Panic Pills

Fires

It’s not my fault you cried.
You handed me the glass. I just drank.
🥂 Thanks for the vintage heartbreak.

Lyrics

Come closer.
I won’t bite…
Hard.
But cry for me,
And I’ll drink you dry.

Your sorrow pools beneath your eyes,
So ripe, so soft, delicious lies.
You called me angel, begged me stay,
I smiled and carved your hope away.

You dreamt of lips, I took your breath.
You reached for love, I offered death.
You wept, I sipped, so slow, so sweet,
Your dignity my favourite meat.

I’ll drink your tears,
You want me to.
Each drop a truth
You never knew.
You called it love,
But it was need.
And I was born
To watch you bleed.

Your hunger pooled behind your eyes,
A vintage brew of shame and sighs.
You begged for truth, I bit my grin,
Then let you think you’d drawn me in.

You whispered ‘love’, how sweet, how vain.
I raised a glass to your new pain
You called me yours with trembling grace,
But I was gone without a trace.

I’ll drink your tears,
Your soul distilled.
A storm-bound oath
I’ve long fulfilled.
You bled for love,
I bathed in screams.
I am the tide
That haunts your dreams.

Let it fall, don’t hold it in.
Salt tastes better steeped in sin.
You begged me gently, thought me kind,
But I’ve been sipping from your mind.

Drink your tears,
I feast, I reign.
Your sobs are songs,
Your loss, champagne.
You’ll die for touch,
You’ll beg for grace,
While I drink deep
From your disgrace.

Thank you, darling,
You’re emptier now.
So hollow. So quiet.
Perfect.

Drink your Tears

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(Verse 1)
You slide in like static on the radio
Midnight perfume, dressed in vertigo
Eyes like crime scenes, lips a cigarette
I lit your fuse, but I’m the one who’s wrecked

(Pre-Chorus)
You said, “Love’s a game,” and I’m a bad sport
Always chasing hearts I can’t afford

(Chorus)
Velvet cigarettes and neon sins
You’re poison wrapped in silk and gin
I swear I saw heaven when you said my name
Now I’m coughing up stars in your hurricane
You taste like trouble, and I’m still addicted
Every kiss a crime, and I got convicted

(Verse 2)
We danced like secrets on the fire escape
Your laugh was louder than my big mistakes
I should’ve known from the start,
You play guitars like you play hearts

(Pre-Chorus)
Said “Don’t get close,” but pulled me in tight
I lost my head in your blacklight

(Chorus)
Velvet cigarettes and neon sins
You’re poison wrapped in silk and gin
I swear I saw heaven when you said my name
Now I’m coughing up stars in your hurricane
You taste like trouble, and I’m still addicted
Every kiss a crime, and I got convicted

(Bridge)
And now your ghost is in my speakers
Singing lies in perfect pitch
I tried to quit you cold,
But you're the needle and the itch

(Final Chorus)
Velvet cigarettes and neon sins
I’d light you up all over again
Even if it burns, I’ll take the flame
You're the bruise that feels like fame
You taste like trouble, and I’m still addicted
Love like yours should be restricted

Velvette cigarettes

The way back in.

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The Random Tree

Notorious

It's Called Karma

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"A Smile That Lies" is more than just a song – it’s a glimpse into what depression feels like. Behind the smile there’s a weight, an emptiness that words often fail to capture. This track was written to raise awareness and to give a voice to those silent struggles, blending raw emotion with haunting melodies.
If you know someone who suffers... be there for them. Aks for professional help.
If you find yourself in this song? Please consider asking family or friends for help. Or even professionals. There are hotlines in almost every country.

And please consider donating to institutions that help people with depressions in your country!
One of many examples in Germany is:
https://www.deutsche-depressionshilfe.de/unterstuetzen-sie-uns/spenden
THANK YOU!

Lyrics, concept & creativity by me – music produced with AI (Suno).


[Intro]

[Verse 1]  
I run in circles, trapped inside my head,  
rewind the same regrets until I’m spent.  
The clock moves on but I stay in my bed,  
every second feels like punishment.  

[Pre-Chorus]  
I want to rise, I want to change,  
but I’m paralyzed, locked in this cage.  
The days collapse, they slip away,  
while I just fade in slow decay.  

[Chorus]  
I’m a flawless actor, with a smile that lies,  
laughing for the crowd while my spirit dies.  
You see the colors painted on my face,  
but inside it’s empty—only endless space.  

[Verse 2]  
Thoughts like spirals, spinning without end,  
a thousand miles and never one real step.  
It’s heavier than any race I’ve ran,  
just breathing leaves me out of breath.  

[Pre-Chorus]  
I want to move, I want to care,  
but my hands hang useless in the air.  
The hours bleed, they disappear,  
I vanish quietly year by year.  

[Chorus]  
I’m a flawless actor, with a smile that lies,  
laughing for the crowd while my spirit dies.  
You see the sunlight shining in my eyes,  
but inside it’s darkness, where the silence cries.  

[Bridge]  
Can you see the mask I wear?  
Can you hear the hollow stare?  
I play the part, the world believes…  
but behind the curtain, I can’t breathe.  

[Final Chorus]  
I’m a flawless actor, with a smile that lies,  
laughing for the crowd while my spirit dies.  
You see the laughter, but it’s just disguise—  
inside I’m drowning, nothing left alive.  

[Outro]

A Smile That Lies

BREAK THE QUIET

Looks good on paper, doesn’t move me.
No noise, no flex — just standards.
Confidence is common.
Consistency isn’t.

Doesn't Move Me

This upbeat synth-pop song chronicles a lonely Brazilian individual's journey from isolation through problematic infatuation to genuine connection. Living alone in a boarding house after losing both parents, the protagonist seeks companionship but becomes trapped in a pattern of obsessive attraction to Asian women, particularly those of Brazilian-Japanese heritage in São Paulo, where Brazil hosts the world's largest Japanese community outside of Japan, established since World War II. The narrative explores the emptiness of one-sided infatuation where communication fails, and emotional barriers prevent real intimacy, captured in the self-aware refrain "where'd I go wrong?" The duet sections represent a turning point where mutual vulnerability and dialogue become possible, ultimately leading to a hopeful resolution where shallow infatuation transforms into authentic, shared love. The song serves as both a cautionary tale about fixation on external attributes and the dangers of seeking connection through surface-level attraction, while offering redemption through self-awareness and the courage to pursue deeper, more meaningful long-term relationships.

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