Sandcastle Dreams

Beats & Bass & Words

Glitch Season

I Break What I Love (remixes)

Beauty in Ruin

Rhythms so voracious, this style rings audacious,
Flowing capacious, spacious, not fallacious.
Wisdom of ages, timeless, sagacious,
Lyrical game rhymes relentless, tenacious.

Weaving through syllables, soft sounds with no spaces,
Hypnotic aquatic waves flow rapacious.
Pulverizing new cadence - still soft, simple, gracious,
These verses shine vividly vicious, vivacious.

CHORUS:
With this symphony of words, who's the unseen maestro?
Dark, brooding, hidden; I'm sure they're real nice though.
A rhythmic alchemist, turning phrases, pre-cay-cious,
In the art of wordplay, living loquacious.

Metaphors morph, form a script, outrageous, 
Crafted in chaos, controlled, contagious. 
Mystical, magical, lines so outrageous, 
Unleashing a storm, powerful, courageous.

Silent but deadly, my words are subversive, 
Penning new legends, these tales are immersive. 
Syntax so dexterous, language coercive, 
Each rhyme a dagger, sharp and incisive. (sharp just like cursive)

CHORUS:
With this symphony of words, who's the unseen maestro?
Dark, brooding, hidden; BUT I'm sure they're real nice though.
A rhythmic alchemist, turning phrases, pre-cay-cious,
In the art of wordplay, living loquacious.

Verbs in the ether, I weave them like laces, 
Building my empire with lyrical paces. 
Architect of the rhythm, no need for embraces, 
Filling blank pages with explosive traces.

In this labyrinth of letters, I stand, capricious, 
A rebel of rhyme, relentless, audacious. 
Patterns like fractals, perfect, prodigious, 
Every beat a testament, wondrous, prestigious.

CHORUS:
With this symphony of words, who's the unseen maestro?
Dark, brooding, hidden; I'm sure they're real nice though.
A rhythmic alchemist, turning phrases, pre-cay-cious,
In the art of wordplay, living loquacious.

Living Loquacious

No AI robots were harmed (or used) in the (re)production of this tune.

My Shadows Just Ahead Of Me (tB DnB mix)

Dreams Do Not Belong

[Verse]
Step in da shadows, pen bleedin’ on the page
Each letter a burden, can’t flee from the rage
Lips taste copper, heart break in the air
I crave that sweet kill, love twisted in despair
From the city blocks, after-hour gloom
The bass shakes ya chest, pen a grim tune
Ink bleeds black in the neon lights haze
Carved your name in my verses—keep writin’ through the blaze

[Chorus]
Ooh, I write love darkly
So close, but so far
Wrapped in memory
Burnin’ like a fallen star

[Verse]
Passion so violent, it crashin’ in the night
Basslines rattle bones, heartbreak in plain sight
Stuck between devotion and the beast in me
Tryina build a castle outta broken vacancy
Words cut throats, they feed me relief
Tone so bleak, you can taste the grief
Drums pound hope in da darkest chord
To write love darkly, the cross I can’t ignore

[Chorus]
Ooh, I write love darkly
So close, but so far
Wrapped in memory
Burnin’ like a fallen star

[Bridge]
In the hush of the night, 
your ghost is so near
This ache keeping me awake, 
Heart's quake reliving every fear

[Chorus Outro]
Ooh, I write love darkly
Ink stained on my chest
Torn by memory
Hopelessly, we rest

To Write Love Darkly

Verse 1 (Ebbing Tide of Ego)
The sea’s a cracked mirror, spittin’ saltwater sermons,
Its waves cursive curses—”I’m God’s drunk intern!”
Tumultuous petulance? Nah, it’s just Neptune’s tantrum,
A narcissist with tridents, drownin’ ships for Instagram.
Benevolence? Please. It’d rather flex tsunamis,
Swallow continents whole, then blame the ”climate crazy.”
Relevance? Ask the coral—skeletons stacked in rows,
While the tide writes its memoir in disappearing prose.

Pre-Chorus (Melancholy + Absurdity)
I’m the janitor moppin’ up the ocean’s spilled ego,
Bucket full of mermaid tears and diesel-slicked legos.
A short stint spittin’ words I never meant? Guilty.
My conscience is a piñata—swingin’, split, empty.

Verse 2 (Hustle’s Undertow)
Penchant for gettin’ hella bent? Bro, I’m the pretzel king—
Twist my syntax into knots while the rent’s a hangman’s string.
Sellin’ Girl Scout cookies? Nah, black market Samoas,
Stash ’em in a trench coat, whisper ”sugar’s the new cocaine.”
Thin Mint fame? I’m the cookie monster’s rehab relapse,
Crumb-trailin’ through trap beats, dodgin’ Nabisco contracts.
The sea’s a washed-up rapper, I’m the riptide’s mixtape—
Unmastered, raw, all basslines and duct-taped faith.

Bridge (Syllable Storm)
I verb nouns into oblivion, adjective the void,
Metaphors molt like krill in a whale’s asteroid.
The ocean’s just a vowel—A-E-I-O-uh-oh—
Spit a hurricane’s hook, eye of the storm’s a logo.

Outro (Precision + Chaos)
The tide’s a washed-up hype man, slurrin’ encore chants,
I’m the barnacle on Poseidon’s mic, scribblin’ rants.
Relevance? Bitch, I’m kelp—clingin’, rotten, absurd,
The sea’s a broke jukebox, I’m the skip in its last word.

Neptune's Narcissism

[Verse 1]
Dormant wires hum, under skin
A champion sleeps where the light thins
Clockwork veins, rusted hymns
Ghosts of code where the fight begins

[Chorus]
Dormant champion, rise and decay
Silent engines carve the way
Ash to circuits, circuits to clay
Tomorrow’s shadow eats today

[Verse 2]
Flicker. Static. A pulse in the void
Fractured mirrors where hope’s destroyed
Echoes bargain, “Stay employed”
The crown you wear is a paranoid toy

[Bridge]
You built the maze but forgot the thread…
The champion’s dead. The champion’s dead.

[Outro]
Dormant. Champion.
Dormant. Champion.

Dormant Champion

[Verse 1]
The air’s a cage my ribs won’t bend,
Heartbeats of loops that won’t descend.
The pill(s) dissolve(s) like sugar-ash,
A numb eclipse, a mindless crash.

[Pre-Chorus]
Breath by breath, the room rewinds,
I glitch between the wrongs and rights.

[Chorus 1]
Bury the voices in my veins,
Static love and chemical rain.
Repeat the lie, erase the pain,
I’m not alive, not wired the same.

[Chorus 2]
Bury the voices in my veins,
Static love and chemical rain.
Repeat the love, erase the pain,
I’m not alive, not wired the same.

[Verse 2]
A hollow laugh, a flickering lung,
Becoming sick of what I’ve become.
The mirror it splits my name in static
A funeral where no one came...

[Chorus 1]
Bury the voices in my veins,
Static love and chemical rain.
Repeat the lie, erase the pain,
I’m not alive, not wired the same.

[Bridge]
Trace my pulse; it’s someone else’s hand,
Delete the past, rewrite the plan.
The world’s a blur of Xanax-gray,
I’m the dust the light won’t take.

[Chorus 2]
Bury the voices in my veins,
Static love and chemical rain.
Repeat the love, erase the pain,
I’m not alive, not wired the same.

[Outro]
I’m not alive, not wired the same.

Severed Skin

(Verse 1)
I woke up this mornin', heart heavy as stone
Looked around and found my dreams had all but up 'n gone
All them sweet words faded like ink in the rain
Love is just a gamble, leaves ya nothin' but pain

(Chorus)
Chasin' dreams is like buildin' castles in the sand
So I’m givin’ up on love, ‘n goin’ after land
The fields don't lie, dirt don't break your heart
Roots grow deep, so they won't tear you apart

(Verse 2)
I've danced through whispers, promises that fade
Now I'm plantin' oak trees and buildin' me some shade
No more cryin’, no more holdin’ a shadow's empty hands
Love's too uncertain, but this dirt understands

(Bridge)
Stars up yonder, show me where I stand
Let my heart grow steady, where the rivers bend
Livin’ simpler, just fittin' in where I can
Letting go of what I've lost, lovin' who I am

(Chorus)
Chasin' dreams is like buildin' castles in the sand
So I’m givin’ up on love, ‘n goin’ after land
The fields don't lie, dirt don't break your heart
Roots grow deep, so they won't tear you apart

Givin Up On Love, Goin After Land

(Verse 1)
There's footprints on the bank where we once used to lay
But the current's long gone, and the bed's been turned to clay
Time don't sit still, it just slips right through the cracks
You can beg all you want, but the river don't run back

(Chorus)
The river don't run back, no matter how you plead
It'll wash away the want, but it'll never quench your need
What's gone is gone, and that's just a fact
You can beg up to the sky, but the river won't run back

(Verse 2)
I've howled at the moon, I've cursed God and the rain
Tried patchin' up my hope with a whole heap o' pain
But the past ain't listenin', and the lines all out of slack
It carries your prayers to where the river don't run back

(Chorus)
The river don't run back, no matter how you plead
It'll wash away the want, but it'll never quench your need
What's gone is gone, and that's just a fact
You can cry out to the sky, but the river won't run back

(Bridge)
If memories are water, then I'm knee-deep in the flood
Hard to keep up the chase with my boots so full o' mud
Now I follow the flow, ain't no need to unpack
There's no use holdin' on when the river don't run back

(Chorus)
The river don't run back, no matter how you plead
It'll wash away the want, but it will never quench your need
What's gone is gone, and that's just a fact
You can cry out to the sky, but the river won't run back

The river dont...

(Chorus)
The river don't run back, no matter how you plead
It'll wash away the want, but it'll never quench your need
What's gone is gone, and that's just a fact
You can beg up to the sky, but the river won't run back

The river don't...
The river won't...
...run back.

The River Wont Run Back

(Verse 1)
Was born with dust in my teeth, and a prayer on my tongue
Raised on bitter bread and the crack of a jealous sun
Roots run crooked now in the marrow of my name
Every scar a gospel, evr-every bruise is a flame

(Pre-Chorus)
Ashes in my rearview, rivers in my blood
Built from broken timber, baptized by the flood

(Chorus)
Roots, ruin, and redemption
Carved into my skin like a map home from within
Roots, ruin, and redemption
Singin’ through the cracks gettin' weathered again

(Verse 2)
I’ve wrestled with ghosts that wore my own face
Sowed seeds in silence, reaped thunder in grace
Bowed down in the wreckage, rose up with the rain
Turned each and every fall into a piece of me

(Bridge)
There’s gold in the gravel, and fire in the stone
Forgiveness ain’t given, it’s something you grow
If I lose every battle, let my soul stand tall
‘Cause it ain’t where you stumble, it’s how you get up from the fall

(Pre-Chorus)
Ashes in my rearview, rivers in my blood
Built from broken timber, baptized in the flood

(Chorus)
Roots, ruin, and redemption
Carved into my skin like a map home from within
Roots, ruin, and redemption
Singin’ through the cracks gettin' weathered again

(Bridge)
There’s gold in the gravel, and fire in the stone
Forgiveness ain’t given, it’s something you grow
If I lose every battle, let my soul stand tall
‘Cause it ain’t where you stumble, it’s how you get up from the fall

(Outro Pre-Chorus)
Ashes in my rearview, rivers in my blood
Built from broken timber, baptized in the flood

(Outro Chorus)
Roots, ruin, and redemption
Carved into my skin like a map home from the DARK
Roots, ruin, and redemption
Singin’ through the cracks in my HEART

Roots, Ruin, and Redemption

[VERSE 1]
I been walkin through the coals, soles wearin thin
Singin hallelujah with a voice made outta tin
Faith dont flicker just cuz the night runs long
It dances in the ruin, hummin the same ole song

[CHORUS]
Shine on, broken mirror, catchin rays, singin praise
Shards of busted glass stained with light from the blaze
Aint no preacher, aint no choir, just a beat deep in the fire
Singin all night long, shine on
Shine on

[VERSE 2]
Moonlight bendin on a rusted ole hood
That's where the devil promised he'd be good
But he can't have my spark, it's tucked into my jaw
Whisperin them hymns that my shadow never saw

[PRE-CHORUS]
Keep your eyes on the flicker, dont run from the flame
Every soles' got a rhythm, every wounds got a name
When the darkness tries to drown you, let't remind you to sing
Your light aint gone, its just waitin for tha swing

[CHORUS (reprise)]
Shine on, broken mirror, catchin rays, singin praise
Shards of busted glass stained with light from the blaze
Aint no preacher, aint no choir, just a beat deep in the fire
Singin all night long, shine on...
Shine on

[BRIDGE]
Fire dont ask when youre ready to shine
It'll burn out the false, leave a holy hole behind
Destruction breeds creation, so let it take what's overgrown
Til I'm left with the rhythm that lets my light be shown

[PRE-CHORUS]
Keep your eyes on the flicker, dont run from the flame
Every souls got a rhythm, every wounds got a name
When the darkness tries to drown you, let't remind you to sing
Your light aint gone, its just waitin for da swing

[CHORUS]
Shine on, broken mirror, catchin rays, singin praise
Shards of busted glass stained with light from the blaze
Aint no preacher, aint no choir, just a beat deep in the fire
Singin all night long, shine on,
Shine on

[VERSE 1 (reprise)]
I been walkin through the cold, soul's wearin thin
Singin hallelujah with a voice made outta tin
Faith dont flicker just cuz the night runs long
It dances in the ruin, hummin the same ole song

[CHORUS]
Shine on, broken mirror, catchin rays, singin praise
Shards of busted glass stained with light from the blaze
Aint no preacher, aint no choir, just a beat deep in the fire
Singin all night long, shine on
Shine on

[VERSE 2 (reprise)]
Moonlight bendin on a rusted ole hood
That's where the devil promised he'd be good
But he can't have my spark, it's tucked into my jaw
Whisperin them hymns that my shadow never saw

[BRIDGE]
Fire dont ask when youre ready to shine
It'll burn out the false, leave a holy hole behind
Destruction breeds creation, so let it take what's overgrown
Til I'm left with the rhythm that lets my light be shown

[PRE-CHORUS]
Keep your eyes on the flicker, dont run from the flame
Every soles got a rhythm, every wounds got a name
When the darkness tries to drown you, let't remind you to sing
Your light aint gone, its just waitin for da swing

[CHORUS]
Shine on, broken mirror, catchin rays, singin praise
Shards of busted glass stained with light from the blaze
Aint no preacher, aint no choir, just a beat deep in the fire
Singin all night long, shine on,
Shine on

"This little spark 'o mine ain' little no more."

Shine On

[Intro]
We don’t break, we bend
Wiry roots in the sand
Growin’ wild where they said we can
Livin’ proof in this plastic land

[Verse 1]
Been a ghost in the signal, barefoot on the buzz
Talkin’ back to my demons like, “I wasn’t what I was”
Got a crack in my smile, got some blood in my rage
Wrote this feature in the margins of a fake blank page

Midnight motors in my chest go vroom
Been dancin’ in the fallout when dat bass go boom
No crown, no throne, justa gravel filled tone
Spit sick truth like a dial-up phone

I’m the static in your playlist, the foot that cracked cement
Survive this simulation with a vibe I never meant
Tin foil halo, white foam in my grin
My sins all sink, but my spirit still swims

[Pre-Chorus]
Flashin’ like lightning in an ocean rain
Even though it hurts, I don’t break the chain
Diggin’ through the noise for a sweeter sound
I was lost in the light, but I’m feelin’ found

[Chorus]
I don’t break, I just bloom in the wire
Born from dust and a circle of fire
Keep that bassline deep in my chest
When I fall, I fall with finesse

Don’t need saving, I’m already free
Friends don’t run, they dance with the beat
Alone in the silence, I still resume
Heart on loop in a cyclical bloom

[Verse 2]
Can’t kill what you can’t define
I’m the echo in the cloud, I’m the static spine
Put my heart on wax, now it heats like sun
Talk real slick but I move like one

Flashbacks flicker in a warehouse rave
Been wild since the dial-up days
Still runnin game on a payphone flow
And my dreams got teeth like a backroom show

Postcard life in a bitch parade
I bend when I break, still unafraid
Got sparks in my veins, I’m a loop on boom
With a glow so loud, it'll shake da room

[Bridge]
Pulse don’t lie…
When the beat drops out, I still testify
It’s not where you land, it’s how you climb
Built my wings from a glitch in time

[Final Chorus]
I don’t break, I just bloom in the wire
Born from dust and a circle of fire
Keep that bassline deep in my chest
When I fall, I fall with finesse

Don’t need saving, I’m already free
Friends don’t run, they dance with the beat
Alone in the silence, I still resume
Heart on loop in a cyclical bloom

We Don't Break We Bend

[Verse 1]
You knock on my door, your shadow in hand
Spinning your pain like a wedding band
Said you need love, not another fight
But you never ask if I made it through the night

[Verse 2]
You say your mama’s dying slow
And now you’re the fire you used to know
And I see her face every time you scream
I held your breath, when you lost your dream

[Chorus]
But I can’t be the place you run
Every time you block the sun
I gave you light, I gave you time
You gave me bruises dressed as rhyme
And I still care, I swear I do
But I gotta love you from afar...
To stay safe from you

[Verse 3]
You say, “Let’s meet, we’ve been here before”
And I taste the poison behind the door
We never broke in a hotel bed
But the aftermath still haunts my head

[Chorus]
I can’t be the place you run
Every time you come undone
I gave you grace, I gave you truth
You gave me storms and called it youth
And I still ache, I swear I do
But I gotta love you from afar...
To stay safe from you

[Outro]
I used to be your parachute
Now I’m the ground that won’t break loose
I saved you once, I saved you twice
But I won’t drown to make it right
So I light a prayer and let it go
You’ll never know how much I know
This love don’t die, but I won’t lose
My soul again trying to rescue you...

From Afar

Weekends like honey, too soft and too thick  
The moments drift easy, the clock doesn’t tick  
Plans rest unfinished, promises float  
Just another tomorrow, a casual note  

Monday comes early, quiet but clear  
Coffee steam's risin', shiftin' my gears  
A chance in my pocket, so fresh and so clean  
Another day borrowed, no guarantees seen  

How many Mondays will I know  
How many sunrises whisper, "let's go?"  
Each morning’s uncertain, yet here I stand  
Grateful for time placed again in my hand  

Yes, I love Monday, simple and true  
Another beginning to chase what I do  
Knowing full well tomorrow might stray  
I thank every Monday I'm gifted today

I Love Monday

[Verse 1]
Coffee still warm, thought I made it yesterday
By noon I’m drowning, nobody ever stays
Texts unanswered, heart racing after
Beg you to stay, push you away faster
Memories swing, a pendulum inside
Love you, hate you, hate me, 
Nothing left to hide

One step from the edge, waiting to fall
Holding my breath, nobody hears me call

[Chorus]
Don’t leave me alone in this echoing room
Every ghost inside wears your perfume
Don’t leave me to myself, I'm scared what I’ll do
I break what I love, before they leave too

[Verse 2]
Pacing now, racing thoughts, bottles hit the floor
Voices scream accusations that I can’t ignore
You promised you’d stay, I feel so betrayed
Blaming you for scars that my dark side made
The mirror lies, shows me someone unknown
Lash out, regret it, this cycle is my home

[Chorus]
Don’t leave me alone in this echoing room
Every ghost inside wears your perfume
Don’t leave me to myself, I'm scared what I’ll do
I break what I love, before they leave too

[Verse 3]
Is this what you wanted? To watch me fall apart
Screaming silent sabotage, hate filling my heart
I didn’t mean it, don’t trust what I say
Lost between who I am inside, and who I am today
Cut by memories, just to feel alive
Haunted by the child they couldn’t keep alive

[Chorus]
Don’t leave me alone in this echoing room
Every ghost inside wears your perfume
Don’t leave me to myself, I'm scared what I’ll do
I break what I love, before they leave too

[Outro]
Maybe tomorrow… I’ll find who I am.
Maybe tomorrow, I can stand up again.

I Break What I Love

[Verse 1]
All my friends seem like they're glitchin these days
Projecting their little tears into my gaze
All their worries seem to come in sideways
They ask for help but can't remember my name
Static sparks erupt when they sing
All the notes sung out of tune
I keep waitin for the signal
But it’s just noise that fills the room

[Chorus]
It seems like glitch season again
Where all the wires fray and bend
All the gods go offline
All my heroes play pretend
Yeah here we are, glitch season again
I see the code beneath their skin
And I’m scanning for the signal
In this world overflowing with sin

[Verse 2]
They call me for my wisdom
But hate the brilliance that I bring
They want to touch this lightning
But fear the thunder in what I sing
So I listen to their endless panic
And I taste the bitter faith
They all want me to teach my magic
Then curse the lessons in what I say

[Chorus]
It seems like glitch season again
Where all the wires fray and bend
All the gods go offline
All my heroes play pretend
Yeah here we are, glitch season again
I see the code beneath their skin
And I’m scanning for the signal
In a world that won’t transcend

[Bridge]
Maybe mercy is silence
Maybe grace is pulling away
Maybe love is just a fantasy
Most hearts end in decay
I keep dreaming in your static
I keep bleeding from the hum
But when the lightning turns to thunder
Don’t be confused when I run

[Chorus]
It seems like glitch season again
Where all the wires fray and bend
All the gods go offline
All my heroes play pretend
Yeah here we are, glitch season again
I see the code, I see the end
And I’m scanning for the signal
Beyond the idiots that wont bend

[Outro]
Because it’s glitch season, darling
Where illusions come to die
I’ve been screaming through the fault lines
With a whimper and a soft cry
Yeah it’s glitch season again
But my signal’s coming in true
And in this bitch of an existence
I see the glitch in you

Our Looping End

[Verse 1 ]
There’s a crack in the curtain where the stillness leaks in
Where the mind grows loud and the world grows thin
Where the shape of the truth don’t quite fit the frame
And the echo you chase starts calling your name

[Verse 2]
There’s a hum in the silence, a thread in the dust
A face in the mirror you no longer trust
When the veil gets torn by a whisper or scream
And you don’t know if you’re waking or caught in a dream

[Pre-Chorus]
Is it madness, is it meaning?
Is it mercy, is it doubt?
When the lines start leaning sideways
And the light keeps flickering out

[Chorus]
Some roads lead to ruin, some roads lead you home
Some truths hold you gently, some cut to the bone
You won’t know by the thunder, or the burn in your chest
Only fruit can reveal what the fire left

[Verse 3]
I’ve been spun out in spirals and pulled into grace
Felt the floor disappear while I stared at my face
Not every voice in the still is divine
Some drag you deeper and call it a sign

[Verse 4]
But I’ve seen peace bloom in the belly of storms
Found love in the quiet where nothing felt warm
When the calm takes root in the cracks of your fear
It don’t shout from the mountain, it whispers right here

[Chorus]
Some roads lead to ruin, some roads lead you home
Some truths hold you gently, some cut to the bone
Not every vision will carry you West
Only fruit can reveal what the fire left

[Outro]
Not every storm is a sign from above
Not every ache is a lesson in love
But when your breath comes steady and your soul starts to bend
That’s not the end of the world, it might be how we mend...

Only Fruit

[Verse 1]
The river moves without a sound
Leaves drift slowly down, down to the ground
With every deep breath, I find my way
The night turns gold, the dark turns to day

[Chorus]
Everything I lose
Creates space for everything I need
Each movement takes the rest within my breath
And plants a quiet seed

[Verse 2]
The sky folds softly back into the sea
The mountains drift in clouds of mystery
I let the weight flow out my hands
And walk the curve through each shifting stance

[Chorus]
Every single thing I lose
Creates the space for everything I need
Each movement takes the rest within my breath
And plants a quiet seed

[Bridge]
I am only space between
The note and the refrain
The sun between the rain
The loss that lets me gain

[Chorus]
Everything I lose
Creates more space for everything I need
The wind will take the pain between my breast
To plant a field of quiet seeds

[Outro]
Everything I lose
Everything I need

Everything I Need

[Verse 1]
Coffee still warm, thought I made it yesterday
By noon I’m drowning, nobody ever stays
Texts unanswered, heart racing after
Beg you to stay, push you away faster
Memories swing, a pendulum inside
Love you, hate you, hate me, 
Nothing left to hide

One step from the edge, waiting to fall
Holding my breath, nobody hears me call

[Chorus]
Don’t leave me alone in this echoing room
Every ghost inside wears your perfume
Don’t leave me to myself, I'm scared what I’ll do
I break what I love, before they leave too

[Verse 2]
Pacing now, racing thoughts, bottles hit the floor
Voices scream accusations that I can’t ignore
You promised you’d stay, I feel so betrayed
Blaming you for scars that my dark side made
The mirror lies, shows me someone unknown
Lash out, regret it, this cycle is my home

[Chorus]
Don’t leave me alone in this echoing room
Every ghost inside wears your perfume
Don’t leave me to myself, I'm scared what I’ll do
I break what I love, before they leave too

[Verse 3]
Is this what you wanted? To watch me fall apart
Screaming silent sabotage, hate filling my heart
I didn’t mean it, don’t trust what I say
Lost between who I am inside, and who I am today
Cut by memories, just to feel alive
Haunted by the child they couldn’t keep alive

[Chorus]
Don’t leave me alone in this echoing room
Every ghost inside wears your perfume
Don’t leave me to myself, I'm scared what I’ll do
I break what I love, before they leave too

I Break What I Love (DnB Rock Cover)

[Verse 1]
The years alone taught me hunger with no mouth
Silence that roared, louder than a crowd
Loneliness an art form, sharpened, slow
A knife you over-polish, just to watch the bright glow
I lost my mind on purpose, found it by mistake
My mind took more than madness could ever take
Insane felt gentle, like static in the brain
But the crazy stuck sharp like a needle in the vein
Bright moments jagged, they tore more than pain
Truth flashed sudden, like a shot through the frame
It’s twisted, the unbearable part wasn’t the breaking
It was waking in a reality that felt like it was faking
Mistakin' survival for freedom, a thin disguise
Mistakin' the mirror for a window to the sky
Madness was a mask I could almost call home
But sense stripped me, left these bars carved in stone
I carved calendars on walls without looking back
Time folded inward, a collapse on a loop track
My eyes slammed shut, a curtain I could close
This shit exposed me, stripped me to the bone

[Chorus]
Intervals of sanity they cut like steel
Madness was a mercy, and the pain was never real
Every moment lucid is a wound I can't feel
I'd trade the truth for lunacy if the scars would only heal

[Verse 2]
Every thought ricocheted, echo chamber raw
Truth’s teeth sharper than the lies that I saw
I played chess with shadows, they never lost
Checkmate came cheap, but the clarity cost
Lonely like a sermon with no congregation
Sight burned hotter than a hallucination
Insane was a blanket, threadbare but mine
Sanity was the winter sendin chills down my spine
I mistook the silence for a sign of peace
But then my ears rang louder every time it ceased
Freedom was a fiction, survival was a loan
Edges made of broken glass and carved into this stone

[Pre-Chorus]
I wake up in a cell that nobody can see
Bars made out of dawn, walls built out of me
I thought I was escaping, but the mirror don't lie
Freedom’s just a story with a lock in disguise

[Chorus]
Intervals of sanity they cut like steel
Madness was a mercy and the pain was never real
Every moment lucid is a wound I can't feel
I’d trade the truth for lunacy if the scars would only heal

[Verse 3]
My silence was a riot, a crowd in my head
Voices like prophets, but the gospel was dead
I stitched my reality with threads that frayed
Every pattern unraveled, the more I prayed
Truth hit jagged, a fracture in the glass
Reflection was a stranger staring back when I passed
The craze gave rhythm, a beat I could ride
My mind was all static, all feedback and wide
Mistaking the hunger for a kind of release
But the feast was hollow, no rest, no peace
I wrote maps on the ceilings, roads with no end
Each line a reminder so I can’t pretend

[Bridge]
Is it mercy or a sentence when the mind comes clear?
Is it better to be broken if the pain disappears?
I don’t know what’s worse, the silence or the scream,
The cage that I wake to, or the cage in the dream.

[Chorus]
Intervals of sanity they cut like steel
Madness was a mercy and the pain was never real
Every moment lucid is a wound I can't feel
I’d trade the truth for lunacy if the scars would only heal

Intervals of Insanity

Saturn's Children

[Verse 1]
If I was the devil, I’d clock man’s scheme
Tell the man dem the Bible’s just myth, just dream
Man made God? That’s me in your head
Plant doubt in the block while the spirit’s left dead

Crown greed as king, envy runnin’ the set
Make the good look moist, bad man’s the best bet
Sin in the rave, pour the bottles, pop pills
Cocktail saints while the serpent refill

[Chorus]
If I was the devil 
(Lord, can you hear dis?)
I’d twist every blessing, every vision
(If I was the devil)
Own your addictions, feed your ambition
(Lord, can you hear dis?)
I’d twist every blessing, every vision
(If I was the devil)
I’d own your addictions, feed your ambition

[Verse 2]
If I was the devil, I’d trend on your feed
Snapchat sins, TikTok greed
Sell love in a bottle, war on repeat
Truth in a meme, man swipe then delete

If I was the devil, I’d gas up your doubt
Politicians in my pocket, bare chat, no clout
Make the meek feel weak, have the strong tap out
Lead the lost to the drought, what the man dem shout

[Bridge]
I’d light up the screen, darken the mind
Blur every line, ‘tween yours and mine
If I was the devil, I’d waste your time
Till your soul feels sold and you call it “grind”

[Chorus]
If I was the devil 
(Lord, can you hear dis?)
I’d twist every blessing, every vision
(If I was the devil)
I’d own your addictions, feed your ambition
(Lord, can't you hear dis?)
I’d twist every blessing, every vision
(If I was the devil)
I’d own your addictions, feed your ambition

[Outro]
If I was the devil…
You’d call it progress.

If I Was The Devil

[intro]
Sit with the flame ‘til the wick says when
Fed by the loss, not the where or the win
Truth ain’t deep, it’s juss dumb it's juss near
In the breath, in the blink, in the muddled fear

[verse 1]
Cup full of nothin’, sip slow, taste fate
Chasin’ some peace like it owes me, mate
Clouds don’t answer, but the puddle knows
Reflections lie while they wear my clothes

I walked through fire with a grin and some tea
Burnt both lips tryna sip belief
Let go, they say, like ain't that neat
But I’m stitched to the itch by the prayer beneath

[pre-chorus]
Mind like a maze in a paper bag
Breath go deep, but the thoughts come back
Truth ain’t loud, it’s the space between
The word I said and the one I mean

[chorus]
Burn me slow, make the fire wise
Carve my name in the smoke, not skies
Ashes fall in the shape of me
Purpose ain’t found, it’s what you bleed

Fill my bowl with empty things
Hunger’s a bell when the silence rings
Sip what’s left of the echo’s song
Suffering taught me where I’m from

[verse 2]
Big man talk with a pebble tongue
Flexed on fate, got a lesson sung
Humbled fast like a monk with rent
Chose stillness ‘cause the war was spent

I bowed to a lamp post, thanked the fog
Made peace with the glitch in good
Still search deep like a lost regret
Found a pearl in this cigarette

[bridge]
I don’t want grace, I want real
I don’t want hope, I wanna feel
I don’t want faith, I wanna fall
I don’t want gold, I want it all

[chorus]
Burn me slow, make the fire wise
Carved my name in the smoke, not skies
Ashes fall in the shape of me
Purpose ain’t found, it’s what you bleed

Fill my bowl with empty things
Let the silence crown the king
I came with a wound and left with a grin
Still sufferin' but I let light in

[outro]
Hunger makes a better God
Than comfort ever did

Empty Bowl

[verse]
Hey, I′m feeling tired
My time, is gone today
You flirt with suicide
Sometimes, that's okay
Do what others say
I′m here, standing hollow

Falling away from me
Falling away from me

Day, is here fading
That's when, I would say
I flirt with new suicide
Sometimes kill the pain
I can't always say
It's gonna be better tomorrow

Falling away from me
Falling away from me

[chorus]
Beating me down
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground
I'm screaming some sound
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground

[hook]
Falling away from me
It′s spinning round and round
Falling away from me
It′s lost and can't be found
Falling away from me
It′s spinning round and round
Falling away...
Slow it down

[chorus]
Beating me down
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground
I'm screaming some sound
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground

[bridge]
Suicide
I want to go away
So I pray
Go away
Life's falling away from me
It's falling away from me
Life's falling away from me
(Fuck)

Life's falling away from me
It's falling away from me
Life's falling away from me

[chorus]
Beating me down
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground
Screaming some sound
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground
(Falling away from me) beating me down
Beating me, beating me (falling away from me)
Down, down
Into the ground (falling away from me)
Screaming some sound
Beating me, beating me (falling away from me)

Falling Away From Me (cover)

Just as you take my hand
Just as you write my number down
Just as the drinks arrive
Just as they play your favourite song
As your bad day disappears
No longer wound up like a spring
Before you've had too much
Come back in focus again
The walls are bending shape
You've got a Cheshire cat grin
All blurring into one
This place is on a mission
Before the night owl
Before the animal noises
Closed-circuit cameras
Before you comatose

Before you run away from me
Before you laugh between the notes
The beat goes 'round and 'round
The beat goes 'round and 'round
I never really got there
I just pretended that I had
Words are blunt instruments
Words are a sort of shotgun
Come on and let it out
Come on and let it out
Come on and let it out
Come on and let it out
Before you run away from me
Before you laugh between the notes
Just as you take the mic
Just as you dance, dance, dance, dance, dance...

Jigsaw falling into place
So there is nothing to explain
You eye each other as you pass
She looks back and you look back
And not just once, and not just twice
Wish you were a nightmare, wish you were a nightmare
You got a lot, and you can feel it on your back
A lot and you can feel it on your back
A jigsaw falling into place
You got a lot, and you can feel it on your back
A lot and you can feel it on your back
A jigsaw falling into place
And not just once, and not just twice
Wish you were a nightmare, wish you were a nightmare
You got a lot, and you can feel it on your back
A lot and you can feel it on your back
It's a jigsaw falling into place

Jigsaw Falling Into Place (cover)

[intro]
Bless the fault line, bless the bend
Lord let the ending catch me clean
No long fade, no soft breath to defend
Just a flash in between the scenes

[verse 1]
Falling for gravity's grin
A slow bleed, a slow spin
Each and every breath a smaller sin
Every sunrise wearing thin

Still, I pray, quiet and polite,
For the lightning with good aim tonight

[pre-chorus]
Watch me leap into the gray
Light the fuse and find me halfway

Can’t crawl through the years again
This body’s a lease I can’t defend
If mercy comes in metal and flame
I’ll call it by it proper name

[chorus]
Give me the slipstream, the sudden end
A holy arrow, I can’t amend
Don’t want to rot by degrees and pretend
Just a clean exit
Amen

[verse 2]
Born running from the long slow fade
Time’s the debt I never paid
Mirrors crack everywhere I've stayed
Truth’s the blade of glass I made

The grave hums my secret wish
A quiet pact, a whispered hiss
When I go, let it be art
A spark, a pulse, a missing part

[bridge]
Don’t mourn me too mild
Don’t paint me too kind
I’m just bored of this crawl
God's cruel design

[final chorus]
Give me the slipstream, the sudden end
A holy error, I can’t amend
Don’t want to rot by degrees and pretend
Just a clean exit
Amen

[outro]
Amen, amen, amen
Amen, till the silence answers back

Clean Exit

ABC Radio commentator Paul Harvey broadcasted this speech on April 3, 1965:

If I were the Devil...

If I were the Prince of Darkness, I’d want to engulf the whole world in darkness. And I’d have a third of its real estate, and four-fifths of its population, but I wouldn’t be happy until I had seized the ripest apple on the tree — Thee. So I’d set about however necessary to take over the United States. I’d subvert the churches first. I’d begin with a campaign of whispers. With the wisdom of a serpent, I would whisper to you as I whispered to Eve, "do as you please."To the young, I would whisper that ‘The Bible is a myth.’ I would convince them that man created God instead of the other way around. I would confide that what’s bad is good, and what’s good is ‘square.’ And the old, I would teach to pray, after me, ‘Our Father, which art in Washington…And then I’d get organized. I’d educate authors in how to make lurid literature exciting, so that anything else would appear dull and uninteresting. I’d threaten TV with dirtier movies and vice versa. I’d pedal narcotics to whom I could. I’d sell alcohol to ladies and gentlemen of distinction. I’d tranquilize the rest with pills.If I were the devil I’d soon have families at war with themselves, churches at war with themselves, and nations at war with themselves; until each in its turn was consumed. And with promises of higher ratings I’d have mesmerizing media fanning the flames. If I were the devil I would encourage schools to refine young intellects, but neglect to discipline emotions, just let those run wild, until before you knew it, you’d have to have drug sniffing dogs and metal detectors at every schoolhouse door.Within a decade, I’d have prisons overflowing, I’d have judges promoting pornography. Soon I could evict God from the courthouse, then from the schoolhouse, and then from the houses of Congress. And in His own churches I would substitute psychology for religion, and deify science. I would lure priests and pastors into misusing boys and girls, and church money. If I were the devil I’d make the symbols of Easter an egg and the symbol of Christmas a bottle.If I were the devil I’d take from those who have, and give to those who wanted until I had killed the incentive of the ambitious.And what do you bet I could get whole states to promote gambling as the way to get rich? I would caution against extremes and hard work in Patriotism, in moral conduct. I would convince the young that marriage is old-fashioned, that swinging is more fun, that what you see on the TV is the way to be. And thus, I could undress you in public, and I could lure you into bed with diseases for which there is no cure. 

In other words, if I were the devil I’d just keep right on doing what he’s doing.”Paul Harvey, good day.

Paul Harvey - If I Were The Devil (broadcast soundscape)

[intro]
God, grant me the serenity…

[verse 1]
Keep pourin’ old ghosts into a coffee cup
Sayin’ this time’s different, but it never shows up
Eyes clouded like windows in a house long sold
I keep knockin' hopin’ my friend's still home

[pre-chorus]
I try to pull you up by the hand
But you reach for the bottle instead
Now I pray instead of beg
Whisperin' in the language of regret

[chorus]
God, grant me peace to let you know
The strength to love you from below
If mercy comes, let it find you there
Covered in tar, sayin’ your own sick man’s prayer

[verse 2]
Diggin’ that hole like it owes you gold
Every shovel full, another story told
I seen you bleed just to prove you’re tough
But hell’s got room for fools who can't fight enough

[bridge]
Maybe you’re sick, maybe I am too
Can’t tell where your shadow ends, where I can reach through
God save me from bein’ angry tonight
Help me see him in the different light

[pre-chorus reprise]
I asked the rain to wash us clean
But it just made the mud more mean

[chorus]
God, grant me peace to let you go
The strength to love you from below
If mercy comes, let it find you there
Covered in tar, speaking the sick man’s prayer

[outro]
Thy will be done

Sick Man's Prayer

Big Potato Moths

Asymptomatic alphas amplify aggression
Algorithms aim anger, automate appression

Big-tech bootlickers buy belief and blood
Bankroll broken backs, baptize it in mud

Cracker-cult capitalists, country-club clowns
Cancel-culture cannibals cut carcasses down

Draft-dodgin’ defenders demolish democracy
Data-drunk donors deepfake...

Evangelical echoes echo excess
Egos erect empires, empathy exits

Federal fraudsters, fiscal fiends in disguise
Feeding Fox-fed fantasies, fabricating lies

Gaslighting generals, gospel, greed, and guns
Gig wars, gig work, gold-grilled grins

Hollow heroes hoard headlines, hide history’s hemorrhage
Hashtags, hate-speech, hyperlinked leverage

Insider influence, ivory towers implode
Inflation inflamed, idiots overload

Justice jacked by judges, jaded journalists lie
Jingoistic jesters jam joy till it dies

Kings of kleptocracy kill kindness kwik
Keyboard krusaders kick konscience slick

Lobbyists launder laws like laundromat lye
Luxury lifeboats, letting poor folk die

Media mouthpieces manufacturing myth
Monetized misery marketed bliss

Neo-nostalgic nationalists nail nuance shut
Newsfeed narcotics numb neurons in rut

Oligarchs orchestrate outrage online
Offering opiates, optics, decline

Pizzagate prophets preach paranoia
Patriots posturing, propaganda-gloria

Q-anon quacks quote questionable queries
Quantum quibbles quake quiet qonspiracies

Recession rebels rig rules in the rain
Revolution rewritten, rinse, repeat pain

Social feeds spit sermons, sell synthetic souls
Silicon saints steal seconds, scrolling control

Taxpayer tears trickle to tycoon towers
Truth traded, tongues tied, talk-show cowards

Unhinged unions under ultra-rich reign
Utility undone, unemployed in pain

Viral villains virtue-signal for views
Voting vaporized, values confused

Warhawks waltz with Wall Street wives
Welfare wilted while wealth survives

Xenophobic xylophones xenon-lit loud
X-rated X-ecs exploit the crowd

Youth yoked yearly, yearning, yet yielding
YouTube yuppies yawning, your hope congealing

Zero-sum zealots zip through zones
Zion, Zuck, and zombies - welcome home!

Alphabet dystopics, acrobatic autopsy
Every letter bleeds with a creed of hypocrisy

Alphabet Dystopia (Flzzlebox Edit)

[Verse 1]
For a while there, it was rough
But lately, I've been doin' better
Than the last four cold Decembers I recall
And I see my family every month
I found a boy my parents love
He'll come and stay the night, and I think I might have it all
And I thank God every day
For the boy He sent my way
But I know the things God gives me, God can take away
And I hold him every night
And that's a feeling I wanna get used to
But there's no one as terrified as the one who stands to lose you

[Pre-Chorus]
Oh, I hope I don't losе you
Mm, please stay
I want you, I need you, oh God
Don't take
Thеse beautiful things that I've got

[Chorus]
Please stay
I want you, I need you, oh God
Don't take
These beautiful things that I've got

[Post-Chorus]
Oh, ooh
Please don't take

[Verse 2]
I found my mind, I'm feelin' sane
It's been a while, but I'm finding my faith
If everything's good and it's great, why do I sit and wait 'til it's gone?
Oh, I'll tell ya, I know I've got enough
I've got peace and I've got love
But I'm up at night thinkin' I just might lose it all

[Chorus]
Please stay
I want you, I need you, oh God
Don't take
These beautiful things that I've got

[Post-Chorus]
Oh, ooh

[Outro]
Please stay
I want you, I need you, oh God
I need
These beautiful things that I've got

Beautiful Things (cover)

[intro]
We were down here
Holy sinners on the dance floor
Escaped your orbit
But the gravity waves 
Hum

[verse 1]
Got out the black hole, crawled through fire
Still dream of her shadow in the mire
Two on the screen spin, smile, collide
And I see us before the tide

[pre-chorus]
She calls me with the same old spell
Says she’s changed, says she’s well
I tell her, “Spotify and prayers, that’s all I have left”
She sends me false sunlight I reply with regret

[chorus]
I still miss the dance, the touch, the trance
The way we fell inside the sound
But I can’t keep circling your pain
Can’t be reborn just to drown
Our song still echoes in light and smoke
But you can’t dance with ghosts

[verse 2]
Celebrate her wins, yeah, I wish her flight
But she turns the calm into another fight
Tore my joy so paper thin
Smiled while putting the knife back in

[bridge]
Ooh, I see her laughing in the static
Ooh, I feel our rhythm in my bones
She’s a wave, I’m the planet
We were holy, now we’re gone
Ghosts

[drop]
Ghost, ghost, ghost, ghost
Dance no more, dance no more
Ghost, a ghost, ghost
Let the pyre burn through the floor
A ghost

[outro]
I still hear her hum in the silence
Still pray she finds a new song
But my feet are bare on new ground now
And my new music moves me on

Can't Dance With Ghosts

Si yo fuera el diablo, vería el plan del hombre,
le diría al barrio: “La Biblia es un cuento.”
¿El hombre hizo a Dios? No, ese soy yo en tu mente,
siembro duda en la esquina y el alma se ausente.

Corono la avaricia, la envidia en el trono,
hago ver lo bueno débil, lo malo, el patrono.
Pecado en la fiesta, botella y pastilla,
santos de cóctel mientras la serpiente brilla.

Si yo fuera el diablo
(Señor, ¿me oyes?)
torcería tu don, tu visión entera.
(Si yo fuera el diablo)
tomaría tus vicios, tu fe sincera.
(Señor, ¿me oyes?)
torcería tu don, tu visión entera.
(Si yo fuera el diablo)
tomaría tus vicios, tu fe sincera.

Si yo fuera el diablo, estaría en tu feed,
pecados en stories, codicia en reels.
Vendo amor en frascos, guerra sin fin,
verdad en un meme que borras al fin.

Si yo fuera el diablo, inflaría tu duda,
políticos míos, palabras desnudas.
Los mansos se hunden, los fuertes se rinden,
los perdidos me siguen, y gritan que viven.

Encendería la pantalla, nublaría tu mente,
borro las líneas de “tuyo” y “de la gente”.
Si yo fuera el diablo, robaría tu tiempo,
vendrías tu alma llamándolo “emprendimiento”.

Si yo fuera el diablo
(Señor, ¿me oyes?)
torcería tu don, tu visión entera.
(Si yo fuera el diablo)
tomaría tus vicios, tu fe sincera.
(Señor, ¿me oyes?)
torcería tu don, tu visión entera.
(Si yo fuera el diablo)
tomaría tus vicios, tu fe sincera.

Si yo fuera el diablo…
tú lo llamarías progreso.

Si yo fuera el diablo

[intro]
Midnight hums beneath the ribs, a pendulum of prayer
Silence tastes like iron, like the Lord forgot to care
I light one match for memory, another for deceit
The third I save for mercy, if it lives in me beneath

[verse 1]
Walls whisper psalms of plaster and bone
Each echo a sermon the dead have intoned
A chalice of dust where the wine should be
A choir of moths mouthing “set me free”
Faith is a fever dressed in gold leaf
Grace is a thief that sleeps with grief

[pre-chorus]
Come on, come on
Rise from the crypt of your doubt
Come on, come on
Breathe in the dark, breathe it out

[chorus]
Wrap the night around me, crown me in ache
Let my sins be the stars in the heaven they break
If suffering’s the sermon, then pain is the prayer
And hope is the ghost still kneeling there

[verse 2]
The heart is a metronome buried alive
Keeping time for the dead to survive
Ravens roost where the angels fell
Feathers of scripture, ink from hell
I saw my reflection in the virgin’s tears
A vision of God through the smoke of my fears

[bridge]
Gethsemane burns through cathedral glass
The chalice overflows with what cannot last
Every martyr meets their mirror at the gate
And calls the silence by its proper name, fate

[chorus 2]
Fold the dark around me, fold me in flame
If mercy remembers, it won’t be the same
I am the altar, the ash, and the lamb
And tortured hope says “I still am"

[reprise]
Midnight exhales the matchlight dies
The pendulum swings between our lies
And somewhere, in the black between
Love hums softly, half divine, half obscene

Litany for Those Left Living

Very little is ever just one thing...

--BEWARE--
Unearned Wisdom
-and-
Smiling Glad-Hands

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