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The Rise And Fall of Mango Red

Taking my sweet time sweet to write you.
I took my sweet time to find you.

No new messages or texts from you. 
What the hell am I supposed to do?

When you're not there. 
And you're not real.

When you're not there. 
And you're not real.

When you're not there. 
And you're not real.

When you're not there. 
And you're not real.

You're not there. 
And you're not real.

When you're not there.
And you're not real.

When you're not there.
And you're not real.

When you're not there.
And you're not real.

You’re Not Real

Woke up at noon, eyes glued to the screen
Another day wasted on dopamine
And I don't want to ask you out online
And I don't want to waste my time

but you 
you know
that I would be
your valentine
if you let me

Even though I hate this day
I have this one thing, one thing I gotta say

would you be my 
my valentine
i wish 
you would 
if that is fine

would you be my 
my valentine
i wish 
you would 
you would be mine

Valentine

How'd my time come so fast?
brain-dead but living in the past
How'd my life my pass me by?
you're here just to watch me cry
just to watch me cry
just to watch me cry
just to watch me cry


How'd I lose someone like you?
psychotic, don't know what to do
How I wish that I would die
you're here just to watch me cry
just to watch me cry
just to watch me cry
just to watch me cry

Watch Me Cry

note: @state-surve told me my music was "not edgy enough" so I made this as a response

Spending all day in my room 
with the slop that I consume

All shit I see online
Always eating at my mind

Each day harder than the last
would you notice if I passed?

String you along for the ride
I'm committing double suicide

I want to kill you and myself
I hope to see you burn in hell	
I want to kill you and myself
I would never wish you well

New days bring
New pains 

And I wish
That I could change

Even though I want to 
I'm forever stuck on you

I'm too far gone to help
what the fuck is mental health 

Since you left all i do is whine
Now I'm planning our double suicide

I want to kill you and myself
I hope to see you burn in hell	
I want to kill you and myself
I would never wish you well

Double Suicide

Woke up dead, but I gotta keep grinding
Feed me my pills, keep my brain rewiring
Passed out from last night's bender
Another day, another drug, I'm just a number
And I'm never thinking, thinking out loud
I've never been dumber than I am now
I can't get anywhere in my own life
I can't ever do any thing right

i'm so tired of getting no where
i'm so tired, life is unfair
i'm so tired of getting no where
Ending my life cuz I don't care

I’m So Tired Of Getting Nowhere

Bass performed by @state-surve

Wake up, blackout, what’s the difference?
Spent all night in my personal prison.
Stare at my phone for hours a day.
Too broke to leave, too numb to stay.

No calls, no plans, no motivation.
Rotting in my room, what a nice vacation.
Cigarette burns on my blanket again.
Another excuse, another dead end.

Maybe I should clean my room,
Maybe I should talk to you,
Maybe I should leave my bed,
But I’d rather be shot dead.

Cause' I'm rotting away.
All of my days
Time I'll never get back
Slippin' way' from my hands
Cause' I'm rotting away
All of my days
Wasting my time all day
Wasting my life away

Rotting Away

She Blocked Me And Moved On Already

Old demo I had but never published because I thought it was bad. 

Woke up at 4, didn’t leave my bed
Saw that you left me left on read
Tried to text back, I changed my mind
Guess I’ll just rot here, guess I'll die

Yeah, I'm trying to move past her
But it's so hard to forget her
Yeah, I swore I’d get it together
But I’m still stuck in last November

I tried to quit caffeine, but I still can't sleep
Your suicidal thoughts are catching up to me
I really wish you'd shoot me 'til I'm dead
I really wish that you'd cut me instead

I tried to quit caffeine, but I still can't sleep
Your suicidal thoughts are catching up to me
I really wish you'd shoot me 'til I'm dead
I really wish that you'd cut me instead

I'm watching the paint peel from the wall
Crying as I wait for your call
Told myself I would start again
But here I am, waiting again

It’s fine, I’m used to it
Always feeling like shit
I'm burnt out in my mind
But I swear that I'm fine

I tried to quit caffeine, but I still can't sleep
Your suicidal thoughts are catching up to me
I really wish you'd shoot me 'til I'm dead
I really wish that you'd cut me instead

I tried to quit caffeine, but I still can't sleep
Your suicidal thoughts are catching up to me
I really wish you'd shoot me 'til I'm dead
I really wish that you'd cut me instead

Cut Me Instead

I will find you
One way or another
I will get you
And some day we'll be lovers

I have stalked you
Yeah I stalk you online
Wishing that that you were mine
I do it all the time

And you don't seem to understand
But I just wanna be your man
I'm so crazy
Crazy for you, baby
Wish you didn't hate me
Why can't you see that we were meant to be

I just want you to unblock me
That is all I ask of you
I am asking if you love me
Cuz you should know I still love you

I know you got a restraining order
with a picture of my face
Just don't be too surprised
When I show up at your place

And you don't seem to understand
But I just wanna be your man
I'm so crazy
Crazy for you, baby
Wish you didn't hate me
Why can't you see that we were meant to be

We Were Meant To Be

Guess I’m Just A Loser

Digital Artist @timeflw
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