Why I Am

Save Me

Always Back

Sinima Beats
Verse 1
imagine this, walking in a life no happiness. 
always asking this microphone on a mattress.
just alot of questions never got an answer yet.
asking since eleven it became another habit. 
why is it im here, feels like im wasting time. 
these people found a life, better be chasing mine.
im dying inside crying but outside i look fine.
these people ask why its like i got no time.
imagine this, like you had it all once.
now its all gone and the life you lead is none. 
tryna find a purpose when you really feeling worthless.
im asking you alot acting like you never heard it.
im nineteen, i aint getting any younger.
praying on my knees please dont make me suffer.
you took it all away everybody has a price to pay. 
i hope you give me better days, in this pain i smile away.

Verse 2
people change, happiness it never last's.
if you had another chance would you take it all back. 
im stuck here alone with these thoughts that cross me.
I thought I was walking but they see me crawling.
let me tell you why, this town doesnt know me.
they see me as a quite guy in this room i'm lonely. 
I take it by the step, hope my lace dont make me trip.
my life is just a set up they dont know me who im with.
growing was'nt easy, i dont really wanna be me. 
I think I need a genie wishing that it was all easy.
or a shooting star, to send me down a n angel.
cause it's been along time since I put on my halo.
this is what you get, all you have is these regrets.
shot me in the chest, asking them whats next.
im stronger than you thought, I never talked problem's.
only in these songs, never had no other option.


Had It All

My Soul's On Fire

This House

Diract Beatz
Hook:
Frozen, my heart is cold without you.
Broken, i fall apart without you.
Build it up to break it apart,i pushed to long i pushed to far.
now im searching in the dark. 'take me out of the cold' 

Frozen Ft. Nigel Morris

Question's

Broken Thoughts

Bed Of Lies - Nigel Morris

Letter To God

See The Truth

Darkness

In The Mirror

I Dont Understand

Used To Be Lonely

Produced By Vendetta Beats
when i break the chain, fuck what you say.
best believe that im gone today.
it's part of my brain, toxic way's.
and it haunt's my place will i start today.
but the process is to much, and i pocket all my thoughts.
man i wanna pawn my heart, to a darker force and all.
then i go an start a brawl, and i know you hope i fall. 
with a broken soul i talk, feel the bullshit when i walk.
but i brought my bullshit i dont see no point to me.
with a broken knee im getting no sleep.
and i wont eat im feeling so weak.

i dont think you understand what this does to me.
man im always feeling sad and im not so free.
i dont think you understand.

hook
always by myself, maybe i dont want no help.
but it's hard to tell i just really wanna yell.
always by myself,maybe i dont want no help.
but you motherfuckers always push me to a cell. 2x

yo it's hard, with a broken heart and scars. 
sitting hopelessly in a bar.
but you dont know me im far, pretty far, on mars.
then i promise you im fine,everytime i think im trying.
then i fall down and i lie, lie down there for a long time.
but the medication's wont work, put the pen to paper im bizurk.
and my parent's may be concerned, but the legend say's you'll burn.
i dont really give a fuck cause i did once, but they broke my heart.
tore it apart and they pulled my arms.
cause the heart was not enough.

i dont think you understand what this does to me.
man im always feeling sad and im not so free.
i dont think you understand.

hook
always by myself, maybe i dont want no help.
but it's hard to tell i just really wanna yell.
always by myself,maybe i dont want no help.
but you motherfuckers always push me to a cell. 2x

Push Me To A Cell

Produced By Oxydz
there was this kid, he never knew shit.
all he did was throw a bunch of motherfuckin fit's.
he never understood pain right until one day.
it made him go insane he doesn't have one brain.
everything was all good but they had to move.
the alcohol was something that his parent's had to choose.
they start another fight in every fuckin room.
see his dad passed out when he came home from school.
the kid's from school started making fun of him.
there wasn't any help when there was bunch of them.
but the alcohol was something that he really hated.
maybe hated it so much that's all that he blamed.
he knew it was wrong but he felt it was his fault.
he doesn't know the sun cause he's living in the dark.
it's back to school then it's back to the apartment.
it's just another cycle that really started it.

Hook
can you tell me why i'm here.
i just really wanna see clear.
i don't know what to do now.
i don't know what to do now.
why do you do this to me.
i hope you do really see.
that im not even worth it.
i know i'm not so perfect.

it's back to this kid, he doesn't know shit.
he think's it's normal everytime he throw's fit's.
it was really hard to focus but he kept it to himself.
his dad would ask if he wanted some help.
he would ask what's wrong but he didn't say anything.
to be honest he wanted to let it be.
he want's be alone, he wants to be a ghost.
he want's another home he wants another soul.
he wants another life, he wants another brain.
but he cant change shit cause he's already insane.
at the age of 13 he started thinking suicide.
maybe he will find peace if he can choose to die.
then he started drugs, then he started drinking.
he was drinking so much it was alway's sinking.
sink into his heart then he started feeling better.
all he needed was booze in this fuckin bad weather.

Hook
can you tell me why i'm here.
i just really wanna see clear.
i don't know what to do now.
i don't know what to do now.
why do you do this to me.
i hope you do really see.
that im not even worth it.
i know i'm not so perfect.

yeah the kid was me and everything it seems.
like a bad dream i dont know what's happening.
i dont even know what to do anymore.
man i'm sick of sitting on this fricken little porch.
and i wish that i had wish so i dont exist.
im punching so much shit i might break my fist's.
but i start drinking when i need to go to councilling.
i been lost for so long nobody hasn't found me.
starting to get rowdy showing them my anger.
i wish i was different i wish i was better.
im sorry to my god daughter and to my brother.
im sorry my dad , im sorry to mother.
im sorry to my lady and to my step dad.
i couldn't be the best or follow up the best plan.
i need another heart i need another brain.
man i dont even wanna be insane.

Hook
can you tell me why i'm here.
i just really wanna see clear.
i don't know what to do now.
i don't know what to do now.
why do you do this to me.
i hope you do really see.
that im not even worth it.
i know i'm not so perfect.

I'm Not So Perfect

Produced By Syndrome
living in the dark wishing i was smart.
looking for a lighter so atleast i have a spark.
walk into my room then im pacing in the house.
i walk into a wall then im falling on the couch.
then i burn the lawn i dont know what i'm doing anymore.
if you tell me what to do i would treat it like a chore.
just another poor bitch stored in a porch.
the dark side of the force told me there is more.
it was just the devil and he came out from the floor.
while i was alone and he threw me through the door.
i walked up to the church then i sat up in a chair.
told him i was scared i can feel it pull my hair.
there's something there i dont care what you say.
maybe in my brain i told you i'm insane.
lay myself to rest then the days will be okay.
my brain's in space changing every single day.

Hook
you think you know me but i dont even know myself.
i started drinking then i felt like i had some help.
no i'm not happy everything's an act.
sleeping all day on this bed that is trash.

turn into a psycho drinking lot of nyquil.
battling a tight rope tie it over my throat.
running in a cycle where the fuck is my soul.
im acting like i'm michael but without a knife though.
what the hell is wrong with me who is thomas b.
i should be on a leash im a freak honestly.
and these people still wanna be around me.
well not really but you know what i mean.
kill me once then im coming back at you twice.
i didn't do shit all these people wanna do is fight.
all i need is ash, everyday i feel like crap.
feeling half awake with the shake's on my back.
taking all the pain someone take it all away.
with a blank stare tryna make it through another day.
it suck's being sad, i cant even sleep.
thinking to much sleeping pills are all i need.

Hook
you think you know me but i dont even know myself.
i started drinking then i felt like i had some help.
no i'm not happy everything's an act.
sleeping all day on this bed that is trash.

I'm Not Happy

Produced By DIDKER Producer  
i be sitting in the dark in an empty cold house.
i gotta scream loud but i know i wont yell.
cause ill pop my lung's then ill drop and jump.
this song i sung is possible enough.
to make me wanna run into a public place.
let em know i changed and this psycho is in pain.
nothing is so basic im pacing in my cage.
im playing so much beat's and i maybe insane.
cause i got so much problem's i just look into the mirror.
tell that stupid bitch dont disappoint your peer's.
cause me and him are different i dont even know him.
im fighting all this anger then im really hopin'.
that i won't lose it maybe i just need to snap.
punch my fuckin fridge and the door in half.
but my knuckle's hurt to much, think they're both fucked.
wonder when's the day i can say 'i rose up'.

Hook 2x
cause i broke myself and i dont want help.
but i will not tell every tone i felt.
then i scream and wonder what is happening.
the note's on the pad said anger management.

there's nothing i can do but to punch and break stuff.
everytime i lose my cool cause i know i aint tough.
drink a pot of coffee on an empty stomach.
yeah im suffering but i think i really love it.
i really like the dark it's where i feel safe.
at the fuckin same time its like a steel cage.
i need to rearrange cause im losing myself.
when i take it out in pain but i gotta choose health.
somedays i just wanna take a knife.
blame it out on life then im pacing out in sight.
behaviour ain't right when i say i might slice.
know im gonna lose it but i still got some hope left.
self destruction is like a frickin poem.
walking through the bullshit playing texas hold em.
think im alway's broke, think i found my home.
in the darkness i roam like i was a little troll.

Hook 2x
cause i broke myself and i dont want help.
but i will not tell every tone i felt.
then i scream and wonder what is happening.
the note's on the pad said anger management.

Anger Management

Self Produced
better pass the pen cause i'm mad again.
feeling sad feeling bad wanna ask a friend.
but i see no one i was laughing then.
i should pack my bag's and grab my cheque.
go for a walk and i never come back.
all i say is so long when you see me walk pass.
i'm not so strong cause i play the wrong hand.
getting picked on but it's not all bad.
i would rather travel back to the past.
ask for the hand but i can't go back.
can't go back i imagine that.
i have a chance can i have her back.
but i woke up and it's only me.
i may be sad cause i won't be free.
till i'm old and weak but i hope to see.
your holding me,these bullshit dream's right.

it's only me and i been thinking all about
this lady ever since i was a little kid.
its only you what should i do i see a bunch of 
fricken booze im needing just alittle bit.

everyday lay awake i don't wanna fall asleep.
cause i might see you in a pretty long dream.
getting stoned i know i chose my road.
i hope i show you what you broke.
i'm alone and your not anymore.
so i sit and i think that i fell for a whore.
it's been so long that i seen your face. 
i thought i would change but i can't take the pain.
looking for a way so i came to say.
that your in my mind every single day.
can you leave me alone i don't wanna do it.
i don't wanna see myself in the future.
i drink till i'm drunk and i think this suck's.
i been thinking lot's till i had enough.
i'm drinking rum then i have have a buzz.
i'm an asshole, what but that's what you want.

it's only me and i been thinking all about
this lady ever since i was a little kid.
its only you what should i do i see a bunch of 
fricken booze im needing just alittle bit.2x

Thomas,B

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