That feeling

Its fear
And love in the same space
That hurt
That's worth more than words
That feeling right there
That i love you but im scared
Hold on to that
Cause thats gonna be the one you need when you look back
And remember to be without them was 
A heart attack
But to have them in your life was all you knew to ask
Cause when that "better"
Turns "worse"
You gonna need more than a
Than a bottle to wallow in 


You grab memories 
Like you used to grab them
You hold yourself crying on the floor 
Like you used to hold their hand
As they told you secrets
Hoping you would keep it
All ya deepest fears
Become nightmares
When that one person you're hurting for
Is not longer there

It's the smell of the sheets,
No sound of the feet
Walking across your floor
It's the knowing they'll be no hugz
No kissing 
Waiting for you on the other side of the door
It's that feeling of longing 
Knowing no one is coming 
So you

You grab memories 
Like you used to grab them
You hold yourself crying on the floor 
Like you used to hold their hand
As they told you secrets
Hoping you would keep it
All ya deepest fears
Become nightmares
When that one person you're hurting for
Is not longer there

Hold on to your person
Cause losing someone 
You mistreated is painful
And walking through life 
Missing someone you hurt
Is shameful
So hold on when feel like leaving
When you think about cheating 
Or walking way
Take a second if you love then stay
Look yourself in mirror and say


You grab memories 
Like you used to grab them
You hold yourself crying on the floor 
Like you used to hold their hand
As they told you secrets
Hoping you would keep it
All ya deepest fears
Become nightmares
When that one person you're hurting for
Is not longer there


4.that feeling.mp3

There's a battle going on in my mind
I think about the times we shared laughing
adapting to each other's personalities
Invading each’s space,
Me not wanting to leave,
You beggin’ me to stay
Say when am gone you have nothing to do
And I stay simply cause you want me too

We made our bedroom a battlefield
Both holdin' sword and shield
I can't believe this is where we are,
Please tell me this ain't real
I miss the warmth our bodies used to share
We turned ourselves into cold steel
I miss the days you asked me to stay
Cause right now,
Right now 
All I wanna do is leave.
I just wanna, I just wanna
Leave

I remember when
We loved one another like 
we didn't know where
My body ended 
And where your's starts
I'm in a fight for my sanity
The spoils are your heart
I gotta be real it feels like,
I'm only here for the kids,
and the fact that this is where I live,
And you just so happen to be here,

We made our bedroom a battlefield
Both holdin' sword and shield
I can't believe this is where we are,
Please tell me this ain't real
I miss the warmth our bodies used to share
We turned ourselves into cold steel
I miss the days you asked me to stay
Cause right now,
Right now 
All I wanna do is leave.
I just wanna, I just wanna
Leave


How do we come back from this
I don't know
Do I leave
Should you go,
I just know I can't stay here with you anymore,
I wanted a love that was pure someone I could adore,
Not a foxhole in the family room
A bunker for a bed
Memories feel like a helmet on my head
Please tell me what are we still fighting for
Why is it a war 
Everytime I walk through that door?

We made our bedroom a battlefield
Both holdin' sword and shield
I can't believe this is where we are,
Please tell me this ain't real
I miss the warmth our bodies used to share
We turned ourselves into cold steel
I miss the days you asked me to stay
Cause right now,
Right now 
All I wanna do is leave.
I just wanna, I just wanna
Leave

We made our bedroom a battlefield
Both holdin' sword and shield
I can't believe this is where we are,
Please tell me this ain't real
I miss the warmth our bodies used to share
We turned ourselves into cold steel
I miss the days you asked me to stay
Cause right now,
Right now 
All I wanna do is leave.
I just wanna, I just wanna
Leave

But you won't
Ask me to stay



LEAVE.mp3


Ohhhhh
Yeah I wanna take that one off you
This one baby?
Yeah sexy come here
I can count the times
You and I have been here,
a bedroom full of passion
The smell of lust in the air
Both of us knowin' 
without even askin'
You're a water fountain
I just pushed the button
Let me ask you 
Baby can I taste it
Yes boy you can taste it,
Push my legs back in the air
wit ya tongue Swirl slow on contact,
Then speed I'll speed it up
 I wanna give you all I got
But baby let me keep it real, 
I wanna make you feel like
Like you, yeah
Like you hit
The jackpot
Ladies that man ain't no boy
Grab his favorite toy
and enjoy,
employ all them feminine traits
But wait,
Be great 
This ya moment
To show him how much you want him
How you tryna keep him,
Give him a release
Relieve him
But don't release him
If you need need him

Just pull them panties down, 
Let me lick around that thang,
Let it hang til it can't no more
Let it dance with my tongue
it gets stuck stiff
Let me give you this ass
I know you like it hot
Baby let me keep it real
I will make you feel
I will make you feel
Like you hit the
Like you hit the
Jackpot

It's as simple as this,
I think about different ways
To give you the dick,
Like fantasies,
Sunday mornings at church
after you already got that work.

Me too
Reverend like God got a blessing for you
Me looking at you like
Yes Lawrd 
Yes He do.
Just pull my legs up 
Put'cha tongue right there
go slow on contactct,
Then speed it up,
I wanna give you all I got
But baby let me keep it real,  l
I wanna make you feel like
Like you, yeah
Like you hit
The jackpot

Ladies that man ain't no boy
Grab his favorite toy
and enjoy,
employ all them feminine traits
But wait,
Be great 
This ya moment
To show him how much you want him
How you tryna keep him,
Give him a release, yeah
Relieve him
But baby don't release him if you need him

You just hit the jack
Make you feel like
Feel like 
You just hit the 
The Jackpot
Yeah baby you just hit the jackpot


You Just Hit The Jackpot.mp3

It feels good,
It feels so good,
Said it feels real good,
Yeah
To be in love like this
To hold and kiss that one person
You love 
And they love to kiss you back

It feels good,
It feels so good,
Said it feels real good,
Yeah
To be in love like this
To hold and kiss that one person
You love 
And they love to kiss you back

I don't know how
Ain't thought about why,
All I know is we are meant for each other
Yeah you been with other brothers
And I had my  share of lovers
But when we come together
It's like our souls are reaching for one another,
I know you feel the same as me
Like this was written in the heavens,
What some would call destiny

t feels good,
It feels so good,
Said it feels real good,
Yeah
To be in love like this
To hold and kiss that one person
You love 
And they love to kiss you back
                     OHHHH YEAH
It feels good,
It feels so good,
Said it feels real good,
Yeah
To be in love like this
To hold and kiss that one person
You love 
And they love to kiss you back

I look at where we were
and where we are now
long nights of fiery fights,
Still you stuck around
And I held us down like gravity
You're so adorable
Especially when you're mad at me
We turn disagreements
Into passionate evenings 
Of  “Is this even real” 
ooo yeah
You still got that good good,
What's understood ain't got to be explained
You callin' my name,
Got me  callin yours 
Ohhhhhh

t feels good,
It feels so good,
Said it feels real good,
Yeah
To be in love like this
To hold and kiss that one person
You love 
And they love to kiss you back
              Yes it does
It feels good,
It feels so good,
Said it feels real good,
Yeah
To be in love like this
To hold and kiss that one person
You love 
And they love to kiss you back

Its like we read each other's mind
I finish ya sentences 
You finish mine
our sense of humor combined
Have us laughin’ at the most inappropriate times
But it's fine,
I'm always ready to share a smile we you,
Steal a  kiss,  rub our feet together,
That secret under the table touch
and look of lust
Like you wish we could get up,
Go some place safe to quietly... (haha)
ooo

t feels good,
It feels so good,
Said it feels real good,
Yeah
To be in love like this
To hold and kiss that one person
You love 
And they love to kiss you back

It feels good,
It feels so good,
Said it feels real good,
Yeah
To be in love like this
To hold and kiss that one person
You love 
And they love to kiss you back

t feels good,
It feels so good,
Said it feels real good,
Yeah
To be in love like this
To hold and kiss that one person
You love 
And they love to kiss you back

It feels good,
It feels so good,
Said it feels real good,
Yeah
To be in love like this
To hold and kiss that one person
You love 
And they love to kiss you back




This is what destiny feel like


It Feels Good.mp3

When I was a young boy
I would play in da streets
Anything to get a girl's clothes off
get her to come play in my sheets
Wet dreams and wild fantacies
Made the man in me think I didn't trust
But in reality I was hiding behind lust,
Using sex as a drug,
Cause I was too scared to fall in love.

When I was a kid 
I did what kids do,
But I became a man,
The day that I met you,
I went from one night stands
To a one woman man,
Don't know what you saw in me
I never asked,
But from the moment I found you,
I knew this love was meant to last
This love 
This love
was meant to last

Not sure if you notice,
Or even know this,
But you get all of my focus,
Got me exploding for your attention
Not to mention,
When we talk you listen with good intentions
My intuition tells me you're the right one for me
So when it comes to theses streets
I know I'm done

When I was a kid 
I did what kids do,
But I became a man,
The day that I met you,
I went from one night stands
To a one woman man,
Don't know what you saw in me
I never asked,
But from the moment I found you,
I knew this love was meant to last
This love 
This love
was meant to last

When I was a kid 
I did what kids do,
But I became a man,
The day that I met you,
I went from one night stands
To a one woman man,
Don't know what you saw in me
I never asked,
But from the moment I found you,
I knew this love was meant to last
This love 
This love
was meant to last

They say you just know
when the right person comes along 
You just know they are meant for you,
and I don't know how,  or why
But I know that it's true,
Cause when I close my eyes
To think of somebody to love 
The only person I ever see is you.

When I was a kid 
I did what kids do,
But I became a man,
The day that I met you,
I went from one night stands
To a one woman man,
Don't know what you saw in me
I never asked,
But from the moment I found you,
I knew this love was meant to last
This love 
This love
was meant to last
            
When I was a kid 
I did what kids do,
But I became a man,
The day that I met you,
I went from one night stands
To a one woman man,
Don't know what you saw in me
I never asked,
But from the moment I found you,
I knew this love was meant to last
This love 
This love
was meant to last



Now that I'm a man
I put away childish things

ooo




This Love.mp3

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Dime A Dozen (geosoulmusic.com)

Sleepwalking (geosoulmusic.com)

I know how hard it is,
Waking up every morning 
Wondering if you are worthy of love.
Wanting your existence to be validated by purpose,
You stretch hoping the spell of mundanity
Will broken by your reach for the clouds. 

Add to this a woman,

self- reliant as she may be,
She desires your affections,
Your validation of her divinty,
Cause she too wonders
And you know -will not openly confess it- but know 
you’d lose your head if it wasn’t for her most days,
Despite losing your mind because of her on others.

Add to this the children,

I’ve read the books about the difference between Venus and Mars
But nothing prepares you for the gravity of orbiting stars
That pull, demand, need, 
everything
From both of you.

Wake to sleep,
It is providing, protecting, preaching, prophesying, promoting.
In a world that has done everything in it’s power 
To stop you from waking up
Let alone having the audacity to move,

Forward,

A will to press, progress,
Beyond your grasp
Before you even knew of your own existence 
Before someone else knew of your coming
Systems were set in place to keep you from not only understanding
But from standing
And you keep getting up,

Reaching.

Into the unknown from some mirrored resemblance of a normal
With hopes of achieving the extraordinary
Facing the fact that you are plunging into darkness
Under the threat that death might be the only thing to reach back

Isn’t this is the frustration of it all.

Outside the car smoking gun still drawn
Over a bleeding Philando
He kept saying, “I told him not to reach,”

Despite the window being up and the door closed
His hands in the air
She said she thought Terrence was reaching…

Amadou, 
Black man with a wallet?
Reaching.

Sean don’t you know slaves supposed to get married in private,
Quiet? Secret like?
Reaching

Jordan you know you s‘pposed to turn that rebellion down
When massa come round’
Reaching.

Eric who tol’ you it was ok to feed ya kids 
With cigarettes rolled in white folk factories
Reaching.

Alton you gonna make music, flip ya gift, sell cd’s and feed ya family with the profits.
They said you was reaching, but the video…

Tamir you wanna be a normal boy,
play cops and robbers in the park
Like them white kids in the sticks?
Reaching!

Keith don’t you know reading is punishable by death?
Trayvon this was never really your ground to stand on
To think otherwise…
Reaching!

And we keep waking up every morning 
Convincing ourselves that our chests are not meant to be lead laced landfills
That there is more left of us than these razor sharp shards of heart 
They pray we slice our wrist with;

We may be broken 
But we are not barren 
we rise
Eyes toward the hills 
Hopes fill the heavens 
Cause we’d rather die reaching for the stars
Than live in misery claiming contentment with where we are

Reaching 

Cause there will always be a threat of death
Stolen life is a tradition of the living, 

Reaching 

Cause that woman got too much angel dust in her touch
Cause them babies need to know how bright they can shine
Cause any man worth his salt, worth a heart, a mind,
And some sort of spine knows 
That darkness is endless possibility

Whatever your mind can paint on the canvas of that eternity you can have
Even if no one is there to hold you up
You got two feet, a strong back, and fully functional hands
That’s all the support you need

You have the potential to pull mountain tops 
Out of river bottoms
Turn deserts into oceans
You are an oasis of inspirational fortitude waiting to be found
Discover yourself!

That darkness is just light waiting to be called forth
Open your mouth!

Make hard work your sanctuary

Its called a dream 
Which means you should be able to do this in your sleep

Visualize the finish line
And realize sometimes
You just gotta reach!

Reaching

Thomas Tre G. Gilbert

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