Years later since first hearing this in 2018 and still cant find this song on apple music 😭

This song is so me right now just sipping away on that beer wasted numbing myself till I can’t feel anymore

it is what it is

even though you used to call my name, 
i turned a cheek; i looked the other way
my hands are weak, my soul is laced with shame 
'cause i'm the only one whose left to blame 

he was to be judged. 
ʎpoqou: @gothfuccboi 


lay me in the reservoir(nothing,nowhere. x ʎpoqou)

video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cq6K0hICr0A

music video

poor posture

CELLAR

twenty something

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

random old old song i wrote a long ass time ago with my friend daniel

Six Feet Sleep

the knife i pulled out of your back w/ lil lotus

https://youtu.be/yZV3S5aTjhI

produced by @vegardveslelia
written & performed by ashton traitor

i got stains on my veins and its poppin off
i iont even talk to lames, then dont talk at all
please then dont talk to me
you want to talk? thats the recipe
i dont even kno your name
i dont even wanna kno your fuckin name

i been juggin i been trippin on my own
i been smokin i been drinkin on my own
im a long long long way from home
im a long long way

twitter.com/ashtontraitor
instagram.com/ashtontraitor

MUSIC VIDEO

on my own (prod. vegard)

nothings gunna change [prod color hue]

i'm sorry, i'm trying. (acoustic)

lyrics:

[foreign forest]
ill take the high road
cause thats the only road i know
im gonna find those letters i wrote to myself
and if you grow older
know that im your past 
don't bother looking over
and if you feel hurt i dont blame you
looking through the photos wishing that you were the same you

you'll get through it now
we'll get through it now
hard to hear you when the musics loud

ill take the high road
cause thats the only road i know
im gonna find those letters i wrote to myself
and if you grow older
know that im your past 
don't bother looking over
and if you feel hurt i dont blame you
looking through the photos wishing that you were the same you
you'll get through it now

[smrtdeath]
looking through the photos wishing that i was the same me
baby i know you thought you could change me
but maybe it was plain to see
we weren't made to be
you and me
so ima take the high road
cause thats the only way i'll be able to carry on
ima find those pieces of my broken heart and
take them home

and ima ride home tell your mama that im sorry for everything
x2

and ima take the high road
cause thats the only road i know
ima find those letters i wrote to myself
and when you get older 
i hope you think of me as the devil on your shoulder

time'll heal the wound but thats a lot of pain to wait through

Listen on Spotify

letters 2 myself ft. smrtdeath (prod. rogergoon)

spotify

im good at being lonely cant u tell

@prodreaper @93feetofsmoke

i can't trust anyone 
tell your friends pretty stories 
i just wanted a peace of mind 
and all the years wasted time 

every bridge is burned 
i don't wanna know 
stabbed me in the heart then you took my  soul 
never get it back i can't get it back 
no, no, no 

like be honest?  do you want it?
i know your eyes when you're lying 
and i'm trying, and i'm dying to hold it together in my hands 

no trust 

(93FEETOFSMOKE)
I dont understand
Where the Fuck I am 
Blood on my back
Blisters on my hands

Do you even know
Who the Fuck i am lately 
I can feel the stress
Gripping round my neck
Save me 

Do you understand 
Time is getting thin
Lately
Trailing a fine line 
Between fine and kill me 

6 speed
See me Earnhardt
Thru the nosebleeds

No trust I got no love
Left in me 

6 speed
See me Earnhardt
Thru the nosebleeds

No trust 
I got no love
Left in me 

I tried my best 
Is it working
My brain is 
Such a fucking a bully

Do you understand 
Time is getting thin
Lately
Trailing a fine line 
Between fine and kill me 

6 speed
See me Earnhardt
Thru the nosebleeds

No trust I got no love
Left in me

no trust w/93FEETOFSMOKE (prod. reaper)

lyrics:

come on baby light my fire
lifeline, my lighter
johnny boy, mamas boy, told you imma crier
said you want it all, didnt know you were a liar
so imma stay and outsider, but youll never see me out
outsiders we dont fuck with anyone else
outsider keep a cigarette in my mouth
outsider, outsider
out

outsider, out
i remember waiting outsider your house
i still think about that time on your couch
when we waited for the sun to come out
dont try to call me imma no show
sick of all you jakes, snakes, fakes, ogopogos
talkin watch your nose grow
mom was always worried i was different, wouldnt fit in
well, god i fuckin hope so

come on baby light my fire
lifeline, my lighter
johnny boy, mamas boy, told you imma crier
said you want it all, didnt know you were a liar
so imma stay and outsider, but youll never see me out
outsiders we dont fuck with anyone else
outsider keep a cigarette in my mouth
outsider, outsider
out

and i can tell im at the bottom when hell is all that's above it
demons out to get me i let em i swear i love it
i dont give a fuck bout your discussions
never took the road traveled by the public

 (repeat)

so come on baby light my fire
life line my, my lighter
johnny boy, mamas boy imma, boy imma
didnt know, know you were a, know you were a, know you were a

come on baby light my fire
lifeline, my lighter
johnny boy, mamas boy, told you imma crier
said you want it all, didnt know you were a liar
so imma stay and outsider, but youll never see me out
outsiders we dont fuck with anyone else
outsider keep a cigarette in my mouth
outsider, outsider
out

outsider - single

outsider w/poloralphmacchio (prod.  jayhmez)

i know its all my fault
i know its all my fault

I can hardly sleep with all this paranoia
Right now I’m not worth it
Let me prove it to ya
Stay around for long enough
I’ll sadly show ya
There’s a traitor in my mirror
And I don’t fucking know him

My brain places demons
In the darkest corners
I’ve been hearing echos
In this burning forest
The fire and the embers
Say they’re coming for us
I’m not ready for the dirt
But I’m still sinking lower

I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault
I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault

swear this shit gotta stop
but i like pain a lot
and you like that im fucked
you just wont admit it
i've been biting my tongue
goosebumps up on my arm
i'll just talk to this cup
and forget the issue

I can hardly sleep with this paranoia
Right now I’m not worth it
Let me prove it to ya
Stay around for long enough
I’ll sadly show ya
There’s a traitor in the mirror
And I don’t fucking know him

My brain places demons
In the darkest corners
I’ve been hearing echos
In this burning forest
The fire and the embers
Say they’re coming for us
I’m not ready for the dirt
But I’m still sinking lower

I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault
I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault

PPL THT I LUV THE MOST

familypet - hurt ur feelings

here is all my emo playlists and favorite songs.

CELLAR

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