So what if I leave you 
Still stuck in my head cause I need you
I hated the sequel I wonder if I didn’t call would I see you
So whyd she go and lie to me
I keep my head down I’m running from what’s inside of me 
And I can love you but honestly my anxiety 
I’m cutting wrists to avoid that there’s nothing of me

So, go
I don’t wanna be here I’m alone
Cut me hold the knife up to my throat
Twist it then you pull it from my bone
Puppet when ur putting on a show

I don’t wanna be here I’m alone
Cut me hold the knife up to my throat
Twist it then you pull it from my bone
Puppet when ur putting on a show

And I can give you everything you ask of me 
It’s not blasphemy 
You don’t have to leave
I’m a tragedy
It’s always one after the other, never after me

So, go
I don’t wanna be here I’m alone
Cut me hold the knife up to my throat
Twist it then you pull it from my bone
Puppet when ur putting on a show

And I can give you everything you ask of me 
It’s not blasphemy 
You don’t have to leave
I’m a tragedy
It’s always one after the other, never after me

So, go
Leave me in the bottom of a hole
Staring down a barrel with my soul at stake
I wanna fade away
I wanna die today
I tried yesterday

So, go
I don’t wanna be here I’m alone
Cut me hold the knife up to my throat
Twist it then you pull it from my bone
Puppet when ur putting on a show

So, Go (prod. jolst)

I can't breathe so I suffocate,
numb the pain like Novocain,
hear me out for the last time,
look to the stars its the same between you and I,

I haven't been the best friend, haven't been the best kid-
but I swear I changed.

Kids Forever ft. Strgurrl (prod. switch)

-NAVY-
i aint nothing
i aint nothing
do ur talking
i know u like it

u try to stop it
ur fuckin drugs which confinement are u hiding in, i cannot fuckin find it
-Hiraeth-
staring at the ceiling baby all i see is blood
u dont gotta call me now its nearly been a monf
u. aint gotta tell me that u luv me its a front
all my feelings are gone now u said u where done
i dont even wanna text you
i never thought id bean issue
"didnt mean to mistreat u"
my god have a reason

-NAVY-
but it wastes, wastes, wastes
been pullin on ur waist
im in space, space, space
aint nothin like it used to be
erased, reased, rased
im waiting on the day
putta 5 up to my head if u think u can run away
ima end it, end it, i hear voices in my basement

its hard to realize the sounds that fiddle in the distance
but you missed

-Hiraeth-
when i die would you let me grieve 
running out of skin 
nothing left of me
feel the marrow in my bone 
u gotta set me free
my god. 
my god would you let me breathe


-Sleepwater-
i wish u wouldent hurt me
the things u do desert me
so vacant for what concerns me
my bloods in ur vial turn me (into)
a dirty cheating scumbag
i know that i hate myself
i feel like a lost book that turned me down
i guess im just another hand me out

-NAVY-
im vacant, i stare blank, at the floor
theres nothing left, to mourn

-sleepwater-
im just not ur agony
you can lay me down, peacefully
I'm just, not ur agony


I Hear Screams In The Distance ft. hiraeth & sleepwater (prod. uforia)

VERSE 1

(epitome)

i solidify the thoughts inside my head
the thoughts that are telling me i’m better off dead
no matter what you say to me
6 feet deep is where i’ll be
as the light from the tunnel grows darker and darker
my mind grows farther and farther away
please stay
stay with me
don’t leave my body alone to decay

VERSE 2

(paperthinwalls)

this is the last time i hope you see me 
(hope you see me)
6 feet underneath i’m not breathing 
it’s too late to go back
i cant run to the past
you left me shattered like glass
knew this would never last
it doesn’t matter i’ll be dead in the morning
body lined with chalk yeah i’m never returning 
i’m writing all these songs yeah this is my warning 
never had a place yeah this doesn’t concern me
oh oh oh
i’m burning it’s ok
i’m learning (i’m learning)
i’m so alone
got nobody i feel like a ghost

BRIDGE

(epitome)

i’m so alone 
i’m so close
to letting go
of the life i use to know

VERSE 3 (shared)

(epitome)

p-p-p-pain is never ending 
i cant find the beginning
my minds at war
don’t know what i’m searching for
a sense of hope maybe?
but i can’t find that lately (lately)

(paperthinwalls)

and lately i’ve been lost in this dream
and no hope of ever escaping
and oh god yeah look what you made me
i’m sorry it’s these feelings that change me

OUTRO

(epitome)

i’m so sorry
please for give me
i cant change
i know i’ll stay the same

spotify <3

longing for death w/ paperthinwalls (metlast x luffy)

prod. me x @hiraethsry

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining
Baby, kiss me just to kiss me, not to take me home tomorrow
I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

And when I'm leaving, I'll pretend like I don't give a damn
But it's been four years, I just wanna hold your hand
It's been four years, don't know who I fucking am
Oh, oh
And when you're begging me to stay, I'll never listen
I guess it takes four years to know the difference
You knew me better than anyone and you hated me
So how the fuck am I supposed to love myself

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining

I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

YOUDONTREMEMBERMYNAME

COMMUNITY. Vol 2

saving my breath

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shiki xo - saving my breath (vishs)

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i know i’m always overthinking, love 
but what can be done?
i was sedated when you broke my trust
you say it’s my condition and- 
but i don’t give a fuck
these constant comparisons turn me to dust
so tell me all about him
do you laugh hard when around him?
do these shackles that i’m bound in make you think that i’m not enough? 
im pathetic
but you wouldn’t get it
that's tough
it’s AvPD but i blame it on luck

can’t take drugs cause anxiety kills me
go smoke spliffs with your friends 
envy fills me
i am sorry for how i am ugly
in your shadow i sulk
i’m nobody
i self isolate for days 
now i cant get out of bed without crying
draining all my veins out is the way i talk to the reaper without dying

i know i’m always overthinking, love 
but what can be done?
i was sedated when you broke my trust
you say it’s my condition and- 
but i don’t give a fuck
these constant comparisons turn me to dust
so tell me all about him
do you laugh hard when around him?
do these shackles that i’m bound in make you think that i’m not enough? 
im pathetic
but you wouldn’t get it
that's tough
it’s AvPD but i blame it on luck

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hope you enjoy, or something <3 :")
prod. @user-230494921 <3

𝘪 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘸, 
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘪𝘳𝘤𝘶𝘮𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘰𝘯𝘦'𝘴 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘳𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘷𝘢𝘯𝘵.
𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘪𝘧𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦, 
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦.

(2x)
down on all fours, like a dog speakin' prayers
if i miss a call, it was on purpose, i swear
yellow-tainted teeth biting down into my hair
if i'm meaning what i preach
would my god even care?

she said i'm "hella right"
everything i say past three is hella right
and the night time 
welcomes me with open arms to tight bind
bright lights; everybody trusts it
i don't trust it at all
i'm terrified right now
wish i could give you a call :(

i overthink and scrap everything
i'm trapped behind these bars
that you could never see
a majority of the time
i'm disgusted by the industry
but if it's okay with you
then it's okay with me aswell

as the essence surrounds me 
and corrupts my soul
what a blinding gaze
i wish i could break it's hold
as i'm marching through a land
that is unknownst to me
i've only seen it inside of my dreams

(2x)
down on all fours, like a dog speakin' prayers
if i miss a call, it was on purpose, i swear
yellow-tainted teeth biting down into my hair
if i'm meaning what i preach
would my god even care?

purple fingers
makes these feelings linger
been staring into empty space
for way too long
caught up on what is "right"
and what is "wrong"

i thought about her
again, last night
again (3x)
last night

these thoughts give me dopa- 
dopamine
as long as i believe they're real

it always comes back to this...

would my god even care [prod. 4lexf]

just a vent, very drunk rn 
shoutout my brother @jolst on the production



tell me baby does he write you songs? 
blood all on my pillow when i wake up shit is wrong
i been takin 30’s got me itchin i can’t stop 
every time i think i got a hit it start to flop
i wish that i never saw those numbers from the start 
try not to let it bug me but i can’t lie it hurt my heart
i spill my soul on the mic n go smoke a dart 
shoutout to big veins we just alike in that regard 

everybody write bout doin drugs, it’s ok
but u ain’t ever threw up in ur sleep it burn ur lungs
i been sippin lean for 4 days babe im havin fun, ay
feel my heart beatin in my chest i’m dying young
and words are powerful theyll kill u like a gun 
watch the shit u speak cus ur whole life it becomes
people love to talk their shit but watch em when i run
when i fly to USA im landin with a punch 

i got G.E.R.D
regurgitation ): 
might pop a 40
and float away and
can’t stand you phonies
so go away yea
got good friends round me
but they won’t stay, yea 
and i’m used to that 
always been the same 
since a small boy i been
always filled with hate 
but i love my momma 
and i love my dad :)
and i’m thankful daily
for the shit i have 

maybe life is okay
maybe it’s not that bad 
i got someone who loves me
can’t argue with that <3 
i still get so fucked up
til i can’t call a cab 
i been tryna love myself 
but i don’t love me back 
i still wake everyday 
with shit on my shoulders i’m a heavyweight
get away
from all the negative things i always say 
fill the page
with shit i would think but i would never say
care+ in my drink 
but i been tryna get in better shape 

i can’t even think yea 
baby i’m just sitting here recording with a drink yea 
shoutout to the gang 
that’s double L all on my krink yeah 
shoutout to the goat jolst 
can’t wait till we link yeah <3 (love u bro) 

n i still wear a hoodie 
even when it’s hot
pull it over my face
so u can’t see me rot
baby take your hood down
girl i’m self conscious
everybody talkin money $$$
don’t know what a job is 

i guess this is what they call 
a r- release 
i just love you all so much 
that i can’t even speak
i feel fuckin worthless
but you’re all helping me
this one for the soundcloud
ima go to sleep … 

(love u all bro i get a lil soppy when i am drunk sorry )

maybe its not that bad (jolst)

https://soundcloud.com/autumndropsdead
https://soundcloud.com/nate2timezz

lyrics:
livid..
why'd it get so tense?
tryna find the cause
just at what expense?

i feel my face is turning red
from the lack of having space
steady water i will tread
every step, i will retrace

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

forever stuck in an eclipse
but love the feeling of the dark
twist my head and let it spin
like the grinding in my heart

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

in motion, no i'm not the same
what i've chosen, was to leave the fray
so golden; but the sun betrayed
in search of yesterday

feelings fleeding fast
i've seen past the colors of this place
for what they truly say

i told my mind that night
save the pity
for every blemish on my chest confessed
that i am all but pretty

so listen here
this is all i have
let my stomach sear
it'll grow right back

but this'll be the one
could give a fuck bout if it's done

i feel my face is turning red
from the lack of having space
steady water i will tread
every step, i will retrace

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

forever stuck in an eclipse
but love the feeling of the dark
twist my head and let it spin
like the grinding in my heart

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

death is nearing tonight
give her my sight
into the tethered light

i feel my face is turning red
from the lack of having space
steady water i will tread
every step, i will retrace

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

forever stuck in an eclipse
but love the feeling of the dark
twist my head and let it spin
like the grinding in my heart

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

relapse; decay

autumndropsdead - relapse; decay (nate2timez)

<3 

tilting over like the pictures on your wall
i didnt wanna meet your mom and dad they didnt like me at all
somehow they liked me oh
down the line its you and me now that dont get along and
somethings arent always better than nothing
your love is like the ocean and i just wanna jump in
relationships and me they hardly ever work
im tryna keep my balance i just keep slipping first

so is it annoying i keep falling
no i dont wanna say goodbye
and it keeps slipping in my conscious
youre better off not being alive
oh im disgusted
i wanna end it all and watch the world turn to dust bitch
im tired of seeing everybody get what they want 
when i cant get what i need
im on the fucking edge of everything i just wanna leave

oh oh oh
so is it important to you cause god knows this shits important to me
and i lost every part of me trynna be what they want me to be
theres a war inside my head lately i just want peace
so is it annoying i keep falling cant stand on my two damn feet
i tried a thousand of times im at a thousand and one
i wanna blow my fucking brains but i dont own a gun
none of this is fun

so is it annoying i keep falling
no i dont wanna say goodbye
and it keeps slipping in my conscious
youre better off not being alive
oh im disgusted
i wanna end it all and watch the world turn to dust bitch
im tired of seeing everybody get what they want 
when i cant get what i need
im on the fucking edge of everything i just wanna leave

<3

disgusted with myself

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DISGUSTED WITH MYSELF [p. king theta]

producer. 🦇

Reaching out from the depths of Eau Claire, Wisconsin, 24 year old self-taught and produced artist Trechor Boy defies genres and pushes the boundaries of modern emo, electronic, and rap music through his incredibly unique and highly produced instrumentals, featuring raw and unfiltered lyrics that truly speak to the human condition. 

With humble beginnings in the EDM and Dubstep scene, Trechor Boy takes inspiration from artists such as Skrillex, Getter, and Rickyxsan, melding these influences in production with his sullen and visceral vocal performances. 

After the well received release of 'Femboy', featuring vocals from Erisu, Trechor Boy has returned with his debut 13 track album 'A Mortician's Guide to Decomposition', featuring artists such as Fran$e, SuiSai, and Nova Garden. Highlighted in this project are solemn confessions of a deeply troubled adolescent held up high for all to see by dark yet eloquently crafted instrumentals, dealing with topics such as addiction, depression, solitude, and death. 

Proving himself to be a lethal force ready to take over any scene with his experimentally bleak yet long-honed style, Trechor Boy continues to revolutionize and breathe new life into the musical ecosystem as we know it, and shows no sign of stopping.

Instagram @trechorboy
Twitter @trechorboy

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