@1vacy

walked past
you waved at me
smile on ur face
it wasnt hard to see
scared to talk to you
anxiously waiting
still dont know ur name
n im the one to blame

i could talk to u but is it worth it?
what if i mess up then ill deserve it
all the memories that we couldve had
thrown away bc im just insecure

how am i supposed to approach you
knowing the fear of being rejected
youll never know how i feel everyday
if only youd stay youd make it go away

expect me to pretend im happy
but on the inside im just crumbling
anxiety breaking me down mentally
only if you understood you could help me

only if you understood </3 [vacy]

@staggyucrazy @kowa1ski @thrmls @saffilikesotters @srrygate @omgemags @yametsu

prod @01kon

so hella swag (+staggy +oxxy +thrml +saffi +gate +emags +yametsu +01kon)


ik the the matter with your face
i promised you that I would change
guess i am the fucking same
but i don't think that i feel safe


tell me everything you know
don't keep on the low
don't waste my fucking time
im disappointment to you
nothing that i do
is good enough 


tell me everything you know
don't keep on the low
don't waste my fucking time
im disappointment to you
nothing that i do
is good enough 


~


staring at the ceiling
i don't wanna wake up
i don't think i can
feel exhausted as fuck
suicidal thoughts
and i wanna just run


keep your head up
thats what he told me
you can always try again
I'm dying slowly
not making progress
but can you help me?
i don't even wanna try
think i messed up


tell me everything you know
don't keep on the low
don't waste my fucking time
im disappointment to you
nothing that i do
is good enough


~


whats the meaning of my life
destroying everything i pass 
throw another fucking dice 
(sorry)


~

featuring https://soundcloud.com/diegointhedark
produced by https://soundcloud.com/nickp3tro
mix + master by both joshiguess & diegointhedark
lyrics below
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doing shit with no hesitation
like a step by step animation
my life is a book full of pages
and i'm tired of going thru these phases

shawty always hit my phone when i'm sleeping
bringing my clique up with a beacon
cliffhanger i'm the end of a season
catch your bitch with me in san francisco next weekend
you on the highway and you bumping all my songs
and we gonna blow up like a bomb
joshiguess and diegointhedark
we in sac and you know we going hard

money on my mind go run my bands up 
got a xan under my tongue bitch i can’t stand up 
all y’all just some clones y’all just my fandom
talk shit bitch this 30 throw a tantrum

last year they would treat me like a reject 
everybody bouncing back like a reflex
stone island when i walk imma big flex 
your bodyguard gon die shoot a big tech

she wanna fuck i don’t even gotta ask her 
i pulled up turned the show to a disaster
you want smoke put your liver on a platter 
upgraded diamonds bitch my chain is dark matter

and i swear i had to do this on my own 
you ain’t never had to struggle all alone
my girl looking pale like a ghost 
stepping out i put that rick owens my toes

shawty always hit my phone when i'm sleeping
bringing my clique up with a beacon
cliffhanger i'm the end of a season
catch your bitch with me in san francisco next weekend
you on the highway and you bumping all my songs
and we gonna blow up like a bomb
joshiguess and diegointhedark
we in sac and you know we going hard

playing cities like i'm playing on nintendo
said she wanna hang out took her back home
she wanna smash so i put in some smash bros
if she meant the other way she a bad hoe (battle)

Cliffhanger

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cliffhanger! w/ diegointhedark (p3tro)

cry_now_laugh_later_[pk_rochambeau]

~ stuck forever borderline ~
prod. by me <3
additional prod. (trumpet) by @dramatrial

-
I can't wake up to alarms 
I shake my legs, an anxious mess, and draw shit on my arms
My mental's covered in scars 
My life's a wreck and I project it from my heart

As unstable, impulsive, intense it gets 
I'm unable to stop fearing abandonment
Am I able to change my ways or how I live? 
'Cause uncertainty's creeping up on me again

I'm the opposite of fortified 
I push away, then let you stay the night
I say I'm sober, I'm still getting high 
In a former life, the order's right
But I'm stuck forever borderline, borderline

My mind is racing along 
A million miles, it's been a while, my inhibition's gone
It gets too hard to respond 
I might as well be embalmed
Emotions on a swing, I'm spiraling, I'm too closed off

As aggressive, repressive, uptight I am 
I'm unable to stop trying to give a damn
And this feeling's been stuck inside my diaphragm 
'Cause uncertainty's creeping up on me again

I'm the opposite of fortified 
I push away, then let you stay the night
I say I'm sober, I'm still getting high 
In a former life, the order's right
But I'm stuck on the borderline 
I'm the opposite of fortified
I push away, then let you stay the night 
I say I'm sober, I'm still getting high
In a former life, the order's right 

But I'm stuck forever borderline, borderline
Stuck forever borderline, borderline 
Borderline
Stuck, oh on the borderline
Stuck forever borderline, oh
Borderline, borderline
Stuck forever borderline, borderline

borderline

stiff arm w/ whyhaze

Prod: Flxffy_

so i can't stop myself from fallin'
dont' think of coming back, i don't wanna stay at all
hands around my neck, bleeding out, i dont feel it anymore
hide away my pain, i don't care what u wanna say
im the only one to blame for my own mistakes
all i've done, all i've said has just left me here alone.

i don't wanna be myself no more
i feel like i had it all and its all just gone
put myself in a cage, hid away from all the world
nothing that i can do can save me now
so i just speak to myself, im gone
i wish i could say something now.

(that's just what i i've done
this is how im feeling
no one speaks at all
can't stop for a minute).

i can se the time passing
everything's so distractig
can feel it all retracting
i should just change it all.

but i can't stop myself from fallin'
dont' think of coming back, i don't wanna stay at all
hands around my neck, bleeding out, i dont feel it anymore
hide away my pain, i don't care what u wanna say
im the only one to blame for my own mistakes
all i've done, all i've said has just left me here alone.

so hella swag (+staggy +oxxy +thrml +saffi +gate +emags +yametsu +01kon)

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