⋆los♱ in a sta♱e of mind⋆

stuck again, it never ends
know you're running around my head, i'm tired
i'm tired (and i tried)
i still feel you in my lungs
i'm sorry, i'm sorry
i'm sorry i care so much

i feel like i figured it out
even if i didn't im here
i hope you don't figure it out
you'll end up head over heels

(you can let me crawl into your skin until you feel)
(i feel like im dying)

i'm sorry i care so much

i hate everything and everyone around me
tear my skin apart, i hate my flaws
like why'd you ever doubt me
and i'll figure it out, you hold the revolver
don't take a bullet out, she aimed right down & shot me

i'd end up like this regardless
i know i'm a loser but, i'll end up fine

i'd end up like this regardless

don't you think i forgot
you never cared
about me, about me

would you empty my thoughts on the pavement
would you tear me apart out of hatred

it's all just lies and deceit
who thought you'd die so easy
i saw your eyes just leave me
who thought you'd die so easy

somehow i keep sinning for you
my bloods on the ceiling for you
this was never easy to do

i tried my hardest

@ankleankle
@six-days-after-christmas
@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

i guess every time you close your eyes
you see me standing right beside you
brush your hair from morning on
wipe your skin til your tears are gone
i guess everyone just fucking hates you
shattered words will end and break you
cry to me while you sing along
look at me while you get it wrong

say what you said i heard you
i known you for a long time so i cant hurt you
and i dont want you feeling like im not okay
i tried to leave but not again
looking at the ceiling of my room
im pondering im missing you
thinking of our conversations
i cant even think of things to do
you wanted me to stay but i dont wanna see it through
rather be by myself but everytime i close my eyes im seeing you

close your eyes w ankle

even when you feel alone just know i'm by your side
i hate hearing voices lurking scratching in my mind
think i wanna die

take me out, take me out, take me out
think i wanna die, think i wanna die

take me out, take me out, take me out 
(take me out)
take me out, take me out, take me out 
(take me out)

now my wrists are bleeding for you
i thought we we're law
and i can't take this pain no more
i wish you'd end it all

take me out

[luci]
don't let me fall
if i let you in
one to my chest just tear my skin
one to the head, don't let me live
my minds in panic, you slit my wrists
in awful times
i hate my life

i wait too long for something right
don't you take my light, ill do things right
i'm sorry

[crayon]
i lay my head in the dark
its not what you want its what you are
i know its all my fault
and i hate the way i stand
and i cant handle my friends
i think my times come to end
why would you hate me after all i did
i cant find the words to describe the way you feel to me
i cant
but before you leave
make one promise to me
you wont let me fall
you wont let me down
can you be my heart last time around

lucille & crayon - i hate my life

https://open.spotify.com/track/2AIMz1yFQSTO7E0Hbh5Q6s?si=NSZ2Tck2Sp6qQe6lrRXbXg&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A04w5f3YMAtRZknzgxzVjuc

prod me

take it easy
u expect too much from me
im just tryna love
didnt know this is how u feel
i still imagine finding hairs
all across my room
reminiscing on the scent
of u

i cant believe it
ur lies that im seein
ur hurtin, i see it
thru the curtains
of ur theatre

theatre of lies

10/25

wdym when u said that i lost it?
wdym when u said that im bad at expressing myself
UR NOT LIKE ME
IM A LIAR A MANIPULATIVE OLD PRICK
UR NOT LIKE ME
I DONT WANT ANY HELP

GET YOU GONE
GET YOU GONE
I DONT WANT THIS ANYMORE

WDYM?

https://open.spotify.com/track/5deqRcXhpxot443g7emMy0?si=NydICEOaRk296K4txYVwGA&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A4rUhH7hSpj0Sk41NFYbvYi

prod me ft @revivle

@requiem-for-you
what did i even do wrong?
was it what i wrote about u in my song
where did i even go wrong?
why wont u just tell me i dont wanna see u gone

cold winter nights
spent alone
used to sit by the fire on the phone
drinking hot cocoa
looking at our old photos
turning time into slowmo
where did it go wrong?

(where did i go wrong
dont wanna see u gone)

what did i even do wrong?
was it what i wrote about u in my song
where did i even go wrong?
why wont u just tell me i dont wanna see u gone

@revivle
i spent so much time on my own
i couldnt stop you from letting me go
so many promises that you went and broke
if i killed myself then how would you know ;p

im sorry for acting the way that i did
theres just something about u that makes me feel like a kid
im calling out for you i just wish you could see it
maybe u would if you stopped fucking leaving

@requiem-for-you + @revivle
what did i even do wrong?
was it what i wrote about u in my song
where did i even go wrong?
why wont u just tell me i dont wanna see u gone
x2

what did i do wrong? w/ revivle

https://open.spotify.com/track/5rFqazROwCjEN83I91xFHW?si=72a9658bf5e54163

prod me ft @revivle ...again ^_^

@requiem-for-you
oooh
baby whatchu do
i dont have a clue
cus im not rlly one to listen
you
broke my heart in two
it never regrew
now im jus cold and heartless

u never said bye to me
im so anxious im biting
my nails ill gnaw my skin
till i can feel something

@revivle
late night talks
i could talk to you for hours baby
you dont listen to me
break my heart and call me crazy
i know i cant play these games
talk to me like whys that so hard
i just wanna feel something
got a past that im not proud of

gave it all that i could
(blame it all on me)
i cant leave but i should 
(i cant seem to stop)

stop myself from texting you again
maybe we were better off as friends
wondering when the lyings gonna end
baby whachu....

@requiem-for-you + @revivle
oooh
baby whatchu do
i dont have a clue
cus im not rlly one to listen
you
broke my heart in two
it never regrew
now im jus cold and heartless

u never said bye to me
im so anxious im biting
my nails ill gnaw my skin
till i can feel something
x2

heartless w/ revivle

Too many shots

i swear i love u more than lust

produced by me

can’t pass the time, youre in my dreams
and now i know ill never sleep
do i stay and try to fix it all for her
I’m such a joke because I know that I’ll get hurt 

I know you’re sleeping
hold me tight I can’t see 
you in my dreams
you in my dreams
love me simply
hold me right I know you
can’t feel happy
can’t feel happy

so I’ll sing my songs
will you sing along
will you sing along
but you can’t

I know you’re sleeping
hold me tight I can’t see 
you in my dreams
you in my dreams
love me simply
hold me right I know you
can’t feel happy
can’t feel happy

i'd end up like this regardless

lucille

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