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daydream

first single of an ep I haven't titled yet lol @prettyboyronmusic

right time! (prod. pretty boy ron)

white jewels

i wont ever worry long as you wont be afraid
would you really let me go and waste my life away
taking care of things, i shouldn't give a fuck
i do this every time and im feeling stuck

everything is fine everythings ok
things dont get better your opinions only change
everything is fine everythings ok
and if im being honest everythings the same

everythings the same...

negativity I turned off my phone
know I cannot fuck with any whores
shawty say that I am such a bore
at least my wallet way way too big for my shorts

picking it up up up 
cant keep with my pace
stacking it up up up
I see you losing face

you cant follow me
fuck a feature its all me
everyday I level up
I am the wolf to the sheep

dont want your sympathy 
you can leave me out
rather be alone
hope youre doing well

hit me up say whats ups hope youre ok
its been way too long since I saw your face
try to get you out my head you wont go away

VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DxJx8B1yhN8

did it myself again
fucked up my life again
feeling so small 20 missed calls
wonder where i have been

fucked up my life again
fucked up my life again
feeling so small 20 missed calls
wonder where i have been

wonder where i have been
wonder how you have been
i haven’t seen your friends
did you fuck him again

life sucks moving backwards
no one meets me standards
done it all it’s just replays
all i see is her face

20MISSEDCALLS

video: https://youtu.be/zelZVVc0XMs

watching the sun as it makes its rise
and i can’t get you out of   my mind
out up all night
running out of time

my friends tell me not to they don’t know you like i do
hate to say it i’m still getting to know you
trace your features like the cracks in my phone screen
i want you to hold me 
should hear out to my homies

trace your features like the cracks in my phone screen
as long as your mine if you don’t want to then that’s fine
i hope it works out soon i don’t want to waste my time

FEATURES

single 3

 video: https://youtu.be/RaNL-QxmCK4

i don't know bout you im tired of the fake shit
tired of the fake shit

i've been trying so hard but i can't seem to win
i'm so fucking sick of being dead in my own skin
razor blades and cocaine are things i never dealt with
but by the time you hear this i hope you think i'm worth it

WORTH IT

you know i just wanna be side you
but you’re treating me like i’m a b side
you’re not taking my calls ima write you
i don’t want all of my friends to be right

you said there was too many what ifs
they said when they wrote me off for prom
did you think you’d be kissing on my lips
and putting my face in your palms

your nails were painted so nicely
purple accent with the ivory
i was down you said it’s unlikely
i was wrong for thinking so highly

been trying to do it concisely
but i just been playing this nightly
touching your hair so lightly
grasping onto my fingers so tightly

THERAPY

see the sun up on the west side
pull the shades down across my eyes
i don’t think this is real life
when you kiss me i don’t wanna die

long talks in my car you forgot your keys
lay me down to rest make feel at ease
i don’t wanna talk if we’re talking about me
cause i already know about me

you blew me a kiss 
didn’t charge my phone
your lipstick on my arm 
showed me the way home

thinking of you when i go to heaven
thinking of you when i go to bed
you at the end of my cigarette
you on my screen through the internet

everything i ever wanted
what’d i do wrong don’t get me started
everything was feeling perfect
i’ll be waiting here that’s a promise

EYES//HOME

did you really wanna ruin my life
did you really wanna take up all that time take up all that time on me
i’ve been tryna get this shit moving i don’t need another distraction
i’ve been trying not to lose traction i’m not giving you a reaction

i need to have space sometimes
you come to my place sometimes
i can’t replace you i know
we can’t erase it you know

you were caught up in my head
you fucked me over drop dead
if i could go back in time
i would let you hurt me again

DROPDEADINTERLUDE

can't break a smile
there's hell in the stars
go for a swim
can't break a smile

tell it to me straight
tell it to me straight
you don't got the time i know i can wait

over-contemplate
over-contemplate
i know you're back with him just don't hesitate

AFRAID OF YOU

above the water
any time i take another step i’m underwater
wanna drown my sorrows yeah
going to the bottom
i’ve been staying inside i’m not popping bottles

2THEBOTTOM

drop 2 addys in the pit 
still can’t feel shit
know that she don’t want me
guess im used to it
when the bodies hit the ground
watch me levitate
now my head is spinning round

i can’t feel shit and it’s nothing new
i got bands in bank you wishing that was you
on this shit a second time i’m going 3 for 2
jumped up out the jet they tryna be me too

you know that i don’t really talk shit
but just this year i’ve seen too many get complacent
i don’t do this for the bag

II. PIT

you make it tolerable when i’m losing my mind
say in the end everything will be alright
where do i go from here what do i do this time
is everything i need just deep down inside

and i’ll be right here
reaching in the dark towards something i don’t need
it’s been a long time 
since i wrote about you
i wonder if you still hear me

let the turbulence lull me to sleep
surrounded by people that i’ll never see again
it’s quite depressing that i never dream
even with the world right below my feet

III. EVERYTHING I NEED

i’m in la to make ends meet
lil shawty she plotting on my end
im making sure all of my dogs eat
i’m working too hard but i can’t rest

and if you do tell me you heard this
i’ll know in the end i’ve done my part
lately i wake up i don’t feel shit
cause i just been breaking my own heart

i wearing my heart on my ankle
ball with the chain weighing me down
i know that you don’t like me now
i been on my own too long now

I. A WEIGHT I CANNOT FEEL ANYMORE

i couldn’t be more obvious
it’s just like the reason i can’t smile with my teeth
can you cure my limerence 
i know sometimes that we need some relief

you’re acting like you don’t care
even though you’re saying you need someone there
i’m too old to say it isn’t fair
it’s never going well ive been well aware

always feeling anxious i’m not good enough
i’ve been breaking down guess ive had enough
i know i’m way too nice i’m not man enough
always come in last been through that enough

LIMERENCE

i feel indifferent 
i’m finally over the things that you said to me why you gotta be persistent
i’ve gotten real good as resisting
i gotta to get you to listen
gotta get this off my chest
gotta get this off my chest

you are just tweeting bout love
i know it’s not about me
3 racks on new burberry
i don’t need you guaranteed
get out my dms i’m sleep
you fucked me up
i’m done with you that’s enough
stop talking shit and grow up
i got way better things going
you know what’s going on
you know what’s going on

i’m with my dawgs in new york
we don’t go out we just working
i don’t got too many problems
and i sure don’t got time for yours
i think i’m on

INDIFFERENT

SOMEBODY

driving through the city i gotta go make connections 
too many notifications can’t get my directions
2020 gotta get the tesla with the boosted suspension
balenciaga on my earring so clean you can see your reflection

i’m just coming off the album
i don’t got the time to take a break now
gonna steal my swag for a ransom
i pay no mind imma spaz on em

hold it down my boys in colorado
my new girl so fire she like a model

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