sometimes i don't feel ANYTHING AT ALL
sometimes i feel im too much & yet feel so smol
sometimes im so self absorbed; im so self obsessed,
but sometimes im trying my best

sometimes i struggle
sometimes i struggle with words
sometimes im hateful
sometimes i lash out & hurt
sometimes im grateful, ooh
sometimes

so today i really hate myself & im REALLY GOOD AT HATING THINGS
i admit im not *always* like this, it depends on what the day brings
but sometimes i have a lousy start & i throw away the rest
but sometimes im trying my best

sometimes i struggle
sometimes i struggle with words
sometimes im hateful
sometimes i lash out & hurt
sometimes im grateful, ooh
sometimes

shell $crypt

stuck

if i tell you all my secrets that control me, will you still hold me?
& will you hear me when i open to tell my story, will you still hold?
& you do.

ooh, cause i got you,
you got me; 
we got each other

& if you ask me, then i will listen
& i'll be there to hold your hand
& if you ask me if i understand, 
i do.

i got you,
you got me;
we got each other

& if you ask me if i understand, 
i do.

oh oh, you're never alone,
cause i got you,
you got me;
we got each other

i got you,
you got me;
we get us

we get us

ALLOWED (EYE SPY)

stream of songciousness; semi-immersive lofi

tired

[ autism X narcissism; collision ]

notice the patterns

]] cultēvaded [[

]] { ē } [[

after the rain

praxis

come on let's not fight (trauma song)

back home~

cya [ AdvTime s7e1 ~ ēject ~ cool yöu ]

transfem, neurodivergent multi-instrumentalist Tottom&Bop is wild & real. 
their experimental indie electronica, semi-immersive lofi, partially poetic pop knocks off socks. she bends genre almost as much as gender. her contemplative content centers stories of queerness, trauma, & our place in healing the whole.

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