updated playlist

prod @johnnyfriend
talking to people is hard and it's even harder when your anxiety is screaming at you to get the living fuck out of any social situation you're ever gonna be in, but sometimes it's worth stepping out of your comfort zone and finding people who could end up being life-long friends.

lyrics !! ~
spent years doin shit that i don't even like
and now i'm in an apartment, thinkin ill be fine
dropped out, fucked up, it's a horrible cycle
repetitively, it's like they're after me

and i don't even wanna be here
it's horrible, multiple times that i told you to leave
why the fuck do you not listen to me?
i'm tryin to help you

i don't wanna feed off the shit that you're telling me, sellin me
shit that i don't want mom to see, go back in time like i'm celebi
back to the years where my happiness carried me through my depression

i'm leavin impressions on people i don't even know, i gotta go
before it gets worse i don't want it to show
my insecurities they won't let me go

my brain is an awful place
i'm always scared, i don't ever wanna get replaced
it's on my mind constantly, running in circles
the constant anxiety's making me hurtful

and i don't even wanna be here
it's horrible, multiple times that i told you to leave
why the fuck do you not listen to me?
i'm tryin to help you

i don't wanna feed off the shit that you're telling me, sellin me
shit that i don't want mom to see, go back in time like i'm celebi
back to the years where my happiness carried me through my depression

so fuck off i don't like the way you talk to me
you talk shit all the time so it's constantly
not helping your point and not helping mine either
fight fire with fire and hope that you beat her

cycles !! ~ <johnnyfriend>

@blackwinterwells
@pincode8485
prod + mix wells
art by me!!!!!

gladesong w/ blackwinterwells & 8485

(update: after a long and hard decision, i have decided that it is not christmas)

THE CHRISTMAS SONG OF THE SUMMER

santa clause got me chrome hearts

lyrics;

(endie)
watching the rain turn to snow as the weather gets cold
know i look better than u when im wearing my coat
and anxiety attacks like its 2007 sitting on santas lap
and i know it wont get better than this so
honey just blow me a kiss <3

it hasn't felt like christmas in a minute
why doesn't it feel like christmas at all

sleigh bells inducing my trauma
last time i heard them i fell down the stairs
know i wont help with ur problems
cause i have some of my own 
they cant help but stare

(bixby)
watch how the snow falls
isnt it wonderful
santa clause got me chrome hearts
so sit back get comfortable
now i cant see the lights
and im tired of fights
take me back give me all of my time
cause its not christmas 
its not christmas

(endie)
it hasn't felt like christmas in a minute
why doesn't it feel like christmas at all
it hasn't felt like christmas in a minute
why doesn't it feel like christmas at all

tell me u hate me then tell me u love me
but the next day ur gonna switch
all i know
how i know
how i know 

(endie & bixby)
it hasn't felt like christmas in a minute
isnt it wonderful santa clause got me chrome hearts
it hasn't felt like christmas in a minute
isnt it wonderful
why doesn't it feel like christmas at all

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mmmmmmmmmmmm
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spotify

why doesn't it feel like christmas w/ bixby

compression is aids on this / used random instrumental off youtube

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Lyrics:
 
i be looking all stylish
she said her boyfriend’s bi and he tryna fuck
i don’t gotta contrive it
is it cause i break down when it’s piling up
feet crushed by a mallet
hit a brand new speed add it to my pallete
no talent
my nails need a new polish
i’ll show these motherfuckers how to find sauce in the rough
 
i found it stuck in my crib
you hit me online saying fuck promises
i wouldn’t pass that up said i never did
now i haven’t seen the sun in months
i can’t afford to give a fuck
as soon as i get out we’ll get it in
so i better fuck off with the small talk you can save the mileage
i poured sauce then it popped off and i made it out here
i’m all up in your mentions and i know you bout this
i’m all over your main thing and he knows about us
its gettin crowded for nerd like me
i need space rerouting they reserved my seat
got a new set of rules and they’re molding me
cause i’m over them now and they over me
 
i be looking all stylish
she said her boyfriend’s bi and he tryna fuck
i don’t gotta contrive it
is it cause i break down when it’s piling up
feet crushed by a mallet
hit a brand new speed add it to my pallete
no talent
my nails need a new polish
i’ll show these motherfuckers how to find sauce in the rough

#brakence #punk2 #sauce #getmoreplays

sauceintherough

upside down original

remix

prod me 
i hope u likey

(hook)
im rude 2 everyone
thats how i am
thats how ill stay :)
and im a prick because its fun
because i can
and thats ok
they only call me when they're gone
all turning dumb
all turning fade
so i hope you choke on your own tounge
and fucking die
just suffocate 
... im a pessimist

(verse)
and its hard 2 hide
so i hardly try
yes i wonder why
that i try 2 lie
about the way i feel
about the way i feel
about the way i feel
about the way i 

(bridge)
pretend 2 care at all
pretend 2 care at all
pretend 2 care at all
i dont care. at all.

(hook)
im rude 2 everyone
thats how i am
thats how ill stay :)
and im a prick because its fun
because i can
and thats ok
they only call me when they're gone
all turning dumb
all turning fade
so i hope you choke on your own tounge
and fucking die
just suffocate 
... im a pessimist

INSTRUMENTAL BREAK !!!!!!! OMG GUITARS!!!!!!!

(bridge)
pretend 2 care at all
pretend 2 care at all
pretend 2 care at all
i dont care. at all.

(hook)
im rude 2 everyone
thats how i am
thats how ill stay :)
and im a prick because its fun
because i can
and thats ok
they only call me when they're gone
all turning dumb
all turning fade
so i hope you choke on your own tounge
and fucking die
just suffocate 
... im a pessimist

pessimist

https://soundcloud.com/ericdoa2/sugar

lyrics:

Spending all my nights alone, waiting for you to call me
You're the only one I want by my side when I fall asleep
Tell me what I'm waiting for
Tell me what I'm waiting for
I know it's hard, but we need each other
Know it's hard, but we need each other

sugar remix (ericdoa+brockhampton)

be normal

@johnnascus
@wubz205
mixing by @blackwinterwells

art by @ cha0sbunny 
https://www.instagram.com/cha0sbunny/
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prod nomu art by nomu !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

https://open.spotify.com/track/631WXXGqKLBcTWGAQuhPFP?si=hNM-jM7_SMmAttogYs13Hg

updated playlist

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