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tracks
1. be that as it may
2. mourning
3. and still
4. return to form
5. it goes without saying

download: https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-xii

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nothing is real, part XII

with @hangthisman
lyrics:
darkness, darkness all around me
darkness, darkness don't feel sorry
take these pills they're hard to swallow
lie awake in pity wallow

Я сам для себя ненужный 
Среди этих стен мой труп- сгнил
Тёмный, тёмный переулок 
В глубине души 
Я никак не справлюсь с тем что я один 

lose your mind i'll give you mine


В их глазах лишь боль и страх
Но я 
Всё здесь вижу по другому 
Пока люди ожидают свой конец
Я как будто среди поля 
Надо мной лишь темнота 
И где твой свет? 
Когда таблетки ломят волю 
Когда исчезнет сон 
Когда постель 
Тебя пленила, и не помнишь 
Как ты очутился в ней

noone understand just how i feel so,
it's easy letting go
as if you'de ever know

you're demons aren't your own
it's not easy letting go





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the manipulated dead - w/ HANGMAN

free download

i get it all from you

music video: https://youtu.be/CY7ry1RqByU
from the upcoming album, nothing is real, part 14
this song was not written by me, it is an homage but it was fully produced. zero samples of any kind, either performed on my instruments or computer plugins / my voice.

𝙢𝙚𝙧𝙘𝙝

‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎  ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‎‏‏‎‎‏‏‎ ‎ 𝑔𝓇𝒾𝑒𝒻

inspired by the crew 3 decent to earth by spacex & nasa

download free

no one knows

lyrics: it's funny when you try to talk down to me, 
but your neck is hanging back just to look in my eyes
halloween365
how are you still alive?

https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-xvi
for those who download, there is 6 bonus tracks hidden in the zip, and a photo of my scar across my chest.
as i stare death in the eyes again, i will instead share the story of my birth.
when i was born i was crushed in half. my chest was completely sunken in and i was to die.
i grew up deformed and as soon as i was old enough i went under the blade. a gifted surgeon saved my life by cutting my chest all the way across, using a saw and cut every single one of my ribs and sternum in half and straightened my chest. because of my birth, i am to avoid things like weight lifting, as i can bend in half at my mid chest , not just my waist. this made me an adequate skateboarder, but always being the camera man hunched over only made things worse. ultimately i found music and it saved my life from the drug culture, bad friends, and helped me have the time i needed to discover who i was and the reason why i didn’t die at birth. i was always meant to be the one who couldn’t kick the kickball far, get invited to the school dance, or called a druggy for being a skateboarder. all these things left immense emotional damage that i only today see were the building blocks to what i consider to be the last bastion of emotional music, from the deepest depths of depression, hopelessness, physical and emotional agony, self injury, and grief. sometimes at night i lay in bed rubbing my finger across my scar, and i speak to the ceeling at my best friend Jake. He was shot in the head and left dead for 3 days in a pool of his own blood by a man who broke in to steal his weed. I lay here touching this scar telling jake, “I’m going to do all the things we said we were going to do.” The final song on the album, because my hands were not working. I called apon him. i said, “Jake, be my hands when my body has failed me. I want you to make a song like the old style. Like nothing is real part 1.” and my hands began to move on their own. i wasn’t thinking or feeling my body’s pain anymore. in just 4 hours jakes soul inhabited my body and completed this song. And when he was done, i snapped out of it and hit play. Thank you jake, for helping me on this album. You did great friend. One day again i will call fourth your name to carry me when my feet begin to drag.

just what i'm going thru;

tracks -
1. i only exist;
2. here in my mind,
3. i know i'm dead;
4. so i lay in my bed.

\\ download____ https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part

nothing is real, part II

download: https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-v

tracks
1. it can't be helped,
2. this feeling i feel.
3. destroying myself,
4. to feel something real.

nothing is real, part V

to know how it feels.

haunt my dreams.

thanks for listening.
consider supporting / download > tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-viii

nothing is real, part VIII

‎‎hello. my brain is killing me from a disease called multiple sclerosis. i am making as much music as i can before inevitability i wake up one day unable to function.  i wouldn't wish this on anybody. thanks for listening.
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