Name: no one knows by my head is empty in nothing is real
Duration: 1 min 56 s
Description: inspired by the crew 3 decent to earth by spacex & nasa

@morning_frost: thanks for always listening friend <3

No one knows
What it’s like for me
To be tearing myself apart
Constantly and consistently 
Ripping at the seams
In a chaotic war
Between my should do’s and want to’s 
Both selfish and selfless at times
But both enemies to each other 
Fighting a war that tears my brain apart
That only I can see
That only I can feel
And yet
While no one knows what it’s like for me
To wake up and go to sleep 
To this endless charade 
It’s comforting
To know that some know what it’s like
No one knows what I go through
But some people have a pretty decent idea
I hope I can be one of those people 
With anything that anyone struggles with

nothing is real

free download

i get it all from you

music video: https://youtu.be/CY7ry1RqByU
from the upcoming album, nothing is real, part 14
this song was not written by me, it is an homage but it was fully produced. zero samples of any kind, either performed on my instruments or computer plugins / my voice.

𝙢𝙚𝙧𝙘𝙝

‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎  ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎‎‏‏‎‎‏‏‎ ‎ 𝑔𝓇𝒾𝑒𝒻

inspired by the crew 3 decent to earth by spacex & nasa

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no one knows

https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-xvi
lyrics for ; my head is empty - my body is dying

everything was green and happy,
you and in love so maybe
if we take a step back
we can go back in time
(if youre not with me..)
whats 1000 years, if you're not with me
i see your eyes glowing, across the fjord

i do it all for you
everything was green and happy
you and i love so maybe
if we take a step back
we can go back in time

(please listen, to everything that i say, to you)

maybe just one more night
maybe i'll hold on
so i never plan for things to change,
we try and try out best to stay the same
no matter what i do, to stay close to you
every step forward is 100 steps back
no matter what comes, i'd never take it back

(do it all over, again)
(do it all over, again)

maybe just one more night
maybe i'll hold on
so i never plan for things to change,
we try and try out best to stay the same
no matter what i do, to stay close to you
every step forward is 100 steps back
no matter what comes, i'd never take it back
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for those who download, there is 6 bonus tracks hidden in the zip, and a photo of my scar across my chest.
as i stare death in the eyes again, i will instead share the story of my birth.
when i was born i was crushed in half. my chest was completely sunken in and i was to die.
i grew up deformed and as soon as i was old enough i went under the blade. a gifted surgeon saved my life by cutting my chest all the way across, using a saw and cut every single one of my ribs and sternum in half and straightened my chest. because of my birth, i am to avoid things like weight lifting, as i can bend in half at my mid chest , not just my waist. this made me an adequate skateboarder, but always being the camera man hunched over only made things worse. ultimately i found music and it saved my life from the drug culture, bad friends, and helped me have the time i needed to discover who i was and the reason why i didn’t die at birth. i was always meant to be the one who couldn’t kick the kickball far, get invited to the school dance, or called a druggy for being a skateboarder. all these things left immense emotional damage that i only today see were the building blocks to what i consider to be the last bastion of emotional music, from the deepest depths of depression, hopelessness, physical and emotional agony, self injury, and grief. sometimes at night i lay in bed rubbing my finger across my scar, and i speak to the ceeling at my best friend Jake. He was shot in the head and left dead for 3 days in a pool of his own blood by a man who broke in to steal his weed. I lay here touching this scar telling jake, “I’m going to do all the things we said we were going to do.” The final song on the album, because my hands were not working. I called apon him. i said, “Jake, be my hands when my body has failed me. I want you to make a song like the old style. Like nothing is real part 1.” and my hands began to move on their own. i wasn’t thinking or feeling my body’s pain anymore. in just 4 hours jakes soul inhabited my body and completed this song. And when he was done, i snapped out of it and hit play. Thank you jake, for helping me on this album. You did great friend. One day again i will call fourth your name to carry me when my feet begin to drag.

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my body is dying,

My new record 'FMX' will be out on all streaming platforms on May 11th. this record is a follow up to the previous 'FM' 
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Missing You

hope w/ XRIAN

disillusion // 2024

stream / download: https://kub0.lnk.to/disillusion

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disillusion

from the upcoming album "nothing is real, part 20".
music video --> https://youtu.be/CcMNDHTZlZU
\\\\ --- 19 albums of songs like this - my "nothing is real" album series
♡♡♡ https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6H7FT9Um7zb7aRgFbSMLX3
♡♡♡ https://soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/the-nothings
♡♡♡ https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/

nothing is real, part XX

music video

you're a bad person (music video)

music video: https://youtu.be/51DjEIh7tuE
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from the upcoming ' nothing is real, part XX '
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spotify playlist of 19 albums of music like this - https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6H7FT9Um7zb7aRgFbSMLX3

when you're not home

when you're not home w/ Miranda Rain

album download:https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-xx
album on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/4QqwI8PW5JO7j2Cw0K6I86

when you hurt me like this

album download:https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-xx
album on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/4QqwI8PW5JO7j2Cw0K6I86

Lyrics: 
its harder than you seem to see
just how it feels to become me
i'm burned alive i should of died
i lost you once wont lose you twice
i fall apart into the pile
and all my life was it worth while
eat from what i leave behind
ill close my eyes i've had enough
its harder than you seem to see

i fall apart,

music video: https://youtu.be/HiY0D4Kp1jw
album download:https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-xx
album on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/4QqwI8PW5JO7j2Cw0K6I86

Lyrics: 
missing all the yellow sun
not missing what i had done
i wanna have this feeling back
from this there is no coming back

second chaces yesterday
it always feel so far away

until i'm back in my old ways
i'll bring about the end of days

i'll wish apon a dying star
i hadn't taken it so far
every night in my old room
i see your face
i see the face of my old friends
i see the places i had been
i feel the pain from way back then 
like it's happening, right now

but it's just me
here on the floor

i want the love i used to know
but this pain is unbearable
how am i suppose to go... on like this?
how there can be something more?
this is all there is.
this is all there is.
i swear to god, this is all there is.

right now (w/music video)

#ambient #darkambient #serenity #mood #sad #atmosphere #dreamscape

relief

Ambient Soundscape Piano

Light emerges from fragments scattered in the void, floating like shooting stars in rivers that move against time. Each moment is a breath caught between worlds, where silence expands into vast labyrinths and melodies flicker like hidden codes at the heart of the unknown. The journey unfolds like a dialogue between earth and sky, revealing secrets that bring shadows and whispers written in memory. What begins as a broken light becomes a timeless weight of dreams: forgotten yet eternal, fragile yet endless.

Driftwood in a Silent Sea

Velvet Horizon

‎‎creator of the "nothing is real" album series. (2018-present)
hello. my brain is killing me from a disease called multiple sclerosis. i am making as much music as i can before inevitability i wake up one day unable to function.  i wouldn't wish this on anybody. thanks for listening.
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