prod. me

lyrics:

ima take some shit then i'll pass out
3am pics got me blurred out
when u look at that shit in the background
u can see me there, i'm a no one
when i put on my shit, it's the best ones
when i look at myself, i don't know him
when i take some pics, i don't post them
then i trash them
never seen them
(x2,,)

and i wish i stopped myself
and i wish i stopped myself from letting go
i stay in the background
u can see me there i'm a no one
(x2,,)

i don't wnna change myself
i don't wnna change myself
for nobody but me i know i have to.
(x2,,)

3amPics [[[LEAK]]]

@prodarisu
@xternalz

mui:

ohhh no
i jus wanna be all on my own
standing by ur side but im still alone
nothing feels the same since the day you let me go
i feel so cold
i been distasteful

u hate me when i liee to ya
our feelings, they collide for good
i wonder if you'd hide from it
can i feel at all?
is this real or not...

xternalz:

it’s wearing me down til i cant breathe
i’ll think I’ll drown, you’re staring at me
i can’t think
it’s making me bleed
it’s making me bleed til I can’t anymore
yeah you’re crushing my reality
it’s such an abnormality
guess now we’ll see the lethality
the lethality 

mui:

i cant choose
is this really safety? 
is this really love???
i dont wanna take this on my own...
you're telling me we're meant to be in this world
amongst all the faces
i still feel alone

i talk about my feelings
but dont feel a thing at all
write down all the pages 
paint the pictures in the bold
im falling into fading, this shits getting ever cold
there's nothing in the painting,
i dont wanna feel at all

reality w/ xternalz (arisu)

I feel like i havent made a meaningful song in a while but i think i finally got it here. I hope yall can tell i rlly tried on this song. There's lots more to come I have some really really good stuff thats gonna be dropping later this year <3

prod @m2monroe and @prod_promise they some bros frfr

i dont know what to say
i just want to get away
its been a while since ive had a break from all of this

its been a while since i lost it all
see my smile
cant you tell at all?
autophile, just leave me alone
i like the solitude when im on my own

heart still, stone cold
ive built a city of fool's gold
this guilt, it still has a hold
a hold of me

pen and quill
another test of will
lets just take it from the top one more time
one more page to fill
i dont know what to write
just more time to kill
instead of sitting still

one more step, cant accept
so we're back at the start
i cant talk, not at all
it wont make it out my heart
i still remember the times
when this wasnt such a struggle and fight

just leave me here
i dont want to move
please dont come near
im in my solitude

i dont know what to say
i just want to get away
its been a while since ive had a break from all of this

its been a while since i lost it all
see my smile
cant you tell at all?
autophile, just leave me alone
i like the solitude when im on my own

its been a while since i lost it all
see my smile
cant you tell at all?
autophile, just leave me alone
i like the solitude when im on my own

solitude (monroe + promise)

Big thanks to @1kidsora and @victxrw for featuring. It’s really crazy that i can have a song with people who inspire me and i listen to everyday. Also shout out @kuriyai443 for the fire beat.

recorded in feb 2024

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(chorus: me)
its night outside
and u shine the brightest
dancing in the moonlight
but u broke my heart
it hurt so bad
im falling to pieces
wish it only was a dream
but its real we cannot be
and i wish you was here with me
because my chest its gonna bleed

(verse: me)
love of my live
falling thru my hands
u left me all alone
cannot understand
we went different ways
hope u doing okay
blinded by your love
like some kind of spell
memories of u stuck inside my brain
wish we could go and relive them again
baby close your eyes let the wind blow
in the end yeah wish it was a real love

(verse: kid sora)
I don't know if this is real love
you've been acting strange so I think imma close the seal up
ah-haa! that mean you aint getting near us
I lead by example, I don't want them all to fear us- yuh, yuh-
like, it really aint that deep girl
better prove your worth before you gain the right to see worlds
better prove yourself before you gain the right to see pearls
thought she was the one, it turns out that girl just an e-girl- fuck

(verse: victxrw)
yea yea, i just need get out
i tried to scream but theres no sound coming out my mouth
no no, i just need get out
im stuck in bed im just stuck inside this jail house
I pray that i can make it up
nd everyday, ive had enough
ik that u just hate my guts
ill never be enough

im never enough
im coughing up blood
im never enough

(chorus: me)
its night outside
and u shine the brightest
dancing in the moonlight
but u broke my heart
it hurt so bad
im falling to pieces
wish it only was a dream
but its real we cannot be
and i wish you was here with me
because my chest its gonna bleed

art by https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/19920821

wish

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wish + kid sora & victxrw (kuriyai)

@prodkirian @kyoakyo ^_^
amv! - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PSfzd9EE4ng&pp=ygUGYml0ZWtp

listen 2 my heart
all my pain is real can u see all my scars
tryna better myself everyday but dunno where 2 start
i miss ur hand on minee
just tell me everythings okay jus look me in my eyes
yea its getting hard
i cant do this alone
i really trusted u i cant believe u left me cold
i really really loved u more than u will ever know
its such a shame
its down the drain
now i sit n i cryyyy

cause i
cant decideee
if i really need ur love or not
this loves a tragedy
ill let it rot
cause i
cant decideee
if i really need ur love or not
this loves a tragedy
ill let it rottt

(i miss u more than youll ever know but this loves a tragedy)
(js know ill be here when ur feeling down even though its not meant 2 be)
(oooh ohhhh ohhhh x2)

listen 2 my heart
all my pain is real can u see all my scars
tryna better myself everyday but dunno where 2 start
i miss ur hand on minee
just tell me everythings okay jus look me in my eyes
yea its getting hard
i cant do this alone
i really trusted u i cant believe u left me cold
i really really loved u more than u will ever know
its such a shame
its down the drain
now i sit n i cryyyy

cause i
cant decideee
if i really need ur love or not
this loves a tragedy
ill let it rot
cause i
cant decideee
if i really need ur love or not
this loves a tragedy
ill let it rottt

tragedy (kirian, kyoa)

"i guess thats how things go"
shoutout april showers 
and big thanks goats
@remiliaxd @kyxtsnxwy
@prodarisu @oiwassupp

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me
all the things that i been thru
wake up another day, feeling brand new
i gave you my heart, you tore it to pieces
and i couldn't believe it, but
i guess thats how things go
thought i had you, you slipped out of my hand
and all the time we spent, went to waste
i can't recall the things, that i said
and its all my fault, that how it is

@remiliaxd
that's how it is, falling to pieces
falling to my own thoughts, it hurts
yeah i said "i don't need it," but i still need it
and i guess that's how it is again
i hold you close, now i'm falling to pieces again
again, let my heart go
to think i'd lose it all again

@kyxtsnxwy
imma lose it all again
demons in my head
i know they wont let me live, i know
you held so many pain, now you’re cold
i’ll keep reminding you, i wont go away
i will take away your pain
no matter how things go, im always here to stay
if ever you need space, i’ll wait anyway
i know i live in hell, but i’ll take you to holy place

me + @remiliaxd
all the things that i been thru
wake up another day, feeling brand new
i gave you my heart, you tore it to pieces
and i couldn't believe it, but
i guess thats how things go

how things go
heart froze
heart hurts and it's frozen like the snow
let go
i know
i know that my heart is set in stone

art by https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/27354041

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how things go + remilia & kyxtsnxwy (arisu oiwa)

thank you @angelicxmei for featuring much love <3

prod me & @xternalz

lyrics:

me!

you know that it feels right
with you laying by my side
let my tears drop to the ground
let them all out its alright
yeah we'll be fine

yeah my heart is going cold
you dont want me
i gave you my sweater yeah
it was all for nothing
always do my best
just so i can make it right
you don't even love me
u know it was all a lie

i really start to wonder
should i even bother
yeah you broke my heart
and now its in the gutter
you saved me from all of my fears
im dreaming to thoughts of you being here

@angelicxmei

i want u so please just look in my eyes
i told u we both stood under the sky
i wanna laugh with u i wanna find the truth
i wanna make a move dont make my feelings blue

my heart is getting colder,  so come a little closer
i want u by my shoulder dont make me feel like its over!

cold w/ angelicxmei (prod. me + xternalz)

featuring @kyxtsnxwy x @1kidsora x @muieternal
prod. @tores x @jichuuu

@akasukii
i dont wanna be alone
i dont wanna play pretend
that im okay without u
that this isnt the end
i dont wanna face the night
with no one to hold me tight
i dont wanna be alone
i dont wanna be on my own
tell me where did we go wrong?
how did we fall apart?
was it something i did something i said?
or was it written from the start?
i dont wanna be alone
i dont wanna play pretend
that im okay without you
that this isnt the end
i dont wanna face the night
with no one to hold me tight
i dont wanna be alone
i dont wanna be on my own

@kyxtsnxwy
i dont wanna be on my own
left me in the snow, its freezing and its cold
i know
please hold me tight closely
im right here by my lonely
it feels like u disowned me
im right here at the start again

lets please start again
all that im feeling is the feeling of dread
bullet be straight to my head
feeling like nothing im better off dead
all of the things that u said
hurting my soul, baby, im falling apart
take out my heart
baby its nothing its just all scars

@1kidsora
all i ever needed was presence
all i ever needed was essence
i know im learning lessons
but, im still overthinking blessings
im trynna geek & i'm posted with Jayy
all that she care about is what i make
so- imma just pray
i dont know how much more i'll take
of this- of this
she bid me farewell
with a silent kiss
of this- of this-
u all know i cant miss-

@muieternal
i think ive had enough
u said u'd have our love
the distance in ur touch
i'd never hate so much 

u promised on ur word
now i cant make this alone
ruminating this thought
leave this love in a knot

pretend w/kishi, kid sora + mui [tores x jichu]

w/ @tores prod me

Lyrics:

I feel like I’m calling out to the dark
I’m way too far
I can’t reach you

I’m still hoping
There’s something more to this
I’m still choking
On words that I can’t dismiss

I’m falling to the floor
These things that I can’t restore
This can’t be alright
I just wanted more

our love will never last, time will never wait
i'm scared i'll forget everything you ever said yeah
i'm so sad yeah, i'm scared i will forget you
oh baby close your eyes, let me hold your hand
let's just run away, to the fairy land 
every night in my dreams i see you
that's the most beautiful view

your love it was all pretend
got me crying in my room again
again and again, again
time will pass, love will stop
memories fade away into the dark
i know you know, i want you back
i wish i could just see you one more time

I’m still hoping
There’s something more to this
I’m still choking
On words that I can’t dismiss

I’m falling to the floor
These things that I can’t restore
This can’t be alright
I just wanted more

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