⋆los♱ in a sta♱e of mind⋆

am i falling in love?
are we something or not?
i can tell something's wrong in my head
am i dead?
use your words of affection and lies to reflect it again
again

tell me what i'm waiting here for
any time they'll blow through that door
put it to my head,
put it to my
bullet through my head

she said that she's tired of this nonsense
tell me where i'm lost at
don't know where i started at
why's it so hard on us
tell me what's your purpose
just tell me it all
girl tell me i'm worthless
i deserve my scars

reflect

stuck again, it never ends
know you're running around my head, i'm tired
i'm tired (and i tried)
i still feel you in my lungs
i'm sorry, i'm sorry
i'm sorry i care so much

i feel like i figured it out
even if i didn't im here
i hope you don't figure it out
you'll end up head over heels

(you can let me crawl into your skin until you feel)
(i feel like im dying)

i'm sorry i care so much

@ankleankle
@six-days-after-christmas
@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

i guess every time you close your eyes
you see me standing right beside you
brush your hair from morning on
wipe your skin til your tears are gone
i guess everyone just fucking hates you
shattered words will end and break you
cry to me while you sing along
look at me while you get it wrong

say what you said i heard you
i known you for a long time so i cant hurt you
and i dont want you feeling like im not okay
i tried to leave but not again
looking at the ceiling of my room
im pondering im missing you
thinking of our conversations
i cant even think of things to do
you wanted me to stay but i dont wanna see it through
rather be by myself but everytime i close my eyes im seeing you

close your eyes w ankle

https://open.spotify.com/track/2AIMz1yFQSTO7E0Hbh5Q6s?si=NSZ2Tck2Sp6qQe6lrRXbXg&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A04w5f3YMAtRZknzgxzVjuc

prod me

take it easy
u expect too much from me
im just tryna love
didnt know this is how u feel
i still imagine finding hairs
all across my room
reminiscing on the scent
of u

i cant believe it
ur lies that im seein
ur hurtin, i see it
thru the curtains
of ur theatre

theatre of lies

Am I A Freak W Bunii

https://open.spotify.com/track/5deqRcXhpxot443g7emMy0?si=NydICEOaRk296K4txYVwGA&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A4rUhH7hSpj0Sk41NFYbvYi

prod me ft @revivle

@requiem-for-you
what did i even do wrong?
was it what i wrote about u in my song
where did i even go wrong?
why wont u just tell me i dont wanna see u gone

cold winter nights
spent alone
used to sit by the fire on the phone
drinking hot cocoa
looking at our old photos
turning time into slowmo
where did it go wrong?

(where did i go wrong
dont wanna see u gone)

what did i even do wrong?
was it what i wrote about u in my song
where did i even go wrong?
why wont u just tell me i dont wanna see u gone

@revivle
i spent so much time on my own
i couldnt stop you from letting me go
so many promises that you went and broke
if i killed myself then how would you know ;p

im sorry for acting the way that i did
theres just something about u that makes me feel like a kid
im calling out for you i just wish you could see it
maybe u would if you stopped fucking leaving

@requiem-for-you + @revivle
what did i even do wrong?
was it what i wrote about u in my song
where did i even go wrong?
why wont u just tell me i dont wanna see u gone
x2

what did i do wrong? w/ revivle

bunii- barry's watermill

released officially go stream: https://soundcloud.com/gothamendmentbih/greed

https://soundcloud.com/gothamendmentbih https://soundcloud.com/gothbastard https://soundcloud.com/torturedskin
https://www.instagram.com/p/DHGu-C8pToS/
#GOTHAMENDMENT
dm 4 takedown

bastard & lucille - greed

https://open.spotify.com/track/5rFqazROwCjEN83I91xFHW?si=72a9658bf5e54163

prod me ft @revivle ...again ^_^

@requiem-for-you
oooh
baby whatchu do
i dont have a clue
cus im not rlly one to listen
you
broke my heart in two
it never regrew
now im jus cold and heartless

u never said bye to me
im so anxious im biting
my nails ill gnaw my skin
till i can feel something

@revivle
late night talks
i could talk to you for hours baby
you dont listen to me
break my heart and call me crazy
i know i cant play these games
talk to me like whys that so hard
i just wanna feel something
got a past that im not proud of

gave it all that i could
(blame it all on me)
i cant leave but i should 
(i cant seem to stop)

stop myself from texting you again
maybe we were better off as friends
wondering when the lyings gonna end
baby whachu....

@requiem-for-you + @revivle
oooh
baby whatchu do
i dont have a clue
cus im not rlly one to listen
you
broke my heart in two
it never regrew
now im jus cold and heartless

u never said bye to me
im so anxious im biting
my nails ill gnaw my skin
till i can feel something
x2

heartless w/ revivle

produced by me

can’t pass the time, youre in my dreams
and now i know ill never sleep
do i stay and try to fix it all for her
I’m such a joke because I know that I’ll get hurt 

I know you’re sleeping
hold me tight I can’t see 
you in my dreams
you in my dreams
love me simply
hold me right I know you
can’t feel happy
can’t feel happy

so I’ll sing my songs
will you sing along
will you sing along
but you can’t

I know you’re sleeping
hold me tight I can’t see 
you in my dreams
you in my dreams
love me simply
hold me right I know you
can’t feel happy
can’t feel happy

i know youre sleeping

natalis (prod. lucille)#gothamendment

dying with me (extended)

lucille & bunii - whatever it takes (og) (leak)

lucille, bunii - i feel everything (leak)

Girl I Never Knew.mp3

Piano and vocal track. Retrospective, nostalgic, dreamy with touches of melancholy. I wrote this music in 1997 (I think), added lyrics in 2025.

LYRICS:
Darkness swells, both keys have failed
Blurry days with him
On ripples echo in
I wonder
When has my heart pounded more?
(through a door)

Camel ashes line the stairs
Follow them to the roof
The walls still reek of rain
Oh my God
Where did the afternoon go?
(endless woe)

Have you seen a witty scoundrel
Cocky stinker looking for me
Looking like me with lost eyes
Tell him I remember him

Coat of yellow curtain cloth
Swathed in wicker air
Living on turnip broth
Authentic
Denizen of Dog-Day Park's
(morning bars)

Unbending hallway
Every door an unending Sunday
Corridor: I’ll haunt you evermore
Tomorrow
There will be chandelier bulbs
(bursting boom)
(.... boom … boom….)

Wormhole of Love's Regret (Prototype)

Something’s breaking, maybe one of us?¿

reflect

lucille

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