND LETS I THROW MY FEEL)

ITS FEEL SO REAL, SO I STAY
I LAY AWAKE AT NIGHT TO PRAY
DEAR GOD PLEASE LEND ME MORE STRENGTH
I TRY TO CLOSE MY EYES AGAIN 
BUT SEE THERES ONLY YOU 
NOT A VERY GOOD HABBIT TO FALL INTO
DONT GIMME THAT LOOK
THEYRE PURE TORTURE
ITS VERY LONELY THINGS, I CANT REDUCE

Emotionless

Glare

I WAS THINKING OUT LOUD
YOU MAKE UP THE SWEETEST SMELLING REASONS TO GO BACK
NOW YOU'RE GONE, BUT WHAT KEEPS ME HOLDING ON   
BROKEN PIECES SHATTERED UNTO FLOOR
A SCATTERED HEART IS HARD TO RESTORE

I REALLY NEED AND WANT TO STEAL
HER BREATH, HER KISS, HER ATTENTION
I WANNA BE THE ONE SHE'LL MISS
HOW DO I FACE THE DAY WHEN MY HAPPINES SWEPT AWAY
I THOUGHT SHE WAS PERFECT FOR ME,
BUT THROUGH MY WISH I WASN'T ABLE TO SEE

I WAS THINKING OUT LOUD
BUT I TRIED TO TAKE MY TIME WITH NO DRAMA
WHEN YOU NEVER EXPECT IT TO COME
I THINK ITS DELAYING GETTING TO HEART MATTER
WHY EVERYTHING GOES WRONG TO ME?

YOU'RE JUST A GOOD DAY AND A STORMY NIGHT
JUST ANOTHER CRUSH THAT LEADS ME TO THE FRIGHT
ENOUGH TO RIP ME APART INSIDE OUT
I COULD WAIT FOREVER, PEOPLES THINK IM MESSED, SOME EVEN SAY I'M WEIRD

Sweet Sad

I can see you in my mind it seems as if you we're telling me 
It feels my heart is going to shrink and i'm afraid i won't feel anything
Somebody please help me to surface, give me air to breathe
I let myself drown in insanity i can't find my personality

I tortured myself not to see you again
Never gonna found those pretty smile once again
Every moments always coming into my head
Still i have not winced nor cried aloud

Was i the source of your greatest bliss
But i can't hardly breathe more longer than this
Did my heart love till now? forswear it, sight!
I never saw true beauty til this night 

I am broken shattered, into irreparable pieces
My mind is clouded, can't compare kind with distrust
Ever somewhere in my soul it burns
The lashes of the whip that forces me to learn 

Until i found the mean of peaces
Until i found what i called a treasure
I can get through. i just need some faith
Don't dare look back, look straight ahead

I'll pop you one
Time heals all wounds

I will keep standing here waiti 'til see your both feet run and go
My heart keep asking that you should be here, but my mind said i don't think so
Mesmerized something i can't get all over and try to let it flow
Let myself through this hard time i prove that i can live without your love

I don't know it seems its better this way
You know, i'm kinda like a dumb when thinking all about her
Wasting to many time and i'm tired of hopes
Its like chasing ghost, everything about her is like a fantasy
Seems what you see just to amaze your eyes and pull through to the rock bottom
and you're gonna be feeling really really bad in the day after
you feel numb in everyday you through, you feeling emptiness with everything you do
Becayse you put your expectation too high about your lust
you start to thinking to end your life
but keep this as a reminder
When your heart suddenly feels light, excited at ease
When you feel like your heart just knows what to do
Its time to pull your feeling already, trust me its gonna enlighten your days
I'm to bold to seeing that glare, sweet sad
all along my journey
So i think this is the aftermath

I will keep standing here waiti 'til see your both feet run and go
My heart keep asking that you should be here, but my mind said i don't think so
Mesmerized something i can't get all over and try to let it flow
Let myself through this hard time i prove that i can live without your love

Aftermath

Music Prod. By Rony JIbe (RNJB Beats)

Lyrics:
Jewel, im so confused tell me what im supposed to do?
How do I describe My love for you, dunno if this is true?
I catch myself thinking of the best way to share,
Hoping you'll return my confession showing you care
.
Jewel, tell me how id make you attracted to me?
.
Cause i wish theres more there something i can do
I’m deeply falling in love with you
Hearing your sweet voice and feeling your great touch
how can i resist these tempts
i wish theres more there something i can do
I’m deeply falling in love with you
Hearing your sweet voice and feeling your great touch
how can i resist these tempts
.
You amaze me in every way 
you take my breath away 
time goes by. seasons change.
my feelings stay the same.
Put your hand gently on my face 
As I put mine on your waist.
stay until feel this romance
I pray you feel the same.
When our eyes meet together
I know I want you forever
your laugh lightens my day.
i need you everyday
I don't think you will ever fully understand
girl please dont ever go away
girl please dont try to runaway
STOP
.
i'm so tired
just stop
.
Jewel, im so confused tell me what im supposed to do?
Jewel, tell me how id make you attracted to me?
jewel, tell me you feel the same with what i feel?
jewel, you take my bleeding heart that i trust to you
.
Cause i wish theres more there something i can do
I’m deeply falling in love with you
Hearing your sweet voice and feeling your great touch
how can i resist these tempts
i wish theres more there something i can do
I’m deeply falling in love with you
Hearing your sweet voice and feeling your great touch
how can i resist these tempts

Clumsy

LYRIC :

(THMSN)
Back now when you still damn right
About this awkward i cant made it somehow
and there you go throw out your pal and those ways of life
you were act like a bastard

yeah its not the great arguing time
well its not comfy time
the wrong state of your mind
make seems of difference demand
yeah i cant get it
so what we gonna get it
i dont need to admitted it
ready or dont 

face side becoming heel side
frozen been apart
let me lost you somewhere
nothin' good hanging around you
look closer which your naked truth

why wont you lie down and die
vanished without a word
this irritating sensation still goes 
i much care what i have to do
whenever i talk with you
it leave a nasty aftertaste
prepare for your downfall dude
well so...

you always gonna say gonna gonna say
another punchline
and when the hour fly by as your talking-trash i just said lame-ass
so from this day forward i'll face things heads on never be the lose one
cause it much better than if i not stay be there
either was a goodbye

(VITRA VERDIAN)
Never thought you'll be alone
leave another scratch your way back home
you cant take our world to your selfish own
i'm never react to your awful poem
every bloody night worse come to the worst
every step you take it lead to the lost
i ain't gettin' much more
with your life and your style
can you count to three? you gone down

Long Story Short (ft. Vitra Verdian)

Pretend by Naughty Hero
Composer : Fitra ferdian, Jibe, Tutus
Lyricist : Fitra Ferdian, Tutus

04-11-2020

Naughty Hero - Pretend

Music Producer : King Theta
Vocal Mixing & Mastering : Rony Jibe
Lyric : THMSN

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"False Face"
dig out false feeling
i'm standing in pouring rain
wake up from my daydreaming
get the hell outta all of this

now i am running covering my feeling, patch my pain
and knock out other things that always make me feel so ashamed
it starts from eleven pm to three am 
i am trying back to where i am
then getting another pain which i choose to feel and to taste

sorry to waste your time
i'm so dumb
get me out now, im trapped inside
dear, you gonna see what im through right now
would you share my wound then?

Tutus Thomson

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