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too used to being sad...

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Written by: Thomas Reid
Produced by: boyfifty

Lyrics:
i’m not good at being happy
i’m too used to being sad
now i’m the joke and no one’s laughing
always cancel all my plans

cause i can’t take these conversations
when i’m afraid of what they mean
i’d rather check out all my friend’s lives
cause life looks better from a screen

i’ll make my home my castle,
my bed my prison
now my neck’s bent over,
my soul needs living

cause i’m locked inside
not inside my room
but inside my head
i hope i’ll break out soon

now i’m starving to death
i need dopamine
someone to pull to me out
someone to make me see

look outside myself
look outside a screen
or outside my room
it wasn’t meant to be

i’m not good at being happy
i’m too used to being sad
now i’m the joke and no one’s laughing
always cancel all my plans

cause i can’t take these conversations
i’m too afraid of what they mean
i’d rather check out all my friend’s lives
cause life looks better from a screen

im not good at being happy (prod. boyfifty)

Ritmo Perfeito

#ViệtNamĐỉnh

A dreamy and intimate indie lo-fi track with a neo-soul sensibility. "Thư Gửi Bình Minh" (Letter to Sunrise) is a tender love letter set to a backdrop of vintage warmth. The track is built on a soft, swing-feel rhythm from a dusty lofi drum kit, a warm sub-bass, and the characteristic wobble of a Rhodes keyboard, often doubled by a dreamy vibraphone. The male vocal is delivered close-mic and breathy, lifting into a gentle falsetto for the soaring chorus. The lyrics are deeply poetic, using the sunrise as a messenger to guard the memory and spirit of a loved one against the chaos of the world. It’s a quiet, emotional promise of constancy and enduring light, perfect for slow mornings and quiet reflection.

Một ca khúc indie lo-fi mộng mơ và thân mật với âm hưởng neo-soul sâu lắng. "Thư Gửi Bình Minh" là một bức thư tình dịu dàng được đặt trên nền âm thanh ấm áp, cổ điển. Bài hát được xây dựng trên nền nhịp điệu lofi nhẹ nhàng, có độ swing, tiếng sub-bass ấm áp và độ rung đặc trưng của đàn Rhodes. Giọng hát nam được thu gần, đầy hơi thở, nhẹ nhàng chuyển sang giọng falsetto mềm mại ở đoạn cao trào. Lời ca đậm chất thơ, sử dụng bình minh làm sứ giả để bảo vệ ký ức và tinh thần của người yêu khỏi sự hỗn loạn của thế giới. Đây là một lời hứa thầm kín, đầy cảm xúc về sự bền bỉ và ánh sáng vĩnh cửu.

Thư Gửi Bình Minh (Letter to Sunrise)

lyrics: 
(hook)
i’m trying to hide 
the feelings inside
cuz big boys don’t cry
it cuts like a knife
it digs in my side
but big boys don’t cry
don’t look in my eyes
don’t ask if I’m fine
i don’t wanna lie
i’m tired of life
but say i’m alright
cuz big boys don’t cry 
(big boys don’t cry at all) 
 
(verse 1)
i've been sitting in my room
just chilling my dude
i don’t care about much
that’s a lie, i just try to act tough
deep inside i’m really big wuss
i’ve going through a lot but it don’t show
smile big, so my parents really don’t know
like a fridge cuz my heart stay so cold
they say to be a man
you gotta be strong
walk around with ya fist closed  
I’m a big boy now be aware of it
to be honest man 
i think need a therapist
to be honest man
i think i’m really scared of this
they say i gotta be tough 
i ain’t sharing it  
playing 21 savage really ain’t me
i just wanna be a man 
so they feel me
stack my pride so high to the ceiling 
sadly, this bottled up pain
just might kill me 
(pain just might kill me)

(hook)
i’m trying to hide 
the feelings inside
cuz big boys don’t cry
it cuts like a knife
it digs in my side
but big boys don’t cry
don’t look in my eyes
don’t ask if im fine
i don’t wanna lie
i’m tired of life
but say i’m alright
cuz big boys don’t cry 
(big boys don’t cry at all) 
 
(verse 2)
i think i’m growing up way too fast
age 10 and i wear a fake mask
i’m afraid that my life might crash
cuz if you ain’t first 
then your just last
when I’m grown
imma be like them
even walk, try to talk, be a jock like them
maybe then 
i will actually finally fit in  
bottle up everything, and when i’m all out of my luck  
kill myself like them 

(hook)
i’m trying to hide 
the feelings inside
cuz big boys don’t cry
it cuts like a knife
it digs in my side
but big boys don’t cry
don’t look in my eyes
don’t ask if im fine
i don’t wanna lie
i’m tired of life
but say i’m alright
cuz big boys don’t cry 
(big boys don’t cry at all) 

(bridge)
big boys don’t cry at all
yeah
big boys don’t cry at all
yeah 
big boys don’t cry at all
yeah 
big boys don’t cry at all

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big boys don't cry (prod. con)

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