Trauma Project

14/01/23

HOPE ft. Tomi AI & Kevin

18/02/23

Words Worst PFKM Remix ft. Mo Chen

09/04/23

Please Fucking Kill Me (REMASTER) ft. Mo Chen

Date of creation: ‎20 ‎March ‎2023

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I remember in October
my composure needed closure
and words you told me, how they controlled me
the way you lied, what that implied

How long had that been going on?
and the fact you had been relying on
false promises and fake premises
with fake love while looking above and

I trusted those words
and I trust that you heard

my heart breaking and hands shaking
(I stared at that screen the only thing between.)
my heart breaking and body quaking
(I fell right through your lies; it makes me want to cry)

Oh, it's so cruel! I feel a fool...

Every time I came home
After school, I felt a fool
to of trusted
I'm so disgusted because of you
and how I loved you

I wanted to feel; wanted it to be real
But now that's long gone, and I've withdrawn

my heart breaking and hands shaking
(I recall memories; those are my enemies)
cause my heart is breaking and it's gaping
(I felt everything, everything through your lies)

My head is spinning, and my ears keep ringing
(a week in my bed wishing that I was dead)
I feel so blue all because of you
(My heart began to sting because I didn't feel anything!)

I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I-

20/03/24

perfidious-october ft. Kevin & Mo Chen

【初音ミク】気取屋商売 (Pompous Business)【syudou】

14/05/23

Feel Sorry For Yourself ft. Eleanor Forte AI LITE

fainéant girl instrumental/off vocal

other vocal - momone momo

dl available (wav file)

rot away ft. kasane teto

Date of creation: 30 ‎September ‎2023

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dont look at me like that
dont look at me at all
im ashamed of the way
i treat myself

you, who wants to know
me, who wants to hide
im terrified of what people
will say about me

everyday is feeling like a challenge
emotions tip as i feel the imbalance
feeling like i really got no talent
falling over tripping on disgallent

dont look at me like that
dont look at me at all
im ashamed of the way
i treat myself

dont look at me like that
dont look at me at all
im ashamed of the way
i treat myself

unfaze_ ft. Umi Kurage

vo - degirl, tomi arpa
song & svp - weevildoing

chocolate box girl (short)

ORIGINAL:   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fGizrX4JjPg&t=0s

UST BY GIANG:    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GiHGt0Sd9Vg&t=0s

yt: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bCncegjNsXk

arghhhhh i forgot about this cover for like a month actually :sob:

【阿久女イク】 ビノミ 【UTAU カバー】

Strawberry Girl

original by creep-p / https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iW_JYONe4kQ
remix, vsqx / by ghost https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SJGpHnYFX_0
cover, illust / kian
vocal / tsuina-chan, yuma

CREATIVE / (GHOST Remix) 『tsuina-chan, yuma』SynthVカバー

Date of creation: 2 January 2025

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When I think about it now
My heart is on a string
I wake up in a memory
With nothing as it seems

With tears that do not pour
I'm stuck up on a dream
I wish I could do more but
Then it seems all too extreme

My blood, my sweat, and tears
Are they just all just a bluff?
I'd cut until theres blood
But even that isn't enough

I sketch and paint to illustrate
To you a who does not care
So if you really loved me
Then why aren't you here?

(Why am I not enough for you...)

If I died, would you even notice?
My stomach turns, no- you already know it
If i wait on you, like way back when
I know you'll make my heart sting once again

(Okay...)

When I thought about it then
"Do you see me more than a friend?"
I wish we could go back to how it was..
With the issues that our feelings caused-

You think about it now
My heart is on a string
What is there not to get!?
Why can't you seem to hear my screams?

I thought about it then so then I'll
Think of it again but when
Again is almost over
Just repeat the same words so (x2)

If I died, you wouldnt notice so I'll leave without a trace,
You say you love me, but dont show it, so I'll call your bluff two faced,
You say it eats you up inside, and that you feel like a disgrace,
So then imagine how I feel when my all love seems like a waste?

So, if I died, you wouldnt notice so I'll leave without a trace,
You say you love me, but dont show it, so I'll call your bluff two faced,
You say it eats you up inside, and that you feel like a disgrace,
So then imagine how I feel when my all love seems like a waste!?

STING ft. Saros

iNSaNiTY [Defoko/Utane Uta]

the 24 hour vocaloid project (now closed) - https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLhldPH4jS3bCoe5-2ClExNBZZS7NAcqxf
youtube upload: https://youtu.be/04LQtYNl0Po
spotify - https://open.spotify.com/album/7JLcMMgmXYzcLqZdqPoxXX?si=Qaw8iwHRTDiVRbwfCWATVw
bandcamp - https://friendxp.bandcamp.com/
twitter - https://twitter.com/friend_xp

- lyrics -
Still awake, still awake, what should I do?
Time flies by, bid it adieu
The daytime’s such a bore
I just need to work a little more.
Getting late, getting late, I should stop now...
My reasoning disallows
I’m always so carefree,
but I don’t dare care what waits for me

It can’t wait, it can’t wait, in a hurry
The darkness swells with fury
I can feel myself slipping
What’s important seems to keep flipping
It’s too late? It’s too late? I still can’t tell
The clock ticks, bid your farewells
I find I’m far behind
I’ve made my mistakes please let me rewind

I can’t stand to tell you how late I stayed up
If you try it you’ll feel quite a rush
Long-past deadlines and missing follow-ups
Thoughts all turned to mush

Was this all for naught?
I can’t tell. Doing swell, yet unwell
Thoughts run ‘round my brain
All my feelings start to rot!
Just calm down, clear your mind
I’m not fine, I can’t lie
I’ll lie here in the silence
waiting for the morning
Still, I’m awake
Past mistakes. I feel great, but it aches
I just want to let it all go, but I won’t change!
All along, was it me?
It’s my fault clear as can be
I’ll sit here in the sibilance
and talk with you.

Full of pain, full of pain, I still can’t sleep
I cringe at every beep
Who knows how long it’s been…
Since 9PM I knew I’d never win
Lament, lament, what I can’t have
Ideally I’m split half
Always, this self-pity
Cry some more, your life’s oh so shi-

Wide awake, wide awake, bright and blinding
The clock is still unwinding
I’m full of entropy
Cataclysmic, my reality
No escape, no escape, cry and like it
My reasoning is split
You must think I’m asleep…
Want to go back, but I’m in too deep

I can’t stand to tell you how late I stayed up
If you try it you’ll feel quite a rush
Long-past deadlines and missing follow-ups
Is this what I want?

I can’t stand to tell you how late I stayed up
If you try it you’ll feel quite a rush
Long-past deadlines are piling up
This is what I want.

...was this all for naught?

I don’t know! Doing swell! Wish you well
The world ends inside my brain,
all my progress down the drain!
Just calm down, clear your mind
I’m just fine, I can’t lie!
I’ll lie here in the screaming
waiting for an ending
But I’m a fake!
Past mistakes. I feel great, it’s not hate!
I just want to let go,
but I think you’ve always known.
All along, it was me,
it’s my fault for all to see!
I’ll sit here in the endless void
and talk with you.
I’ve only truly been awake since 9PM

9PM ft. gumi [vocaloid original]

Otherwise know as angel416, my name is Tomi! I'm making music for autistic people!
Official SoundCloud account for UpTown-P.

Hello! My name is Kara!
你好！ 我叫步凯瑞！

HOPE ft. Tomi AI & Kevin

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